Only Him

I got the idea for this story when I was watching one of my music videos. The music video uses the song "Everything You Want" By: Vertical Horizon. You don't have to see the video to listen to the song, but if you want to see the video it's on www(DOT)animemusicvideos(DOT)org. Search the user name InuyashaLuvsKagome and it's one of the 37 music videos posted. Just look for the song on the side.

Summary: After Inuyasha and Kagome share a first kiss, Inuyasha and the others are presumed dead. Kagome gets stuck in the feudal era without anyone by her side. What will she do? Are the others really dead?

Couple: Inuyasha and Kagome (Based)

Warning: Sexual Content

Rating: M for Mature

Disclaimer: I do not own Inuyasha or any of the characters associated with the series.

Chapter 1: The First Kiss

Kagome walked ahead of the others. They were on their way back from what had been the longest journey of all. The final battle with Naraku had ended a week earlier. After some recuperation they had decided it was time to go back. Everything would change now. They all knew that.

Kohaku had died. He had been buried with the rest of the dead demon slayers. Sango had cried for a little while, but she had prepared for this ending and would have to live with it.

Miroku's wind tunnel had disappeared. He felt strange looking down and not seeing his hand covered, but now he had Sango. The two of them would go on and makea family. They would love each other. Miroku made an oath to himself not to cheat. He loved Sango to much to hurt her.

Shippo would live with Kaede and become her little helper. That was decided a while before the battle. Kagome could not take care of him since she would have to return to her time after the jewel was purified. That was the most touchy subject.

Kagome had chosen the modern era. As much as she loved everyone in the feudal era, she knew that it was not where she belonged. Only now was she feeling the full blown pain of her decision. She could not face the group, especially Inuyasha.

Kikyo was now dead. She had died in the battle with Naraku. Her ashes had blown away before they could be salvaged. Inuyasha did not know what he would do with his life. Searching for the jewel was all he had to live for. He had wanted to become a full demon. He could always steal the jewel from Kagome and do such a thing, but he was born a hanyou and decided he would stay that way.

Kagome kicked a rock. She was shaking all over. She kept a fake smile on her lips, but the others were not fooled. She was through with this life. She could finally live as a normal teen. That was what she had always wanted, right? She tried telling herself that, but even she didn't believe it. She was much to in love with Inuyasha to want to leave him.

"Kagome?" Sango walked forward at a quicker pace to catch up to her friend. Kagome didn't look at her, but instead kept her eyes on the road. "Are you hungry? I could ask Inuyasha if we could stop for lunch?"

"No, I'm not really hungry." Kagome beamed another fake smile towards her friend. Sango returned the smile, but frowned when Kagome looked back ahead of her. Looking back, Sango noticed Inuyasha. He kicked a rock, just as Kagome had done. He faced the ground as he walked. He was probably feeling the same as Kagome. Sango knew how they cared about each other. To have to give up such a love was unbelievably difficult. Sango loved Miroku, but she knew, herself, that Inuyasha and Kagome had a deeper, longer love. Maybe one day Sango would have that with the monk, but for now things were simpler for them.

"We're almost there..." The demon slayer tried to brighten up the mood, but to no avail. It actually seemed to make things worse. Kagome flinched at the reality. The closer they got to the village, the closer Kagome got to saying goodbye to the past.

The miko saw the village now. She knew Kaede would be happy to see them and everyone would love to know about Naraku's demise. It really was exciting news, but Kagome could only smile moments after Naraku was defeated before reality was thrown in her face again.

Later

Kagome stood by the stream where fish jumped and thewater sparkled. It was a nice spring day for the creatures that roamed, just not for any of the friends who circled Kagome. Sango, Miroku, Shippo, Kirara, Kaede, and Inuyasha waited patiently for Kagome to find a wish that would purify the sacred object.

Kagome stared at the jewel as it glowed in her hands. It was a pearl color. Her touchhad erased all of the evil from it. She looked around as the people and demons alike looked back. What could she wish for? She came to Inuyasha's face. His ears were slightly flattened against his head. She didn't know what he was thinking about, but she wished from the inside she did.

