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Chapter 12-What Hurts the Most

She got up from her chair and she walked towards the door and she could have sworn she heard something it had to be from Nathan was he awake?

"Nathan?" she said quietly

She heard nothing…it must have just been her imagination. She turned the door knob as slowly and quietly as she could.

"I Love You Nathan" she said tears dwelling in her eyes as she walked out of room 243. She walked down the hall tears streaming, heart thumping, head aching, and weak.

She wants so much for him to just wake up so she can tell him the truth, tell him what she had told him in her dream. She left the hospital without a word to anyone. She took a walk and ended up on the roof top of Nathan, Brooke, and Tim's Hide out, it was an old abandon house from the 1700's. Nathan had taken her there once and a while, just to hang out so they could get some privacy.

She laid on her back and looked up at the sky she always counted on the weather to do what she's feeling if she's happy it's bright and sunny, and when she's angry it's cloudy and dark, she was sad right now and she was crying on the inside why wasn't it raining? The sky was as clear as daylight and it was sunshine all around. She let a tear fall from her eye and that's all it took, it started raining with the sun as bright as it had been a minute ago, it was raining down on her she didn't care she just laid there crying.

I can take the rain
On the roof of this empty house
That don't bother me
I can take a few tears now and then
And I just let 'em out
I'm not afraid to cry every once in a while
Even though, goin' on with you gone, still upsets me
There are days every now and again
I pretend I'm okay
But that's not what gets me

Meanwhile at the hospital hours later Lucas had finally woken up. He looked up from his seat and didn't see Haley anywhere he went to the front desk and asked if he could visit Nathan. The nurse had told him what room he was in, and that he was only to have immediate family in there at first.

Lucas roamed the halls thinking where Haley could be, considering she wasn't there in the hospital. He walked into Nathan's room where Nathan was sleeping. He went over and sat in the chair next to his bed, this was the first time he had seen Nathan since he had word of the accident. Nathan was coming from Lucas' house to see Haley. Lucas had finally talked some sense into the man that he just needed to talk to her.

Lucas was sitting there talking to Nathan even though he was sleeping, when he felt something poking his behind, it was in the seat. He got up and looked down it was a hair clip; it was Haley's hair clip. Haley had gone to see Nathan and must have left afterwards. He just wanted Nathan to wake up so maybe everything could go back to the way they were, not when Nathan Haley weren't talking, but when they were all happy.

"Nathan if you can hear me…please I really just want you to come back to us." He took a deep breathe "Haley needs you Nate, weather you want to realize it or not, you're both a mess" Lucas looked at his brother with sympathy "you know what I said the other night just remember true love will always find a way back, how do you think me n Brooke ended up together again?" Lucas stood up "well brother I'm gonna go tell everyone else that you can have visitors so I'll come back later"

What hurts the most
Was being so close
And havin' so much to say
And watchin' you walk away
And never knowin'
What could've been
And not seein' that lovin' you
Is what I was tryin' to do

Haley could feel her cell phone vibrating she knew it was only Lucas. She knew what he was going to say, he was to tell her she needed to come back to the hospital and see everyone and talk to them. She wasn't in the mood to hear everyone talk about how sorry they are for her and the Scott family to be going through all of this.

Haley could only imagine the worst things to happen. She figured the worst thing that could happen right now would be, for Nathan to never wake up. She could only imagine because she didn't stay long enough to be able to hear what the doctor would say about Nathan and his condition. All she cared about was whether she would be able to live with the fact that it was her fault everyone was in that situation in the first place.

It's hard to deal with the pain
Of losin' you everywhere I go
But I'm doin' it
It's hard to force that smile
When I see our old friends and I'm alone
Still harder gettin' up, gettin' dressed, livin' with this regret
But I know if I could do it over
I would trade, give away
All the words that I saved in my heart
That I left unspoken

Lucas went back in the waiting room they were still sleeping so he went and got a quick bite to eat down in the cafeteria. When he went back Karen was awake he let her know that Nathan was allowed to have visitors and that she could go see him.

Lucas tried Haley's phone again, no answer. He knew she didn't want to talk to him or anybody for that matter. He still wanted her to be there, he still wanted to talk to her. He knew that just him talking to her would make her feel a little better, not completely but a little bit. Even if she didn't want to talk to him he needed to talk to her. Haley and Lucas used to be each others rocks, when one was down or in deep need for some comfort they would be there for each other. Ever since Nathan, Haley had weakened in that area of expertise but that didn't mean Lucas didn't need her.

