Chapter Two
To Infinity and Beyond…Or so we thought
Hogwarts: Fifth Year
I don't know why I did it, I really don't. But when I'd seen that slime, fondling my Moony…Well, the sight almost killed me. So I'd told Snape. I'd told Snape to go to the Whomping Willow…And the fool had believed me. I remember feeling a sense of empowerment. But then, oh god. I'd remembered Remus.
Moony liked Snivillus. This would kill him. I'm so lucky that James realized it first. I'm so indebted to James. I don't think that Prongs ever really forgave me for doing that to Moony, but I know that we got over it.
I can remember walking to the Hospital Wing. And the first thing that came out of Remus' mouth after he woke up were directed at me. I felt a thrill at this, but then the feeling was replaced by cold dread as I heard his words.
"How could you?"
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"I'm so sorry…"
"I know."
"I didn't mean – "
"I know."
That was the second time he ever kissed me.
Hogwarts: Sixth Year
Oh, we'd gotten over the bump in the road, but everyone was more cautious about trusting me. Everyone except for the person I'd actually betrayed. Now, I don't like the term 'betray', but I couldn't help but to be honest when it came to Moony. He and James and Peter were the only things that kept me going. Actually, by this time, I was living at James' house.
But this isn't my story.
The day belongs to Remus, and in my mind, it always will.
After what had been come to be known as 'The Incident', Remus and I just got closer. And I was happy. He revealed his preference for men and I – well, I didn't care who it was that I was with, as long as I could love them for a person, so I didn't have a gender preference. But, I did have a Remus preference.
And he had a me preference. Oh, you can imagine how my heart soared at that thought. You wouldn't expect it from one such as me…the heartthrob of Hogwarts, the Gryffindor God. Self-appointed God that is.
I remember the day that he kissed me…really kissed me.
"I love you."
"I know."
Remus always seemed to know everything.