It was 2 in the morning. Jenny was sitting in the twin's room and Elliot was sitting in Olivia's room while Mark talked to the cops about what happened.
Mark walked to the vending machine while the officer talked "The guy didn't survive"
Mark looked over at him "Was he drunk?"
"Yea, he was intoxicated, he ran the red light and he died instantly when he hit your wife's car cause he didn't have a seat belt on," The officer explained as Mark got three sodas.
"Our car?" Mark asked not caring whatsoever that the driver was dead since he killed his baby girl.
"It blew up" The officer answered "If your son didn't pull out your kids before we got there someone would have died"
"Which son?"
"Um…not the one with the cast but the other one" The cop answered as they walked back to the rooms.
Mark nodded "Zane"
"Yea, he kicked our officers so he they would let go of him so he could crawl back in and pull your wife out"
"Thanks" Mark said in a low voice as he shook hands with the officer.
"No problem, hope your family gets well soon," The officer said with a small nod before he left.
Mark opened the twin's room and handed Jenny a soda and sat down by them.
Jenny just looked at him watching the twins "How did it happen?"
"Huh?" Mark looked over at her.
"How did it happen?"
"It doesn't matter"
"Dad what happened?" Jenny pushed more.
"Drunk driver" Mark answered taking the Mike's hand.
"Bastard" Jenny said under her breath.
"Watch your mouth" Mark said giving her a look. Jenny just shrugged and took Matt's hand.
"How's mom?"
"I don't know, Elliot is with her I was going to go over there now. Why don't you go see how Zane is doing?"
"Is he still going to live with us?" Jenny asked getting up from the chair and opening her soda.
"I don't know sweetie," Mark answered giving Mike a kiss on the head. "Just so you know Zane pulled them out of the car before he past out"
"Oh" Jenny looked at him "I'm going to go check on him" She left the room feeling bad that she was mean to Zane over the time he lived with them.
Mark got off the chair and kissed both of the twins on the head and went to Olivia's room.
Elliot was sitting there and just looking at her. Mark sat down by him and handed him a soda. "Anything different?"
"No" Elliot answered opening the soda and taking sip "How did it happen?"
"Drunk driver. He died since he wasn't wearing seatbelt." Mark answered opening his own soda and taking a sip.
"You ok?" Elliot asked looking over at him.
Mark shrugged a little and played with his wedding ring "I don't know" He just kept looking at Olivia "She was pregnant"
Elliot's eyes got wide. "Did she…"
"Miscarriage" Mark answered knowing what Elliot was going to ask.
"I'm so sorry man," Elliot whispered patting him on the shoulder.
"It was a girl," Mark whispered as he took Olivia's hand and watched her.
Elliot looked at him and his heart broke knowing Olivia always wanted a girl and always teased Mark that he was only able to reproduce boys. "I'm going to go check on James" Elliot said getting up sensing Mark needed some privacy. Mark just nodded as Elliot left.
Mark kissed her hand and moved her hair out of her face "I need you liv, please wake up" He whispered kissing her hand again. "Please wake up"
Flashback"Time to make a baby, pants off Benson" Mark yelled out coming into their house. They were married for a couple of months and finally decided to have a baby. Mark stopped seeing Elliot was there "Didn't see you there Stabler"
Elliot started laughing hysterically seeing that Olivia turned an extremely red embarrassed face "Maybe I should go"
"No, its fine, don't mind Mark" Olivia said giving a look to her husband.
"Hey not my fault, you want the baby" Mark teased flopping down on the couch next Olivia. "Hi baby" he said giving her a kiss.
"Hi" She said smiling returning the kiss.
"Don't mind if I do" Mark teased and on purpose started making out with her.
"Mark!" Olivia yelled pushing him off.
Mark smiled and looked at Elliot "You know she liked that right?"
Elliot smirked and nodded. Olivia just rolled her eyes and smiled a little.
"Elliot can you go away so we can make a baby?" Mark asked grinning.
"Mark" Olivia warned giving him a look.
"I would make it myself but I sort of need you there" Mark said with a shrug.
Elliot laughed and got off the couch "I need to go anyway, enjoy baby making" He teased and went out of their house.
"Your mean" Olivia said looking at Mark.
"I want to have a baby with you c'mon" Mark said getting off the couch and taking her hand and pulling her to their bedroom.
"I'm kind of tired" Olivia whined smiling as Mark playfully pushed her on the bed.
"Make me a baby then rest," Mark teased leaning over her. She smiled and grabbed his tie and pulled it off. "Yay! Sex time," He teased undoing her buttons and kissing her neck.
