How he saved me again:
Creating date: 12-05-2020
Authors note:
Not every meaning will be used in my book, it's a standard line I place up on every chapter in every book so it's easy for me to remember
/mindlink to Yugi, \mindlink to Atem-Yami\, Letters, Texting, songs, lemons, time skip, POV, *meanings, Dreams, Phone calls, Flashbacks.
Sadly the characters of Yu-gi-oh don't belong to me, they belong to Kazuki Takahshi, but the story's under the username Thirza-1984 belong to me
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YUGI'S POV:
Both grandpa and mama are worried, they even consider to send me to my father, maybe a little traveling would heal me about my trouble, but I refuse, because last time I was with him, he told me he left mama because she loves females and I was a slip up.
I never saw mama with a woman before, and even if she is lesbian, I'm okay with it, in my eyes love is equal no matter what gender, I myself consider me bisexual because I like to look at both genders. But mama being lesbian wasn't what hurt me, it was about the 'slip up' he called me. After that I refused to go to him, I also never gave a reason why I didn't want to see him, mama and grandpa accepted it.
Shortly after this I met Atem, he never saw my father, but he knows as the only one about what my father did to hurt me.
My friends ask me every day if I'm alright, I lie and say I'm just fine, truth is, I sleep horrible, I have nightmares all the time, seeing him going through that door and end everything with a different scene killing Atem in the most brutal ways.
I had a fight with Anzu, she was mad at me because I don't feel the need to see them, I mean they come over every day since Atem left. I said some nasty words which resulted with me sporting a black eye the next day because Anzu smacked me, and on top of that mama grounded me and needed to properly offer my excuses to Anzu.
That night I did a lot of thinking, and I noticed Anzu was right, I was pushing everybody away. When I entered school with a heavy and tired head, I apologised to Anzu, and she forgave me, she even admitted maybe they all where a bit pushy, my friends promised me not to visit me every day, but give me every other day rest so I could sulk about my lost.
Being constantly tired, I always fall asleep in class, and maybe the teacher didn't notice it if I didn't have that nightmare again, the reason why I'm saying this, is because Joey sleeps always and never get caught, it gave me detention for the very first time, every single day detention was added to my account.
"Yugi how in the world is it you are still tired after sleeping in class? Your mom told us you sleep as soon as you return home until the next morning!" Joey asks me one day, his detention days seems to be mine now.
"I don't know Joey, I have absolutely no clue." I say while resting my head against his shoulder and dozing off again. "I only know I feel so tired."
Truth is the constant nightmares, and whatever I try, I somehow don't receive the proper rest I need to keep up and running, even my sugar rushes don't help me now.
At the start of this year the school provided us all with mini laptops, we are entering a digital dimension, they said, but the 10ingh computer screens are a problem for me, I can't focus good enough and getting every day more and more headaches.
That also makes me lacking school.
And the teacher we all 'love' the most miss Chouno. Decided to add physical punishments to the school rules, only the teachers decide if the student truly needs it yes or no.
She hits every time.
This rule was redraw however when she met a very angry mama Muto after she hit me on the cheek with a ruler.
Flash back:
Again I was fallen asleep and she did hit my desk first, I jumped off and fell down having trouble coming around from the nightmare and the very rough awakening, I wasn't able to apologise right away, she hit me in the face. I decided I would not stay longer, I refused to tear up in front of my classmates so I had to get out. "If you leave now, I will make sure you are also suspended! Maybe even expelled" she threatened me.
I didn't listen, I felt suddenly sick to the stomach with my hand for my mouth I ran to the bathrooms to throw up. I was so weak, my cheek hurt, and I wished Atem was here with me to give me comfort.
I don't know how long I was in the bathroom, I could not stop throwing up the bile kept coming and I cramped violently with every vomit wave. I didn't even bother to go to the school nurse. I didn't hear someone walk in, I didn't hear the doors of the stalls go open and closing, until I hear. "Yugi? You in there buddy?"
With shacking hands I opened the stall door, and joey looked at me with shocked eyes. "That's it Yugi." He said with determination. "Come on, I take you to the school nurse, you are obviously too sick to stay at school buddy." He said, and almost scooped me in his arms, I shook my head, and when I tried to tell him I was fine, I needed to burry my head in the toilet bowl again. After that my world turned black.
When I wake up I see I'm at the nurses office, she just took out a needle from my arm. I moan softly, because I always hated needles, and that's took nurse Kamowi's attention. "O, your awake, I just injected you something to keep your stomach calm, and now I'm going to look to your cheek." She says with her soothing nurse's voice.
I nod, too tired to even respond, I don't feel her cleaning the wound, no I fall asleep again.
"I fear there is more going on with Yugi miss Muto, to be sure I want him to go to the clinic or hospital for blood checks. The fact he sleeps most of the day worries me."
"I understand, I was planning to call the clinic this afternoon, it worries me terrible to see him like this."
"When started this?"
"This summer he and his friends went to Egypt, when he came home he didn't had that pendant anymore and he acted depressed, constant nightmares are pestering him waking up screaming and trashing in bed until he falls out every single night. He looks to pale to be healthy and I have a strong believe I need to check out his eye sight because he also is complaining about headaches a lot lately."
"Mama?" I moan when I hear her talking with the nurse.
"Yugi, sweetheart, how do you feel?" mama asks me right away. My stomach is making flip flops again and I throw up before I even can warn them.
