Chapter 17

Adult themes ahead… and some Jasper POV and if you want to skip the sexy times stop reading wherever and pick up again at the end of Jasper's POV

Bella's POV

Thankfully my stomach flu was over by Monday and I was back at school and normality on Tuesday. I spent the whole time I was sick at the Cullen's and Carlisle kept Charlie updated about how I was doing so there were no interruptions to me spending the whole weekend in bed with Jasper. Well other than when I was worshiping the porcelain throne. I would have much rather have had a weekend in bed with Jasper without being so sick but it was great to have him look after me while not babying me.

Everyone at school was looking a little worse for wear in the following week, there were many students affected by the outbreak of flu and it left us all with a slightly tired look, and the workload of senior year didn't help. There began to be a few rumblings of discontent from some students who felt we needed a break and it was unfair that Forks High didn't do a senior trip of some sort. I didn't really pay too much attention to it though, it didn't bother me either way, and plus, I had the best tutors in the world to help me with my work load. And I had given up on applying for college as I had bigger things to do next year.

I was beginning to get concerned about what I should tell Charlie and Renee about college applications though as they were beginning to ask questions and I didn't have any answers about it other than very vague ones. Eventually they would want to know more, and I would have to tell them something, and I had a feeling that saying I wasn't going to college wouldn't go over the best. I confided in Jasper about this one night and we organised to have another family meeting the following Friday night.

Alice came home with me on the Friday after school and we did our homework together, and had a good catch up with just the two of us for the first time in what felt like forever. She asked how everything was going with Jasper and I said it was all fantastic but I was getting annoyed that we just never seemed to have alone time together where we were actually alone and there wasn't my dad sleeping in the next room or a family with super hearing hanging around the house. And as the weather was getting colder by the day there were even less places we could escape outside as I was usually freezing and being close to Jasper didn't particularly help on that front.

Alice was sympathetic to my situation, she knew Jasper and I were both itching to move forward in our relationship but we, well especially I, didn't want an audience for that first step. Had I not figured out how everyone always hunting together was affecting Jasper we would have had the house to ourselves a whole lot sooner, but big family hunting trips just didn't happen anymore. Alice had a vision when I mentioned that and said she would take care of it, as long as I was ready for tonight. I was.

When Charlie finally came home she planted a story.

"Do you have anything planned for the weekend Bella?" She said as Charlie walked in the house.

"No, I think Jasper and I were going to do something Sunday afternoon, why?" I responded after a quick 'hello' to Charlie.

"Well," She said rather dramatically, "We're all going for a hike tomorrow, it'll probably be the last one before the weather gets too bad over winter, and you should totally come with us."

"I wouldn't want to intrude though." I responded, instantly picking up my part and doing my best to sound natural to Charlie.

"You wouldn't be, don't worry! And we're planning an easy pace, just out a few miles on our favourite trail, camp for the night at the edge of this beautiful lake, and then back Sunday."

"That sounds wonderful Alice, you should go Bella, I'm just heading up to see Billy tomorrow and the boys will understand if you don't come see them. Go and enjoy the last of the nice weather." Charlie said from where he was grabbing a beer from the fridge.

"Alright, I'll come." I answered with a smile to Alice, I now had the whole weekend to do whatever I wanted with Jasper.

"Good, go get your boots you normally wear for work and we can get going." Alice was practically bouncing.

"You sure I don't need anything else?" I asked.

"Nope." She said popping her 'p' in a very Alice way, "Between myself, Esmé, and Rose, as well as the outfits you have at our place, there's everything you need."

Our plan worked, or course it did it was planned by Alice, and we were soon on our way. Once we arrived everyone took their seats around the dining table for the meeting to plan my disappearance.

Everyone had ideas and opinions and it all sounded good at first until someone found a flaw in every single plan for how I would disappear next year.

I could run away. But no one would believe it.

We could fake a car accident. But there would be no body.

We could stage a kidnapping. But then everyone would be under scrutiny and it could be decades before life was easy again.

In the end we didn't come to a solution. Well Alice told me how I could get my parents off of my back about college by filling out some fake application forms she would make me, but as for the big issue. Nothing concrete.

I felt that somehow faking my death would be best, it would mean Charlie and Renee would be devastated but at least they would be able to grieve and eventually move on with their lives. Everyone agreed with me but now it was an issue of how could we make that work. The logistics of faking my death conceivably were enormous but I didn't doubt that we would be able to pull it off.

