(Violet's Pov)
"Seems you have some really good friends." I hear and look to see Sophie again.
"Wait, I'm not injured anymore." I say.
"No, you're still injured but you'll see me from time to time." She tells me and I sighed a bit at this.
"Ok... uh, so why am I here again?" I asked her and she shrugged.
"Could be that you need someone to talk to about things you don't want to tell your friends, or your wife for that matter." She tells me and I shake my head at this.
"No, I could tell Clem anything."
"Then why didn't you tell her you were a Walker when you came back home?" She asked and I looked to the woman a bit but I couldn't say anything.
"I get it, you were afraid to tell her." She says and I shake my head.
"No, I wasn't afraid." I tell her.
"Then why?" She asked and I think.
"I... I didn't want her to worry, I didn't want her involved." I tell Sophie and she looked to me.
"But you made a promise to her." She tells me and then the darkness changes to night, I saw the stars and it was a bit cold and I turn as I hear someone talking.
""I give you this ring as a symbol of our love. Let it be a reminder that I am always by your side and that I will always be a faithful partner to you."" I hear myself say and I sighed at this.
"You said on your wedding day you would be a faithful partner to her." Sophie says and I turn to see as Clementine and I kissed and I closed my eyes at this.
"I am a faithful partner to her; I always will be one to her." I tell Sophie.
"Yes, but you lying and not telling her everything is when you lied to her." She says and I hold my head.
"That was before... I told her what she needed to know; I haven't kept a secret from her." I tell her.
"You gave her a potion that would help both you and her have a child together, this was after your vows." She says and I shake my head at this.
"It's different."
"How? You lied to her, you told her later on yes but you still lied to her for a good while." She tells me and I felt tears come from my eyes.
"I just wanted to make her happy, I didn't want to make her sad or angry but I knew it would happen regardless." I say more so to myself than to Sophie.
"I had to lie to her, she didn't need to know these things I just wanted to keep her safe from everything, Gabe is the one causing issues for all of us, not me." I tell her.
"But because of your lies he ended up making those choices." She says and I open my eyes and glare at her.
"I am not responsible for his actions, he decided to kill his own uncle out of pettiness, he is the one causing issues for Clementine and others, I didn't have to tell that little bastard anything." I tell her pissed off and she raised her hands up a bit.
"I am not saying you are at fault but you didn't speak the truth when it was all happening." She says and I grip my hands to my sides and I take a breath.
"I am not responsible for his actions and I never will be, he wants to cause issues because he wants Clementine for himself, but I wont let that happen." I tell her.
"How do you know she didn't want to be with him?" She asked.
"Because she told me she loves me." I tell her.
"But if you didn't come back she would have married him." She says and I shake my head more.
"No, no she wouldn't have she doesn't like him like that, she never has and never will." I tell her.
"But do you really know?" She asked and I look to her.
"Do I... do I make her unhappy?" I asked and instead of seeing Sophie, I saw myself in my knights' armor looking back at me. Hand on my sword that was attached to my hip and they looked to me.
"I don't think we do, but maybe we stopped her from being in a normal relationship... two women together in this time isn't fully supportive." I hear my old self tell me and I look to them.
"But... the priest." I say to myself.
"Yes, they did say what they said, but maybe she wanted to be in a normal relationship, maybe she only felt guilty by being with us, we were friends yes but maybe she mistook friendship with love." My old self says and I take a seat on the ground as the scenery changed to a battlefield and I looked around.
"We once fought for people to be happy, be it a man with another man and a woman with another woman, because we felt that people like us should be happy... but we never really asked Clem these things, again she might have mistaken friendship for love, have you read the letters she sent out?" My old self asked and I shook my head.
"No... I trust her." I tell myself.
"But do we really?" They asked and I wiped my eyes.
"You want Clementine to be happy, what if she was happy with a man and not you... would you allow her to leave you?" My old self asked and I think a bit.
"Would you still carry-on living knowing she loves a man, and not you?" My old self asked again and I looked up to myself.
"I... I would be ok if she loved someone else... and not me." I tell them and they shook their head.
"You're lying." They tell me.
"I'm not." I say.
"You're lying to yourself Violet, you and I both know you would be sad if she left you, but you don't know if you are holding her back." They tell me and I shake my head again as more tears go down my face.
"She loves me, she told me she did." I tell myself.
