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Previously…
"Why are you sitting her alone, Yanagi-san?" I know that cool voice came from one person, and that person is…
"Mikagami-sempai!"
Chapter Two…
"You don't need to sound so surprised, Yanagi-san. I'm not a ghost." I looked down on my shuffling feet as I started to feel like an idiot. Of course, I know he's also invited, and that he said that he'll think about catching up after he finishes some of his work. I just didn't expect him to see me here, not with Recca and the others.
"I'm sorry, Mikagami-sempai. I just didn't expect you here…" From the corner of my eye, I saw the side of his lips curl slightly in a smirk. Oh crap…
"I should be the one telling you that, Yanagi-san. You wouldn't be all alone by yourself, unless…"
By then, I knew my cheeks are already red with all my blood rushing in them. Oh, of all people why sempai! The guy who can see through anyone like he has x-ray vision or something.
But then again, I'm the one in need of someone to talk to right now.
I tried to speak, but only a whiff of smoke came out my mouth. The cold autumn air starting to get into my head, I can't speak.
Just then, he stood up.
"Well, I guess you can't tell me. I'll just go and ask that monkey Hanabishi what he did to you."
"Wait!" Upon hearing what he said, I stood up and grabbed his hand. The last thing I want is to let Recca know about this. I don't want to ruin his time with his friends.
We sat back to where we were, and let out a deep sigh.
"I felt a little bit out-of-place with them that's all. I felt as if I was left out because the three of them know each other very mush, I can't keep up with them. I can't do what they are doing. I can't seem to fit myself in." I know I sounded lame, but I felt even lamer when Mikagami-sempai was chuckling. Wait! Did he just do that? Is the sky falling?
"Of course, Yanagi-san, you can't."
"Thanks a lot, Mikagami-sempai. That helped a lot." I said wryly, as I stared at the cloud of smoke coming out of mouth.
"A human can't understand monkey language no matter how hard he tries."
He smirked again, and I can feel my sweat dropping. Is Mikagami-sempai on crack or something? Normally, he won't do that. Suddenly, I felt something different. Actually, I noticed something different with him. He looked a little better, if that is even possible and there's something else… It felt as if cold aura that seemed to envelop him all the time is no longer there… could it be…
"Yanagi-san, you know how close-knit those three are. They live in their own world. It's but natural that you feel like that, since you haven't been with all three of them after the SODOM. You don't have to push yourself right in. It will come naturally. But, you have to be there. You can't fit in if you're moping alone like this."
I knew he was right. But then…
"But that isn't all of it, is it? Anything else you want to share?" He looked at me, and I know, he can read me well like a book.
"Yes, there is another thing. I felt jealous of Fuuko." That last part came out of me like a whisper. I felt shy about saying that out loud.
"Why would you be?"
"I don't know why too. I just felt it this morning. She seemed to know a lot about Recca. What food he always eat, what he game always play, what ride he really like, what karaoke song he always sing, what flavor of coffee he usually drink. In those moments, I felt as if I don't deserve to be his girlfriend because I know nothing much about him compared to Fuuko. Then I started to think of all their similarities, and I felt so incompetent because they have so much in common, they fit together. I know I sound silly, but I felt that they are better off together than me and Recca." Tears came out of me. I've been keeping it all in the whole day, and I can't keep it all in anymore. They simply rolled out my eyes like crazy.
All the while, Mikagami-sempai sat there beside me. He stared at the moving clouds on the moonlit sky, as if he was thinking about something. A little later, he spoke up.
"Yanagi-san, can I ask you one thing?" I nodded.
"How long do you think Recca and Fuuko have known each other?"
"Ten to twelve years, I guess. This isn't helping, sempai."
"Wait. Okay, how long have you known Recca?"
"A year and a half." I said silently. See, even that says a lot.
"Well then, if you think those years of knowing each other meant a lot to Recca, why then did he asked you to be his girlfriend?" I looked at him and he stared at me questioningly. Somehow, I knew he has a point.
"Just asking you to be his girlfriend without knowing much about you should answer your question already. He doesn't care about how much you know about him, or he you. The only thing that matters to him is the way he feels. An as I can see it, it goes the same with you, right?" I nodded. He is right and I've been blinded by my insecurities by the one thing that mattered between me and Recca. Feelings. I should've known that quite well, that he even fought for me life in SODOM. I forgot that he risked his own life just for me, and that he beat all the odds for the sake of our relationships. He even turned down the one girl who liked him for a long time because of me.
A fresh batch of tears sprang from my eyes as I smiled at Mikagami-sempai.
"Thank you for making me realize that. Thank you." He smiled at me as well, I knew then what happened to Mikagami-sempai. He changed. A lot more than I thought he did.
"You better get in there, Yanagi-san. That monkey might be looking for you already." I nodded as I stood up and turned to leave. I looked at him over my shoulder and said, "Mikagami-sempai, you changed a lot. It's good though, seeing you smile. Is it a girl?" I don't know if my eyes are playing tricks with me or he really did blush. He averted his eyes away from me, surprisingly, out of embarrassment.
"It's nothing really." He said lightly. "You better get in already, that sea monkey must be looking for you by now." I quickly nodded and turned to leave.
"Oh, and by the way, don't tell them I'm here already. I'll let them know myself." Then, he stood up and left somewhere.
While I was on my way to the karaoke room, I met Fuuko on the way. I could sense a glint of guilt in her voice when she said, "Yanagi! Where have you been? Recca was looking all over for you." I told her I took a breather and took some time alone.
"I'm sorry. I guess I'm the one responsible for this." I smiled and merely shook my head, but she took my hand and looked at me straight in the eye.
"No. Really, I'm sorry. I know I've made you feel a bit out of place today. And now that I realize it, that was pretty lame of me. I just didn't want to be the one feeling out of place between you and Recca, but, I did it to you, and I'm really sorry about it, Yanagi, I really am." I saw the sincerity in her eyes, and I can't help but feel for her. I knew that it's also not the easy to let your best friend go and let him seek another's company. Especially in her case, she liked her more than a best friend, but not him to her.
I felt the urge to hug her, and I did. When we let go, we simply smiled and I said, "It's ok. There's nothing to forgive."
Just them Recca came by the hall, and took me away to play table tennis with him and Domon. I was thinking of staying more with Fuuko, but her eyes told me when I looked at her, "Go. He needs you."
Yep that's the end…
Of the RecYan part…
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