Later I heard mama went furious to the headmaster when she saw my cheek, and he did redraw the rule to hit students when they didn't pay attention. After that she came back and talked with the nurse about me.
Our 'favourite' teacher also got suspended until further notice.
Flash back ends:
A series of tests came, my eyesight was fine, so they wanted to test if I had something in my brain what could cost all those headaches. When those test results showed nothing, mama looked at the school provided laptop.
"No wonder you have all those headaches, this screen is too small to look at for eight straight hours!" she said.
She called with the school, and it seemed more students had trouble looking correctly to the screen. So all computers needed to be returned and they would provide us with laptops with a bigger screen.
In the hospital they also took a batch of blood tests what hopefully must provide us with the info over my tiredness and constant need to sleep, they would call mama in about a week with the results.
I had little to almost no red blood cells, it became dangerous to keep me alive, and they called mama within 24 hours after they took the blood. They had send an ambulance to fetch me, with yelling sirens and full speed they drove me to a hospital in Tokyo. Later they explained me they could not help me in Domino because they didn't have the proper equipment's to treat me there.
That's when I figured I was terribly sick and scared to death.
A full week I laid in the hospital where they figured I also was very depressed, had panic and anxiety attacks what they saw as an added bonus on top of my health trouble. A therapist tried talking with me, but I didn't want to talk, I only wanted one person that moment, I wanted Atem, and cried for him.
When I was recovered enough they brought me over to the psychic ward, were I stayed for another three months. It helped when I figured I needed to talk if I wanted out.
When I went home, grandpa tried talking with me. But I was quiet, there I went to a psychiatrist but with him helping me, I stopped because this person did more bad then good. I almost wanted to kill myself and wanted to go to Atem. I would talk with the psychiatrist in Tokyo if I was there for my monthly check up.
It was Ryou and Malik who pulled me through it all, they also suffers depression when they're Yami's left, and they helped each other, they thought I was doing fine so they didn't approached me, a mistake they admitted later from all three of us because I held up my poker face for too long, the three of us promised we would call whenever we needed.
Malik, Ryou and I did a lot of video calling with each other, if one of us was sad we called. Mostly I was the one to call, I was the only Hikari with a close connection with his Yami, so they didn't find it strange I had the most pain.
Slowly I started to bloom again, much to grandpa and mama's happiness, the light slowly started to burn in my eyes again, and they heard me more often laugh again with my friends. The nightmares however, they were still there.
I also got a blow back when I confessed my feelings towards Anzu. She told me the friendship we have was too important for her to just blow it away when we would enter a relationship. It took me three weeks to come out of that misery and look Anzu in the face again.
I forgave her, after all, she was right, our friendship is more vulnerable than having a relationship which doomed to fail if she went to America.
It's evening, and grandpa, mama and I are watching a movie, I don't even like this movie, but grandpa is in control of the remote so we have nothing to say.
"Mama?" I ask.
"What is it sweetheart? "She asks back.
"I need some motherly advice." And seeing grandpa eying me I continue. "Alone please."
Mama nods and I say goodnight to grandpa, by hugging him and a kiss on the cheek, I always did it, from when I was still a little boy. Together mama and I walk to my room, I'm already in my PJ so I climb in bed while she covers me up.
"Mama? Why did father leave you?" it never bothered me before, but I start to doubt myself and I need to know.
"Because I don't love men honey." She admits.
"So it's true, I am a slip up?" I ask and start to tear up.
"Yes Honey, you are a slip up, but from all the slip ups I made, you are definitely my favourite." She says and smiles. "Both your father and I made a mistake Honey, I thought I could find out what I liked the most by going to bed with him, and we didn't use protection, which made me to become pregnant from you, in the spur of the heat, we decided to marry."
"And when I was born?" I ask.
"I was wearing a mask, I tried to make your father happy, but I truly loved you. When you were 4 I confessed my love for girls and he filed a divorce which I gladly accepted. The real fight was around you, the fact I got you most of the time is because your father does travel allot. He was furious, he didn't want a lesbian taking care of his child and even wanted to prove you were just as homophobic as he was.--"
"But I'm not homophobic! I don't even know if I like boys or girls! And I believe that love must be mutual!" I shouted.
"So you choose the same path like me? Being bisexual until you know for sure?" she asks me and I only nod. "Is that the reason you started refusing to go to him?" "That and... He told me every time I was there you were a filthy lesbian, but the last time he told me I was a slip up, and that hurt."
"Yugi, even if you come home with a lovely girl, or a wonderful man, I will always support you, and the same counts for grandpa. And now it's time for bed, you have school tomorrow, so try to sleep." She says softly kisses my head walks out and closes the door from my room.
I close my eyes and fall in again a very restless sleep.
When I wake up I see I overslept, it's 10 am! So I like a nutcase I grab my stuff and fall almost from the stairs when I during the dressing ran down.
Grandpa catches me by the collar and drags me to the kitchen and forces me to sit down and starts to fix me some pancakes.
"School called this morning, they pull you back this year." Grandpa says.
"What Why?"
"You are too far behind to continue now, and because they think you are a year too young to handle this class my boy."
"That's nonsense! I always managed even when Atem was still there and we had all those adventures! I was always at front! And Atem refused to do my work for me so I never cheated!" I shout. "I'm the youngest in class, but was always a straight A student. It's because I was sick so much last year, I could not attend classes."
"I know, and your mother is now there to talk with the headmaster to see if there is a way for you to graduate this year with your friends."