"I wish..." Kagome brought her voice down to a whisper. "I wish that I never forget about my friends from the past, especially Inuyasha." No one heard this wish except for Kagome and Inuyasha. Inuyasha's ears twitched. He had barely heard it. Kagome had probably not meant for him to have heard it, but he did and there was no turning back now.

The jewel glowed a bright light. Kagome looked upon it, knowing her wish had come true. She dropped the jewel, needing to use her hands to shield her eyes from the light. After what seemed like forever, the jewel stopped its glow and shatteredinto pieces. Everyone stared down at it and it finally turned to dust. The jewel was purified.

Kagome wanted to fall to her knees and cry. She wanted to go back to the beginning. She wanted to go back to two years ago and start all over. She wanted to be fifteen again, not seventeen. If she could go back tobefore Naraku's defeat,she could be with her friends for longer.

Kagome did not fall to her knees like she wanted to. She didn't want the others to feel pain because of her. They deserved better. They could all finally live in peace and so could she. The problem was she didn't want peace. She yearned for adventure. She yearned for the excitement of hunting for jewel shards and fighting demons.

Taking a step back and a deep breath, Kagome smiled at her companions. She clasped her hands together, knowing her palms were sweaty. She was to nervous to speak what needed to be said.

"I..." Her throat squeaked. It was the sound someone made before they started to cry. Everyone recognized that sound. Kagome gulped it back so she didn't do it again. "I guess it's time for me to go." Suddenly her world was spinning. She didn't want this. This was the last thing she wanted. Why did she have to leave? Why was fate being so cruel to her?

Kagome began to fall. She could not keep conscious. Inuyasha rushed forward and grabbed her in his arms as she passed out.

Kagome's Dream

Kagome ran forward and jumped into the stream, never comprehending this would be the same stream where she would purify the jewel. The water was cool on her skin. She felt a fish swim pasther foot and giggled from the tickle.

Kagome looked down into the water. The pebbles below were smooth and standing on them gave the miko the sensation of a foot message. Inuyasha watched her. His haori top sprawled out beside him. It was to hot to be dressed in such thick clothes.

He looked up into the blue sky and then back at Kagome. She swam playfully alone in the waters.

Kagome looked at her hanyou friend and gestured for him to come and join her. He nodded 'no', but she was persistent.

"Oh come on Inuyasha! The water feels great. It'll cool you off."

"I don't need cooling off, woman."

"Please." Kagome put her hands together in a praying position. Inuyasha nodded 'no' once more. Kagome grew slightly irritated. Her face scrunched, before an idea came to her.

She giggled as she began to splash Inuyashawith water as quickly as she could. He jumped back.

"Hey!" He yelled his disapproval. Kagome just giggled on. In the next few moments Inuyasha was in the water splashing Kagome. A smile appeared on his face and glowed from his features. He was happy.

Kagome had never felt so happy as she did on that day.

End Kagome's Dream

Kagome opened chocolate eyes and was faced with a wooden roof. She didn't understand what was going on or where she was until memories flooded her mind. She had fainted after purifying the jewel.

She smelt something familiar. It was Kaede's herbs. She was back in Kaede's hut. They must have taken her there. She wondered how long she was out for.

"Inuyasha..." Was the first word the slipped from her mouth. She turned her head. All of her friends were staring at her with concern. Inuyasha sat the closest. She knew he was the most worried. He always was.

"Kagome..." Shippo slowly walked forward and looked down at the resting priestess.

"You're all right." Sango sighed in relief.

"I... am..." Kagome sat up slowly. Her head pounded. She had definitly not been sleeping the right way. She rubbed the back of her head and then quit paying attention to it. "How long was I out for?"

"About five minutes." Miroku informed. Kagome would have expected to be out longer, but she was glad she wasn't.

"Oh... well... I'm fine." Kagome began to get up. She felt a little fatigued, but other than that she was perfectly normal.

"You're not ready to get up yet." Inuyasha's voice was firm and had a command in it.