Half an hour later both fell back on the bed naked and sweating.
"I think that did it" Olivia panted smiling running a hand down his sweaty chest.
"Oh my god, I really think we made a baby this time honey" Mark panted grinning wrapping his arm around her waist.
"What do you want a boy or girl?"
"Doesn't matter as long as it's healthy. You?" He asked moving her sweaty hair out of her face.
"I always wanted a girl but as long as it's healthy I'll take a boy" Olivia answered giving her husband a kiss.
"One more try? For insurance purposes?" Mark asked moving on top of her. Olivia smiled and wrapped her legs around his waist and kissed him.
End Flashback
Jenny walked into Zane's room and saw that he was hurt the most. She sat down by him and felt extremely bad that she said she hated him since he was the one that saved her brothers and mother.
Zane slowly started waking up "Fucking cars" he mumbled not even realizing Jenny was in the room since he his eyes were closed. "Fucking New York"
"How you feeling?" Jenny asked deciding to try and be nice to him.
Zane opened his eyes and saw her next to him. "I was just in a car crash I feel like shit"
"The doctor said you would be fine"
"That's just fucking great" Zane mumbled and closed his eyes again.
"You don't need to be mean" Jenny said somewhat annoyed how he was acting.
"Spare me the kindness would you?" Zane asked opening his eyes and looking over at him.
Jenny raised an eyebrow "What do you mean?"
"I know you and your brother hate me and that's fine, you don't need to be nice just cause I got hurt"
"Why do you think we hate you?"
"Cause I heard you tell your mom that you hate me and want me out of the house" Zane answered rolling his eyes "You don't need to lie and be nice to me, I'm used to being hated" Zane said looking up at the ceiling.
Jenny looked at him and noticed his eyes were getting watery. She smirked realizing he had blue eyes like Mark "You have blue eyes like your dad"
"Aren't you the genius in the family?" Zane teased rolling his eyes.
"Why are you used to being hated?"
"Are you a shrink or something?"
"I could be if you want" Jenny answered smiling. Zane just rolled his eyes and looked up at the ceiling. "I'm sorry James and I said we hated you, we were upset our parents waning to split and we were just looking for someone to blame"
"Look at the new kid, I know, but you don't need to be nice if you hate me, have some dignity jeez"
Jenny just smirked a little "Were you close with your mom?"
"Yea right up to the point she hit me for getting arrested, her hand and my face were always close"
Jenny just looked at him realizing he had Mark's sense of humor "She hated you?"
"Yup" Zane answered still staring up at the ceiling and then looked over at her "Did the cops find a pocket knife?"
"Oh, no, everything blew up with the car. Why?"
"No big deal, it was my grandfathers pocket knife and his grandfathers pocket knife it was just past on to the family, but someone had to lose it sooner or later right?" Zane said with a small smile even though his eyes were tearing up that he was the one that stopped the family tradition.
Jenny slightly nodded seeing the same sad eyes she sometimes saw in her own father like yesterday when she told him she hated him. She took a deep breath realizing she never apologized to him.
Elliot walked in to James's room and sat down by him. He watched him for a while and then noticed his cast was changed again and now was white. He looked at the cast by him that was pink and smiled recognizing Mark's handwriting and what he wrote.
James started moving a little and groaned. Elliot looked up at him. James opened his eyes and saw him.
"How you feeling?" Elliot asked looking at him.
"Ok. Where's my dad?" James asked quickly realizing the last words he said to Mark were 'I hate you'
"He's with your mom"
"Where's my dad? I need to see my dad" James started freaking out realizing he could have died and those were the words he left for his father "Get my dad, I need to see him"
Elliot looked at him and saw that he was freaking out. "Relax James, everything is going to be ok" He got off the chair and sat down by him.
"No, my dad, I need to see him, he thinks I hate him," James said extremely fast and started breathing hard.
Elliot hugged him. "It's going to be ok, calm down"
"No, I need him, go get him, I need my dad" James started crying and holding on to Elliot. He started breathing but couldn't catch full breaths. Elliot looked at him and saw he was shaking and sweating insanely.
"Oh my god" was all that came out of Elliot's mouth realizing James was having a panic attack. He let go of him and ran to Olivia's room "James needs you, hurry up"
Mark jumped off his seat and ran into James's room. He hugged him and held him as James cried and kept breathing hard.
"Calm down, calm down, I got you" Mark whispered rocking him back and forth to calm him down. Elliot just stood in the doorway making sure if James would calm down in case he had to call a nurse.
