Forbidden Fruit

by Tabris Macbeth

The best things in life are the things you're not supposed to have.

2. The Lingering Regrets

Chapter 2: The Lingering Regrets

Her mind wandered to thoughts of other failed romances. She wondered what Juliet must have thought when she kissed her lover that one last time before plunging his dagger into her heart. Death must have been such a sweet thought at the time. But when she was in her dying moments, what then? Did she realize that Romeo had abandoned her, choosing to run away, rather than live with her while enduring the people who did not accept their love? Was she spiteful of his decision? Did she regret ever loving him? Did she hate him for the pain she felt? All this echoed so very familiar to her. The dagger had been plunged in that alley last night. She laid on her bed, slowly dying a painful death.

Maybe there was a reason to pull the dagger out. To figure it out, she had to go back to the beginning, find out how this all started.

Jinx sat upside down on the couch, legs dangling over the back. This was her official manner of sitting when she was bored. Then a newspaper, also upside down, dropped in front of her face.

"Another one for your collection." said Gizmo, not sounding particularly thrilled with Jinx's hobby.

She had been cutting out news articles lately. To be more specific, articles involving the Teen Titans.

Jinx spun around, narrowing missing Gizmo's head as her legs swung down.

"What is your deal?" he said.

"Know thy enemy." Jinx said as she started snipping away, "Wasn't that in The Art of War or something?"

That was only half the reason she had taken a liking to this lazy approach to intelligence collecting. The real reason was in the picture, blurry and half obscured by Cyborg's shoulder.

Jinx was at an odd place in her life. She wasn't the least bit shy, but she found herself reluctant to talk about this. Maybe it was because this concerned an enemy or because this concerned another girl, but she had found herself in love with Raven.

How did this get started? This had to be the worst possible scenario. Raven was a rival, an enemy. Raven was a stable pillar of law and order, and Jinx was a crazy little bedlamite who made a living off of breaking the law. Maybe that was what attracted her to Raven, as weird as that sounded. She was stable, calm, cool, mysterious.

Maybe that was how it started. It was all about curiosity, wasn't it? She just had to know about her, inside and out. Not that was possible. Her obvious legal problems aside, Raven didn't strike her as the open type. From what she remembered of her room, it was dark. Unfortunately, that was the only thing she remembered. Just a whole lot of dark.

"So," she thought, "How do you get into the head of someone like that? Can't just walk up to her and say 'Heya, Ravy! Mind if we chat? Doin' an article for the Hive weekly newsletter. I get extra credit if you tell me your most intimate secrets.'. I wonder what she'd say if I called her that. I wonder if...she's into girls, at all. She might have a thing going with one of her teammates. Like Starfire! Oooh! Dirty thought! Hehe! Her and Starfire...or that one blonde they had with them a while back...or all three of them...hehe..."

As she got lost in her own dirty internal ramblings, she didn't realize she had completely forgotten about clipping out that article and was now staring into empty space, grinning like an idiot.

"You alright?" Mammoth said as he poked her.

"Oh, yeah." she said, snapping back to the outside world, "Just...what if you fell in love with someone, but they were...let's say, on the other side of the law? Y'know, the anti-breaking side?"

"Well, kinda had a thing for Gadget from Rescue Rangers when I was little."

"Eeeew!" Gizmo groaned as he rummaged around in their dorm's mini-fridge, "Too much information!"

"Ditto." said Jinx, "I'm talking about a real person. Like...I guess...a cop, or..."

"A stinkin' Titan!" Gizmo screamed in amusement, "That's it, isn't it! You still have the hots for Cy-butt!"

"I do not!"

"Yeah, right!" Mammoth joined in, "You wanna ride robo-wang!"

Jinx tried not to laugh at that. She was trying to be serious, but it was hard not to giggle at "robo-wang".

"Or maybe Beast Boy?" Mammoth said as he elbowed her, "He can change into big animals! Get what I'm saying?"

"Yes, unfortunately, I do."

"Like a sperm whale?"

"Yeah, I-"

"Or a hump back?" Gizmo snickered.

During the laughter that followed, defecting to the other side seemed ever so appealing.

"Hey, Raven?"

She just had to be sitting next to him, didn't she?

"Remember that time when we first met Aqualad?"

"Is there any reason why you're waxing nostalgic?" she mumbled.

"Dude! I just realized I turned into a sperm whale!"

"Actually, you turned into a hump back!" Cyborg pointed out.

Beast Boy and Cyborg burst into laughter, while Robin- being the leader- tried to retain the dignity and respect the position called for and keep his own smirk from showing. Starfire did what she had learned to do in situations where she didn't know why something was funny: She faked a laugh and leaned in to ask Raven why what they said was funny.

Raven should have called shotgun. She was sandwiched in the car with Beast Boy to her right, and Starfire to her left. One had been telling bad jokes the whole trip and the other was asking why they were funny. She was probably the last person to ask as to why Beast Boy's jokes were funny.

"Sweet merciful God!" she thought, "Please let a crime occurrence! Bank robbery, purse snatching, anything!"

Her prayer was answered in the form of an explosion from a high-end jewelry store only a couple blocks away.

"Just these three?" Beast Boy groaned when they reached the scene, "Dude, we kick you butts every time!"

"He's got a point." Robin shrugged, "Just cut out the middle man and give yourselves up."

Obviously, that wasn't going to happen. The foreseeable fight ensued, Robin and Starfire taking Mammoth while Cyborg and Beast Boy took on Gizmo. Raven had Jinx all to herself.

"I'm really getting sick of this." she said, "You never learn, do you? It's the same tired routine every time."

"Aaaah!" Jinx playfully pouted, "You don't like playing with me, Ravy?"

A chunk of floor exploded in a mess of rubble and black energy.

"Don't call me 'Ravy'."

Jinx pranced around, gracefully doing Raven's attacks and calling her "Ravy".

