The Secrets Of The Heart

As Lily ran up to the Gryffindor tower her thoughts were divided between Fifi and Sirius, and James. "Why did Fifi like him? Doesn't he like her back? I mean, its so obvious he does – grr they are hopeless," and "Why do I have to like James? I mean where is the justice in that? He jokes about liking me, but he does actually. Does he? Oh, I wish he did," occupied her till she made it to their door. Suddenly all selfish thoughts swooped away as she heard Fifi still crying from her room.

"Honey, are you okay?" Lily questioned her. Fifi instantly sat up as she heard her friend, she didn't want to be caught crying over a boy, let alone a boy like Sirius – I mean what would her friends think if they knew she cried because her best guy friend didn't like her.

"Yeah, I'm fine. I just don't hold that punch well," she said with a tense laugh trying to lighten the mood.

"I know that laugh. What's wrong?" Lily cheeped.

"Nothing," Fifi replied rather quickly. Too quickly.

"Listen. If you tell me I'll," and than she got nervous and swallowed her through.

"You'll what?" Fifi questioned always up for a good intrigue.

"I'll tell you something I have never told ANYONE," she said with a whisper.

Fifi looked at her for a second before replying with an "I guess so. You want me to go first?"

"Sure," Lily responded getting nervous not able to believe she was going to tell anyone about her secret that she had kept her own since third year.

"I like Sirius," Fifi cheeped "and he doesn't like me back."

"Aww. Well I . . ."she started, took a deep breath and let it out "I like James."

"WHAT?" Fifi yelled. I think its important to let you know that when Fifi screamed you could hear it from all over the castle – her friends heard it from down by the lake and knew it was her. They decided Lily might need help. Fifi angry could be scary some times.

"Shhh. It's a secret," Lily told her " I've liked him since 3rd year."

"Than why did you never say 'yes' to go out with him," Fifi questioned looking disbelieving.

"He was always kidding," Lily replied with a sorrow-filled look.

"It seems our close foursome keeps many secrets," Fifi replied with a laugh. It only took one look from Lily to Fifi until the girls erupted into a fit of giggles. It was at this point when Margo, Gabi, Remus, Peter, James, and Sirius burst into the room. The sight of two girls rolling around on the ground laughing their brains out with Kleenex boxes, dirty Kleenex's, chocolate wrappers and the forgotten scone was clearly not what was expected. All six of them let out a confused "What?" before they finally began laughing at the sight. After hours spent in that room together full of laughing and knowing looks between Lily and Fifi, James commented on their entrance.

"It's not every day you run into a room expecting to stop a fight and find two of your best friends rolling on the ground with laughter," he said suppressing a laugh.

"That is most defiantly a true statement," Margo replied giggling.

"What were you guys laughing about anyways?" Gabi asked. It's amazing how quickly a mood can change sometimes isn't it. In the second it took Gabi to ask that question both Lily and Fifi's faces turned from the joyful expression to a rather pained look. They looked back and forth between each other trying decide what to say and who should say it. It is needless to mention the other friends discomfort – they knew a secret was being kept but didn't exactly know how to pry it out of the girls.

Finally Fifi spoke up "Well," she began a little uncertain as to what she was actually going to say "we had been fighting and than we," not knowing what to say.

"We remembered a past fight that ended in," looking around the room Lily decided on what to say "chocolate all over our faces," she ended with a blush. Fifi looked at her with a look that said, I could have come up with something better than that.

"Right …" Peter spoke up.

"Anyways," Fifi replied trying to get the attention off her and Lily and their little secret club "let's go eat something … I haven't eaten all day." The friends all got up to leave and once they were in the common room Gabi told them "Sorry you two, I didn't mean to invade your privacy. You can tell us," she said with a smile looking at all their friends "when your ready," the friends all nodded in agreement. And Lily and Fifi were a little upset their little lie was so obviously a little lie.

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"What is the deal with us?" Sirius questioned her after dragging Fifi into an empty classroom. It had been several weeks since the "party" and neither one of them had mentioned it.

"What?" she replied, " I have no idea what you're talking about," blushing because she new exactly what he meant.

"You're actually going to make me say it aren't you," he replied getting angry. "Well, we never and I mean never hang out just the two of us like we have since the beginning of school. You don't tell me anything anymore. I have no idea what's going on in your head. I don't know how you feel. Oh, and maybe that little thing about how we kissed and you haven't bothered saying anything," he snarled the last bit because truly he was very hurt by it all.

Fifi blushed knowing that it was all true. But she needed to keep her composure; she couldn't tell him that she was in love with him. "I didn't want me kissing you when I was drunk on punch you spiked to ruin our friendship." It was dark in that empty room and she couldn't see how sad that made him. " We never talk anymore and that's incredibly sad, but its not all my fault," she continued, "you never seek me out to talk to me."

"I can't believe this," was all Sirius got to say before they heard someone opening the door. They both rushed into the closet of the room so they wouldn't be seen. Although they seemed to not agree on anything anymore both of their jaws dropped when they saw who exactly it was that had come into that empty room. Together. To kiss. The couple made out for a good long time before speaking.

" God, your amazing," Gabi whispered in his ear.

"Not as amazing as you," Remus replied to her. And they were at it again. In about twice as long as the original time they figured they should leave.

"I don't want to go though Remie," Gabi baby talked to him.

"Me either," he replied kissing her nose, "I love you." Fifi and Sirius forgot for the next few moments that they were fighting with each other. They turned their heads unable to believe it.

"I love you too," Gabi replied to him.

"Love? Love?" Fifi mouthed to Sirius. He responded the same way. Once the couple had gone she turned on him "did you have any idea?"

"I knew he liked her – but that? No," he replied.

"Same here. Dang. I wonder why they haven't told us," she thought aloud. It was at that moment that they remembered they were fighting. "I have to go," she whispered. And with that he watched as she walked away from him. He knew many new things, not the things he had planned on finding out though. He frowned and walked back to the common room.

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