Disclaimer: Chapter 1

Okay, chapter 11 comes a bit earlier. I just had to get my head into other thoughts as things around is just really hectic and hard.. I'm just so damn angry and sad that I just had to sit myself down with something else that made me feel a bit good. Writing seemed to be that thing. Typos would not be a suprise as to my mood, but then again. I have many typos that I sometimes don't have the time to fix. A bit more will be revealed in this chapter hopefully, and still only 2 loyal reviewers.. Hmpf.. Dunno what I do wrong, seriously. I review every story I read and find nothing hard in it, don't know why others are so lazy to not even write a comment.. Then again, humans are humans... Enjoy the chapter and review if there should be any future for this story, 'cause in my current mood with everything in my life just being pain, I see nothing wrong with dumping this story together with everything else. Excuse me for sounding like this, but I'm just not in the mood for being all happy and perfect when I feel far from it. Here you all have Chapter 11 of Once More. Enjoy!

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Chapter 11 - Eternally

"Rao, fyga ib!" Rikku heard painfully through her sleep. She felt whoever it was shaking her awake and out of her peaceful sleep. Slipping out of the security sleep provided her aching stomach she groaned as she opened up her eyes to see her brother's horrible face above hers. "Rikku, drec ec hu desa du cmaab, fa'ja kud yh asankyhlo!" Brother ranted on and Rikku only groaned louder.

"Brother, first of all. Stop with the Al Bhed, aren't you the one complaining that your english isn't improving? Well there you have the answer as to why!" Rikku yelled, her brother could be so dense sometimes. And waking her up to the morning sun shining through the Celsius windows with an aching stomach didn't make her see him any better nor smarter.

"And second, what is this emergancy you're talking about? 'Cause seriously, if you pull that stunt again about the toilet refusing to flush your shit away as an emergancy I might think of making myself siblingless. And not in the disowning kind of way..." Rikku muttered tiredly. She remember the incident during their Sphere-hunting days together with Yuna in the beginning when Brother had awakened them all with panic when the toilet seemingly refused to flush away what Brother had dumped in there. In someways, it was somekind of an emergancy, since Brother was well, Brother. And that was never a good thing, not even in the toilet-department.

"Hu, Rikku! Caneuicmo fa ryja yh, -"

"Cut the Al Bhed will you! I'm not having a good day nor good patience to offer you if you haven't noticed already!" Rikku interrupted achingly as she held onto her stomach and clutched the blanket tighter around her trying to provide some kind of warmth to her stomach as it sometimes helped.

"Rikku, please. We're serious" Paine's pleading voice reached Rikku's ear. Rikku forced herself to sit up even though her stomach made attempts of refusing. Whenever Paine sounded pleadingly, which never happened, it had to be something serious. And even so, whenever Paine would say something, Rikku would always believe her not matter what.

"What's wrong?" Rikku asked curiously where she sat on her bed holding her blanket still tight around herself.

"It seems that Yuna's missing. So is Tidus." Paine answered with worry.

"What? What happened?" Rikku exclaimed with even more worry.

"I don't know, but we recieved words just moments ago from Lulu. It seems that she went over this morning to invite Yuna and Tidus over for breakfast. But when she knocked she didn't recieve any answer, so she entered Yuna's hut and searched. She found Yuna's hut empty and her bed not slept in. And no one else in the village has seen either one of them either."

Rikku listened to Paine's words closely, her cousin hadn't gone to bed that night, nor had Tidus. Both of them were gone. Rikku thought of the possibilities of the two of them just being around Besaid somewhere for themselves, spending some alone time after being apart. It wouldn't really suprise her if they had gone somewhere to enjoy each others presence again, but in the back of her mind her better part told her that Yuna wouldn't do such things as run away, if even in just Besaid without telling someone. She would never leave without anyone knowing to later tell the others not to worry.

"We gotta find them, something might've happened. After all, Tidus wasn't really feeling that well yesterday,Yuna might've followed him into the woods after he left." Rikku hurriedly thought up as she remembered yesteday's event. Going against her stomach's protestes she hurriedly got up from her bed and went to go for the stairs when Brother's shrieking voice stopped her.

"Yuna gone with blondie. It is all his fault!" he accused and was met by Paine and Rikku's sighing forms as they ignored him and quickly ran down the stair and into the elevator to prepare their search.

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Jai cringed when she passed him by as he felt his failure once again run up his spine as fear floded throughout his whole body. His green eyes followed her movement across the room. He saw her gently sit herself down on his chair inside of his room within one of the apprentice buildings in which he lived in. The beautiful black length of her hair followed her gracefully in whatever movement she made and Jai felt a sudden urge to stretch out and softly lay his hand upon the angel-like hair she had, but his mind told him better than to do so. Touching her would forever burn his skin and soul.

Touching her would lead to eternal suffering. In other words, if he touched her he would die for sure.

"What's the matter, Jai?" her voice asked tauntingly "Want to touch my hair, I sense?"

"No, Alyzzia. You're very much mistaken about sensing that." Jai nervously answered back trying to convince her into his lies to no avail.

