Author's Note: Sorry about the minor typo last chapter, Bella lives with Henry not Troy. It's fixed now, thanks for noticing me.
Disclaimer: Twilight and its wonderful characters do not belong to me.
Confrontations
The next morning,
I dreaded going to school this morning, I didn't want to face him. I reminded myself that I had to live for me and not let anyone get in the way of that. I pulled my hair up into a simple bun before heading out the door. I got in the car and drove at the speed limit to school. The parking lot was already filled with cars, I found a parking space and pulled my car into it. I turned off the engine and my door opened. I looked over to see Troy holding open the door for me.
"Hey Troy," I sighed.
"Hey Bella, how'd you sleep?" I refrained from laughing, he has no idea.
"Fine, you?" I asked trying to be considerate but it was getting excessively hard.
"Great," he replied. I stepped out and he slammed the door shut.
"What class do you have first?" he asked. Oh no, not this again.
"Keyboarding," I managed to spit out.
"Oh, I have History, but I can show you where your class is if you want."
"No it's okay, I think I know where it is," I replied quickly, a bit too quickly.
"Oh okay," he said disappointed. "I'll see you later then." Wow, can he recover quick. I forced a smile and waved at him before walking away as fast as I can at human speed. I looked at my watch and realized that I had 10 minutes until my first class starts. I looked up just in time to see Edward walking towards me from the parking lot, I turned the other way and walked into the school. Why can't he leave me alone? There was no one in the school, everyone was outside mingling with friends and the teachers were watching over them just in case violence breaks out. I heard him speed up when he entered the school and I broke out in a run. I was running as fast as I can but it wasn't fast enough to lose him. I knew that sooner or later he would corner me so I stopped and glared at him.
"What do you want?" I said icily. He wasn't expecting my attitude, he stopped and looked at me intently. I forgot how deep and beautiful those eyes were. No, I reminded myself, he lied to you.
"I want to talk to you," his voice was full of remorse.
"I thought I made it clear that I didn't want to talk to you," I huffed. The hurt in his eyes almost softened me but the voice of my built up anger reminded me once again why I was mad at him.
"Bella, I know you're mad at me and I don't blame you-"
"I don't either, in fact, I blame you," I added. He sighed and took his eyes from mine, clearly giving up on trying to dazzle me into listening.
"I know but can't you give me a chance to explain myself?" he pleaded. A tiny voice in a far corner of my head whispered, Yes, you should hear what he has to say. I ignored it.
"Why? So you can lie to me again and then a few months later, decide to leave again?" I snapped. My anger has been fully released and the words tumbling out of my mouth were not of my own. "You know, it was bad enough that you left. The least you could've done was let me believe that you never existed but you just had to leave your stupid rose behind. So pardon me for not wanting to get hurt again." I turned and walked towards my next class. I didn't sense him following me. His face kept flashing before my eyes with those tragic eyes boring into my soul. I tried desperately to repress the image from my mind.
I can't recall what my classes were even about today, I kept running through our conversation over and over again. Was I too harsh? This question was tearing me apart, part of me told me no and the other screamed yes. I had first lunch again and I kept reassuring myself, what are the odds of him getting both lunches with me? Very little. I bought my lunch and turned to see Troy coming towards me.
"Bella, why don't you come and sit with me and my friends today?" he offered. I considered and concluded that I had no other choice.
"Sure, I don't see any harm," I saw a lot of harm but he didn't need to know that. I followed his lead to the his table and almost laughed at the stares I received from his friends. I spent most of lunch answering mindless questions about where I was from and how did I like this town. Either I was getting better at lying or these guys are idiots. I was concentrating on not laughing at their reaction when Alice walked up to the table.
"Bella, can I talk to you?" she whispered by my ear.
"Sure," I turned to Troy. "Excuse me." I got up and followed Alice outside. As soon as we were outside she turned around and faced me.
"Bella what did you say to Edward?" I didn't know how to answer her so I just stayed silent. "Whatever it is, it has crushed him."
"Alice, I told you I didn't want to talk about this," I pleaded hoping she would drop it.
"I know but even if you won't talk to me again I have to make you understand," she said. "Please Bella," I nodded slightly and it brought a smile to her face. "Bella, you have to know that ever since he left you, all he does is mope around in his room doing absolutely nothing. He hardly utters a word unless we ask him something. He doesn't do anything with the rest of us. It's like he isn't there anymore." Every word coming out of her mouth was tugging at my heart but the wall I have built around me refused to give. "He threw away all of his CD's and refused to listen to music anymore," the one hit home. Edward had a tremendous collection and he loved music. Alice stared at me looking for the impact of her words.
''What do you want me to do, Alice?" I asked.
"Can you give him another chance?"
"No, Alice I can't," I replied.
"Can you at least let him explain himself? Please, it's killing him inside," she begged. Funny, I felt that way everyday for the last 10 years.
"Fine, but that's it," I bargained. She nodded happily and I smiled at her. "I'll see you later Alice, I have to get to class," she rolled her eyes at me.
"You still pay attention?" she joked.
"No, but I still have to show up," I laughed and walked back into the school.