"I'm sorry, I'm so sorry dad" James choked out as he cried and slowly started to breath normally again. "I never meant what I said, I'm so sorry"
"Ssshhh, I know, its ok, calm down" Mark whispered stroking his hair. "It's ok"
James said nothing and kept crying as Mark held him. Elliot said nothing watching Mark hold his first-born. He went down the hall and went to the twin's room. He sat down by them and watched them for a while.
Mike started waking up and saw Elliot there. Elliot just smiled and waved. Mike smiled and waved and then looked over at Matt. "He's going to wake up soon"
"How do you know?" Elliot asked smirking.
"I feel he is in trouble and he is close to knowing that he can wake up" Mike answered and kept looking at his twin. Elliot just nodded. "C'mon Matt were here, just open your eyes" Mike whispered and kept looking at Matt. Elliot kept looking at Mike.
In a couple of seconds Matt opened his eyes and looked over at Mike. Mike smiled and nodded "Better?"
"Yea" Matt answered with a small nod. Elliot just grinned realizing it was a twin thing.
"How you guys feeling?" Elliot asked getting up and sitting on Mike's bed.
"I'm ok but" Mike said and looked over at Matt. Elliot followed the older twin's view.
"My head hurts" Matt answered.
"You guys want me to get you your dad?" Elliot asked looking from Matt to Mike. Both nodded. Elliot got up and went to James's room.
Mark was slowly putting James to bed and James was sleeping.
"He ok now?" Elliot whispered coming by Mark.
"Yea, he should be ok" Mark answered kissing him on the head.
"The twins are awake" Elliot said as he sat down by James.
Mark nodded and went out of the room and went to the twin's room.
"Daddy!" Mike yelled out holding his small arms. Mark smiled and hugged him and kissed him on the head and then hugged Matt and kissed him on the head.
"How you feeling?"
"My head hurts but Mike is ok" Matt answered hugging him.
"We'll get you something for that"
"Where's Jimmy?"
"He is sleeping." Mark answered and hugged Mike again.
"What about Jenny?" Mike asked hugging him.
"She is fine, you want me to get her for you?"
"Yea. Where's mommy?"
"Mommy is sleeping also" Mark answered as he stopped hugging him.
"Daddy?" Matt asked looking up at him.
"Yea?"
"Are you still mad at mommy?" Mike asked knowing what Matt was going to ask.
"No, I'm not mad at her"
"Are you going to live with us? Cause we miss you" Matt asked looking at him.
"We'll see guys, why don't you rest," Mark answered giving each a kiss on the head. The twins just nodded.
Mark left and went to Zane's room. Jenny was sleeping on the chair since it was almost 3 in the morning. Zane was asleep by now as well.
Mark didn't want to wake them up so he just left and closed the door behind him and then saw the doctor motioning to him. Mark got concerned and walked over.
"What's wrong?"
"We did an x-ray on your wife since she was supposed to wake up by now but we found out she has a concussion" The doctor said looking at Mark.
"Ok" Mark said sort of confused "What does that mean?"
"Sir, she is in a coma and we have no way to know when she will be awake"
Mark just looked at him and slightly nodded. Not wanting to believe Olivia was in a coma. "Thank you" Mark said almost in a whisper. The doctor nodded and walked away.
Mark went to James's room "Hey El, can you stay with the twins till they fall asleep cause Jenny is sleeping already and I don't want to wake her up?"
Elliot nodded and got off the chair. "What's wrong?" Elliot asked seeing Mark's pale face.
"Liv…Liv is in a coma," Mark answered still in shock. Elliot's mouth just dropped and he slightly nodded "Hey thanks for helping out tonight"
"Don't even worry about it" Elliot said patting him on the shoulder and he went the twin's room.
Mark went to Olivia's room and sat down by her and took her hand "C'mon honey please wake up" He whispered. "I'll wash all the dishes if you wake up" He whispered smiling "I'll make you breakfast every morning and I will make your coffee just the way you like it, dark and strong"
He kept looking at her and shook his head "God I have never asked you for anything and the last time I came to you was when I was 5 years old and I wanted my parents back but knew I couldn't have them. I know I never come to you when I need to but if your real please show me by making my wife better" He whispered looking up at the ceiling as tears filled his eyes and kept holding her hand "You take her away from me and you might as well take me cause there is no way I can live without her. I know that my kids never did anything to deserve to be without her so please make her wake up"
Mark put his head on her bed and kissed her hand "Please Olivia wake up" He whispered kissing her hand "I cant live without these hands" He touched her lips "I cant live without these lips" He touched her chest gently "I most importantly cant live without this amazing heart" his eyes started watering up.