"And why didn't you wake me?"
"We tried Yugi, you didn't hear the alarm, and with us hitting spoons and pots against each other with still no response, you were knock out completely from the world. So your mom decided you would stay home today. You already sleep badly, so a little more sleep will only help you son." Grandpa says when he scoots a pile of pancakes on my plate together with my meds a glass of water and a cup of orange juice.
When I am ready with my breakfast mama arrives home. "Hey honey." She says cheerful. "Now, first coffee and then I tell you what the headmaster and I decided.
I fix for mama grandpa and myself a coffee and when I served them we sit. "Well, the reason why they want to pull you back this year is because you missed to much classes to pass, But the headmaster and I know Ryou is like you a straight A student, he offered us to help you study so after school hours he comes to tutor you. That means you must work hard."
Next she turns to grandpa. "Dad, because Yugi needs to get his grades back up, and he missed allot of homework, he cannot help you in the shop until he has his grades back."
"But Akiko.-"
"No dad. Yugi may be younger by a year than his classmates and friends, he still is a good student, and if he and Ryou can keep working to pull his grades back up he can graduate with his friends. But he has two months' time to pick up six months of work. So he needs all his free time to study."
"Grandpa, Joey always is willing to help if you give him free cards." I push in. "I even want to call him for you. But please, I want to pass."
"Very well, but I call joey myself, you young man better start to study now." Grandpa says with a smile, I smile back and run to my room to start with the homework I didn't turn in yet.
Ryou managed to cram in everything I missed the past six months in, in less than one month. All that in combination with the homework from every day today. It was allot of work but it paid off. I have proven I'm ready to leave this school, maybe not with all classes as an A student, but definitely with good grades.
"Mama started dating again. Yesterday she brought a woman along, and what a pinch. When she was away I told her I didn't want her as bonus mom." I say and rub my still sore cheek where she pinched me.
"What did your mom say?"
"She was glad it was only a date. She also didn't like that woman's attitude." I say and rub my cheek again. "I think she used her nails."
"I was wondering why you looked like you had a toothache. I wanted to tell you to eat less sweets." Ryou responds while looking at my cheek. "Yes you do have a scratch. But it's barely noticeable."
"Ha-ha very funny, you know I can't live without my sweets. Even Atem did find that funny. I'm a sweet tooth, and both mama and the dentist find it still a miracle I didn't have any holes in my 17 almost 18 years." I respond. "I only wonder why they always aim for my cheeks."
"Yeah, we all do love to see your sugar rush again, you didn't have those in a while. And do you really not know why they always pinch your cheeks? Come on Yugi you are almost 18 and still have a baby face, that's freaking adorable! And while the others and I already need to shave you still have non facial hair!" Ryou responds.
"Yeah being the baby in the group has his benefits huh? I believe I never do want to shave." I laugh and think back to all my male classmates with toilet paper snippers on they're faces.
"But how is it down south?" Ryou asks boldly.
"Is yours just as white as your head? You tell me first and I tell you." I retort boldly.
"It is, even my legs and armpits have white hair." He says with a blush. "And with you?"
Well I always thought with my thick hair up here, it would be just as bushy down there, but also there none it's just as smooth as my face, I have very thin hair on my legs, and that's all."
"How?"
"According to mama, it's something genetics, I don't know." I say.
It's silent for a while, I'm wrestling with a math problem and when I finished it, Ryou starts speaking again. "Hey Yugi, Malik called me yesterday, he told me Marik returned somehow."
"Huh? But how? I thought he was gone with Bakura and Atem."
"Well, Malik told me he saw a shooting star and did a wish, three days later Marik stood there in his birthday costume at the door. Maybe if we ever see a shooting star we should wish also?"
"Hmm maybe….. Ryou? What If Bakura returns, what would you do?"
"First I would punch him in the face for leaving me alone, and then I think I would kiss him until oblivion."
"You're so gay." I respond like a joke. But I know as only one in our group he truly is gay.
"Well not as gay as you are dear friend."
"I'm not gay, I'm bi."
"Why do you lie to yourself, the whole group sees you're gayer then I am."
"I……… I………How?"
"The way you act. If you ever find a boyfriend, you definitely are the girl."
"Even I can mount someone, only NOT Rebecca!"
"She was way too robust for you, how did you break up with her?"
"I told her that I would turn 18 soon, and I didn't want the mark for paedophile, she is four years younger than I am. She believed I would wait for her. But I said no."
"You need someone who can handle your feelings and emotions, someone like…….." Ryou says and stops because he knows it still hurts.
"Atem could." I finish his sentence softly. Truth hits me hard and I start to cry.
"Oh Yugi, even you find your true love, and if it isn't Atem, he will love and take care of you like Atem did." Ryou says softly and lays an arm around my shoulder.
"And what about you?" I ask while I lay my head against his chest.
"I'll be fine……. Maybe, if I come out of college and we both didn't find our self a lover, we could become partners?" he asks me more than suggesting it.
I think about it, I always found Ryou an attractive man, but to marry him? Should I do it? "Yugi, with a bit of luck we don't have to, it's only when it's a if. And we don't have to marry."
"Okay, If we both don't have a partner we become partners after college, and I agree because we both aren't alone then." I agree with a sniff
"Good, now wipe your tears. And accept what you are. Little One."
"Hey! Only Atem is allowed to call me that!" I shout and throw a pillow towards Ryou, a pillow fight follows and we both have fun. It almost felt if the depression was gone completely.
