That morning when Raven woke up, Marshall was gone. She rolled over on her side, half expecting to find an empty mark in the sheets. Did he just get what he wanted and up and leave? No, she thought to herself, she remembered Marshall worked at the beach's surf store and had to get up early.
Raven leaned up in bed and noticed a small post it on the pillow next to her. She slowly picked it up, waiting for her eyes to adjust. She carefully read the little words on the yellow paper.
Rae
I had an amazing time last night. You're amazing and I love you. Come visit me at work today!
Only yours,
Marshall
Raven smiled as she finished reading the note. Their night together was beautiful. She had never "made love" with anyone really. Parker was basically what you would call rough sex; she never really enjoyed it and found no pleasure with him at all. But with Marshall……she couldn't control herself. She felt like a starved woman, seeking for affection, and she liked the new her. The new Raven was sexual and outgoing….and that's what she wanted to be.
She looked at her clock by her bed and noticed the time said 9:00. Chelsea was still in bed when Raven got up. She peeked over at her best friend and noticed an extra bump in the covers. Raven smiled as she shook her head and thought, "that a girl Chels!"
Raven decided she should get in the shower to clean up before breakfast. She gathered up a fresh change of clothes and made her way to the bathroom. She noticed she had bed head to the max….her hair was messy and her clothes were wrinkled. However, she loved it; it was a sign of her night with Marshall, and she never wanted to forget it. She slid her clothes off and made her way into the shower, letting the hot water cascade over her naked body.
When she was finished in the shower, Raven stepped out and wrapped a towel around her. She threw her hair up into a messy bun and made her way out into the bedroom to get some lotion. Once she opened the bathroom door, she was surprised to find Marshall standing there. Nearly shocked she jumped in his arms yelling, "Hey baby!"
"Hey Rae! I was on my lunch break and thought I would come by and see you." He responded, letting Raven back down. He lightly touched her face and placed a gentle kiss on her lips as he said this.
"Oh my God did Lo see you? You know how she is with boys in…." Raven started.
"Don't worry Rae," Marshall said interrupting her. "She left early this morning with some friends remember?"
Raven laughed as she remembered Lo telling all of them that she would be going to Tahoe to visit some of her friends for a couple of days. Raven, Eddie and Chelsea were to take care of the house, as she let the maids have those days off.
"I'm glad you came by baby! I missed you!" Raven said as she slid her hand over his muscular chest and slowly made her way down to his cargo shorts. Marshall breathed in deep as Raven grasped him into her hand and licked his ear. "I want you now!" she whispered in his ear.
"Baby, Chelsea is in the room…..can you ask her to leave?" Marshall pleaded.
Raven let go of Marshall and ran over to Chelsea's bed. She practically punched her in the arm to get her to wake up, causing Alec to wake up as well.
"Owww!" Chelsea exclaimed! "What Rae?"
"I need you to leave for a while! Marshall came over!" Raven smiled down on Chelsea which gave her the clue to leave.
Chelsea smirked and told Alec to go back to bed in the guest room. "You better be done in 20 minutes because I want to take a shower before we head to the beach!"
With that, Chelsea left the room with Alec, making her way to the guest bedroom.
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Marshall smiled and kissed Raven on the lips and quickly threw his cargo shorts on and grabbed his shirt. He made his way out of the door, but not before colliding right into Eddie.
"Sorry man!" Eddie said, "I just wanted to get some toothpaste from Rae and…." He stopped in mid sentence as he noticed Marshall barely clothes and out of breath. He peeked into the room and saw Raven laying on her bed with only her towel on, panting and sweaty herself. He felt like his heart had just fallen into his stomach and felt nauseous. He quickly turned around and went back to his room.
Raven got up from her bed and made her way back to the bathroom. She laughed as she realized that her earlier shower was a waste of time, as she noticed the sweat beading off her chest. She took a cold cloth and dabbed her sweaty skin as she made her way back to her room to put some clothes on.
As she opened her dresser Chelsea walked back in the room.
"Dang Rae….can't you two take a break once in a while?" Chelsea asked.
"Chels I don't know how to explain it. With Marshall the sex is AMAZING! When I look at him I can't help but want…..well…..you know." Raven laughed as she winked at her.
"Yeah Rae I hear you…..but do you stop and think about the actual relationship you have with Marshall. I mean you just met the guy and already you have turned into a sex fiend."