"Olivia I know you're there but I don't know if you can hear me but I'll talk and you just listen baby. You can't leave me because I don't think I ever understood anything in my life. I never understood why my life was the way it was and the things that happened to me never made any sense. Only you make sense to me and you're the only thing I understand in my life. So you leave me or don't wake up I will still be as confused as I was before I met you." He was in tears by now and kept wiping them away.
"I'm the screw up who is supposed ruin the family, not you. You can't do this to me. I know that sounds selfish and I don't care, for once in my life I choose to be the bad guy and think of myself. I never seen you screw up in anything, I'm the screw up Olivia, not you. You never screwed up in anything and I cant go alone without you and keep screwing up and not have you there with me to yell at me for doing something dumb"
He looked up again "God she isn't done yelling at me so give her the chance to finish. Enough people in my life have let me down and you have taken away my parents which I think was completely unfair but I will forgive you as long as you give her back to me. I need her and she needs me. You took her mother away from her which was unfair and I promise I wont ask for anything else as long you let her come back to me. You took my unborn child and I hate you for not giving my wife the chance to see the beautiful girl she would have given birth to. Please be fair once and let me see my wife yell at me again"
He started crying and rested his head on Olivia's bed and kissed her hand and cried himself to sleep.
Mark felt someone touch his shoulder. He quickly looked up thinking it was Olivia but only found Elliot standing over him.
"Hey, what time is it?" Mark asked with sleepy eyes as he got his head off Olivia's bed. It was very sunny in her room and she was still in her coma.
"It's eleven" Elliot answered "The doctors said you can take the twins home because they didn't get hurt that much. I went to your house and brought some of the twins clothes if you want to change them from the hospital clothing"
"Ok. Thanks man. Can you take them and Jenny home?"
"Sure" Elliot nodded and left the room.
Mark looked at Olivia and kissed her head "You need to wake up now" He whispered kissing her forehead and went out the room to see James.
He went to James's room and sat down. James woke up and looked over at him. "Hey dad"
"Hey kiddo, how you feeling?" Mark asked taking his hand. James just shrugged.
"I want to go home"
"You will soon,"
"How's mom?"
"She…James she is in a coma" Mark answered finding it extremely hard to say it.
"Is she going to be ok?"
"I don't know" Mark answered honestly.
James said nothing and turned to the side. Mark said nothing and gave him a kiss on the head and went out of the room.
He went to the twins room were the nurse was giving them a lollipop.
"I want cherry," Mike argued looking at Matt.
"My head hurts" Matt said smiling as he ate his lollipop. Mike rolled his eyes and ate his grape lollipop.
"C'mon guys" Mark said smiling glad to see they were better. He took the clothes that Elliot brought and went by the twins. The nurse gave each of them an extra lollipop and left.
Mark changed their clothes and walked them out of the room. Holding each by the hand. Jenny and Elliot came out of Zane's room.
"Jenny!" The twins yelled in unison and hugged her around her legs. She kneeled down and hugged them both.
"Elliot is going to drive you guys home ok? I have my cell with me so if you need anything call me ok?" Mark said leading his kids out of the hospital. Jenny nodded as she carried Mike and Elliot carried Matt.
They put both of the twins in the back and buckled them up. Elliot got in the car and waited for Jenny.
"Dad?"
"Yea honey?" Mark asked stroking her hair.
"I'm sorry the way James and I treated you the other day" Jenny apologized looking at the ground.
Mark put his finger under her chin and made her look up at him "Don't worry about it"
"Ok, but I'm sorry, I love you dad," Jenny said hugging him.
Mark hugged her and gave her a kiss on the head "I love you too"
Mark went up to Zane's room and sat there until he woke up. Zane woke up around 12
"How you feeling?"
"Been better," Zane answered.
"The cop told me what you did, and I didn't get to see you last night so thanks" Mark said looking at his son he hardly knew.
"No big deal. How are your kids?"
"James is going to be ok, the twins went home and you I'm hoping your ok"
Zane looked at him and then looked out the window "The only reason your stuck with me is cause my mom passed away"
"I think there was a reason you showed up"
"Whatever" Zane said shrugging.
"Your not as much of a bad ass you think you are" Mark said smirking.
"And your not as much of a saint as you think you are" Zane said looking over at him. "You probably had a nice childhood and you had a nice life and then you got a nice family, the only reason I ruined it is because of my god damn parole"
"You think I had a nice childhood? Dude you are out of your mind if you think that's the case. You want to know something about me?"