"You told her to call you, her husband." My old self tells me.
"Because I'm ok with that." I tell myself.
"But are you really?" they asked and I nod.
"Yes, I am, I know I am I was the one to say it, I told her to call me her husband."
"But did you truly say it to make it seem like your relationship was a normal one?" My old self says and I look up to them as the scenery changes again to winter and the scar on my face was fresh from being cut by a wolf. The wolf also stood next to my old self.
"I love Clementine and she loves me... I know this." I tell my old self and they shake their head a bit and look down as they pet the wolf's head.
"You can keep telling yourself that Violet, but we should really think about everything, especially with Clementine being involved." My old self says and I finally wake up as I hear Clementine and the others talking.
"I say we do what Violet planned with the abandoned kingdom, it seems like the best plan and no civilians would get hurt in the process." Duck says and I looked up to see Clementine as she rubbed my head a bit. I get up slowly and I look to Clementine.
"You, ok?" I hear Mariana ask and I nod.
"Yea... yea I just need to talk to Clementine... could you three watch the kids?" I asked.
"Sure, we can do that." Sarah says an I nod as I get up and I help Clementine to her feet. I walk her out the room and to our room and I look at her.
"Is everything ok Violet?" She asked and I look to her.
"Where are your old letters to Gabe?" I asked.
"Why?" She asked.
"I just... where are they?" I asked.
"Not until I know why." She tells me and I look to her.
"Please just... tell me where they are." I asked her once more.
"Violet what is wrong are you ok?" she asked and she cupped my cheeks and made me look at her and I cleared my throat a bit.
"Please... I just... need to know where they are." I tell her and she sighed and goes to her desk and grabbed the letters and I look at them. I looked to her as I opened the letter and read them to myself.
"Are you going to tell me why you need to read them?" She asked and I looked to her then back to the letters.
"Why would he think... you two should be together if... if you love me, did you say something to him that made him think like that? Did you tell him something that he could have mistaken as you wanting to be with him?" I asked and I looked to her once more.
"You think I love him?" She asked and I shake my head.
"No, I... I don't think you do but... I'm second guessing a lot of things now." I tell her truthfully as I look to her.
"Violet, I have told you that I love you." She tells me.
"Did you ever think at one point that I wouldn't have come back?" I asked.
"What do you mean?" She asked and I looked to the letters then back to her again.
"Did you ever think that I would have died out there... never to come back unless in the death cart?" I asked her and she looked to me then went and took a seat on the bed and patted it but I didn't take a seat. She sighed at this and placed her hands on her lap and she looked up to me.
"Violet... at one point I did think you wouldn't come back, I had to think of what I was going to do if it ever did happen... but I still love you, and I wouldn't have been with anyone else if that's what you're wondering." She says and I sighed.
"Did... did Gabe ever think you and him would have gotten married... before you and I officially became a couple... not married I mean when we were dating?" I asked.
"He probably did when I went to visit his siter, we did hang around each other a lot, we use to talk about many things together, we were friends at one point." She tells me.
"What did you talk about?" I asked.
"What we would do if either of us got married, how it would plan out, who would we think about marrying... he made a joke at one point saying me and him should get married and I was nervous so I just laughed at it... I didn't know what to say but I think after I talked about you so much that he should have gotten the hint that I never loved him like that." She tells me and I nod.
"So, he thought that that meant you would have agreed to marrying him?" I asked her.
"He probably thought that I had a crush on him at the time when he said that, but Violet, I love you, I've said this time and time again I love you and only you, I don't want to marry a man, and I never wanted to marry a man, I wanted to marry you since we were little." She tells me and I rubbed my eyes a bit.
"What made you think like this?" She asked as she got up from the bed and wiped my eyes and I look to her.
"I...I can't get it out of my head that you could be in a normal relationship, that... you only wanted to be with me out of guilt or something I don't know I just... I know we talked about this before but I personally can't get it out of my head even if we talk about it many more times in the future." I tell her.
"Do you not trust me?" She asked.
"I do, I do trust you Clementine... I just... don't trust myself I suppose." I tell her truthfully.
"Why don't you trust yourself?" She asked as she pulled me to the bed and we both took a seat and I handed her the letters back. I cupped my hands together as I leaned forward a bit and tried to think.