Lucas saw a doctor coming towards him and he just stared at him. He wasn't sure what to do; he knew he wouldn't tell him anything unless Karen was there.

"Lucas where is your mom" the doctor asked it was such a small town there was no need for formalities

"She's in with Nathan"

"Ok alright…when she gets back have the nurse call me"

"Does that mean you have news about Nathan?" Lucas asked

The doctor nodded yes

"Tell me Dr. Marten is it good news or bad news?" Lucas asked

"Depends on what your consider good or bad" Dr. Marten said walking away

Lucas took a deep breathe and called Haley again…still no answer he looked out the window and saw the rain was starting to clear up.

What hurts the most
Was being so close
And havin' so much to say
And watchin' you walk away
And never knowin'
What could've been
And not seein' that lovin' you
Is what I was tryin' to do

Lucas went into Nathan's room to let Karen know that the doctor's got the news about Nathan. Karen didn't waste any time going to the nurses desk to ask for Dr.Marten. After the nurse paged Dr. Marten and Karen and Lucas waited about 10 minutes for the doctor to arrive he was able to speak with Karen and Lucas.

"Dr. Marten you have news about Nathan?" Karen asked

"Yes, um would you like to go somewhere" Dr. Marten said leading Karen towards his office

"I just want to know about Nathan"

"Well I'm sure you already know he's in a coma, but he's going to be fine he's very healthy and very strong. It's up to him when he wakes up…you know the drill, he had a slight concussion and he injured his leg but he should be fine" Dr. Marten said standing behind his desk. "You know that he hears you Karen I think he just needs the right person to hear him" Dr. Marten said knowing about all of the drama in Tree Hill.

"Thank you doctor, will he be alright?" Karen asked "I mena his leg will he still be able to play basketball?"

"Yes he should be fine with a little physical therapy" he replied

Karen nodded and walked out of Dr. Marten's office. Lucas was standing right by the door wanting to know what was happening with his brother.

"Is he gonna be okay?" Lucas asked

"Yeah, he's in a coma and it he had a slight concussion and his leg is injured but he'll still be able to play."

"I knew it" Lucas said "that's great…I mean that he can still play" Lucas said correcting himself. Pulled his cell out to call a few people letting them know he's okay.

"We all knew it Lucas" Karen said

"I'm gonna call Haley…not that she'll answer but she should know"

"Okay I'm going to go get a bite to eat."

"Okay" Lucas said dialing Haley's number

Ring…Ring…Ring…Ri-

"Hello"

"Haley?" Lucas said shocked he didn't get her voicemail

"Lucas?"

"Haley I need you to come to the hospital"

"Why?" Haley asked sourly

"We have news about Nathan"

"Is he going to be okay?" Haley asked

"Yeah he's gonna be fine but I want to talk to you"

"About what?" Haley asked curiously

"About the last couple of months" Lucas said stubbornly

"Lucas there is nothing to talk about but I'm coming down there to see Nathan but I don't want to talk to anybody."

"That's fine just get over here" Lucas said before hanging up the phone

Haley ran right over to the hospital where she had been minutes before she disappeared. Lucas saw her and was very surprised to see what was in front of him.

"Haley you're soaked" Lucas said touching Haley's arm

"I know"

"What where you playing in the rain or something?" Lucas asked trying to be funny

"No…just laying in it" Haley said not wanting to laugh "What about Nathan?"

"He's in a coma and he had a concussion n a leg problem but he should be fine." Lucas said stating the obvious

"Is there anything else?"

"If you talk to him he could wake up" Lucas tried getting straight to the point

"I already did that"

"I know if at first you don't succeed try and try again, right?" Lucas said repeating Haley's words

"Not this time Lucas"

"Just talk to him" Lucas said

"I'll try but it's not going to do anything" Haley said walking to Nathan's room

"Haley…"Lucas said stopping her

"Yeah"

"I'll go get you a towel"

"Thanks Lucas" Haley said smiling a little

Haley walked straight to Nathan's room. She walked in and sat in the chair next to his bed. She took a hold of his hand and started to cry again.

"I don't know what to say I've already spoken. All I can say is, I'm sorry and I love you" Haley laid her head on top of his hand "I love you Nathan so much" she said through tears.

Not seein' that lovin' you
That's what I was trying to do
Oooo, Oooo, Oooo –

Lucas walked in the room and froze at the door.

"Nathan." Lucas said to the body staring down at the girl that once meant everything to him.