Ryou saw a shooting star, and this morning he told me with a flushed face Bakura returned in his birthday suit, and they had a fun evening together. My heart felt a pain, I could not face him and ran out of class and closed myself in the bathroom, were I cried.
My depression wasn't over yet, it was Joey who came find me at the end of the day, he brought me home, that night I sat at my desk and when I looked out of the window, I saw a shooting star. I folded my hands together bowed my head and started to pray.
"Tiny star, Little star please hear my wish, I wish to see Atem as a birthday gift which is coming soon. Tiny star, Little star please hear my wish. Give me my Atem back. Thank you Tiny star Little star."
After that wish I took a PJ and went for a bath, thinking over my wish, and hoping it would come true, but will he show up like the others? But naked? I feel myself flush and ignore the feeling down south, after I went to bed, that night Atem was teasing me in my dreams, but in a pleasant way.
I decided to help grandpa in the store, and follow online classes to become a game producer. Mama agreed with that.
She found a new girlfriend, one who didn't pinch my cheeks, and she and I can tease each other without hurting each other. Seko even made it her mission to help me come out my depression, however…. How hard she tries, I know only Atem can get me back to the fullest. One day when we were having a tickle fight I yelled her out for bonus mom, much to mama's agreement.
Anzu, Joey, and Honda now also know I'm gay, yes I admit it, when I spoke to Ryou and he was home, I suddenly had the urge for a porn just to see if he was right, I decided to watch lesbian porn first, it didn't arouse me. Okay then male female? I look to both genders, but only the male attracts me. Okay, Gay porn…….. Yeah that did the trick, my tiny friend grew.
Anyway, my friends know, and only Honda looked troubled, but when I told him there was nothing more than friendship between him and me, he relaxed and started joking around again.
A month after I did that wish I must admit I did forget that I did that, graduation, and then a few days later my birthday, are around the corner, and because it was so short behind each other, mama and I decided to do both party's at once, the same friends where invited for both parties so it saves money and a lot of trouble.
It's Kaiba who suddenly shows up during my party, I know for sure I didn't invite him, but let him in, because I was curious what he brought me in that huge box that was almost bigger then himself.
Carefully his men brought the box inside, and before I could unwrap it, Kaiba ordered me to wait until everybody was there.
What confused me, he gave me another present, and this one I could already open up. The package was the newest edition duel disk, he even gave Joey and Bakura one.
"I hope you will pick up your duelling soon, everybody wants to fight against the king of games." Kaiba says in a tone I only heard him use once when Mokuba was younger and he was very concerned about him.
"I try Kaiba." I said but knew it would be hopeless, I lost my lust to play duel monsters.
When all my friends are in, even till my happy surprise Malik and Marik. Kaiba nudges Mokuba, he needs to give me the big present.
"Yugi, although we didn't see us a full year, we understand the situation you were living in, losing your best friend, who is more than just a best friend is very difficult. This gift is something that isn't from us, this gift asked us to help us take them to you. And now it's time to open this gift, and hopefully make your wish come true." Mokuba says and steps away.
I see grandpa, mama and Seko enter the living room, and they nod, grandpa and I both told mama about Atem and why I felt the way I do.
I take the crimson red lint and pull, the sides from the box fall down and with a big bouquet of roses I see the tan hands and crimson red eyes from my closest friend. Atem.
I only say. "I don't understand, how?"
Atem smiles opens his mouth and says. "Tiny star, Little star please hear my wish, I wish to see Atem as a birthday gift which is coming soon. Tiny star, Little star please hear my wish. Give me my Atem back. Thank you Tiny star Little star." Tears start to stream and in a swift move Atem throws the roses to mama which she catches, al because he must catch me.
"Please tell me I didn't mishear your wish Aibou." He whispers softly in my ear.
"No, I did make that wish." I sob and clung to him for dear life.
"Little one, I won't leave you, I promise." He says and kisses me on my front head. "And someone needs to keep those two in check." He ads pointing to Bakura and Marik. "Although I think Malik and Ryou do a good job themselves?" Malik and Ryou laugh and nod.
"But papers? And schooling? And--"
"Already taken care of, when he arrived at our doorstep a month ago holding nothing but a towel he stole from a neighbour to hide his junk, and asked us to help him with the necessary papers and stuff, we of course did help him." Mokuba says.
"We bought him clothes they are in a suitcase in your room, he has his own duel disk, I only don't know if he is house trained." Kaiba says.
"House trained or not, I somehow see he can help my son, so if he is not, then we will train him mister Kaiba." Mama says.
"Mama! Kaiba! He isn't a dog he is a human being…. For real this time?" I start scolding mama and Kaiba but then turn insecure to Atem.
"Yes Little One, for real." Atem says and closes me in his arms again, I lay my head on his chest and do indeed feel the heartbeat, I feel the warmth he radiates, and I feel safe in his arms.
Mama putted the roses in a vase and placed them on my bedroom, while we were partying.
It was a fun party, but I'm not ready for bed yet, so Atem and I sit down together and talk. I know Atem is concerned, he knows of my meds for holding my weight in check, but not for my meds which I need to take to keep my red blood cells in check, for the depression, panic and anxiety attacks, for sleeping, and the heavy painkillers for the headaches.
The meds for headaches, panic and anxiety attacks, are for only use when needed, but still I need to take a lot off pills every morning.
