Unfaithful
Fuji Syuusuke x Tezuka Kunimitsu, implied Fuji Syuusuke x Echizen Ryoma
Disclaimer: I don't own PoT, and I also did not write the song Unfaithful. Rhianna owns it, and as far as I know, I don't own those hot, hot boys from PoT... Sadly. (
A/N: I suddenly realized that this song would make a great angst fic, whilst I was listening to it. Let's see if I can pull it off! Oh, again, I'm super sorry if this confuses you. ;; Here's Unfaithful, douzo!
Story
of my life
Searching for the right
But it keeps avoiding
me
Sorrow in my soul
Cause it seems that wrong
Really loves
my company
I don't know why I did it. No, I do, but I tell myself I don't. It makes the regret go away sometimes, but then again, it never really does.
"Why?" Your eyes make me turn my head. They search for an answer that I couldn't say out loud. That voice, croaked out, yet demanding.
'Because you don't love me. Because you don't show me what you really want. Because I can't love you if I don't know you.' I want to say.
'Because you can't give me what I want.' The ability to speak escapes me, and the words are unvoiced.
He's
more than a man
And this is more than love
The reason that the
sky is blue
But clouds are rolling in
Because I'm gone
again
And to him I just can't be true
You look for me, but I hide away, not wanting to confront you. I don't want to have to explain. Explain the reason I left, was because of you.
And
I know that he knows I'm unfaithful
It was spring the first time you saw. You told yourself it was just something else, denying that it could've been what you thought we had. You knew what was happening, but didn't mention it, when you saw me later that day.
And it kills him inside
You let it go on, thinking it would stop. Thought that if you ignored it, and pretended everything was Ok, I'd come back to your arms, instead of his.
It didn't, and I never really returned.
To
know that I am happy with some other guy
I can see him dying
I looked in your eyes. I knew you knew. I saw the denial, the eternal sadness that clouded your obsidian eyes.
I
don't wanna do this anymore
I don't wanna be the reason why
Every
time I walk out the door
I see him die a little more inside
I
don't wanna hurt him anymore
I don't wanna take away his life
I
don't wanna be...
A murderer
It sort of hurts me, to see you in pain. Your fire extinguishing little by little; that passion that used to divulge my soul to you, disappearing. I don't want to, but I can't retrace my steps, or make it a dream.
I
feel it in the air
As I'm doing my hair
Preparing for another
date
A kiss up on my cheek
He's here reluctantly
As if I'm
gonna be out late
I say I won't be long
Just hanging with the
guys
A lie I didn't have to tell
Because we both know
Where
I'm about to go
And we know it very well
We go on for a while, like nothing's wrong. You tried; you really did, to make it better. You tried to please me; a peck on the cheek here, a little emotion there, but it wasn't enough for me.
It was hesitant, your moves. You saw what he would do with me, and you tried to up the ante. You were different for a while, then uncertain because of my smiles, you slowly returned to your old self.
He entertains me; new to everything; young, virgin-like. He brought me something you couldn't. 'He showed me what I wanted to see. He showed me the love you couldn't let me notice.'
Cause
I know that he knows I'm unfaithful
And it kills him inside
To
know that I am happy with some other guy
I can see him dying
"Practice will be tomorrow morning at 7am sharp. Today's practice is adjourned." Your eyes were duller than usual.
"Oishi, I'll clean up today."
You didn't want anyone to hear you, so you'd wait until everyone left. Those silent sobs, unmasking you; they reveal you for who you are. Why can you show yourself to no one...? Not even me?
'That's why I left.' I think to myself, turning around, forgetting about that forgotten binder.
I
don't wanna do this anymore
I don't wanna be the reason why
Every
time I walk out the door
I see him die a little more inside
I
don't wanna hurt him anymore
I don't wanna take away his life
I
don't wanna be...
A murderer
Our Love, his trust
I might
as well take a gun and put it to his head
Get it over with
I
don't wanna do this
Anymore (anymore)
I couldn't do it anymore. I can't play this endless game of hide-and-seek. I couldn't feel it anymore.
"Gomen ne, Tezuka." I know that's not what you wan to hear, but I say it anyway. I don't look back as I walk, afraid that if I saw your eyes, I would see our no-so-perfect world crumbling. A tear breaks free and falls down my cheek. 'Gomen... Gomen... Gomen.'
And
I know that he knows I'm unfaithful
And it kills him inside
To
know that I am happy with some other guy
I can see him dying
Maybe it's better this way.
End
A/N:My lame attempts at an angtsy-type fic. I had to write it, because the muses were holding my brain hostage again. And yes, I realize I'm procrastinatin my other stories by writing this. Don't worry, I'm multitasking. D Mmm, if you have any questions, just leave me a comment.
