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Edward's POV
My Bella is hocked up to so many tubes and weirs that I cant even count. Her skin is ghostly pale with major bruising on all the open skin I can see. Her hair is laid over the pillow and if not for the constant s beating of the heart monitor in the ventilator in her mouth you might think she was dead no no don't think like that she's not dead she's alive she's a fighter she's alive she's a fighter she's alive she's a fighter she's got this should make it I repeat the mantra over and over in my head trying to make myself believe she wouldn't leave me like this would she she'd at least say goodbye. my life is nothing without her if she's not in it what am I to do my existence is nothing. I am nothing without her, she makes me whole and happy. It gives me Peace of Mind filing to the brim of happiness. My love, my life is here on this bed and there's nothing I can do. my thoughts are interrupted by a knock on the door "come in" I whisper Alice comes into the room her face drawn Jasper tightly behind you're trying to comfort her so yes, I know it I feel the pain as well. Bella is Alice's best friend if I lose Bella Alice loses Bella too not just me, I must try to remember that. I go back to my thoughts, letting them be. couple of minutes later Alice comes and puts a hand on my shoulder "Edward she'll be fine I swear I've seen it." Alice's voice is broken but strong at least if I lose Bella... No, I tell myself stop thinking like that Bella will make it. I turned to Alice and saw Jasper had gone, it's just me and Alice in the room and Bella of course. I put my hand in Bella's and tried not to squeeze too hard telling her I'm here there's no response, of course she's unconscious, comatose. Alice says she must go, and she will be back tomorrow.
A couple of hours have passed since Alice left and I haven't left my position my hand is in Bell's lightly squeezing occasionally to let her know I'm here it's so hard to see her like this I know that if it were me she would try to do everything in her power and here I am sitting here doing absolutely nothing my Bella I could lose you at any minute and here I am sitting here talking to myself. As if my thoughts aren't enough a nurse comes in tells me I must leave cause visiting hours are over, I tried to protest but I know it's no use. As I walked to the car, I realized just how much my life means with Bella in it and how before Bella I was nothing and if Bella dies, I am nothing. I am nothing.