Warning: Mild shounen-ai (awkward 'threesome') near the middle of the story. Don't worry, just forceful kissing and neck nuzzling. Does not effect already astablished pairing. Thank you.
ICBINA
Pavor Nocturnus
When I awoke, I was freezing, which was slightly new to me. Trying not to move my head, I tried to curl up to warm up, but I couldn't move.
Struggling a little, I opened my eyes, the light nearly blinding me, and looked down at my body.
There were beige leather bonds keeping me in place. Groaning, I shut my eyes again.
I was tied to the bed, great. My day was getting better.
"So, you're awake now... that's good..."
And to make it even better, Koenma was in my room.
Wait, room?
Opening my eyes again, I looked up at the sterile white ceiling of a hospital.
"What...?"
"Oh, so you don't remember?"
He approached me so that he was standing at my side. I looked at him briefly, and he smirked.
"You're in the hospital, Hiei, after Botan and Yusuke found you on the floor of my house, screaming at someone, when no one was there, to shut up."
I frowned at his smug face.
"That doesn't explain the bonds..."
Koenma's smirk grew as he looked away from me and began to examine that room.
"While in the ambulance, once you and your energy calmed down, you went haywire again and attacked a nurse. They put the bonds on you to stop you from attacking anyone else. They even tranquilized you. Fluphenazine, I think it's called."
I looked at him curiously, not really understanding what he meant.
"I... attacked someone...?"
"Two people, actually; Yusuke and the nurse. While the nurse got knocked around a bit, with bruises and a cut or two, Yusuke's arms and hands were burned horribly. Second and third degree burns, I think."
Koenma looked back at me, and his face glowed at my shocked expression.
"Don't worry, Hiei. The nurse is just fine, and Yusuke is receiving excellent care in the burn ward. No need to beat yourself because of it."
Growling, I frowned at him.
"You think this is funny, you bastard? That I attacked two people without remembering why! You've got some sick humor, you know?"
The Prince of Reikai glared at me.
"So you think? Then perhaps you'd like to tell me why you attacked them, hmm?"
My mind stopped reeling briefly and looked away.
I didn't know why I attacked them, I couldn't even remember attacking them! What was wrong with me?
Nothing, dear, nothing... Well, not to me, anyway... but I have an inkling that the infant doesn't favor you, at the moment...
I gasped, and I knew Koenma noticed because he moved closer towards me.
"What's wrong...? You don't know, do you?"
Ignoring him, 'the voice' spoke up again.
Hmm, that child is rather irritating, don't you think, dear one? Sadly, I don't think we can do anything about it... without risking your sanity, at least...
Frightened, my eyes widened and a struggled against the bonds.
"Shut up," I murmured as my muscles tensed, straining tiredly.
"You're ignoring the question, Hiei," Koenma said slowly, apparently not seeing that I had something else on my mind.
I think that that child is oblivious to anyone else's' problems. What about you?
"Be quiet... please..."
My struggling grew even more desperate.
Oh, dear one, don't you think you should stop now... it's no use, really. Those bonds are there to stay...
"Shut... UP!" Shooting up violently, I felt my energy spike dangerously as I growled loudly.
Koenma jumped away from me, nearly knocking over the table behind him.
"Koenma," I ground out, allowing my energy to move dangerously around the room, "untie... these bonds... now..." He looked at me curiously, before shaking his head violently.
"I can't do that, you should know-!"
He could if he wanted to... He just doesn't want to, does he?
"RIGHT NOW, ASSHOLE!"
My mind began swimming back and forth as the bonds refused to move. That stupid fucking voice-!
Now, that's really not nice...
"SHUT THE FUCK UP!"
"Nurse! Nurse! There's an emergency!"
Screaming, my thrashing caused the bed to rock back and forth violently. Vaguely, I was aware of people surrounding me and shouting some things. One tried to touch me, and in response, I bit the woman.
I could taste her blood: that wonderful coppery substance.
"Shit! He bit me!"
That wasn't nice, she was only trying to help.
"FUCK! KEEP YOUR MOUTH SHUT!"
I don't have a mouth, so I really can't listen to you, dear.
My screaming grew louder as I jerked through the straps. I heard the straps' strained groan, and my energy calmed down somewhat.
"Hurry, tighten the bonds!"
"He's calmin' down... try some more tranquilizers!"
"NO! DON'T FUCKING TOUCH ME!"
"Calm down, Mr. Hiei! We're only trying to-!"
Feeling hands on my arms, my jerking became violent and dangerous and my breathing erratic.
"JUST LET ME GO! NOW!"
"Fluphenazine-! Quick-!"
"NO!"
As my mind grew blank and my jerking ceased, I could hear relieved sounds and sighs of relief.
"I'll go get the doctor... maybe we can get him to a safer place..."
"Yeah... an' go get a Band-Aid or somethin' for that bite! It's bleedin' everywhere!"
Groggily, I fell back against the bed, surprising the nurses.
Well, it was a good thing they stepped in... any longer, and your sanity may have left...
Nearly jerking upwards again, I shut my eye desperately.
"No... stop talking to me, please..."