"What's the matter?" she grinned, "Am I throwing you off? It's just a cute li'l name I made up for you. Does it bother you that much, Ravy?"

Jinx giggled as she fled out the back, Raven in hot pursuit. As Jinx found herself at a dead end in a back alley, Raven realized too late it was a trap.

"Uh oh!" said Jinx in a rather sarcastic tone, "Seems you've got me, Ravy!"

Raven surveyed the area for anything Jinx could use. Seeing as that was just about anything, she froze in her tracks. She would have to wait until she made the next move.

"What? You're just gonna stand there? Maybe...you need something to lure you over here..."

Much to her shock, Jinx undid a couple of buttons on her blouse.

"Oh my! It is a rather hot day, isn't it?" she said as she fanned herself.

"Not really."

"Really? You look hot..."

She did feel hot, for some reason. Must have been the compounding aggravations of the day. She was out of her brand of tea, her reading time was interrupted by a blackout caused when Cyborg had to reboot the security system because of some bootleg game Beast Boy had downloaded, her meditation was interrupted several times by Starfire's need to do some female bonding, and, of course, there was that whole whale thing from only a few minutes ago.

"Do you think I'm attractive?"

Raven slowly walked towards her. She tried to shrug off the question, but with each step, it started snowballing. She was rather attractive, wasn't she? Not that she let her mind wander to such things. But still, she did have a respect for Jinx's interesting sense of aesthetics. She did have a dark, if flamboyant, sense of fashion, and she always handled herself with such grace in battle. She always danced around, either dodging attacks by skill or- most likely- sheer luck. Her powers were potentially even more destructive than Raven's, but she pranced about like a carefree child. It was almost kind of...what was the word? She couldn't quite find the word for it in her mind. She felt it, yes, but...

What was that she felt? She remembered feeling this before, and nothing good ever came from it. It had betrayed her twice. Twice she unwittingly let this foreign emotion get the best of her, and as she found herself only a foot or so away from her opponent, it seemed she might be falling into this trap for a third time.

"You think I'm up to something, don't you?" the seductive sorceress in front of her said, her voice as soft and playful as her smile, "Well...I am!"

It was too late. With a flick of the wrist, an arc of cursed energy soared straight at Raven's face, and there wasn't enough time to react. Much to her surprise, however, nothing happened, except for her hood getting pulled down by a sudden breeze.

"You look good like that." Jinx said, "Not just that priceless look on your face, but with your hood down. Shouldn't be covering up such a pretty face."

Raven had to focus. There was something she wasn't seeing yet. Something she needed to keep her guard up for.

"You've got me. Whatcha gonna do with me?"

To hell with it. Part of her knew what she wanted, knew that she needed it after the day she was having, and it was right there, all wrapped up in black lace.

"You've got me all to yourself. What do you want to do to me?"

Part of her knew what she wanted. She wanted to rip her clothes off, look over her prize. Touch her, feel her, taste her. Get deep, deep inside her.

Raven suddenly noticed something, her heart skipping a beat or two at the realization. She and Jinx were touching. She could feel her warm breath on her lips. If she just leaned in a little...

"I can't." she said.

That playful grin Jinx always wore dropped off. There was a hollow look in her eyes now. Those sweet pink eyes of hers.

Without a word, she pushed Raven aside and ran off into the opposite direction. When her friends asked, she would say Jinx got away.

The night was pretty quiet for a night in the city. The weather man had predicted rain, but despite the dark clouds looming in the sky, there wasn't a drop. It was a nice reflection of Jinx's mood: Dark and gloomy, but not a drop came out. It was brooding, building up inside her, just like rain was building up in those clouds.

She just wandered around the streets, looking for something to do. Maybe she should bust out her teammates, but they would live through the night. Besides, it wasn't as if they couldn't do break out themselves. Right now, she needed a distraction. She knew if she rescued them, they would only get on her case about why she had just disappeared like that.

She couldn't, she wouldn't. She rejected her. It keep stinging each time she thought about it, and she thought about it for the rest of the day. She couldn't have fallen for a criminal, could she? Or a guy, at least? A guy would have made things so much simpler. With a guy, she had a slight chance, even if he normally viewed her as an enemy. But no. She was in love with a girl, and one that- by all logic- hated her guts.

Her aimless wandering inadvertently lead her back to that jewelry store she had hit earlier in the day. The gaping hole was covered in police tape, every shiny, pretty piece of jewelry tucked away somewhere safe. Or at least it was supposed to be, as she caught notice of something on the ground. By some miracle, this earring had somehow managed to avoid detection. Fairly valuable, when Jinx examined it.

"Perhaps today hasn't been a total bust." she said, her usual grin slowly returning.

Her grin was quick to drop back into it's previous frown. Who was she kidding? Some lousy piece of jewelry wasn't going to redeem this day. She tossed the earring back in the store with a sigh. It was a sad state of affairs when she couldn't enjoy a nice, pricey fashion accessory.

She walked down that alley again. That alley where it was all supposed to come together, but all fell apart.

"They always come back to the scene of the crime."

She blinked. Had she heard that, or was that just some wild hope drifting around her mind?

When Raven turned her around and pinned her to the wall, the answer became clear.

"It seems I caught you again." she said with a small smirk.

This wasn't happening, was it? No, this all had to be Jinx's grief stricken mind playing out some delusional little fantasy. Raven pressing herself up hard against her, rubbing up against an exposed leg, her mouth greedily taking in Jinx's. It couldn't be real.

"Wha-" Jinx managed to gasp out.

Raven withdrew for a moment. That look in her eyes...something so ravenous...so hungry...so beautiful...

"Please." she whispered, "I need this."

If she had not been so caught up in the moment, Jinx would have giggled in triumphant glee. That wasn't the case, though, so she grabbed Raven's head, pressing together tender lips and dancing tongues.

The weatherman had been right, after all. Slowly, light droplettes tapped on the ground below, easing those below into what would be a downpour. To Jinx, they felt so icy cold as they hit her hot skin, only serving to drive the assault on her senses harder. Each kiss tasted more and more bittersweet, a taste she couldn't quite identify, but craved so desperately.