"Yugi what happened to you Little One?" Atem asks me right away when we are alone and sit down.
"I didn't do well when you left, nightmares, panic and anxiety attacks, sleeping went downhill badly, and I'm suffering a depression, on top of that I was hospitalised because I had to little red blood cells to keep me alive and the worst migraines making me sick."
"I see, you also lost weight, do you take your meds for that Sweetie?" he asks, and I didn't hear the sweetie part just yet.
"I did, but with all the other meds I need to take now, the effect is taken down, but according to the doctor I still are healthy enough to prevent anorexia. And with the help of Ryou and Malik I am slowly healing. Some of the meds I only need to take when necessary."
"And do you need to take all the meds for the rest of your live?"
"No, when I'm able to recover from the depression and sleep restful again the meds for the depression and sleeping can stop. The blood meds? It depends I need to go to the hospital in a couple of days, to see if I produce enough red blood cells on my own, and if that's the case every month, if so I can build these off. The med for the weight, they stay until I'm old."
"Wow, that tough Sweetie. You said Ryou and Malik helped you, couldn't the others help you also?"
"No, because they didn't know what was going on up here." I say and point to my head. "They don't know what it is too loose they're Yami like Ryou, Malik and I did. And they all thought Ryou and Malik had less trouble because they're Yami's where evil in a way."
"That's what everybody thinks, but they didn't share a body where we did Sweetie, somehow if you have two spirits in a body you grow attached to each other."
"Attached in what kind of a way Atem?" I ask a bit confused but also have a feeling I know the answer.
"You probably noticed it with Ryou and Malik, they are having a relationship with they're Yami, and Malik was a true straight male before he got Marik as Yami." Atem says softly. "I know you was bi before we met, is that changed?"
"After you left I didn't had the interest for porn for a long time, I looked a few weeks ago and what girls first could get me hard, they now don't anymore."
"And males?" Atem asks with a strange curiosity I never seen him have before. I decide to be honest. But feel myself go blushing before I even can give an answer, I still try though. "The… they…. Uhm… I….."
Atem sees me struggling, cubs my face in his hand and kisses me. The butterflies are working to leave my body, the place they go to….? My manhood. I feel Atem's hand discovering my torso, slowly going down and stop on my manhood. When he leaves my lips he only says. "Be mine please? Only then I can stay."
"But Anzu?" I ask, remembering they were talking and she was using her look when she finds someone attractive.
"I rejected her, I told her I am gay, and in love for my Hikari. She took it well thankfully."
"She is stronger than I was when she rejected me." I told him softly and start yawning.
"I think it's time for bed, do you have a spare blanket and pillow for me?" he asks me softly.
"Why?"
"Well if I remember correctly, you have no spare bedroom, so I probably need to sleep on the couch."
"And scare grandpa to death in the morning? No way you sleep with me." I say and am not willing to let Atem go. At all.
Together we walk up, and mama is coming out her room. "I hope this isn't a nightly ritual boys." She says with a tired voice.
"No mama, we were just heading to bed. After tomorrow we go sleep on time. I promise."
"Good. Atem? I need a little word with my son first." Atem nods and walks into my bedroom. I look to mama.
"Mama, I don't want him to sleep on the couch." I start to defend.
"Are you two dating?" she asks and I nod, I know I didn't gave Atem my answer yet, but for me he is my boyfriend. "Then no sex, or you two move out. And when you do, use condoms. Off to bed."
"Thanks mama. Good night." I say softly
Atem sits on my bed, still in his clothes, when I walk in he looks up. "Second degree?"
"Only a warning, no sex before we have our own place to live." I say and walk to my closet. I look to Atem and think we have the same size take out two PJ's and give one to him.
I look a bit around, usually I strip my clothes in my bedroom and when he was a spirit he went into the puzzle if I was getting ready to sleep, he sees me looking and says. "I take the bathroom, so you can dress here."
I nod and Atem walks out, I dress in my PJ and crawl under the blanket, then I hear a knock. "Are you covered?" Atem asks me. "Yeah." I call back and Atem walks in covered with only his PJ pants. "Sorry I don't like to wear shirts when I sleep, if you wish I can pull on a thin top?"
I shake my head. "No it's fine, we both need to be comfortable at night, and I lately tend of throwing out my PJ shirt because I feel too hot for comfort."
"Is there any reason for that?"
"No idea, maybe it's a side effect from all those meds?" I say and point to the bed. "I think we fit both in it because we are small."
"Little one, about my question? I refuse to lay next to you if you don't want to enter a relationship with me." He says and crosses his arms.
"May I show you my answer?" I ask crawl from my bed, and walk forward. He nods. I lay my hand on his shoulder and the other finds its way in his hair pulling it a bit and feeling its softness. My lips find the way to his lips and we kiss, softly I slide my tongue over his mouth and he gets the hint, he opens his mouth and a heated make out session follows.
Atem forces me to step back until I find my bed with the back of my knees, I let myself carefully slide down on the bed. I feel him following me. He guides me to lay down, lays next to me and then we leave our make out session free. He pulls the blanket over the both of us and together we find a comfortable way, he lays a bit higher than me so I can lay with my stomach against his, it gives me a very save feeling. (A/N See cover picture only with Atem's stomach bare)
After one last kiss and hug from Atem, I feel my eyes falling close, and for the first time since Atem left me, I have a very good night rest without nightmares.