Raven winced as she heard this and glared at Chelsea.
"What are you saying?" she asked.
"I'm saying…..that this relationship seems to be based purely on physical attraction. Do you even know anything about him?" Chelsea started to let her hair down and gather her clothes for the shower.
Raven couldn't believe what she just heard. Chelsea actually made an interesting point. She really knew nothing about Marshall at all. They met and had a few conversations but that was it. Every night that they had been together since their "first night", they had done nothing but had sex. She realized that this was nothing more than a physical attraction. As much as she wanted not to believe it, she had turned into one of those girls….the ones she never wanted to turn into.
She knew she had to change their relationship. She wanted to be in a relationship where she could be herself….not a sex craved lunatic. She wondered if others could see the new her….and if they approved.
Chelsea walked into the bathroom and shut the door as Raven flopped on her bed. She put her hands over her head and closed her eyes. She wondered who she could talk to about relationships. Who really knew what it was like? Then, Eddie popped into her head. She remembered he was the only one to have the longest relationship. Raven jumped out of bed and dug in her drawer for a quick change of clothes. She grabbed her white pants and black tube top and threw her hair in a messy bun. She knew with Eddie she was comfortable wearing anything. Once she was finished she ran out her door and made her way down the hall to Eddie's room.
Raven opened Eddie's door and made her way into his room. She heard his shower running so she decided to wait him out on his bed. While she was waiting, she noticed a huge binder with papers thrown into it. That's funny she said to herself, why would Eddie bring school stuff with him? She picked up the binder and put it on the bed as she opened it up. Inside were piles of messy papers filled with his raps and recent poems that he had written. Raven knew Eddie could rap his brains out and loved to see his new material. She grabbed a piece of paper that looked new and picked it up.
Why is it?
Why is it when I look at you I get weak?
Why is it that every time I hear your name, I start to shake?
Why is it that every time I see you walk by, I want to touch you?
Why is it that every time you look at me, I feel my soul life up?
I look at you and I know why it is.
I want you, need you, crave you, desperate ache for the love of you.
So why is it that you're not mine?
I wonder this….everyday.
Raven slowly put the paper down and stared into space. That was the most beautiful she had ever read. She couldn't believe Eddie wrote that. She also couldn't wait to hear about the mystery girl Eddie wanted. She had to ask him.
As Raven heard the shower turn off, she quickly shoved the papers back in the binder and threw it back down on the floor. She then waited for Eddie to walk out the door so she could get her advice.
As Eddie opened the door, he noticed Raven sitting on his bed and nearly freaked out.
"JESUS RAE! WHAT THE HELL ARE YOU DOING?" he exclaimed.
Raven nearly fell off the bed when she heard him yell.
"Eddie I really needed to talk to you about Marshall and I." she quickly blurted out.
Eddie felt nauseous every time he heard his name. It wasn't because he hated Marshall, it was because he hated the fact that Marshall was with the girl he wanted to be with.
"Rae….you and Marshall are fine. Go talk to Chelsea." He said.
Raven felt confused for a second as to why Eddie seemed annoyed of the subject.
"No Eddie listen…I really want your help on something. I feel like I don't have a relationship with Marshall…all I have is sex."
"Well Rae…..maybe it's because that's all you guys do anymore. I mean every time you two are together you are screwing." He couldn't believe he JUST said that. The thing was, he couldn't help it.
He saw Raven's face turn sour as he knew she was about to get defensive.
"What the hell Eddie? I don't screw around….I mean were together so I'm not just having random sex. God….what the hell is your problem?" Raven got up from the bed and made her way to the door. Eddie quickly jumped up and grabbed her arm and spun her around.
"Wait!" he said.
Raven turned around and he noticed tears welling up in her eyes. He couldn't believe he made her cry. He felt like he died a little inside as he watched a small tear escape out her beautiful brown eyes and travel down her soft cheek. He led her back to the bed and sat her down.
"Raven….I'm sorry. I didn't mean it like it sounded. I mean it's just….I don't like to see you upset about boys….and ever since Parker….well…I feel like I have to protect you. Please don't cry." He wiped the tear from her face and smiled. "You know I'm always here for you."
Raven looked down at the floor and gathered herself together.
"I'm sorry to get so emotional Eddie….I just need your help. I want to know how to have a good relationship. I want what you want in your poem."
"What poem?" he asked.
