A/N I am on a roll with theses mini story/poems. So this is the fourth mini story/ poem in my Of Friendship Of Love Of Excitement Of Depression. In Ana's POV
I will go to him
But what if he doesn't want me?
I mean I left him
Coz I was scared
Love scared me
And I couldn't tell him
I am such a fool
What if he hates me?
Does he love another?
So many questions
Yet no answers unless
I see him
I can't see him
I am afraid he will hate me
I am afraid he doesn't love me
I am afraid coz it hurts
It hurts so much that I want the pain to go
But it won't unless I see him
If I see him there will be more pain
Ugh! Pain is everywhere
Mainly in my heart
I shouldn't of left him
But I did for the reason I was scared
I can think that he is blamin' himself
But he shouldn't its not his fault
It was mine. My fault
I wish I could tell him
But I cant, I cant face him
Not yet, but when?
In a few years, a couple of months, a few weeks or just a few days
I want to see him but I can't bring my self to
The longer I wait the more pain im in
Perhaps I hurt so much that I don't know whats right or wrong
If I see him what will I tell him?
I ran coz I was scared of love
Or that I couldn't help it
My feelings are all over the place
If I see him shall I kiss him?
Or if I see him with someone else will I slap him?
If I see him what will he do?
If I see him will my question have their answers?
Will I still love him?
Love hurts too much
My heart hurts is it coz of him?
Or is it coz of love?
I will never know
Unless I find him
If I want to find him
Maybe he doesn't want to be found
Shall I close my heart to him?