The rain began picking up, the drops falling a little harder. As Raven start to run a finger up her thigh, Jinx could only squeak out a shuddered moan to urge her on. Her finger went up her stalking, the fabric teasingly denying her the feeling of that bare finger touching her own skin. She traced upwards, to the small, bare patch between her stalking and her panties. Surprisingly, instead of leading her finger to it's ultimate destination right away, her hand slipped around to the back, both cradling and pushing Jinx into her harder. When she was sure there was absolutely, positively no more empty space between them, Raven resumed her inquiry. Her hand slipped down her undergarments, taking in the gentle curve as she finally reached what they both wanted so bad.

Jinx gasped, clinging onto her partner as she rode this wave of pleasure. Rain was pouring down in sheets now. This was her storm, she realized. As the rain poured down, as an explosion of pleasure erupted from inside her, she realized this was definitely her storm. It had been building up all night, and now it was released with such brilliant, wonderful passion.

Raven. Sweet Raven. This was her storm, too. Alone, they were two gloomy little clouds. Together, though, they were this beautiful storm. Every rain drop was an emotion, a pented up little desire that had ached to be realized, and it had all poured out in this storm of hunger and passion.

As their hearts slowed, as the kisses became softer, the rain eased itself into a light shower. The girls, both drenched to the bone, laughed a little.

"We should both go home." said Raven, "We'll catch our deaths if we don't dry off."

Just as she turned away, Jinx said it. She didn't know why she had said it, just then.

"I love you."

Maybe it was to keep her for just a moment longer.

"I...love you, too."

Or maybe it was to find the answer she was hoping so hard for.

"She loves me."

Her legs turned to jelly as she watched Raven fly off. She was sitting in a puddle now, her clothes completely soaked, her trademark hair flattened, but at that very moment, she was on top of the world.

Raven sat on the same rock she always did; The one on the cliff, facing northwest, the Tower a small beacon in the distance. This was Raven's spot. Far enough into the wilderness to be alone with her thoughts, but close enough to still see home. It was a perfect little place.

It was, anyway. Raven couldn't quite sit still today. She should be meditating, but for some reason, she found herself...bored. Her mind drifted to that night again.

"It was a mistake. I just let my hormones get the better of me, which is why I'm here. I'm above these sort of desires...so why isn't my body listening!"

Her body disagreed with her. It didn't feel like a mistake. It felt like the greatest night of her life. It was so great, her body wanted to remember it again.

"It...it was just sex. Just the act of reproduction...which I performed on another girl. No, forget about it. It was just a one time thing. Your curiosity has been satisfied, so let it go already."

Her body didn't want to forget, to let go. She wanted to feel it again.

No, she wanted more.

She gasped, taking her hand off her leg. Her skin felt so hyper sensitive all of a sudden.

"I'm not supposed to feel these things! I don't want to feel these things! Why am I feeling this!"

As she put her hand down, she failed to notice it was creeping up her leg.

No. It wasn't her hand. It was Jinx's. Her hand was traveling up her thigh, gently rubbing up and down to calm her over-excited lover. When she calmed her enough, a finger slipped under her leotard, tracing along where she had been taught was the most private, sacred part of a woman.

"Jinx..."

A tear rolled down her cheek. She shouldn't be feeling these things, she shouldn't be touching herself there, but it felt so good, so beautiful, so wonderful. She wanted to share this with Jinx, but she knew she couldn't. She couldn't share it with anyone, but she needed someone. She needed Jinx. Sweet little Jinx with the pink eyes and silly hair, with the soft and playful voice of an innocent devil, an angel with black lace wings.

A strange tingle brought Raven's senses back into focus.

"Peek-a-boo!"

Much to Raven's horror, Jinx was sitting in the branch of a nearby tree, legs swinging about aimlessly.

"Hi there!" she waved, "Small world, huh?"

"What are doing here!"

She tried to hide the fear in her voice by sounding angry, but it still slipped out.

Now her body and mind were in agreement. She had made a horrible, terrible mistake that night.

"If you want answers..."

Jinx fell back, grabbing hold of the limb as she fell. She swung forward, flipping through the air and landing squarely on her feet, arms outstretched. She turned around on the ball of one foot, her back now to Raven.

Raven shot forward, but she had realized too late what would happen.

"CATCH ME!"

Jinx sped just out of her grasp, rebounding back into the trees.

What sort of game was she playing? She was here to torment her, wasn't she? Jinx was here to tease Raven, reminding her of that night that never should have been. Of the one thing she could never have.

She lost track of Jinx after a couple minutes.

"Damn silly girl. You think she would fall with all that prancing around she was doing."

Raven let herself down onto her knees.

"Why don't you just fall down and break your neck, and just leave me be?"

She cried. She didn't bother trying to hold it back because she had no desire.

Jinx. Sweet, silly little Jinx. Raven hated her so much for being her. She was guilty as sin, yet purely innocent. It wasn't the kind of innocence Starfire had. Starfire was a sweet, naive little thing. That was the kind of innocence the world loved to trample on, making a person hate having feelings. No, this was a crazy kind of innocence. Something just as sweet, just as naive, but couldn't be crushed. Her view of the world wasn't black and white, like most people see things. It was a flurry of different colors that didn't seem to mix well at all. Like blue and pink. Raven could be more at ease if only Jinx would have played by the rules. Raven was good, Jinx was bad. It should be as simple as that. Simple as black and white.

Jinx was a crazy kind of innocent. She reminded her a bit of Terra.

"You okay?"

A soft voice came from above her. The voice of an innocent devil.

Raven looked up, expecting to see Jinx's smirking face. But it wasn't there. She was wearing a sad, worried little frown. The mischievous glint in her eyes was missing, replace by genuine concern. It surprised Raven. Almost as much as the pink panties that were in full view.