"The one in your binder. I'm sorry if I wasn't supposed to read it….but…it's beautiful Eddie...and I want to feel that too." Raven looked at him and smiled.
He felt shocked that she didn't know it was about her. However, he felt almost perfect inside knowing that she loved the poem and wanted to feel that way. He couldn't tell her it was about her however…she wanted Marshall and her to feel that way. He now felt worthless to her once again.
"Rae….I wrote that just because I want to have a girl like that. I want to feel that way in a relationship as well." He then got up from the bed and went over to the dresser and pulled out a box. He laid it down on the bed in front of Raven.
"Here Rae….these are a bunch of poems I wrote about a girl……read them. I want you to understand how I feel so that maybe you can develop a sense of what you guys need to do." Eddie felt pain inside him as he handed Raven the box and as he knew that she would be reading them for Marshall and not himself.
"Thanks Eddie…..you're the most amazing friend any girl could ask for." Raven leaned over and hugged him as Eddie stroked her hair and let go.
"No problem Rae…..so do you want to head down to the beach together in a little bit?" he asked.
"Yeah…I want to talk to Marshall about our relationship so you can help prep me before we get there. Get dressed and I'll meet you downstairs in 10!" Raven said as she ran out his door.
"Good job Eddie…..she's gone forever." He said to himself as he got his swimming boxers out and shut the door.
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Raven ran into Chelsea and her room and shut the door.
"Chelsea! Eddie and I are heading to the beach in like 10 minutes do you want to come along?" she asked through the bathroom door.
"No thanks Rae," Chelsea answered. "Alec is going to take me to meet his parents today, so I have to be refreshed and ready. You guys have fun!" she said.
"Good luck with the rents! That's a little scary there! Haha! Alright I'm leaving but call my cell if you finish early and want to meet up at dinner somewhere." Raven said as she tied her bikini top on and walked out the door.
Eddie was waiting at the bottom of the steps in his swim trunks and black wife beater and his towel. He looked so cute she thought to herself. He always wore those trunks anytime he was by a pool.
"Eddie when are you going to pay up and buy some new swim gear?" she giggled.
"Girl these are tight! I know you aren't hating on my shorts!" he said as he opened the door for her. He loved what she was wearing right than and there. She had on a white tube dress that girls normally wore for the beach. Under it she had her black bikini tied top and he could see a hint of the black bikini bottom below it. He couldn't wait to see her without the dress on.
"Well you ready to head out?" she asked.
"Let's do it!" Eddie responded.
Once they got to the beach both could see it was not such a busy day. People must have been at the county fair that day. Raven and Eddie made their way onto the sand and started to put down their gear.
"It's a really nice day out today!" Raven said as she put her stuff down. "Eddie….Marshall is right over there….I'm going to go talk to him but….will you wait around so we can go swimming together?" she asked.
"Sure Rae! I'll be right here for you." He said as he nudged her towards the direction of Marshall. He watched her walk up to him and plant a small kiss on his cheek. He swore he felt pain once she placed her lips on his face.
"Hey baby!" Marshall exclaimed. "I have a 10 minute break and the shed isn't busy. You want to….." he winked as he lightly touched her face. She knew what he wanted to do and knew she had to say something.
"Marshall…..all you and I have is physical action. We know nothing about each other and I feel like all we do is have sex." She said quietly so no one would hear her.
"I thought that's what you wanted." He said harshly.
Raven winched when she heard that. Just than and there she swore she could picture Parker's face on Marshall and she jumped back.
"Yes….the sex is great and everything but I want more. I want a relationship not just sex." She said.
"Raven….you know this is a summer thing. I love being with you but do you expect to have some long term relationship after this is all done with?" he asked as he stepped out of the booth.
She couldn't believe what she was hearing. She never thought about how long this would last. Now she knew that Marshall only wanted to be with her for a summer fling and that was it. She hated him at that moment and needed to be away from him.
"I wanted to be with you that's all." she said quickly. "But right now….I don't care what you do. I'm leaving…..maybe we need some time apart." She said as she started to walk away.
"Oh….typical Raven….blame the guy and than walk away. I'm the best thing that has happened to you Raven…..you can't just end what we have." She heard him yell as she walked back to Eddie. She wiped the tears from her eyes and sat down on the towel next to him.
Eddie saw that she was upset and knew Marshall had something to do with it.