A few days have past, and since Atem came back, I only had good night's sleeps, and the depressed feeling is ebbing away.
Today I need to go to the hospital to speak with my therapist there, and to see if my red blood cells are up to date, Atem is going with me to Tokyo, I'm glad Atem already took his driver's license when he was with the Kaiba brothers so he is driving because I'm to nerves.
We need to stay a few days for if they need to give me another bag, and when I'm good, we planned on staying and have some fun as newfound lovers.
When we enter the hospital, I first go for the blood taking, they take three tubes and I get a cookie, which I wolf down in a few seconds. Being sober since yesterday, I'm hungry. In return I give them the notebook with my food schedule and outside time so they can study it if I do things well. Next we go to the psychic ward.
This is the first time I ask if someone can attend the therapy session because Atem has questions, questions I cannot answer. And we are in luck.
"Hello Yugi, you look good today." Miss Sukati says when we walk in and take place. "And who is this young man?" she ads looking to Atem.
"I do feel good, and remember when I told you about that very close friend? Who needed to stay in Egypt? Well this is he, and he is aloud to stay this time." I say with a smile.
"Ahh Atem correct? And do you have a last name? Yugi didn't seem to remember it."
"That's correct. And it's Sennen" Atem responds.
"And why did you bring Atem, Yugi?" she asks me.
"Atem has some questions about how to handle me when I'm having any kind of an attack." I whisper softly.
"And is there a reason why you want to know how to handle him?" she asks Atem.
"Well, consider the fact the two of us became lovers on his birthday, and I'm nowhere of planning to ever leave him again, I want to help him recover."
"That's sweet, most relationships end because the lover doesn't want to help, and they think it's too much of a pressure." She says and study's Atem closely. "But since I believe Yugi found himself a ringer, I can only agree."
"Thank you." We both say.
"Have you ever seen Yugi having a panic or anxiety attack before?"
Atem thinks back and then shakes his head. "No, but I did need to give him comfort him often enough if they bullied him at school, he always was a sensitive boy."
"What did you do to give him comfort?"
"I hugged him, drawing circles on his back, and with soothing words I told him he was worthy. It always helped calm him down."
"And there you know what to do."
"That's all?" Atem asks confused.
"That's all. He may need still need therapy, and I'm looking for someone in Domino who truly help him without him wanting to hurt himself. But that is for when he doesn't have to travel to here no more."
We talk a bit more together, and then it's time, up to my next appointment. Atem takes my hand and I guide him to the ward where I have my examination, at the desk I sing myself and Atem in.
When it's my turn I walk in the room, a grown already on the examination table, I go behind the curtains and redress, my clothes find their way in my backpack. It's a routine because I always needed to stay the night. When I'm redressed I go sit on the table and wait until the doctor arrives, with the good or the bad news.
15 minutes have past when doctor Heart steps in. "Good afternoon Yugi, I see you brought your cousin?" he says.
"No sir, he is my boyfriend, and we are in no kind of a way related." I say a bid nervous.
"Very well, it seems the reproduction from your blood cells start to work, but you still don't have enough."
"But I always take my meds, go outside for vitamin D and follow the diet you gave me! What do I wrong?" I say desperately knowing I need to stay the night.
"You do nothing wrong, the meds you have to keep your weight in check do, and we know you need to take them, but we want to give you a different kind for those, they don't force each other down." The doctor says and points to the table, I lay down.
He listens to my heart and lungs, taps my belly, next he weighs me and sees how tall I am.
"How is him weighing and see how tall he is helping?" Atem asks.
"To see which dose we can provide him with. And with a bit of luck, this is the last time you need to stay over Yugi."
I only nod, tears stream down my cheeks, I hoped I could have fun with Atem before going home.
Um, if he has enough blood cells, does he need to check up again?"
"If he has next month enough red blood cells we can start by building of those meds, it means he still needs to follow these checks every month. Until he doesn't relay on them anymore. Then the checks for his weight goes back to Domino hospital, or wherever he may live then."
"You mean he doesn't go to Domino now for the weight checks?"
"No we figured it took allot from Yugi, travelling between the one and the other hospital his health seemed to go downhill, so we decided to take them as well. Together with the battle against his depression of course. If we had any way to give Yugi the blood cells in Domino, we allowed him to do it there. Come on Yugi, let's get you a room. Do you have a hotel to stay over?"
Atem is gathering my backpack and his own before he says. "If its okay, I'd wish to stay with Yugi, he has suffered enough, so I want to be able to give him comfort."
"Okay, then we have a sleeping couch for you, and hate to say it, but food on this ward is only for the patients."
"That's okay, if he has the ivy, can we go to the restaurant here together?" Atem remembered mom told him she took me with her and treated me with sweets. Doctor heart nods.
My room is ready, it has soft blue walls, and mom told me once the sleeping couch isn't that uncomfortable, so Atem should be doing fine. A nurse is putting in the ivy, I don't look, and squeeze in Atem's hand. "Damn Sweetie, you still hate needles huh? Next time I give you first left and then my right hand."
"Why not the other way around?" I ask with a small giggle. And hear the nurse giggle also.
"Because I need left to write and you squeezing me harder now then you did an hour ago." I need to be able to drive us home tomorrow." He says with nothing but sweet love in his eyes.
"But if your left handed? How do you duel?" Kaiba offered his help only when Atem would duel him and Atem agreed with that.
"He made me a duel disk for left handed people. And when you feel like it, I want to duel you Sweetie."