Pink panties? She wore pink panties? And was that a bow on the elastic band? It all looked so comically inappropriate, she just had to laugh.

"Hey!" Jinx screamed, pulling her dressed back down (or up, rather), "No free shows!"

She flipped off the perch and landed in front of Raven.

"If you wanna see my no-no parts, you need-"

She jumped back just as Raven made a snatch for her.

"Hey! That's cheating! You got me worried just to lure me in!"

"Sorry." Raven giggled, "I'll give you a three second head start."

As the pursuit continued, she couldn't help but smile. Jinx hadn't come to torment her. Being the crazy-innocent little thing she was, she just wanted to play. And come to think of it, Raven did, too.

It didn't take long before she lost track of Jinx again. She had lead Raven in the direction of a small cave, then just disappeared. Considering "Jinx's Clubhouse" was written on a rock next to the enterance in purple chalk, it wasn't a huge leap in logic where she disappeared to.

"Oh yeah." she said to herself as she entered, "This is Jinx's clubhouse, alright."

Black candles were lit, resting on small rocks and in crevices. The walls were plastered with heavy metal posters, comical bumper stickers, and news clipping relating to the Titans. In the center of it all was Jinx, pretending to be scared and meek.

"Oh no!" she gasped, trying to suppress a giggle, "You found my secret lair!"

"Some secret." Raven smirked, "So, before I give you the spanking of a lifetime for interrupting meditation, what are you doing here?"

Jinx turned away as the smile started fading from her lips.

"I run away sometimes. I just get sick of things, you know? I don't always wanna be Jinx the mercenary or Jinx the thief. I just sometimes wanna be Jinx."

Just then, Raven felt disgusted by herself. Jinx was a person. Not just some evil villianess, not just some personal play thing. She had her own thoughts and feelings, and Raven had totally disregarded them that night just so she could have her fun, and she was doing it again. It made her sick. This was the exact reason why she had to be above these feelings.

"Wanna see my boobs?"

She suddenly noticed Jinx's face was maybe an inch or so away from hers, a huge ear-to-ear grin back on her face.

"Pardon?" Raven said meekly.

"My boobs." Jinx said as she stuck her chest out, "C'mon! Are you curious? Or maybe we wanna see my panties again?"

Raven took a few steps back, blushing furiously as her mind tried to get a grasp of what was going on here.

"Wha? You- You wanted to spank me a moment ago, and now..."

Jinx turned her nose and gave a "Hmph!" as she spun around.

"If you don't wanna see my ta-tas, fine! It's not like I wanted to show you! You'd just make fun of my breast size, anyway!"

What to do, what to do. Raven wanted to see, but she would feel like a pervert just blurting it out like that. She didn't want to hurt Jinx's feelings, but she didn't want to seem...

There was that smile again, as she looked over her shoulder.

"You need to relax, Ravy." she giggled.

She turned back around, revealing that she had been unbuttoning her blouse when her back was turned.

"You're...not wearing a bra?" Raven said, noting the lack of anything other than skin peeking out.

"I don't like them. Too constricting."

She tried to keep her hands from shaking. It would be so easy to just reach out and grab her, but she had to show constraint. She was a strong young woman, after all. She didn't give in to her emotions so easily. But she was so close. And her blouse was slipping of her shoulders. And Jinx, out of her twisted sense of humor, was humming old fashion stripping music.

"What do you think of the girls?"

Raven bit her lip. Those weren't breasts. Those were smooth, gentle, graceful extensions of the captivating young woman in front of her, and she wanted nothing more than to touch them. She wanted to touch her all over, to taste every inch of creamy skin on the girl's body.

"You think they're too small." Jinx pouted, "I know I'm not all that big..."

Raven shook her head numbly.

"What? You don't think I'm too small?"

They were the most perfect pair of breasts she had ever seen, complimenting her petite dancer's figure so perfectly, that she must be the creation of a higher power.

"They...they're just right..."

Jinx guided Raven's shaking hands to her breasts.

"Relax, Ravy." she whispered, "Just relax."

How could she relax? She was holding these gorgeous orbs in her hands. So soft, but so firm. It was totally cliché', but no less true. It was like a blanket of softness wrapped around a core of firmness. It reminded her of candy, for some reason. Candy did fit Jinx well, though. Her hair, her eyes, they both screamed "candy". And her taste. She tasted like peppermint that night. That sweet taste had lingered in her mouth for sometime afterwards. She had to wonder what the rest of her body would taste like.

She bit her lip. She couldn't just do that, could she? Jinx seemed none too shy about all this, but where was the line? What would cause Jinx to reel back in fear and disgust? Would it be okay to do that? Should she ask?

"Ravy." Jinx giggled softly, "You really need to relax."

"Jinx...is it okay if I...put your..."

This was absurd. She was a strong young woman, and yet, she felt like a shy little girl.

"Things..." she whispered, "In my...mouth?"

"Are you talking about my TITS!"

Raven recoiled, both at the word and Jinx's suddenly raised voice, much to her amusement.

"You wanna suck my TITTIES, RAVEN OF THE TEEN TITANS!" Jinx yelled, her voice echoing every which way throughout the small cave.

What an odd sight this was. Jinx was laughing uproariously, her topless chest bouncing and jiggling with each chuckle. She laughter died down when she saw Raven wasn't laughing, instead turned a bright shade of red.

"Sorry," she said, trying to calm down the last of her giggles, "But why are you whispering? Aside from maybe Grizzly Adams, there's no one else here. It's just you and me. Don't be afraid to just go totally boob crazy."

It was intoxicating. Jinx wanted her to be herself. No keeping under control, no having to be strong. She could fully indulge herself in the guilty little pleasures she always pushed to the darkest corners of her mind.

She was cautious at first, planting soft kisses. Feeling Jinx's hand on the back of her head, gently stroking her, she knew it was alright to let loose her desires. Each kiss took in more, each nip and suck growing a little harder.

