Who I am Hate Who I've Been
By: Painted Angel Wings
Section: Inuyasha
Type: AU, On-going
Couple: Inuyasha x Kagome
Rating: T (Rating may change)
A:N: Hey again! Its Angel wings again, back for the second chapter! Yay! –confetti-
I know, I'm horrible at updating. Hey, what can I say, I'm slow at ideas. For new stories, no problem! But with new chapters….
Anway… on with the story
Song playing: 'Breathe' by: Michelle Branch
Chapter 1
Kagome slipped her sizzling egg omelet in to her bento lunchbox and swiftly wiped the glistening sweat off of her forehead, smiling to herself in self satisfaction and triumphant.
She rolled her sky blue uniform sleeve half way up her petite arm, and checked her pink watch that was strapped firmly on her slender wrist.
Hmm… I have about five minutes till I'm supposed to leave… maybe I should check up on Sota-kun….
Kagome's seven year old little brother Sota, was a rather lazy boy who never wanted to anything productive in Kagome's opinion. And she never considered her brother's hobbies of playing video games, watching X-men on TV, and prank calling the neighbors as "productive" .
"SOTA!" Kagome poked her raven head outside the kitchen door to get a good view of Sota, who was putting on his dirty red sneakers at the front door. "Heading off to school?"
"Yeah… you don't havta to yell, Sis." Sota grumbled bitterly, strapping on his blue backpack and tapping the toes of his shoes firmly on the glossy wooden floor.
"Well I have to most of the time because you hardly ever answer, moron!" Kagome snapped in annoyance as she placed her hands on her hips, brown eyes narrowed at her sibling. "Did you finish your homework last night?"
Sota gave a slight shrug of his shoulders as he opened the front door, the cool, early spring breeze blowing invisibly inside.
"Why do you care? You're not my mom after all."
Kagome twitched in offense, and opened her mouth to put the annoying brat back in his place. However, before a word could even leave her lips, Sota slammed the door, leaving Kagome more annoyed than ever.
"That little…." Kagome snarled to herself, stomping back to the kitchen, her fists clenched tight, ready to sock the next living person who would dare to give her the slightest bit of crap.
"I SWEAR I'M GONNA KILL HIM!" Kagome slammed her bento box lunch shut, oblivious to the new crack just formed around the clear plastic clasp.
Quickly slipping on her brown loafers, and grabbing her overly organized bag, Kagome slipped out the door, running for the school as fast as her weak legs could take her.
Why is healways such a brat! Kagome thought bitterly, ignoring the other people around her, who glared at her as she ran around them. I mean, after all I do for him! He brushes it off like I was a spider on his shoulder!
"Maybe because you're always trying to be his mother… even though you both know you aren't?"
An internal voice seemed to whisper very softly into her ear, its words piercing and stabbing into the very depths of her heart.
Kagome looked down, focusing on the blur of her shoes.
I just want to be there for him… since no one else is…
Kagome's father died a long time ago, without making an emotional scar on her heart, since she recalled very little about him. All she remembered was that he taught her how to paint, and that they got lost in the woods together one summer evening.
Her mother was a very hard working woman, and was a full time travel agent, so Kagome and Sota rarely saw her. She only came home once every two weeks.
Feeling that Sota needed to be looked after (especially at a young age, which Kagome believed to be a very impressionable age), Kagome self-appointed herself as the head of the house, making sure everything was orderly, under control, and nothing went awry.
But sometimes…there were some moments… that even a self-disciplined person like Kagome lost all faith and hope.
She always told herself that it was all for Sota… but what of she was the one who was truly lonely and not Sota?
If she wasn't lonely, then why was she always crying into her pillow every night? Why was she always snapping at people… hurting people… and giving the people around her the most horrible impression you could make?
Kagome shook her head stubbornly as she felt hot sweat trickle down the side of her right cheek.
I have to stop thinking like that… How can I have time to be lonely? I'm not even lonely anyway. So it's a waste of time to be thinking that. Besides….I…..