"That's a deal, I want to try my new duel disk, it would be a shame if I don't use it."
"Ow you'll love it, it has some nice tricks."
"Okay, you're ready, you know the rules, be back before 9pm and report you're back, don't leave the hospital, and behave." The nurse says and ruffles my hair.
Atem looks confused. "They bring in the bag blood cells before bed, so I can wander around now, and because somehow it makes me tired. Only the first time they needed to give them to me the moment I was brought in, not so strange if to think I nearly had any left." I explain.
"Do they even know what the problem started?" "Until today not a single clue."
"But are you aloud to eat now if you may wander around?"
"I am now, I only need to be sober for the blood taking."
"Okay Sweetie, don't forget to call mam, it took her allot when I offered to go with you in stead of her."
"Can you blame her? She went with me for the past 9 months, putted her dating aside for me, suddenly you arrive and you tell her to focus on her date."
"Well, she to needs a life Sweetie, she was very young when she got you and never truly got the chance of having proper dating, I want to give her that while she is still young."
It's true, mama got pregnant when she was 15, married at the same age, got me when she was 16, divorced when she was 20. And with her being 34? I indeed can blame mama for wanting to date. I smile, and Atem knows he was right.
The both of us wander a bit in the hospital, after I changed in my PJ's we talk allot together and enjoy each other's company. Around dinner time we walk to the restaurant and eat, next Atem treats me for ice cream. Then it's time to return to my room.
Beforehand I called mama and told her I needed to stay the night again. She asked if she needed to come, I refused told her to do something fun with Seko and we would see each other the next evening.
On the ward they put in the ivy with the blood cells, I say good night to Atem and fall asleep soon after.
That was indeed the last time I needed to stay in the hospital, the meds to get the red blood cells in check where slowly build off, every week I needed to take one tablet less, and within three months I was med free from those.
It took me another year to recover fully from my depression, and with that, except for my weight meds, I was med free. I only need one time a year back to the hospital to see if my red blood cells produce themselves like they need to do.
It were two tough years, granted the first was the toughest, but when Atem came back, I recovered and I was willing to recover.
When we came home that last time in the hospital, I somehow felt to duel. So that's what Atem and I did, I held my title of the king of games.
I believe it was a week after our fun duel, when Kaiba held a tournament, Atem and I attended and again I kept my title.
In the next tournament I lost my title King of games, but they decided the second in row would become Prince or Princes, depended of the gender of course, the title prince of games became mine.
The tournament that followed was more fun, it was a tag duel, Atem and I of course partnered up, we made a tag strategy together. And both fought the best we could, we won.
All my friends saw me grow back to the happy Yugi they met a long time ago, they also were happy we were lovers.
During an interview we got the question if we were lovers, so Atem and I told them. What shocked me was a man I didn't see in a while. He got mad and shouted. "It's that whore of a mothers fault you are gay! I hope she and you rot in hell!"
I stayed calm, but on the inside I panicked. "It's a shame you think of that beautiful woman, who you were once in love with. I can say I'm proud she brought me to the world and taught me the valuable lesson to be myself, and choose who I want to love myself, No matter the gender. If you now please would leave the room father, this is about duel monsters! Not a discrimination centre for homosexuality." My father was dragged out of the room, later we heard he was fired and now lives on the streets.
When father was dragged out, I lost in front of the audience my composure. They stopped the live broadcast and allowed me to calm down, the audience saw how Atem did sooth me, how he spoke silent words in my ear to calm me down. And when I was recovered, he and I shared a sweet and loving kiss.
The audience awed. The broadcast came back up and the interview resumed.
"Yugi, you were out for a year, what's the reason for that? Are you willing to share your story?"
I looked to Atem, he looked to me and gave me a kiss, we suspected this question and made a story together.
"I went on holiday to Egypt because I always wanted to see where my grandfather worked. Atem and I became friends on high school and he needed to return because he is Egyptian, he and I were almost close enough to be called lovers, and it hurt me dearly to leave him behind.
For still unknown reasons I became deadly sick, I was hospitalised for a very long time until I was recovered, and because Atem could not be there for me like he was before, I also got a depression. It was thanks to Kaiba I was reunited with Atem two years ago when I became 18."
"And how do you feel now?"
"I'm happy to tell you I'm almost fully recovered, the little setback like you saw a moment ago is the almost part." I smile.
"Okay, before we let the two of you go home we have one more question. Atem, usually they say you need to marry if you want to stay with your lover, does those conditions count for you as well? Do you need to return to Egypt for certain times and then you can return again to see Yugi?"
"It does, but having Kaiba as cousin gives me some benefits, like I don't have to travel back to Egypt and stay behind three months. However." Atem says stand from his seat and goes to one knee.
"Because I have to prove we are lovers eventually. My dearest Yugi, I loved you the moment we saw each other the very first time, and I hoped if you would love me back the same way, only not as lovers, but as husbands?" When he did that I slapped my hands for my mouth, tears stream down my cheeks and I looked only to him, the audience? They were not there, it was only me and Atem. And the ring he held in a tiny black box in between us.
"I do." I brought out with a choking sound.
Atem slides the ring around my finger and when he stands he picks me up bridal style, and again we share a live kiss, the audience loudly cheering and clapping and aaaawwwwwing.
Atem carries me to our car, and we drive home, where mama, Seko, grandpa, and all our friends are waiting for us in front of the game store.