Jinx's moans urged her hunger on. It wasn't that melodramatic porn movie kind of moaning. It was soft and light, a reflex brought about by all this nipping and sucking on that sensitive little bud. She let out a sharp gasp after a paticularly hard bite.

"Ravy!" she squealed, "You aren't gonna me hangin', are you!"

Raven wasted no time in sending a hand up her skirt, but just as she was about to shove it down her underwear, she paused. Jinx wasn't the only one who could be mischievous.

Her fingers drifted down, right between her legs. She traced a finger up and down over a spot of moistness.

"Ravy! Don't tease me!"

Poor Jinx was squirming so much now. She rubbed up against the teasing finger, vainly trying to get something more than a tickle. As that moist spot grew more damp, Raven decided to quit teasing the poor girl and give her what she ached for. As she prepared to reach in and finish the job, something crossed her mind. She was still hungry. Hadn't she wanted to taste all of Jinx? Part of her really wanted to ask if it was okay to do what she had in mind, but the rest of her already knew the answer.

Her hands pulled away, her mouth released the tender flesh she had been enjoying. She gave the mildly perplexed sorceress a kiss, hooked her fingers onto the waistband of her skirt, then gave a hard yank.

Jinx had such a beautiful body. She looked like a delicate china doll, with fair skin and gentle curves. Her black and blue stalkings clung to her legs, ending towards the top of her thighs. The colors suited her so well. There was no smooth transition, no subtly. She mixed colors that no one thought would mix together, like blue and pink. And speaking of pink...

Oh, yes. Candy did fit Jinx very well.

Raven managed to summon up enough self constrain to look up at Jinx's face, wanting just a little more guidance. She was shocked, surprisingly, but that gentle, delicate hand cradling her head told her what she wanted to her do. But if Jinx was surprised that Raven had gone this far, she couldn't prepare herself for what was next.

Raven buried her face into her partner's sweet spot. Her hands reached around to the back, occupying themselves with the curves that were to be found there. Her mouth tried taking in all she could while her tongue went wild. One hand immediately abandoned it's former position and made a swift beeline inbetween Raven's own legs.

Sweet, sweet Jinx. Everything about her was so addictively sweet. What Raven tasted wasn't a normal, sugary kind of sweet, but it was sweet all the same. It was sweet because it was Jinx.

Jinx's breathing became heavy and sharp. Once again, no porn moaning, though she did wildly buck her hips as a flood of sweetness nearly drowned Raven. When the floodwaters subsided, Jinx slowly slid down against a wall until she and Raven were at eye level. She weakly pulled her head towards hers and kissed her. Then she started spitting and gagging.

"Oh crap!" she coughed, "Why'd I do that! You've got me juice all over your mouth! Oh man...porno and femslash stories make that seem so much hotter..."

Raven giggled as turned around and leaned back onto her lover, nuzzling against her chest with a content hum.

"You comfy?" Jinx asked, amused to see Raven using her breasts as pillows.

"Mm hmm." she purred.

Raven looked up at her with half open eyes.

"Hey...I'm not really sure how these things work...but...are we officially girlfriends now?"

"I dunno..." Jinx said, pretending to be deep in thought, "We just had hot, horny sex...so we just met that qualification...how 'bout I be your girlfriend if you be mine?"

"Sounds good." she said as she closed her eyes, "I love you, Jinx."

"I..."

Jinx squirmed a bit.

"I think I'm sitting on a stick."

Raven softly laughed. Sweet, silly little Jinx. She was her sweet, silly little Jinx now, just as she was her Raven.

"That reminds me..." she said, "You owe me a spanking. Lift your butt up."

"Geez, sister." Jinx laughed, "Are you a freakin' machine or what?"

Raven took her cloak off and scooted it under Jinx.

"Better?"

"Yes, much. Thanks. Love you, too, Raven."

Everything she had been taught was cast to the four winds now. That wasn't to say there weren't still things that would nag at her, but for now, she felt so at peace. She was safe here, in the arms of an innocent devil. An angel with black lace wings.

"And we keep driving into the night..."

Jinx sung into her brush as she admired herself in the mirror. She was in a singing mood. She was going out on a date with Raven. They had had a number of intimate moments together, but this would be their very first honest-to-goodness date with Raven. Of course, given the complexity of the situation, Jinx would have to play dress up. Not that she minded at all.

Her hair was down. That was certainly a first. She thought about putting it in pigtails, but that would have looked too similar to her usual style. And now, what to wear? Her usual boots and stalkings, for sure. Seeing as how it was almost guaranteed there would be no fighting, she was free to break out her good stuff, like that one skirt. The long, black one that was open along one side, allowing for a leg to peak out. She had always wanted a chance to wear it.

She browsed over her vast collection of blouses and t-shirts. She wanted something casual, but kind of sexy. Something that kind of went with legs peeking out of skirts.

"My 'Shirt Happens' shirt!" she squealed, "Raven'll get a kick out of-"

Off towards the end of her closet, buried behind tons of other shirts, skirts, and the like, was a black t-shirt with a white butterfly on it. Ingenious in it's simplicity, but simplicity's probably why she forgot about it.

She pulled it off the rack and slipped it on. Must have been something she bought a while back because it was rather snug. It clinged tightly to her bosom, it's small size showing off quite a bit of belly.

"Oh yeah. It's perfect."

Finally, the finishing touch: A choker with a small ahnk hanging from it.

"Pretty as a picture." Jinx said to herself, "I can't wait to see what Raven's done to herself!"

When she got to the theater, Raven was waiting for her. In jeans and a t-shirt. Black jeans and a dark blue t-shirt. Plain old jeans and a plain old t-shirt.

"Way to have fun going in cognito." Jinx pouted.

"I'm trying to blend in as much as a girl with a jewel between her eyes can. So, what's this movie we're seeing again?"

"Roses in the Autumn. A woman returns to her estranged mother's mansion when she learns she's dying."