"I am and I'm ready to go back to my time." She watched hurt appear in all the eyes in front of her. She was not just losing them, but they were losing her. She wanted to make this goodbye a quick one. If she had to go, there was not point in making a long and depressing farewell.

"Then..." It seemed so hard for Inuyasha to say more. He was going to lose his life in mere moments. Kagome was everything to him. If she left him he would no longer have a reason to live. He wanted to live for her, but he could never tell her that. There was nothing he could do about what was going to happen next. What was the point of making things harder than they were already. "I'll take you." Kagome nodded.

Getting up, Kagome paused. She would need to embrace them all. It was the least she could do. Shippo came first. She hugged him tightly to her, whispering about some hidden pokey. Then came Kirara. She was quick. Kagome pecked her head after a little squeeze. She hugged Miroku. Miroku knew better than to make any perverted moves at a time like this.

"Farewell, my friend."

"Farewell." At this point tears had welled in Kagome's eyes. She next hugged Sango. Sango was like a sister to her so this one hurt a little more than Miroku. She hugged Sango tightly. "Thank you for everything."

"I'll miss you." Sango replied. Kagome finally hugged Kaede. There were no words spoken.

Kagome backed away from them all and stood by the door with Inuyasha.

"Thank you for everything, everyone... I will never forget you. I promise." That was a promise the jewel would make sure she kept.

As Inuyasha and Kagome walked towards the well, memories of the past flashed through both of their minds. Kagome saw the first time she saw Inuyasha pinned to the tree, the first time she met everyone. Fights and jewels. She saw Inuyasha and Kikyo, Inuyasha and her. Inuyasha saw Kagome. Her smile. Her walking beside him. Her encouraging him. Her comforting him. Her crying for him. Her strengths. Her weaknesses. Every loving moment he spent with her. She had changed his life and he would never forget her.

Stopping before the well, Kagome tossed in her backpack. She looked at Inuyasha, knowing perfectly well he would be the hardest to say goodbye to.

Tears now dropped from her eyes, but her face was not scrunched in a crying manner. They just seemed to be coming out naturally.

"I guess this is goodbye." Inuyasha felt a searing pain in his chest. He knew that was would not be easy, but had not expected it to be so hard.

"I guess." Kagome chocked on her own suffering. She looked down at the grass. The grass of the past. This would be the last time she stepped upon it. She clenched her fists. She wanted to say so much to Inuyasha. She had never expected to have so little time.

She wanted to turn back. She wanted to stay longer, maybe another day or so, but she had already said goodbye. She would not go through the pain again. She would not make them all go through that pain again.

"I..." There was one main thing she had to tell Inuyasha. The biggest of all. "I love you." She looked up and into his eyes. They seemed to change from hurt to painful shock. "I'll never forget you."

"I know." Inuyasha recalled her wish. He suddenly found himself placing a hand on Kagome's cheek. He wiped off a tear in a manner that was completely unlike his usual self. "Kagome... you know..." He wanted to say how much he loved her. He wanted to tell her that he would never forget her, but it just wouldn't come out.

"I know." Kagome gave him a smile, one she hoped he would remember. She did not want his last memories of her being of her crying. "Could I maybe... ask you a favor?" Inuyasha nodded, curiously. "Could I kiss you?" She knew how blunt it was, but this was going to be their last moments together. She wanted to feel his lips on her own. She had for so long now. Inuyasha did not answer. He just leaned in and granted her wish. Their lips touched and love swamped both of their souls. This made things harder. It was almost impossible to pull away, but it had to be done.

Kagome pulled back and smiled as brightly as she could. 'So that is what I'm leaving behind?' That was the last thing she wanted to let go of.

"Goodbye..." Kagome stepped back. There was nothing more to be said. She fell back into the well, drilling the look Inuyasha had on his face into her mind.

Blue light surrounded her. She was in her own time again. As she hit the bottom she cried and cried. She would let out all of her pain now, before she went in, and that could take days.

That was a pretty long chapter. Was it a good first chapter?

I know that the last thing I should be doing is starting a new fan fiction, but the thought just came to me. I had to put it on... well on the computer and know what my fans thought of it.