"Rae…..what's wrong?" he asked as he nudged closer to her.
"Marshall just wants a summer romance and that's it. It didn't seem to bother him that all we did was have sex. Eddie….I don't want to be like that anymore. I want to change and just enjoy the rest of my summer….I'm done worrying about him. I'm going to just enjoy my summer with you and Chelsea and have the time of our lives." She said as she stood up.
"Yeah Rae….don't worry. I promise you that everyday I will make you happier than the next. This is our summer." he said as he got up with her. "Let's get in!" he said as he took his wife beater off and watched as she pulled down her dress. Slowly he watched every form of her body as she removed the dress. He couldn't believe how much weight Raven had lost over the last couple months of high school. He looked at her tight flat stomach and watched the small indentation of her hip bones as she lowered her bikini bottoms. She looked like the sexiest girl he had ever seen. He was also glad that she was with him…..and no one else.
Raven ran down to the water and Eddie chased after her. He came behind her and picked her up as she screamed with delight. He walked them out to the water and dropped her in. she then grabbed his legs and pulled him down with her. The water rushed over both of them as they got back up. Raven could feel the sand on her body and loved it. Eddie always knew how to make her feel better.
"Haha….this is amazing Eddie…thank you!" she said as she pushed him back down. She than quickly made her way back out on the beach as Eddie watched her run up to a stand and grab a little float boat made for two. She made her way back into the water and caught up to him.
"Come on….let's go out farther and use this baby!" she said as they both walked out until their feet couldn't feel the ocean floor. Eddie helped hoist raven into the boat and he followed her. They both plopped down on the sticky plastic boat and laid down. Raven was having a blast with Eddie. She laid her head on his shoulder and looked up at the sky.
"Have you ever seen anything so beautiful Eddie?" she asked about the view.
He looked down at her and replied, "I don't think I have ever seen anything more beautiful Rae." He hugged her and then they both closed their eyes.
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When Eddie opened his eyes he realized that it was getting dark. He and Raven had been sleeping out on that boat for hours. He nudged Raven awake and sat up.
"Come on Rae," he said. "We have been sleeping and we need to get to shore."
Raven sat up and rubbed her eyes. She realized how far out they were and became a little worried.
"Eddie we are too far out." she said nervously. She started to fidget a little bit in the boat. Eddie touched her arm and reassured her that it was okay and they could swim together towards shore. He told her that the beach crew would pick up the boat. They both popped back into the water and started to swim towards the shore. He noticed Raven getting tired so he told her to grab his shoulders and he would swim them both back.
Once they got back to sand they were exhausted. They laid down on the cool night sand and breathed deeply.
"Come on Rae….let's get home and shower and we'll hit up Chelsea for some dinner plans." he said as he picked her up.
"Good idea!" she replied. "I'm getting hungry and hopefully Chelsea is back from her date! We should go to a fancy place tonight and get all dressed up. Just the 3 of us though…..no one else."
"Good idea! We all need to hang out together!" Eddie said as they started to pick their things up and walk toward home. As they made their way to the edge of the beach Raven noticed Marshall standing by his stand obviously waiting for her.
"Raven wait!" he said before she walked on by him.
She didn't want to talk to him but she knew he wouldn't leave her alone if she didn't.
"What!" she replied angrily.
"Can we talk?" he asked. "How about dinner….just you and me?" he asked.
"Sorry," she answered back, "I'm having dinner with my best friends. But tell you what Marshall….let's just say no to any other dinner plans you might want to make. I realized I had more fun in these last few hours with Eddie than I have had with you since we started this relationship. It's over." Raven said as she turned and walked away from a stunned Marshall.
Eddie looked back at him and smiled.
"That a girl Rae!" he said as he put his arm around her shoulder.
"Thanks! Now…..let's get back." she said as they hurried off the beach.
Marshall stood in shock as he watched Raven and Eddie walk away. Did she just break it off with him? No girl had ever turned him down before.
As Marshall stood their, a person came up behind him and nudged him.
"I told you she's a bitch." He said.
Marshall turned around to face him and replied, "You know….I'm done with this nice guy bullshit. And Raven and Eddie really are starting to piss me off. She was the best fuck I ever had!" he said.
"We need to handle BOTH of them. Come on….pretty soon we will take care of them both." The figure said as he walked off.
Marshall caught up to him and said, "good idea…..whatever you say Parker."
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