"Yea, sure, whatever"
"I was adopted" Mark said with a small nod "I lost my parents at five cause my dad killed my mom and then killed himself. I got adopted and then my adopted parents died when I was 16. I got adopted again and they died in a car crash when I was 20. After that I finally lived on my own."
Zane looked over at him and just kept looking at him.
"So if my childhood was good then yours was perfect," Mark said smiling as he got off the chair.
"How's your wife?"
"She had a miscarriage and she is in a coma so I don't know" Mark answered honestly and went out the room.
He went to the Olivia's room and sat down by her and looked at her. "Where are you when I need you?"
He took a deep breath and looked up at the ceiling again "Ok God, I'm back. If you want to punish me then punish me physically not emotionally. I lost everyone and I can't lose her. I think I do some good in this world that I do deserve my wife. Everyone in my life has given up on me except for her. She is always there for me and she never judged me about where I come from so if you want to be fair give her back to me. God don't give up on me like you let everyone in my life do. If you were going to let me meet her then why are you trying to take her away from me."
He looked back at Olivia and kissed her hand "Honey even if you want to divorce me then do it, just don't give up on me. I love you and I'll there for you even if I'm not your husband I will always love you. I love you more then I could possibly love anyone. Please wake up, if not for me then for our kids."
Mark kept looking at her and held her hand and kissed it. All of a sudden he felt her hand move. He looked up and saw her slowly open her eyes. He looked up at the ceiling and mouthed 'Thank you'
"Mark?" Olivia whispered looking over at him.
"Yea" He whispered getting up and sitting next to her.
"What happened?"
"You were in a car accident"
"Oh my god, are the kids ok?" Olivia asked quickly remembering.
"They are fine" Mark answered kissing her on the head. He lightly touched her stomach and looked at her with his eyes already watering up.
Olivia looked at him and figured out he knew "You found out?"
Mark nodded slightly "It was a girl" he whispered as tears filled his eyes.
"What do you mean 'was'?" Olivia asked as tears started filling her eyes "No, it is a girl, not was, it is"
"I'm sorry honey, we lost it"
"No" Olivia said shaking her head as tears rolled down her cheek "No, no"
"I'm sorry" Mark whispered wiping her eyes "I'm so sorry"
"No!" Olivia yelled "I don't believe you, your lying!" She yelled crying and pushed him "I hate you! I hate you so much!" She yelled and started to hit him on the chest "I hate you Mark, get away!" She kept pounding on his chest with her fists as she cried.
"Calm down" Mark whispered as tears rolled down his cheek and he tried to hug her.
"I hate you, go away!" She pushed him again and cried hysterically. She went to hit him again but he grabbed her wrist as she swung and he wrapped it around his neck.
"Ssshhh" He made her hug him as she cried. She tried to push him away again but he held on tighter until she gave up and hugged him and kept crying.
"I hate you that you left me for your work," Olivia choked out crying hysterically.
"I hate myself too," Mark whispered stroking her hair as tears ran down his cheek. "I'm so sorry"
"Why us?" Olivia whispered slowly starting to calm down and just held on to him.
"I have been trying to figure that out all night"
"Mark you can't divorce me, not now. I need you so much honey," Olivia whispered crying as she buried her face into his chest.
"That is the best news I heard all day," He whispered stroking her hair. "I love you so much Olivia Benson"
"I love you too Mark Anderson" Olivia whispered hugging him tighter.
"I have something for you" Mark whispered as he wiped his eyes. He put his hand in his pocket and got off the bed and kneeled down on one knee in front of her.
"What are you doing?" Olivia asked still holding his hand.
"Olivia Benson will you marry me again?" Mark asked smiling taking out a ring from his pocket and holding it out to her.
Tears rolled down her cheeks and she smiled a little "Of course I will"
Mark smirked and got off the ground and gave her a hug and kissed her "I love you so much" he whispered as he put the ring on her finger and kissed her hand.
Olivia hugged him and just held him feeling comfort from her husband "Mark I hate this, I wanted a girl so bad"
"I know sweetheart, I know," He whispered stroking her hair and kissing her on the head. Wanting so badly to take away her pain but just not knowing how. Wanting to a take her whole burden and put it on him but not being able to.
Mark just held her as she cried in his chest again. Hoping that she wouldn't let this tear her apart. Hoping she would let it go long enough for them to renew their vows. Just hoping even though he knew this was one thing they needed to get over together and something that would take time for them realize that they just lost a child.