"We're not talking to you, Mr. Hiei... are you alright?"
You never liked that particular question, did you?
Groaning in despair, I let the darkness take me.
When the world began to appear before my eyes again, I noticed that I was no longer strapped to the bed.
Closing my eyes when pain hit my head, I curled up in a ball, noticing that my normal outfit had been changed to that of a normal hospital outfit.
Sadly, the outfit just made me colder.
"Mr. Hiei... are you awake?"
Surprised by the voice, I tried to get up, but a firm hand on my shoulder held me down. Groaning, I tried to get away.
"Calm down, Mr. Hiei... I'm not trying to hurt you..."
My breaths came out in small pants and I curled up tighter. Who was talking to me now?
"Just calm down, please. We took the restraints off because the tranquilizers should keep you drowsy, but awake enough to talk. Do you follow me, or should I talk slower?"
Her voice was soft and reassuring and I relaxed a little bit as I tried to nod my head, only to have more pain explode through it.
"Try not to move your head, Mr. Hiei. You understand?"
I made a noise, that obviously sounded as if I understood, because she continued.
"I'm Dr. Kacheysi, Mr. Hiei... and I'm be monitoring you from now on, okay?"
Not answering, I hear the rustle of her robes as she got closer to me and placed a hand on my forehead.
Shocked, I jolted upwards, the pain in my head magnifying and I cried out.
"Mr. Hiei! Lay back down, please!"
With a firm, but gentle nudge, she had me back on the bed, the pain in my head coming in short but strong waves.
"Don't get up too fast. Your head is hurting due to the fact that once we moved you to this room and began to change you into a hospital gown, you attacked us again, and one of the male nurses thought it would be a good idea to knock you out forcefully."
I groaned; a human had knocked me out... great, just great.
Her hand was still on my forehead and it rustled over my bandana and into my hair, reassuringly.
"Mr. Hiei, you may be drowsy for the next few hours or so. In your IV drip we are inserting Fluphenazine, a tranquilizer, in continuously on a minute schedule. This is to keep you sedated so we don't have another episode."
Coughing dryly, I opened my eyes and looked up at the woman that had been talking to me.
She was middle-aged, with few wrinkles already appearing, and had her brown hair cut like a man's.
Dr. Kacheysi smiled a little at me and removed her hand from my head.
"Good day, Mr. Hiei. Are you feeling alright?"
Growling, I tried to shuffle away from her, but I was too tired.
"N-no... wh-what do you th-think...?"
Nodding, she moved away from me a bit.
"I understand... I suppose, before I go into detail about how we're going to deal with you, that you may want to know how Mr. Urameshi and Miss Botan are doing?"
Eyes widening as I coughed again, I gave a feeble nod, trying not to hurt my head.
"Alright then. Mr. Urameshi's burns have started to heal wonderfully. If you don't already know, he received first to second degree burns on his hands, with third degree burns up to his elbows. The cause is unknown, but we are aware that it happened before you were brought here."
"Miss Botan received first degree burns around her ankles and wrists, and surprisingly, no where else. She is also healing just fine, though has been rather aggravated that she hasn't been allowed to see you."
Kacheysi smiled at me, as if she knew something I didn't.
So what if Botan wanted to see me? Couldn't this woman see the engagement ring on Botan's finger, and the absence of one on mine?
"That is all, Mr. Hiei. If you'd like to talk to them, you may do so... at about lunchtime. Until then, you have orders to not leave your rooms, for monitoring."
"For... w-what?" My speech was shaky, and my heartbeat quick.
"Mr. Hiei, from what Mr. Urameshi and Miss Botan have told us, they think that you were not in your right mind when they found you. You were screaming and shaking violently and weren't exactly coherent in your words."
"They say when you finally realized their presence, you told them to go away and when they refused, you went haywire. The same thing happened in the ambulance and your other room just hours ago."
"Now... I understand this may be upsetting to you, but that also means no one can visit you. That alright?"
I didn't really care, and shrugged her question off.
"That doesn't... e-explain what's wrong w-w-with me," I murmured, still shaking. Kacheysi nodded.
"From what we've witnessed and heard, I believe that you are suffering from night terrors... do you know what they are?"
"No..."
"A night terror is very different from a nightmare, if you didn't know. As what had happened to you, when I believe Mr. Urameshi tried to 'awaken' you, persons experiencing a night terror are not fully roused, even if it seems they are, and can still experience the night terror."
"This is what most likely happened to you when you yelled at them, you were still experiencing the night terror. Also, what happens in the dream is usually different and cannot be remembered. Do you know why you attacked them...?"
Did I? Frowning, I tried to remember. There was the argument between Botan and Koenma, then Koenma became rather bitchy about me staying in his house, then the ferry girl left to go talk to him, and then...
"No... I-I can't..."
Kacheysi smiled grimly and moved to sit down on the side of my bed. Looking at me curiously, she sighed.
"Well, that's one clear sign of a night terror. Another is that they are usually extremely disturbing, graphic, and or violent. And you usually feel more emotion then actually dreaming about an event. If people remember the night terror, they are reluctant to talk about it, due to its nature and the feelings that were felt during the dream."