"I lied to you... I'm to blame for why Gabe is acting this way... this is all my fault, Carlos was right... and I'm trying to deal with the consequences to all of this, but it's starting to get to me and I just." I stopped as I thought a bit.
"I lied about so many things and I should have told you the truth the moment I got back here, I shouldn't have kept it a secret that I was supposed to kill you and your father, that I am a Walker, that... I'm just a terrible person, even as a knight I was a terrible person." I tell her.
"What do you mean when you were a Knight? You tried to help people." She tells me and I look to her.
"I've killed so many people... Civilians... kids." I tell her and rubbed my head as I felt tears go down my eyes.
"I didn't want to, this was before I was the Grand Cross, I had to kill kids as they tried to kill us, I didn't want to do any of that, that's why I wanted to help people but people hated us... they blamed us for them losing their homes, but I tried everything I could to make up for any wrongs I've done." I tell her and I felt her hand on my back.
"And when I was gone for that year... I fucked up so badly... so god damn badly." I tell her.
"What did you do?" She asked and I take a breath as I sat up a bit.
"I lied... when I said I never ate human flesh... I don't know why at that time but my head was telling me to do it...I was drunk and the person was just there in the woods doing god knows what and my brain told me to do it... my body did everything I didn't want it to and I don't know if it was the Witch forcing me to do it but I did anyway, and I felt so god damn bad, I threw up and stayed out longer so I couldn't hurt you." I tell her truthfully and she made me look at her.
"You made a mistake and it happened; anyone makes mistakes." She tells me.
"I'm not supposed too though... I am supposed to tr and be perfect, I am not allowed to mess up even now I'm not supposed to but I have, and now people are losing their homes because of me." I tell her.
"No, you aren't to blame for someone else's actions... you've said it yourself." She tells me.
"But it is my fault... all of this... Clementine I just... I don't want to be alive anymore, I don't want to be like this anymore." I tell her the truth and I looked to her as I see tears in her eyes and I wiped them away.
"You want to die?" She asked and I nodded gently.
"I don't want to leave you; Lord knows I don't want to leave you alone... or the kids." I tell her and place my hand on her lap.
"I just... I'm so tired Clementine, I'm so tired of all of this, I should have died, I shouldn't be here at all... I feel sick even though I can't get sick... I get depressed without knowing why, I have no reason to be at all, I have a wife, a family, I should be happy and not... not like this." I tell her.
"Vi." She says and I looked to the floor again as I take a breath.
"I'm sorry for telling you something like that." I tell her.
"No... I'm glad you told me." She says and I shake my head.
"You shouldn't be." I tell her.
"No, I should be glad you told me this... how am I supposed to help you if you can't tell me these things?" She asked.
"You... you aren't supposed to help me with things like this, you can't help me." I tell her.
"What do you mean I can't help you? I can try." She says to me. This is another thing I love about Clementine; she would do anything to help others even if she can't. It's one of her best qualities.
"I... you shouldn't be helping me." I tell her.
"Violet, you just told me you wanted to die... you worry me when you say that, and I want to help you and make sure you don't feel that way again." She tells me and I look to her.
"I... don't want you to help me with this... because it's not your problem to deal with." I tell her.
"You never asked for this Violet, you never asked to be a Walker, you never asked for any of it, you were forced into this and I want to help you." She tells me and I stand up and rubbed my head a bit.
"I know I never asked for this but... you never asked to be involved and I did bring you into this but I didn't want to, I just... everything is making me go crazy but I just... I just can't, you can't be helping me with this because it's not your problem, it's mine." I tell her and I feel her grab my hands and I stop moving and I look at her.
"I want to help you any way I can Violet, that's what I'm supposed to do, I'm supposed to help you... even when we were friends, I still wanted to help you any way I could, and I did... look I know things have gone sideways I know it's stressing you out, but we are going to fix this, you need help and that's what we are going to do is help." She tells me and I take a breath as I move my hands downward to my side and I look to her.
"And don't try and say that I shouldn't help, because that's not how this is going to work." She tells me.
"I'm so broken." I tell her and she hugged me.
"And that's why I'm here to help fix you up." She says and pull her close to me. I love her, I love her, I love her so God damn much it hurts. So sweet and kind after everything she's been through, after she's heard everything about me, after everything I have told her she still wants to be with me, she still wants to help me, she is still here with me.