"Don't lie to me, Jai. You do know that what I sense is always right. Not even the thoughts of Azreal down below could go by me, do you seriously think the thoughts of a human such as you would pass me by?" Alyzzia's dark voice dangerously echoed throughout Jai's small room.

"No, please no, Alyzzia." Jai stuttered as drops of sweat started to form around his nervous face. "I didn't mean to offend you by any means."

"Keep it that way if you know what's good for yourself." she answered back threateningly before putting on a softer voice. "And if you know what's best for yourself you might want to answer my question correctly this time. Remember that whatever lie you might try to pull will be obvious to me, the weak-minded never escapes my radar. Azreal's weakness was a shocker for everyone, not to mention myself when I saw through him. But what a joy it was as well when he lost all of his respect." she smiled wickedly as her memories came back.

"Now tell me, Jai. Is it or is it not so that you wanted to touch my hair just minutes ago?"

"I, uh..I-I" he hesitantly started, the sweat running down the sides of his face as he saw her rise herself up and walk painfully slow towards him.

"Come on now, Jai." she whispered once she came up close, her face closer to his than it ever had been before. "Answer the question."

Jai looked on fearfully as she raised her hand slowly. He watched as she gently slid it across her right side and up to her stomach where she left it, putting a soft pressure onto her perfect form.

"I, yes... I did want to touch your hair, Alyzzia." he finally answered with relief and fear at the same time. He saw her lips curve up in a smile as she yet again went to move her hand from her stomach.

She reached out to touch his face as she gently continued. "Did? Don't you still want to touch it?" her hand reached closer to him and when it was right about to touch him he fearfully took a step back from her. "Afraid of me are you?" she taunted with a grin. "Fear not, Jai. You will not burn nor die. Not unless I want you too." the words of comfort slipped out of her mouth as she tired once more to touch his features. Alyzzia still saw the fear in his eyes as she closed in on him, but was impressed by his trust in her words as he this time did not back away and she managed to put a soft hand upon his left cheek. The warmth from her went through his systems in a feeling of divine.

It wasn't warm enough to burn him, but niether was it normally warm. It was somehow magically warm to keep him cold and warm at the same time. Jai felt himself with his eyes closed lean into her hand with pressure, yearning to hang onto this feeling forever. His eyes only opened when he heard her speak again in a suductive voice.

"I'll let you on a little secret for being such a brave young man. I can only burn the weak-minded, as I can only read the minds of the weak-minded. I read your mind, I can burn you whenever I want. You're weak, Jai." her voice turned slightly harsh as she continued. "You're weak, and your failure of yet again not getting access to that parchment shows it clearly. Grow stronger, or I will not need your services and nor will I need you alive as well."

"I'm sorry, I tried, I seriously tried! You saw me didn't you? You can see most things, so you saw. Please tell me that you saw?" Jai pleaded.

"And if you saw, then you also saw my desperate tries, it's not my fault, Alyzzia. It's the praetors fault, it's Baralai's fault! It's because of his refusement that I haven't already gotten you the parchment, and he will continue to refuse. He doesn't trust me, nor will he ever do. Nor should he, if he only knew of why I want the parchment, if only he knew of your plans. Then he would know that his refusement had been the right thing to do." Jai hurriedly explained in dispair as the words only came up within him and out his mouth. "It's because he's the praetor, he controls everything around here!"

"We might be able to change that." Alyzzia said. Jai looked at her and was faced by a devlish smile across her face. He could only wonder what she had in mind this time.

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"Yuna!" Paine's voice called out in worry as she ran toward the young female's body up ahead down the road around Besaid Village.

"Yunie!" Rikku let out herself as she saw her older cousin in a sitting position with her back against a tree with Tidus head resting on her lap. None of them were in a awake state.

Falling on her knees, Rikku went to softly shake Yuna's uptight body. Rikku felt all of Yuna's muscles being tighten up and sighed worriedly at her cousin. "Yunie.." she gently whispered while shaking.

Yuna's eyes slowly opened but closed right after as the powerful morning sun hit her full on in a very unpleasent surprise. "Ugh..." she moaned as she went to open up her eyes again.

Rikku let out a soft sigh of relief which Yuna quickly reacted to. "Rikku, Paine!" she hastily said as she faced them both. Her aching back reminded her quickly of why she had recieved the aching as she felt the soft pressure of Tidus head on her lap. Memories of that nights experience flooded back to her and she quickly panicked.

"I'm so happy you guys are here, quickly, I need help carrying Tidus back to the village" she found herself saying, or rather repeating as she remembered this being an almost exact copy of the yesterdays event. However the thought came to her mind, she didn't find it the least amusing as she had to go through the same worried feelings as before.

"What happened?" she heard Paine asking. She wondered that herself, but now was not the time to discuss it over. Yuna only shook her head and responded the only thing she could respond.

"We'll talk about it once we've gotten Tidus back to the village where he can rest."