We still had several months before we needed to put a plan into action though so for now all we needed to do was think of what would eventually happen. But that was all something for me to worry about another day.

As our little meeting wound down Alice announced she wanted to head out for a hunt and a night out and shared a quick look with Rosalie who quickly agreed, if somewhat reluctantly, to come too.

"Anyone else in for a night out, there are some mountain lions a little run out, and not a human for miles so we can be as loud as we want." Alice said.

"Ooh I am in!" Emmett exclaimed, clearly eager to get out of the house and do something. "You up for a rematch Eddie?" He egged on Edward about their most recent sparring match that had ended in a stalemate after they were told to quite fighting before they destroyed Esmé's garden.

"You're on." Edward agreed.

"Just make sure you don't run away this time." Emmett teased.

"Just because I know my strengths lie in speed and outsmarting you rather than stupidity and brute force."

"I'll crush you." Was Emmett's only reply.

"Boys, save it for outside please, no fighting in the house." Esmé cautioned.

"Sorry."

"Sorry." They chorused.

Quickly everyone was ready and running out the door, leaving myself and Jasper alone.

"Should we stay in for a movie night?" Jasper asked me as everyone quickly prepared for the family hunting trip. I just nodded my head in agreement before he lent down to kiss me.

"They all left abruptly." I laughed as I settled into Jasper's chest on the couch to watch a movie. Well we were going to start a movie anyway but I was sure we wouldn't see all that much of it.

"Alice was plotting, I could tell." He replied with a chuckle.

"Yeah, I know, and I may have had a small part in it too." I laughed.

"Hmm, I think I like this mischievous planning. Wanted to have me all to yourself, did you darlin'" He said in a sexy, rumbly voice that sent tingles through me. And I knew he could feel what it did to me.

We didn't last more than a quarter of an hour watching the movie before we were both rather distracted by each other. Jasper's cold hands were underneath my shirt, running along my bra, his long fingers barely lifting the wire from against my chest and his lips were gently kissing down my throat when I gasped out.

"Perhaps we should move up to our room?"

Jasper didn't even answer or take his mouth off of my neck, he simple picked me up and a moment later the door of our bedroom was banging open and he was gently laying me on the soft blue comforter of our bed.

I somewhat awkwardly kicked my shoes off and shuffled back on the bed before sitting up slightly on my elbows to watch as Jasper removed his shoes and painfully slowly undid the shiny silver buckle of his belt and tossed that down beside the bed too, the leather and metal loudly crashing to the ground. He smiled at me in a way that I felt like I was the only one to ever see, there was something slightly wild in his eyes, and whenever I saw that look I knew exactly where things were heading. I only broke eye contact with him when he pulled his dark blue t-shirt over his head, and my eyes instead traced the hardened planes of his chest and down his defined abs.

Before he could join me on the bed and resume his previous activities I sat up to pull my own shirt off and threw it to the side somewhere, to be dealt with later. I decided to go one step further and take me jeans off too. Why not keep this ball rolling, right?

I saw him just about go crazy with lust as I threw the jeans in the same direction as the shirt, leaving me there on our bed in only a matching black lace bra and panties that left very little to the imagination and that I needed to thank Alice for some time. He was very quickly on top of me, and once again began to explore more of me with his mouth.

In one coordinated move that reminded me just how experienced he was, Jasper had unclipped my bra with one hand and I shrugged out if it and allowed him to throw it, leaving me even more naked. His plastered my chest in cold, sensual kisses that left goose bumps in their wake; from both the temperature and the sensation. And he continued onwards. I shivered almost violently as his cool tongue traced my navel.

"Sorry, is it too cold." He asked, pausing his actions and trying not to rest on my bare skin.

"Why don't you just turn the heater on in here, and I'll turn on the electric blanket?" I offered, desperate to keep going but also knowing I wouldn't enjoy this as much if I was shivering throughout.

"How about a hot shower as well?" He suggested with a grin on his face, clearly excited to know I didn't want to stop.

"I've been waiting for the opportunity to shower with you again." I answered with a sly smile as I reached for the blanket's switch. Once that was on, Jasper held out a hand to help me up off of the bed and I headed for the shower while he quickly ran downstairs to the heating control pad, before joining me in the bathroom.