"Chick flick." Raven muttered.

"Well, last time I checked, we're chicks. With vaginas and everything."

A small giggle escaped Raven's lips. Score one for her.

As they went inside, Jinx grabbed her lover's hand.

"What are you doing?" said Raven, a look of mild shock on her face.

"I'm holding my girlfriend's-"

"Quiet!" Raven said as she squirmed out of her grasp, "Someone might hear!"

"Well, maybe I should say-"

"Don't say it!"

"Raven..."

"Don't say it!"

"Likes..."

"Don't!"

"My..."

Darting her gaze back and forth, she reluctantly held Jinx's hand.

"Good girl." Jinx said, smiling and patting her on the head, "Now, let's make out."

She had to laugh at that look on Raven's face.

"Ravy, I'm joking. How many times do I have to tell you to freakin' relax?"

"That girl...the blonde, a few rows in front of us..."

Jinx noticed a blonde girl sitting a few rows down from their seats.

"Raven..." she gasped, "You...do you want a three way!"

"N-No! That girl...I'm pretty sure that's Killer Moth's daughter Kitten."

"Hold up." Jinx giggled, "The blonde chick there is Killer Moth's kid! You're joking! She doesn't have wings, she's not eating a sweater-"

"Yeah, I don't get it, either. Why anyone would...carry out the act of reproduction with Killer Moth boggles the mind, as well."

"How do you know her? Do you have a villianess fetish?"

"No. Killer Moth blackmailed Robin into dating her, once."

"I bet it was to make Starfire jealous. Kitten longed for her so badly, but she dared not let the world know of her secret love."

"Not every girl in the world is gay."

"Of course not. Some are bi."

Raven laughed softly and shook her head. Score another one for Jinx.

"You think Starfire's bi?" she said, a big, hopeful grin fixated on her face.

"Hers are a very emotional, passionate people." said Raven in the most monotone voice she could.

"Is that a yes!"

Raven just looked at her a moment, then turned to the screen.

"Good lord." she moaned as the coming attractions played, "How does Jimmy Fallon keep getting work?"

"Dude!" Jinx squealed, "Starfire's bi! Cool! You two ever do it!"

"You are such a pervert, you know that? No. I don't know what Starfire's into, but...there was this one incident when she first joined the Titans."

"You had to spank her for initiation?"

"No."

"There was more! Oh man, I so wanna join you guys now!"

"No, pervert! I was taking a shower, and...Star joined me. She didn't know better at the time, but...admittedly...I liked it. I've never really thought about my sexuality before, but...I guess...you know..."

Raven, so well known for being cold and emotionally detached, was confiding in her. She just told her something meant for her and her alone. She trusted Jinx so much, she had opened up and revealed that small, precious truth to her.

"I realized I liked girls when I started masturbating to them, like the Joker's sidekick Harley."

Raven just looked at her.

"I'd imagine Batgirl would catch Harley and tied her up, and to punish her for her crimes, she would have to pleasure her. She would be reluctant at first, but-"

"You're a sick little girl, you know that?"

"Would you have it any other way? Or are you just saying that because you're jealous? Y'know...when I first saw you guys...my fantasies changed. Wanna hear?"

Noting that the current trailer was a remake of an old TV (and ignoring that these trailers seemed to go on forever), she leaned in.

"Starfire...uh...like, failed to save the world or something, so you take her over your knee and spank her. Then you start reaching up her dress, because you think she secretly like being spanked by you. She squirms at your touch, and begs to show her forgiveness by getting naked and-"

"Raven?"

Sitting off to Raven's left, snacks loaded up in her arms, was Starfire.

"Starfire?" Raven said, just barely managing to mask her shock, "What are you doing here?"

"I am here to see the film 'Roses in the Autumn'. I wished for Robin to accompany me, but he made a beeping sound and claimed that was special call from his communicator. What are you doing here?"

"Just...spending time with a friend."

"A friend?" Starfire beamed, "You have journeyed outside your metaphorical bony protective plating and made a friend outside the Teen Titans? I am so proud of you, my friend! Who is this friend of which you speak?"

"Jasmine Onyx!" Jinx said, climbing over Raven to introduce herself, "Pleased to meet ya!"

"Hello, Jasmine! I am Starfire, and I am pleased to meet you, as well!"

"Yeah," Raven laughed nervously, "Starfire, Jasmine. Jasmine, Starfire. Hey, the movie's starting!"

With Starfire's attention diverted, Raven turned to Jinx.

"What was that!" she hissed under her breath.

"I'm sitting right next to you! I just made full use of the situation."

Raven crossed her arms and turned her attention to the movie.

Jinx slumped down in her seat. This was a date. Raven shouldn't be ignoring her. She should fake a yawn in order to wrap an arm around her. Or...since the theater was so dark...

She leaned in close to Raven's ear, acting like she was going to whisper something. Instead, she gave it a little nip. Instead of invoking a make out session, Raven gave her a scared look.

"What are you doing?"

"What teenagers have been doing since the invention of theaters."

"Starfire's right next to me!"

"So, she can join in! We can have a big ol' make out party! Lesbians for everyone!"

She was ignoring her again. Well, if she was defeated, might as well make the most of it.

She sighed and rested her head on Raven's shoulder.

"J...Jasmine..."

"I'm just watching the movie."

"You're resting on me."

"This isn't as interesting as I thought it would be. Needs explosions."

Jinx reached over, grabbing one of Raven's breasts.

"Oops!" she said, wearing her trademark grin again, "I was going for the popcorn."

"We don't have popcorn." Raven said, giving her a wary look.

"Star does, though."

"If you want popcorn, I'll go get you some."

Just as she was about to get up, Jinx dragged her back down.

"That's alright! You don't have to!"

"It's no big deal."

Raven slipped out of her grasp and left for the concession stand.

"Damn it, Raven!" Jinx thought as she pouted, "I just want a little attention, a little romance! What do I gotta do for..."