She pounded her feet even harder into the ivory cement, as the empowering view of her school finally loomed at a close distance.
…I have too many responsibilities to worry about other people…and myself.
Inuyasha slumped lazilyagainst the aging oak tree, located right next to the left side of the ivory stairway, leading into the not-so-grand public school.
Damn those bastards and their new policy… Inuyasha thought darkly, silently gritting his rather sharp teeth, amber eyes ablaze. Just because I'm late…. He angrily took out his plastic red lighter and carefully lit the lone cigarette hanging out of the corner of his mouth. Now I'm gonna be bored as hell for the next four next hours... dammit.
"NOOOO! I'M SO LATE!" Inuyasha raised his eyebrow in confusion as a girl's, high pitched wail echoed from down the long street.
Why does she sound so worked up? Its just school after all…
He cocked his white head slightly as the girl ran down the street, her raven hair wildly flying behind her, and her brown eyes fixed ahead; just getting to the school was her only goal obviously.
Inuyasha's mouth formed a small smirk, holding his cigarette between his dog like teeth as he watched the girl run past him a million miles an hour, then struggled with all of her might to get the school door open.
"Its not gonna open, genius!" Inuyasha called out rather rudely to her, quickly casting away the burnt out cigarette, not wanting to give this complete stranger a bad impression of him. He knew it wasn't a great idea to leave bad impressions on people, usually because it comes back to you later when your new enemies bite you in the ass.
The strangerwhirled around so sharply, Inuyasha jumped slightly; this was unoticed luckily. Her eyes werefilled with an angry fire towards Inuyasha.
"How rude! If you're going to tell me something, please at least have the courtesy of not calling me names!" Kagome yelled, fists clenched in front of her face.
Inuyasha just gave her a cocky half smile, head still tilted to the right. "I bet you anything that being called 'Genius', isn't exactly rude." He gave a slight shrug of his shoulders, hoping to strike some guilt into the stranger's heart. "Besides, isn't 'Jerk' just as rude?"
The girl let out something that was very similar to aunpleasent snarl.
"I was just trying to save you some trouble for yourself." Inuyasha shoved his hands deep inside his pockets as the girl continued to stare skeptically, brown eyes narrowed in tiny little stilts. "The school just established some crappy policy that if you're late… you're locked out till lunch."
The girl's jaw dropped and her narrowed eyes returned to their normal huge size.
"Oh no….." She pressed her nose against the glass of the door, her full lips slowly forming into a childish put that Inuyasha was having a hard time resisting. "I'll miss the first four classes!"
Suddenly, to Inuyasha's surprise, she started to harshly bang her head against the clear glass door window, making deep, yet very loud bangs that sounded pretty painful.
"MORON!" Inuyasha ran up the steps and lightly hit the stranger across the head. "Don't beat yourself up just because you're stuck out here!"
Whats with this girl? Shes about as weird as my asshole boss!
The girl let out a dramatic sigh and slumped against the door even more, head hung low.
"But…. This… hasn't happened to me before…"
Inuyasha sighed and put his face in one head in exasperation.
I really wouldn't be complaining. I've been through a lot more crap than you have. I can already tell since your whining your rains about just by being locked out of school.
"Since we're gonna be stuck out here…" The girl's voice quickly snapped Inuyasha back to reality, causing his small white dog ears to twitch, "I guess I better introduce myself."
She turned around, and softly lifted her deep brown eyes to look into his.
"My name is Kagome Higurashi…"
The rest of her introduction was left unheard by the hanyou, for he was lost inside her shining eyes…. And he couldn't pull himself out of the spell Kagome dind't even know that she was casting.
A:N: Gah! SUCKY ENDING! But I wanted to hurry up and finish it since it's almost midnight and I'm tired… --.—
I'm sorry if this chapter sucked, but I had to post SOMETHING. Heh. Try not to be to harsh in the reviews. (Except Long Forgotten Howl… gimme your best shot,honey. -.-)
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Song playing: 'The Tension and the Terror' by: Straylight Run