"That took some guts Atem, to do that in front of an audience!" Joey shouts.
"And I'm happy I did, thanks mom for me having your sons hand." Atem says and hung mama.
"Of course, you saved my baby boy."
"Wait? You planned this?" I asks stunned. And Atem nods.
"you truly are the king of games if you pull a stunt like this without me knowing." I say.
"Poker face Baby, it's all in the poker face." He says with his devilish smirk.
Rebecca who showed up a bit later slapped me. "You was supposed to wait for me! You promised!" she yelled.
"No Rebecca, I never promised, I said I didn't want to wait 4 years, and as you also saw on the broadcast, I'm gay and I'm very much in love with Atem." I said to her.
We married not long after that broadcast, and mom had a special surprise for us in store. She and grandpa moved out, grandpa was too old to manage the store, and both Atem took it over. I retired from duelling, and focussed myself on my married life and the game I started to create.
Kaiba gave me a head start, and it worked amazing. My online game Millennium monsters became a worldwide success, and the fact I was no longer the prince of games because of my retiring was soon forgotten, I was now famous for something I created myself.
The game store also became more famous, with the king of games managing it, and his husband being the owner of the famous online game, you get the picture, the store is packed every day with customers who want both our autographs. Because we didn't make any money with that Atem and I decided we only would provide the customers a autograph if, and ONLY if they did buy something.
It was a difficult decision but a necessary one to keep going.
I look to my now already three years sweet husband, he is setting the table, grandpa mama and my now bonus mom come over for dinner, they and Atem are in for a big surprise.
When the doorbell rings he goes to open the door, and I ran to the bedroom grandpa used before, where Atem and I moved into when they moved out. I take the gifts I created. And today, they get it.
"I don't know, he ran upstairs when you rang the door." I hear Atem say.
"Sorry, natures called." I use as excuse and walk down the stairs.
During dinner we have minor conversation, having fun about random things, when dinner is over I decide it is time.
"Before we start desert, I want to tell you guys something." I say and I give them all the little gift I created with the help of Pegasus.
Atem and grandpa obviously are confused. "What a strange duel card." Atem says. "What does it mean? Six more months."
Mama looks up, tears in her eyes. "Twins?" is all she asks. And I nod. Mom also has tears in her eyes and they both stand up and hug me, I lay they're hand on my stomach.
"Mama, if my brother was still born, how would you call him?" I ask.
"Heba, but you would receive those names even if the two of you where girls or a pair. Where go they sleep?"
"In your old room, and if another comes he or she gets my old room."
"Yugi, I know allot of things in this modern world right now, but could you please explain to me, what for a strange duel monsters card this is?" Atem asks me.
"Well, that isn't a card to use in a game, that card shows the little ones growing in my stomach right now."
"You mean? I become daddy?" I nod. "How did you hide it so well Sweetie?" "Poker face Baby, it's all in the poker face." I respond with a evil smile. "Although sometimes it was a real struggle to go out your death grip without throwing up on you and waking you up.
Yeah, I surprised them, but when I got the baby's they also surprised me, I wasn't expecting twins, no I got triplets. All three boys, happy and healthy.
We called them. Heba, Hikari and Yami.
Shortly after the triplets turned ten, they for the first time faced death, we all were there we all cried around his bed, and grandpa died peacefully, knowing his own family but also my friends who he saw as his adopted family where there. And he was so glad that he had so many great grandchildren of his own and from his adopted grandchildren.
This time I stayed good, I faced minor panic attacks but Atem could bring me to the right track again.
When the kids became confused about their sexuality, we told them the same thing mama told me. No matter the gender, if you truly love each other, then go for it, but! If you want to find out which gender you like the most by having sex, don't make the same mistake you grandma did and use a condom.
The kids love to see us sleep together, after the first night since Atem came back we kept sleeping in the same position, he a bit above me and our stomachs towards each other. Yami who truly honours his name even made some money out of that, he made a picture and sold it to the media.
We of course grounded him, and this time he was allowed to keep the money, but if we figured they did it ever again we would confiscate the money. Yami tried it once more when we were taking a shower together. Atem still has his shadow magic burned Yami's camera. And Yami needed to save for a new one himself. He never did it again. Yami became a practical joker, we still try to figure out who he has it from.
We also thought the kids the love for games, and to be gamers like us, it was Hikari who took over the title king of games from Atem, it was a fair fight during that tournament. They both truly gave everything they had. Hikari followed Atem's steps with taking over the game shop.
Heba, followed my steps, he also became a game producer. He and I still battle over who is the game creator king, for now that title belongs still to me with millennium monsters, and he hold the second place.
All our friends eventually got married.
Joey and Mai, they married a year after me and Atem, and it took them a year to become pregnant from a girl the called Akiko
Serenity and Honda, they married two years after us, they needed to wait for a year, because Serenity was pregnant from their son Tristan.
Anzu and Duke. Married also two years after us. They got twin girls, Bibi and Mimi.
Ryou and Bakura. They never married, but it seemed to be a Hikari thing to become pregnant, they also have twins a boy Tom, and a girl Simi.
Malik and Marik. They also never married. They have two twins. Two boys Mahad and Shada. Two years later they got two girls, Isis and Mana.
Rebecca ended up with Mokuba. When I heard that I was glad she finally was able to let me go.
Seto? He found a girl who looked like Kisara, and also was called like that.
When I look at my family, I'm glad to say, Atem saved my life again.