"I love you, Clementine." I tell her.
"I love you too Violet." She says in my shoulder and I take a breath and close my eyes a bit.
"Is there anything else you need to talk about?" She asked me and I think and nod as we take a seat on the bed again and I take a breath.
"I uh...I want to fight Gabe on my own... I want to... send him a letter and have no one involved just me and him." I tell her.
"You want to do a duel?" She asked and I nodded.
"Only him and me... no one else there, not even you." I tell her.
"But-."
"I don't... I don't want you there in case I lose... I don't want you to see that." I tell her and I look at her.
"Just a fight... me and Gabe, no one else there, you'll know who won if I come back or... if he goes to you." I tell her.
"And then what? What do we do if you lose?" She asked.
"You should know." I tell her.
"We could still fight them off but... then there is no point in your duel." She says.
"We can make a deal with him than." I tell her.
"What kind of deal?" She asked.
"If I win... he's dead, he won't hurt anyone and all we have to deal with is the New Frontier... If he wins... and I'm dead... then he was right... he gets to kill me... and he isn't allowed to harm anyone... we can make a deal you and the others can be there to see us agree to these terms, and then leave." I tell her.
"Violet, I don't think you should do that." She tells me.
"But think of it... no one would get hurt-."
"But you could die Violet, are you really wanting to risk that?" She asked and I looked down to the floor and I take a breath.
"If no one else has to die then I'd rather take that chance than to risk others lives for my problems, and Gabe's stupidity... then you will have to make the plans for the New Frontier and how to beat them... I will leave some ideas for you to go off of." I tell her.
"... I don't like this plan of yours." She tells me.
"Trust me, I don't either, but we all know Lee and the others would agree to this rather than letting many people die, then just one would have to." I tell her.
"I know... we should think on it for a bit though, use it as a last resort?" She asked and I look up to her and sit up a bit. She looked to me and I cupped her cheeks gently and she looked to me with tears in her eyes and I kissed her. We pulled apart after a few seconds and I look to her.
"I think we know we shouldn't wait to long to make this a supposed last resort idea... I think we should do this earlier than later." I tell her.
"Vi."
"Clementine... I'll try to come back I can't make it a promise because I don't know what is going on with me right now, when... I got cut... but I'll try to come back... and if I don't then... I want to tell you sorry in advance." I tell her and she looked to me and shook her head.
"We can find another way to win this war... I don't think you should do this." She tries to convince me to not do this. I know that she is scared that I won't make it, I know she doesn't want me to leave her from this world, but I wanted this to stop, I wanted it all to stop.
"Ok... ok we can use this as a last resort plan... we will do something else." I tell her and she nods. We both then got up and went to the kids and we heard AJ crying so we hurried to him and Clem went to him and picked him up. He stopped crying and I couldn't help but chuckle at this as I go over to her and looked down at AJ.
"Seems he knows when his mom picks him up." Sarah says as she comes out with a bottle and I nod as I grabbed the bottle and handed it to Clementine who began to feed AJ.
"Yea... seems so." I say and looked to the boy.
"We need to go back to the meeting in ten minutes." Duck says and I nod at this and look to Clementine as she held AJ and I looked to Mary who was still sleeping.
"Is it ok for a child to sleep as long as this?" I asked.
"She's been up for das waiting for you to wake up, she'll be fine soon." Mariana says and I nod a bit.
"She'll have to go to her old sleep schedule soon, I don't want her up all night and early morning." I tell them.
"That's fair, but for right now, let her get some rest." Clementine says and I look to her and I nod at this. Time passes us by and I look to Clementine as she rocked AJ to sleep. Duck, Sarah, Mariana and I got ready to head to the meeting and I look at Clementine as I go over to her and I kiss her cheek and she looked to me and I smile at her. She grabbed the front of my shirt and gave me a kiss on the lips and I smiled a bit into the kiss. We pulled apart and I look to her.
"I'll be back after the meeting and we can... have dinner, ok?" I asked her and she nods at this.
"Alright, it's a date." She says and I smiled as I kissed her again. I then left with Duck and the others as we head to the meeting and I saw the other royals in there waiting for us.
"What took you so long?" Carlos says an I look at him.
"We were spending time with the kids, nothing wrong with that." Sarah says and I look to her then back to her father.
"When we have something important-."
