As I read Xians Suck's note, my heart cries out,
"How could this have happened?
How could Xians Suck try to kill herself?"
Now I pray to God Almighty and beseech Him.
"Please do not let Xians Suck die,
Please do not have let her suicide attempt be successful!"
And I feel a few tears in my eyes for I have not done enough,
I tried my best to reach out to him but failed,
Xians Sucks was but a lost sheep that tried but failed to find his Shepard.
And now a sadness lays upon my soul but also a hope,
A hope that Xians Suck survived.
A/N. Today Xians Suck has left two notes saying she has killed herself. One she posted as a poem and also put on her profile and one in his profile confirming that he has in fact took 8 prescription sleeping pills. I've learned now she has died of heart failure. She was very ill and hurt, even before she came here on She says in her poem that she lost someone she loved, but couldn't find God. Please pray to God, that she found Him.