Her eyes turned to Starfire.

"Hmm..."

"Here's your popcorn, 'Jasmine'."

Raven took her seat, once again paying little attention to Jinx. That would change, if she had anything to say about that.

A piece of popcorn slipped from her fingers. As Jinx leaned down to retrieve it, she suddenly noticed something. That something being just how short Starfire's skirt was.

"Oh, where'd that go?" she muttered, blindly groping around as she divided her gaze between Starfire's skirt and Raven's angry glare.

"The five second rule's up." Raven said as she pulled her up.

It had only been for a few seconds, but she got some attention. Not enough, though, as Raven soon found a kernel flying down her shirt.

"Darn butter!" Jinx giggled, "You need any help-"

"I got it." Raven said, reaching down her shirt and popping the kernel in her mouth.

"Dude! You ate boob corn!"

Nothing. Not even a giggle. Just as it seemed this date wasn't going to be as interesting as Jinx hoped, Raven- by accident, apparently- grabbed Jinx's chest.

"Sorry. Going for the popcorn."

Raven had just copped a feel. Raven felt her up, and had given her a dirty little idea that involved popcorn...or possibly chocolate syrup. Not too bad for a first date.

Raven was the kind of girl to get all gitty and excited over anything, but when she heard a knock on her door, she couldn't help but let out a joyful giggle.

She took a deep breath and cracked the door open. On the other side, she was met with a pair of pink eyes and a playful grin.

"We got a few hours, right?"

"Double feature, long movies. Four hours, at least. So...what's under that coat?"

Jinx was wearing a long, black raincoat and matching heels. It didn't take much imagination to guess what she was wearing under it (or rather, what she wasn't wearing).

"Now, hold on, eager beaver! We've got time, right?"

Jinx held up a plain brown bag.

"Let's make the most of it."

"I'm almost afraid to ask, but...what's in that bag?"

"Chocolate syrup, among other things."

Raven cocked an eyebrow.

"Do you mean..."

"We can make sundaes? Sure!"

That's what she liked about Jinx. Anyone else would have said the obvious, but not her sweet Jinx. She was a playful little imp that didn't take anything too seriously, and Raven found that intoxicating.

"I also got this..."

Jinx pulled out a bottle of massage oil.

"Jasmine scented." Raven smiled, "Cute. But if I'm going to give you a massage, you'll-"

"Me?" Jinx asked, sounding a bit confused, "But I'm a guest, Ravy. Shouldn't I being doing you- No, that came out wrong."

The dirty glee Raven had been rolling around in since Jinx arrived gave way to that sense of anxitey that had been lurking in the back of her mind.

"I won't be a good hostess if I didn't do you. No, wait..."

"Ravy, you do me all the time. I wanna pay you back for all that doing."

It was true. She had never shown her body. But she couldn't. She loved Jinx, but she still couldn't bring herself to do it.

"Ravy? Something up?"

"No."

"Raven, something's up."

Seriousness was in her tone. Seriousness didn't suit her. She shouldn't worry and fet over her, but...

"Could you turn around?"

"Why?"

"I'm...a little self conscious."

"Ravy," said Jinx, taking Raven into her arms, "You're a beautiful girl. You have nothing to be ashamed of, and aside from getting all touchy-feely, I wanna do this to get you to- say it with me, now- RELAX!"

Sweet, silly little Jinx. This wasn't such a big deal to her, and Raven was going to keep it that way.

"Okay," she said in a defeated tone, "But...I'm going to sound like Beast Boy, here, but...you show me yours and I'll show you mine."

"Sure thing, sister!"

Jinx ripped open her raincoat to reveal, to Raven's surprise...

"Ta-da!"

Clothing. Not much- just black panties and a bra, both lined with pink fur- but she was actually wearing something.

"Mommy likey?"

Raven muttered a shy "yes" under her breath.

"Okay, it's your turn."

"W-Wait."

"You stuttered? Oooh! Do you really like this underwear, don'tcha? Got it just for you."

That little voice that had nagged at Raven only seconds earlier became hushed. It was crystal clear what she wanted to do now.

"Why should I give you a free show? I didn't think you would actually be wearing anything under that."

Reluctant and pouty, Jinx turned around.

She didn't seem that shy about flashing her privates, so maybe she should- as Jinx had told her so many times- relax.

"Alright. You can turn-"

"OH MY GOD!"

Well, so much for not making a big deal out of it.

"You have such a cute butt!" Jinx squealed.

Raven was lying face down on her bed, her cute butt totally unobscured by the cloak that usually hide it.

"Uh...thank you?"

"I knew you'd be cute, Ravy, but...oh my God! This is, like, the first time I've seen, like, a real live naked girl! And you're so cute! Has anyone ever told you you're cute!"

What is really that a big deal? She certainly wasn't unattractive. She might even go as far as to say she did look pretty, but she wasn't worth this freak out session Jinx was giving her.

"No..."

"Well, you are! I almost feel dirty for what I'm about to do!"

Jinx kicked off her shoes and sat on Raven's legs, that cute butt of hers right in front of her.

"Almost."

Raven bit her lip, the sensation of Jinx caressing her bare skin for more stimulating than she thought it would be.

"I've been thinkin'...maybe I should come out with all this."

As Raven tensed, she could almost taste blood.

"We see each other too little, we're always sneakin' around and stuff...and what about...y'know, our missions? One of these days...anyway...I was thinkin' about quitting the mercenary gig. Got plenty of money in all sorts of carefully hidden piggy bags, and I have a history of being a stray cat."

"Jinx..."

"Just disappearing won't surprise anyone. Grades have been slipping, too, so it's not like I'm a valued asset, anymore. Your friends are gonna-"

"Don't."

"What?"

It hurt. There was so much within grasp, but it hurt too much to reach for it.

"You'll get in a lot of trouble."

"I've been in and out of trouble my whole life. Luck's always on my side."

It hurt too much. She couldn't say it.