I was standing there a little awkwardly, outside the shower, waiting for the hot water to come in and still only dressed in my panties and feeling rather exposed. I left my back to the door and took a deep breath to calm myself a little, but I was still crossing my arms over my middle. I was ready and wanted nothing more than to finally have sex with the man I loved but everyone had always talked up this moment and it was hard to not think about how it could go. The good and the bad.

I wasn't alone for very long when I heard Jasper close the door and then felt him wrap his arms around me.

I stretched my head up to quickly kiss him before pulling back and smiling. Having him there was reassuring me.

"You okay?" He asked.

"Perfect." I said as I turned in his arms and wrapped my arms around him.

He placed another sweet kiss on my lips. "As long as you're sure, I'd never want to pressure you."

"You're very sweet, and I'm very sure. I've wanted this for such a long time. Are you sure?" I asked, picking up on his slight uneasiness.

"I'm just worried about hurting you." He replied in a smaller voice than normal.

"Hey, you would never hurt me, you couldn't hurt me, but if anything at all feels even a little uncomfortable, I'll tell you straight away."

"I love you Bella." Was all he replied before kissing me passionately again.

"And I love you Jasper." I said as I pulled away. Taking a calming breath I stepped out of his arms, turned towards the shower and removed my panties before stepping into the shower. I looked over my shoulder and asked, "Are you going to join me, or just stand there and watch?"

Jasper's POV

Seeing Bella standing there under the hot water of the shower was too much for me, all of my feelings if unease and my worry of hurting her completely evaporated. This was the woman I loved and I would never do anything that would hurt her or make her uncomfortable. And I needed to get into that shower right now and show her just how much I loved her.

I kicked my jeans off, over to the side of the bathroom, and my underwear very quickly followed before I stepped into the hot water with Bella.

As the water washed over us and warmed us both we became more confident with each other and our hands and mouths began to explore once again.

I started with her lips. They were so soft and warm, and her slightly fuller bottom lip that she saw as an imperfection looked so perfect on her face, especially when it involuntarily parted in pleasure as I began to kiss down her neck. Her neck was wonderful to me, to feel her pulse, to hear her blood rushing just beneath her skin, and to smell her delightful scent. There was a part of me, deep in the back of my mind, that told me to bite down. To taste. For her to be mine. Forever. But there was a more dominant, rational part that told me it was not the wrong time and that would come later and to enjoy her living and human for now.

I continued my journey downwards and was now kneeling between her legs, and she had stepped back so her back was pressed against the shower wall, though the water was still running down us both.

I moved closer to her, taking in her scent and then teasing her with my fingers. Her moans echoed through the bathroom and the lust poured off of her, spurring me on. I finally tasted her, as I had before, and had I not been holding onto her hips she would have collapsed on top of me right there. I continued on, driving her closer to a sweet release and enjoying the view I had looking up her body. Her soft, flat stomach, her breasts moving with each of her heavy breaths, her full lips still slightly parted, and her arms desperately looking for something to hold onto.

I felt her slipping in my hands and moved my arms so she was essentially sitting on my shoulders and she grabbed hold of my head, fingers twisting into my hair and holding on for dear life.

Her moans grew louder and were interspersed with little whines and every time I heard one of those I knew I was in the right spot, doing the right thing. It was very little time before she called out my name in her moment of climax.

As she slumped down along the wall after those moments of bliss I carefully lowered her so she was sitting back on the shower floor in front of me.

"You are so fucking good at that." She panted, out of breath.

"Well we have had plenty of practice of that." I replied with a smirk. And it was true. Every chance I could I would find myself between Bella's thighs, working to hear her call out my name in bliss.

"Well you should let me repay the favour." She said, starting to move towards me.

"As much as I love it when you do that, should we move back to our bedroom now?" I asked knowing that the hot water could run out and our bedroom would be warm and much more comfortable.

"I'd love that actually." She agreed.

We barely even dried ourselves off before we dashed from the steamy bathroom through the chilly hallway to our now very warm bedroom. We dropped our towels by the door and I immediately pulled Bella into my arms and carried her to the bed, our lips never parting, and laid her gently on the bed.

We continued to kiss as I slowly moved my hand down her body, between her legs. She responded to me instantly and slightly spread her legs and after just a quick swipe of my thumb she was arching her back, trying to get more contact. I continued to tease her with my fingers once again for a few moments as she began to moan again. I pulled away from her mouth.

"I'm ready." She said before I could ask.

