Ellie was crouched on the ground behind a bush. She pulled out a small razor and pressed it to her flesh. As the blood dripped down her arm she swayed a little, feeling light headed. She cried out as he head hit the cold ground but no one could hear her, there was party going on after all. Ellie felt tears slipping down her cheeks as the world faded to darkness.
"Ellie" someone said, there voice sounded as though light years away. "El, oh god, Ellie please wake up" From her daze, Ellie recognized the voice as Alex but she didn't reply.
"Ow" Ellie grumbled as someone lifted her up and began to carry her. She had no idea who it was carrying her but she felt comfortable in his embrace and found her self-snuggling against him.
"Watch her head" Alex snapped. Ellie knew he was putting her down and she made a noise, protesting the loss of his comfortable arms.
"We have to get he home" a deeper voice said. Ellie recognized the voice but could put it with a name or a face. It was familiar and made her warm inside but she still didn't know whom it belonged to. She sighed as a car door slammed and she felt herself moving.
"Ellie" Alex cried, "your awake"
Ellie sat up and realized she was in her room. Alex was sitting in a chair by the window staring at Ellie with an expression mixed between concern and joy. "What happened?" Ellie asked, her head pounding and her memory broken.
"We heard from unnamed sources where you were" Alex informed her, "We went out there and Jay had no idea where you were. Apparently after you down four shots of whiskey you wondered away. We found you passed out, and you were-you were-looking pretty rough."
Ellie gazed down to her arms and saw they were bandaged, "Wow, I am sorry" Ellie sighed letting her head fall back. It was then Ellie remembered the second voice and the tingling feeling it gave her, "Who was with you?"
Alex was looking everywhere but at Ellie, 'Manning and Del Rossi" Alex replied softy.
"Craig!" Ellie cried, "Craig saw me like that, you're kidding?"
"I am sorry, they wouldn't let me go the ravine alone" Alex explained. She paused for a moment then added, 'By the way, Craig is in the living room and he wants to see you"
Ellie felt panicked, she looked like Hell and she knew it. Craig couldn't see her like this, she would die first. "No" Ellie said, "I don't want him here. Tell him to leave"
"El" Alex started but quieted down after Ellie gave her a pointed look. Alex rose from her chair and walked out of the room.
I guess she is asking Craig to leave, Ellie thought, "Good thing to, I just can't deal with Craig right now. I think his pity and rejection could kill what left of me.
Ellie pulled the blankets tightly around her and tried to sleep. She felt tears well up in her eyes and tried to hold them back, "I am tired of feeling this way" Ellie whispered into the pillow, "I am tired of allowing other people hurt me and make me hurt myself. I have to control my own destiny from this moment forward"