"You and me, we should just get out of here. Let's just go somewhere...not sunny. Don't know about you, but I need SPF 80. Squeeze the tube, and-"

"A sweater comes out. Yeah."

"Well, thanks for ruining my joke, Smiley Jane."

She didn't say that she ripped that off from Conan O'Brien. She wanted to, but now she had something else on her mind.

"You gonna tell them?"

"Tell them what? That I'm dating one of arch enemies?"

"Arch enemies?" Jinx beamed, "Me and my team made it all the way to arch! No flippin' way! Well...arch? Really?"

"Yes." Raven groaned, "You're moving up in the world. Now, what were you saying?"

"Well, how 'bout you...break it to them slowly? They don't have to know I'm the big, evil bad guy Jinx right way. I like the sound of 'Jasmine Onyx'."

"Somehow, I don't think you'll fool anyone."

"Fooled Starfire. That makes me a master of disguise."

"No, it doesn't. Robin, for one, would figure you out in a heartbeat. It's best just not to tell anyone."

"Why? We've got nothing to be ashamed of."

"Jinx...have you not paid any attention to the history between us? The judges in the court of public opinion are always keeping an eye on me. No one just turns over a new leaf just like that. People will get suspicious."

"Who says I ever turned over a new leaf? I'm the same as I've always been. You're just getting to know me better than- Ooooh! It does appear that I've run out of back!"

Raven slowly gathered more and more blanket into her grasp. She couldn't do this.

"Raven, you okay?"

No, she wasn't okay. She wanted to be okay, she wanted to want this, but...

"You're crying."

She shouldn't be. She couldn't be. She had to keep under control.

Jinx rolled off her, laying at her side.

"If you don't want to do this..."

Raven looked away from her. She couldn't look at her.

"Jinx...there's something I need to tell you."

She couldn't tell her this, could she? She was lying here, naked and vulnerable. What would happen? Could she really control herself, or would her emotions blow them both to Kingdom Come?

"My...see...I have a mother..."

"Don't we all?"

She looked back at Jinx, into those pretty pink eyes that were melting away her defenses with their silly, absurd color.

"My mother...she wasn't much older than me...when...when I was conceived..."

Through her misty eyes, she could see Jinx's concern. She wanted to be alone right then. Just lock herself up in her room and delve deep into meditation. But...

"It wasn't...it wasn't consensual..."

Was that really what she wanted? To lock herself away and be alone? To make it so no one could ever get to her? To make it so what happened to her mother could never happen to her?

"Oh God..."

Raven hadn't used that word- the one that summed up the circumstances of her birth in one ugly little word- but Jinx got the point.

Raven couldn't see anymore. She shut her eyes tight, hoping that everything would just go away and return to it's former state of peace and solitude. That didn't happen, but she did feel herself being cradled in Jinx's arms.

"Raven...I'm so sorry..."

She had never heard Jinx like this. Her voice was so soft and tender. All the pain, all the troubles, they all faded away with that healing voice.

"I haven't been forcing you into anything you don't wanna do, have I?"

Raven sat up and embraced her, squeezing more and more to make sure that she would never go away.

"No." she whispered, Jinx's heartbeat lulling her into a far more peaceful state than she had previously been in, "I was scared, but I'm not anymore. I've wanted to do everything we've done together. I don't regret anything."

"Hey, Ravy?"

"Hmm?"

She was wearing that grin again.

"Would you regret...boob sundaes?" Jinx said, waving a bottle of chocolate syrup.

Raven laughed and pulled her down on top of her.

"Only if you stain the bed."

What drove the dagger in wasn't one major, life changing event. It was nothing that climactic. It had been a whole lot of little pains. Having to hide their love from the world, carrying on this masquerade, pretending to feel what they didn't feel, it broke them in the end. Did they regret anything? Keeping their love a secret? Maybe starting this affair in the first place?

The only thing Jinx regretted was giving up. The reason she plunged the dagger in her chest was the same reason she had pulled it out, and that reason was locked away in the T shaped tower in front of her.

It was funny. Usually, when she left some place, she would just leave it behind completely. And when she did leave a place, it was because of her crazy little whims. She had always been the center of her own universe. And now, here she was, here because for once in her life, she cared about someone more than herself.

"Man, I'm whipped. And not in a kinky way, either. This so sucks. Why'd I have to go and fall for you, Ravy? That image you put on in front of the world...that couldn't just be the real you, could it? If it was, I wouldn't be standing here right now. I could be rolling around in ill gotten goods and not feel all bad and crap about it. But no. You just had to walk that cute little butt of yours into my romantic life. You had to make me care about someone other than myself. Geez...I am so freakin' whipped! I feel like a neutered kitty here, staring up at your stupid tower, hoping you'll look down at poor, pitiful little me...where the hell's the doorbell on this thing?"

"Can I help you?"

As she looked up at the Tower, she hadn't noticed a perplexed Cyborg come up from behind her.

"Sure can, pal!" she said, hoping her charisma would mask the fear, "Name's Jasmine Oynx!"

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author's notes: Well, bugger all. I forgot to mention Poets of the Fall (whose song "Late Goodbye" I've been quoting from in this chapter) have a website: Visit it, lest your seed be cursed for all eternity!

Fun fact time! Like in Cotton Candy Pink: Pen Pals, there are little references to Wolfkcing's Pitch and Pink. Without Pitch and Pink, I probably would have utterly failed at capturing Jinx's character.

Here's another thing of note: Notice how not only do "Jinx" and "Jasmine Onyx" share the same letters, but they're even in the same order? I totally, completely made up "Jasmine Onyx" without a bit of thought, and I somehow hid Jinx's name in there perfectly. How freaked up am I!

So, how's Raven gonna react to "Jasmine" coming into her life? And remember that I said she fell in love twice? There's Malchior, of course, but what about that second person? Could it be that a certain tragic young blonde meant a lot more to Raven than anyone knew? Oh, I wonder what this could mean...