I kissed her again as I moved so I was laying over her, resting my weight on my knees and one forearm that rested beside her head and gently moved my hips towards hers.

The heat I felt surround myself as I slowly began to enter her was incredible. I had never felt anything like this and I never wanted to feel anything else again. I started out slow, letting Bella get used to the new feeling of fullness but she very quickly began to match and meet my thrusts with her own hips.

I tried to be as gentle as possible, making sure I didn't move too hard or too fast and that I never grabbed her too hard as my hands continued to explore her body. And as much as I had worried beforehand, it was surprisingly easy. Us vampires were very much driven by our instincts and I was acutely instinctually aware of every need of Bella, and exactly how far I could go without hurting her.

My pride would love to say that I spent hours making slow love to the woman I loved but that just wasn't true; it certainly wasn't the longest I had ever lasted but it was the best sex of my life. And then to hear Bella moan out in climax just seconds after me and to feel her climax take over her body beneath mine was magical. I would never forget this moment.

That night was the best night I'd ever had. We alternated between tender touches, more passionate ones, and Bella dozing lazily on my chest. There were lazy conversations and comfortable silences. But my favourite moment came in the early hours of the morning after Bella had woken from a light sleep. She was laying on top of me, our chests together, and the bed sheet draped over our hips, the heater providing enough warmth for her. I was softly tracing patterns down the length of her spine when she propped her head up on her folded arms and looked up at me.

"Jasper," She began still in a sleepy voice. "Be honest with me, how much does my blood tempt you?" She asked.

"Honestly, not a whole lot." I replied, gently stroking her hair. "I mean, you're a human with blood and I'm a vampire who very much enjoys the taste of human blood, but any thirst I have is minimal around you." I smirked, it was a strange thing but I was very open and honest with Bella about bloodlust. She knew human blood was something I had enjoyed but had chosen to abstain from for ethical reasons, I guess was the best way to explain it.

"Do you think that when it comes time to do it, you would be able to be the one to change me?" She asked in a small voice, as if she were worried about my answer.

"I'm honoured that you would want me to do it. Of course I would." I answered sincerely and for the first time in a century and a half I knew what humans meant when they said their heart skipped a beat.

"Good." She said with the most beautiful smile before a gleam in her eye made it more of a smirk. "Can we make it just like tonight? I want my last human moments to be full of bliss and happiness and then to have you here in our bed with me when you do it."

"Of course my love, anything for you." I said before I sat up, pulling her up with me to kiss her sweetly.

Although Bella didn't settle just for a sweet kiss, she deepened it very quickly and so began another loving session.

Bella's POV

I awoke to some confusion some hours later than the last time when Jasper and I had had our conversation about my upcoming change. I was lying beside Jasper, curled into his side and tucked under his arm and I could hear a clear, feminine voice having a one sided conversation and Jasper gently waking me.

"'Sgoinon?" I slurred in my sleepy haze.

"Charlie is on the phone for you, it's urgent." Jasper responded as Rosalie handed my phone to me. I couldn't help but feel very awkward that Rosalie was in the room with us while we were naked and it was very obvious what we were doing.

She handed me my phone and I greeted my dad as best as I could in my drowsy state.

"Bella, I know it's early and you have plans but I need you to come home right away." The stress in his voice was incredible.

"What's wrong? Is everything okay? Is Mom okay?" I asked fanatically, the situation hitting me.

"She's fine, so am I, but," He paused, "Sam Uley is missing and everyone is concerned, I'm heading up to help with the search and I think it would be a good idea for you to come, try and support Leah."

"Okay, you go and I'll get there as soon as I can. I'll see you soon Dad." I said, somewhat in a daze before Dad said his goodbyes and I hung up the phone. "I need to go." I said to the two vampires in the room.

"I'll drive you to your place to grab your truck." Rosalie offered. "Unfortunately it gets more complicated and I need to fill you in on some things we should have told you more in depth before now." She added.

Hey my lovely readers. I'm back again and much sooner than most of you probably thought, right? Maybe this is a pattern for me, write a few quickly and then have a break? I'm not sure but I'm sure you won't be complaining about this chapter.

So some big themes here, and they finally had sex! I hope I did it justice and the changes in POV were alright. I would love to hear some feedback about the chapter and what's going on. And am I finally introducing wolves? Well…obviously… haha I still love Jacob and want to include him more with the big arc that's about to get under way

Daisy
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