"Let's hurry then." her younger cousin hastily added and Yuna turned to her with a small smile of appreciation on her face. Rikku and Paine each took a firm grip of Tidus and lifted him off Yuna so Yuna could get up herself and move on to help her friends.

In what could've been a 7 minutes normal walk turned to 18 minutes before they entered the village tiredly with Tidus unconscious body with them. Different from last time was that more people witnessed the image this time as everyone had gone out that morning early in search for the young ex-summoner and her Blitzer.

Worried glances and shocked faces came from every angle of the village as they saw Yuna's tired attempt in carrying Tidus over to her hut together with Rikku and Paine. They all tried blocking out the worried questions the villagers asked as they only concentrated on entering the hut and get the heavy pressure of their backs.

When Tidus finally laid on Yuna's bed unconscious for the second time in a matter of two days the trio themselves breathed out tired reliefs as they stretched out their tired and tight muscles.

Rikku and Paine each took a chair in Yuna's room to sit on as Yuna went to sit on the edge of her bed close to Tidus breathing chest. She carressed his cheek lovingly with a tender touch as she felt herself sigh at that night's events. Everything had gone so good, they had all laughed together in joy at each other's jokes and stories.

She remembered the warmth the fire they sat around had given away and she most of all she remembered the warmth Tidus body had given her as they sat close to each other during it all. But then came the cold and dark moments when the worry came.

Her worried search for him, her sobbingly state when she had talked to the Fayth that told her of horrible things, such as the risk of Tidus disappearing again. She sat like that for over 20 minutes, just stroking his face tenderly as Rikku and Paine sadly looked on.

They pitied her, she thought. For going through all of this, for not being able to live in peace. For not being able to live the dream life of happiness and joy that she had wanted together with Tidus. They probably pitied her for a lot of things, but she didn't care. They cared enough to pity her, that's what mattered to her. That they cared was more than enough. The pity part of it all was nothing of a greater concern for her at that moment.

The soft knocking of a door down below caught their attention but only Rikku made a move as she stood up with a quick "I'll get it" and went down the stairs in haste. Yuna continued to only stare at Tidus in complete silence before turning her head back to the doorway of her room. She saw as Rikku re-entered her room with Wakka and Lulu close behind. Both of them carried worried faces as they met Yuna's empty gaze.

"Oh, Yuna! Thank god you're safe. When niether I or the villagers were able to find you I couldn't help but think the worst." Lulu said as she hastily made her way over to Yuna. She opened her arms warmly and let Yuna enter her embrace which she almost did immediately. Lulu's arms soon encircled Yuna's upper frame warmly as she only listened together with everyone else in the room to Yuna's quiet but sad words.

"What could be more worst than this, Lulu?" she quietly asked, hoping for an answer that no one gave. "Nothing. Nothing can get any worser, not after all that's happening. Not after what the Fayth told me..." she muttered in what sounded almost like fragile words of emptiness. She reflected her inner feelings into her way of speaking, her words were empty because she hadn't felt more lonely than she did right now. She couldn't feel more hollow than she already did.

"The Fayth?" Paine asked curiously. She didn't know much of the temple ways during the time of Sin. But from her journey together with Yuna and Rikku she had managed to pick up a few facts here and there about the Fayth's being the ones that Yuna prayed to during her summoner-days. From what she had learned, the Fayth's were trapped souls. Souls that Yuna had said to be put to sleep after and eternal time of dreaming.

"What do you mean, Yunie?" Rikku questioned in utter shock of Yuna's revelation of the Fayth's. "Did you see one?"

Yuna released her grip around Lulu and slipped out of her embrace to gently nod her head at them all in answer. "Yeah."

"What did they tell you?" Wakka urged her. She lifted her eyes to meet all their gazes while thinking her words through while remembering the conversation she had earlier had with the Fayth of Bahamut.

'If this dream fades, there will be no coming back.'

Her eyes never closed as she spoke those few words. Never did her eyes leave their shocked ones as he revealed what scared her the most.

"That Tidus might fade again. And this time he would fade eternally."

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Al bhed translation:

(Brother) Rao, fyga ib! - Hey, wake up!
(Brother) Rikku, drec ec hu desa du cmaab, fa'ja kud yh asankyhlo! - Rikku, this is no time to sleep, we've got an emergancy!
(Brother) Hu, Rikku! Caneuicmo fa ryja yh, - No, Rikku! Seriously we have an, -

Well, people. That's chapter 11! Yet I'm in a bad mood, maybe review will help and keep me a bit sane and from dumping the story.. Sorry guys, I sound really stupid now.. But things are just really bad right now here at home..
So either way, who is that Alyzzia, and what's really up with her? Jai as well. What do they plan on doing in Bevelle?
What is this strange parchment Alyzzia seeks to have? Brother is just being dumb old brother in this chapter, toilet-business is not a good connection with him I tell you.. What will come out of Tidus destiny? Will Yuna be able to save him?
Awaits to see if this story stays alive until then. I hope you all enjoyed, sorry for my awful mood and my typos and misspelling.. Remember, English is not my main language!
Till next time, hopefully..

Alexiel91