Ok, here's the next chapter. thanks to all reviewers. Warning: Kai is very, very ooc.
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Max walked in to find Kai by his wardrobe, pulling random items out.
"Kai?" Max asked softly. Kai didn't stop. He didn't even answer. "You don't have to leave tonight; they said you could stay…" Kai stopped and just stared at the wardrobe in front of him. "Why did you do that to Ray Kai?" Max asked finally. There was a minute's silence, Max gazing sadly at the bluenette.
"You don't know what she means to me Max…" Kai said, his voice etched in sadness.
"Is she…more then a friend?" Max knew Kai at least thought of her as a friend but he never seen the phoenix react like that before.
"You know, if it had been someone else, other then you three, I would of beaten the life out of them just for saying that about her…" Max stared in shock. Kai finally turned round, his cold expression gone along with the loving affection he showed Max. This expression was different, worried and angry. "I'm completely opposite to you Max. You know I fight, you know I act upon how I feel…I'm sorry." Max swallowed trying to take everything in.
"You still didn't answer my question…is she more than a friend?" Kai nodded slowly. Max knew it was too good to be true; what in hell made him think that Kai, the hottest, potential playboy with thousands of girls screaming after him, would be gay? "Do you love her?" Max asked, eyes threatening to cry and throat drying up. Kai nodded again. Max sighed and a tear rolled down his cheek.
"Max?"
"No, no Kai, I'm fine."
"You don't understand…"
"Don't I? It seems pretty straight forward to me. I just want to know why Kai"
"Why what?"
"Why go out with me, sleep with me, tell me that you loved me when you were with some girl?"
"Max it's not like that…"
"Really? So your telling me that you love me too and that your bi? Really Kai?"
"No…"
"Well then, why?"
"I don't love her like I love you Max. It's different. I'm not bi…"
"Then how can you love her?"
"It's complicated…"
"It's a simple enough question!"
"But it's a long story…"
"Well we've got all night!" Max sat down waiting for Kai's explanation. Tears still trickling down his face now and then.
"Meet her with me tomorrow Max, you'll understand."
"Why can't you tell me now?"
"Because it's her life too. This story doesn't just evolve me Max and I can't tell you anything she doesn't want me to."
Kai sighed heavily and sat down next to Max. He looked at the wet rosy cheeks and something inside him clenched.
"I'm sorry…" Max didn't reply, just kept staring at the ground, an unfamiliar frown on his face. "Max I want to be with you…"
"But you don't want to give up women"
"No." he paused "I want to tell you everything, I don't want us to be separated by lies and what happened in the past but…" he looked down at the ground and started to play with a bit of thread from his shirt. Max looked at him, waiting for him to finish, "it hurts"
As the mumbled words came out, Max's eyes widened considerably. That wasn't what he expected.
"I've tried so hard to just…forget what happened but ten years down the line, those memories are still there and, no matter what I do, they just won't go away. I want you to know, I want you to understand but then I'd have to tell you and…"
"If you say it out loud, you realise how real it was"
"…yeah."
There was silence. Kai continued to play with the bit of thread and Max just stared at him. This was Kai. The Kai that was hidden behind the cold, loner character. The Kai that was scared and who didn't open up to people because he didn't want to face the truth. The Kai that hit something in Max's heart and made him want to take the pain away.
Kai looked as Max's hand lay over his and entwined their fingers, stopping him from playing with the thread. There was quiet for a moment.
"She's the closest thing I have to family Max." the blonde looked up from where he too had been looking at their hands. "It wasn't long after my parents…were taken away that I met her. Voltaire did nothing, and the others in the abbey seemed to ignore me, she was the only comfort I had. And she's been there ever since." He squeezed Max's hand and in return, the blonde moved closer. "Whatever I went through, whatever she went through, if I needed her she'd be by my side in an instant. And over the years, we kind of formed some kind of…sibling bond, I guess. After her family died, and I escaped the abbey, we only had each other." Kai's other hand began to gently trace invisible pattern on Max's hand. "When I met Tala and the others, before I left, we kind of had the same bond, well with Tala and Bryan anyway. We went through pretty much the same things and we each seemed to need that…comfort."
Max switch from watching his finger to looking at his sad face. This is what Kai Hiwatari did when he was nervous, he fiddled. A small smile graced his lips as he thought how sweet and childlike the actions were but it soon disappeared when he remember why he was nervous. His stoic captain was telling him his vulnerable secrets and trusted him. He wasn't this emotionless loner, he was someone who needed somebody to be there, he needed the comfort and love that he lost along with his parents.
"I love you Max," another squeeze on the hand "and I don't want to lose you. I don't want to leave Ray or Ty either but I can't just shut her out."
Max rested his head on the bluenette's shoulder and rubbed his thumb gently along Kai's hand.
"I don't want you to shut her out and I'm sure if you explain to Ray, he won't either." Max felt Kai's shoulder tense. "I'll explain to him."
There was a silence where they just watched their hands caress each other.
"I'm sorry for not…"
"Don't apologise Max, I should've explained earlier." Suddenly their hands were apart. Max lifted his head to look at Kai when an arm was wrapped around his body pulling him closer. He smiled and put his head on the older teens shoulder. As he closed his eyes he felt Kai lay his head on top of his. "One day I'll tell you everything Max," he nuzzled into the gold hair "I'm just not ready yet." Max smiled and wrapped his own arms around Kai's waist.
"I'm always here if you need me. And tell me when you're good and ready."
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Bit of KaiMax fluff there. Sorry for the oocness and if it really bothers you, tell me and i'll try and change it. If anything else bothers you, please tell me.
I hope you kind of liked it and please review!