"I think spending some time with my family would be best for the kids to remember me by." I say as I take a seat.
"Remember you by?" Lee asked and I look to him then to the others.
"I'm going to ask Gabe for a duel, just me and him... you will be there to see the agreement to happen but after that you will leave, so no one gets hurt." I state to them.
"Sounds like a good plan, to clean up your own mess." Carlos says and I looked to him.
"You're part of this mess with your lack of taking care of Carver, who is working with Gabe, I don't think you have any room to talk Carlos." I tell him and he looked to me.
"You little-."
"She is right Carlos, you allowed a dangerous man to roam to other kingdoms without warning, and allowed his records to be burned by someone you know, who knows what he's done to anyone in the church, to desperate women too... so I think you might want to be careful when you say something like that." Kenny tells him and I look to the man as he looked back to me then to Carlos.
"I-."
"Don't even try to justify yourself Carlos, you let the man live he is your responsibility, you failed to inform us of him, you probably got many women and children hurt." Lee says and I looked to the maps on the table.
"Anyway, Clementine is not to know that this is the plan we are going to go with, we will lie to her and say we tried everything but this has to happen as the last resort we had, do not and I repeat, do not tell her anything else." I tell them and I looked to the others.
"Don't you think that's a bad idea?" Mariana asked and I shook my head.
"She and I had talked it out, that is why I am telling you all that we are going to tell her we have thought of everything else but this was the only plan that we think will work, I don't want her to think we didn't try but we keep making plans and we keep changing them over and over and we aren't sticking with one, or we think one is a good one but we change it anyway... we can still have the area be in the abandon kingdom, we can have a document written up and have it settled, we know the New Frontier might have other planed out but we can have everyone go back to their own kingdom to tell their Knights to defend it, if the New Frontier want to try and invade we have possibilities, hell we can even have knights attack them in their own home if we have to while Gabe and I are fighting." I tell them.
"Are you sure about all of this?" Lee asked and I nod to him.
"I am... I would just like to spend time with my family before I do this... so they can at least remember the good times with me." I tell him and he nods.
"We can do that... when do you plan to do this?" Kenny asked and I think.
"I will have a letter sent out tonight and we will wait for a response by then... it'll give us some time and I can get things packed." I tell them and they nod. We then ended the meeting with that and the others all except for Lee and I. I looked to him as he looked back to me.
"Violet... you know this is dangerous." He says and I nod.
"I know."
"You might not make it." He says and I nod again.
"I know." I say and take a breath.
"You might be leaving your family." He tells me and I look to him.
"I know this Lee, I know... I know." I say with a sigh and looked to the map a bit.
"Clementine will be sad." He tells me and I shake my head.
"I have already talked to her on this matter Lee, and trust me she didn't like this idea ether but it's my choice to make right now... now please... drop it... and let me go send time with my family." I tell him as I get up and head to the room with Clementine and the kids. I smiled as I go up and grabbed AJ and he looked to me and talked in his baby talk. I chuckled as I kiss his head and look to Clementine who was smiling at me and I look to see Mary finally awake and I go over to her and I kiss her head gently as well.
"So... want to head into town for dinner?" I asked them.
"You want to go out?" Clem asked and I nod.
"Why not? We haven't had a family outing and I think Mary would enjoy some of Omar's food." I tell her and she nods.
"Sure, why not." She says and I smiled as Clementine went to get changed and I helped Mary as I held AJ. When we were all ready we headed out the castle, Marlon and Mitch were following us from behind and I held AJ as we walked to Omar's shop. There I saw Louis inside and I opened the door for Clementine as we walked in and I see Louis looking to us.
"Hey, heard you got Carver locked up." Louis says and I nod at this.
"Yea, uh I can explain that later." I tell him and he sees AJ's in my hand.
"This your boy?" He asked and Clem and I both nodded.
"And this is our daughter." I tell him as Mary comes from behind my leg and looked to Louis.
"Hello, I'm Louis." He says to her and I looked to Mary as she held her hand out to him and he chuckled as he shook her hand.
"I'm Mary." She says and he nods.
"Nice to meet you Mary, you know I know Violet here, use to work with her when she was a knight." He says and she looked up to me and I nodded.
"We should all go and take a seat at the table, Marlon and Mitch should be excited to see you Louis." I tell him and we all go to a table.