I just heard somewhere that "Doomsday" is Billie's last episode and she's leaving as confirmed by BBC…I don't know if this is true or not, but I was feeling kinda moody and this fic just blossomed…I watched the Impossible Planet and The Satan Pit, and I just think that line will come into play later…gosh…everyone on Doctor Who keeps leaving…woe…
Disclaimer: I own nothing. If I did, Billie wouldn't be leaving…
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Forever on a Speedway to a Battle
Pipkat
She felt forgotten. Dismissed. She wasn't a damsel anymore, and since he could never save himself he needed another. Another blonde, Madame de Pompadour. She wondered if he had a bias or something.
Sarah-Jane said he was worth the heartache, she said he was worth the monsters, but was he worth herself? Her Rose-ness, that was struggling valiantly to remain. Because try as she might, the monsters, the angst, were easy, but fighting the Doctor was hard. Really hard.
She wasn't jealous, just nervous. The cracks in her happy travels with him were showing, how transient she was in the "Doctor's Traveling Circus." But she would stay for now, this unhappiness buried in her mind, amidst a golden glow, because life with him was so much bigger than all that…stuff.
She came here for them, Time and the Doctor, but it would be the Doctor and not Time (running, running, running…out) that drove her away.
No. She wouldn't be bullied out for anything other than her own reasons. She was her own person, no matter how much hand holding had changed that, and would never leave until the "time-when-all-things-have-to-end-time" came.
(He had taught her that…from before…just the thought of leather left her nostalgia like her ol' Gran.)
At one point, a lot of points actually, she thought she would stay with him forever.
(He, the leather clad one, had ripped away that illusion too. But didn't he tell her, on the day they met so long ago, holding her hand…)
When traveling with the Doctor, though, forever came a whole lot faster.
Thing was, she didn't want to leave; she just knew that for all her running, hopping, promising, hoping, pleading, she wouldn't stay with him long enough.
She didn't have lifetimes.
(Okay, you're probably wondering why she's changing her mind so much, arguing with herself.)
Here's the snitch in her grand plan of "Forever-With-the-Doctor"- she had it from the Devil himself, why she wasn't going to be able to follow him nearly as long as she would like to.
See, the thing is, no matter how he denies it, she going to die in battle.
See the Doctor really only saves something once.
He saved her soul by asking her to come along with him, saves her one time in different times, but this time she knows.
Rose Tyler, Time Lord's companion, the little lost girl, will die in battle.
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I'm so sad after writing this. I can't believe Billie's leaving…review to make me happy again….