"Does this make sense, Mr. Hiei," she murmured, looking at my pale white face.
"Y-yes... but, if I'm h-having night t-t-terrors, how will you tell?"
"By monitoring you. Due to the Fluphenazine drip, you will most likely be asleep for most of the monitoring. Then we can see if you act as if you are having a night terror. Don't worry, Mr. Hiei, the monitoring process is painless. At all times, I will be in that room," and she pointed vaguely to a mirror I hadn't notice before.
"Two-way... m-mirror...?" Kacheysi smiled and got up from the bed and moved towards the 'mirror'.
"Yes, Mr. Hiei... I can see that the tranquilizer is having effect now, so I'll go... when I come back, I'll explain some more things about night terrors... alright?"
Moaning, my eyes blinked a few times, distorting the image of the woman.
"Y-y-yes..." Darkness swamped my mind and I heard a reassuring chuckle.
"Good night, Mr. Hiei... sweet dreams...
Darkness once more surrounded me... but I could move...
"Hello?"
No one answered back, and I was safe in the knowledge that I was alone.
"Hmm... been awhile since I've seen me..."
Jumping, I looked behind me, surprised to see yellow eyes staring back.
"Hello me, it's me again."
With a wry smile, my majin self backed away from me. I stared at the green skin that was swarmed with eyes and he smiled, noticing my stare.
"Different, isn't it? Looking at yourself... hearing yourself." I backed away from him, only to run into someone else.
"What's the rush? I'd like to have a chat with me too."
Turning around, I looked at my more humanlike form, only with the Jagan fully opened and black and purple flames curled around 'its' body.
"I wonder... which form do you prefer," he said slowly, smiling predatorily.
"His," the majin form said, coming closer, "or mine?"
"I..." My humanlike form scoffed.
"Hn... try breathing, that may help..." It was only then that I noticed that I hadn't been breathing regularly.
"So, are you breathing," the majin form said, before disappearing and reappearing by my side.
"So, are you breathing," continued the other, appearing on my other side as he curled his arm around my waist, "now, now...!"
"Are you breathing? So... are you breathing," said the green monster, draping his arm over my shoulders as he leaned in towards my ear, "now!"
Jumping away from me, the other one moved in front of me and gripped my shoulders, while the majin stayed by my side.
"Wake up, are you alive, will you listen to me?"
"I'm gonna talk about some freaky shit now," the majin cut in, still very close to my ear.
"Someone is gonna die when you listen to me... Let the living die, let the living die!"
"Say," continued the majin, and he smirked at me. The one in front of me smiled and moved closer, so that our bodies touched.
"Wake up, are you alive, will you listen to me?"
"I'm gonna talk about some freaky shit now," and as the majin said this, the humanlike me smiled and wrapped his arms around my neck. Too frightened to move, I looked into his ruby red eyes.
"Someone is gonna die when you listen to me, let the living die, let the living die! Say!"
"Are you breathing, now? Do the wicked see you," murmured the majin, "You still breathing... you're making me known... Are you breathing, now... do the wicked see you? You still breathing?"
"So! What's up? I wonder why do you listen to me."
"I'm gonna make you do some freaky shit now..."
"Insane, you're gonna die when you listen to me, let the living die, let the living die."
"Say," said the little voice in my ear, and I was horrified when I felt his tongue move across the shell of my ear.
"What's up, I wonder why do you listen to me," said the one in front of me, smiling insanely.
"I'm gonna make you do some freaky shit now," said the majin once he removed his tongue, only to blow on my ear, causing my to shiver from the cold. In response, the one in front pressed his hips to mine, and chuckled at the look on my face.
"Insane, you're gonna die when you listen to me! Let the living die, let the living die! Say!"
"Are you breathing, now, do the wicked see you? You still breathing, you're making me known. Are you breathing, now? Do the wicked see you?"
The majin pressed against me, and tilted his head so that he could look at me. He smiled darkly and I felt his arm move away from my shoulders so that his hand could thread through my hair... lovingly... sickly lovingly...
"YOU STILL BREATHING!"
"So! Can you imagine how good going through this will make you feel," whispered the other one, resting his head on the shoulder of the majin.
"I promise, no one will ever know," continued the majin, his hand curling possessively in my hair, "There will be no chance of you ever getting caught..."
"They never loved you, anyway. So come one, be a man," and the humanlike me tugged at my neck, causing me to topple slightly, but effectively placing him and me face to face.
"And do what you're compelled to do," continued the majin, and he placed his lips on my neck. His tongue probed out and began to trace random patterns on my skin... I almost retched, but the one in front of me caught my attention.
He leaned towards me, staring at my lips, and all I felt was fear. Leaning in closer, there was only an inch between our lips.
Smirking, his eyes shining, he got closer, until—
"Save me, GOD!" And his voice echoed through the darkness when he pressed his lips forcefully against mine.
Crying out, I tried to move, but both the majin and the humanlike me held me in a tight grip. I felt him smirk against me lips and effortlessly, he had my mouth open and his tongue swept in.
Nausea took hold of me as I felt 'my' tongue probe around in my mouth, drawing out unpleasant feelings. The majin at my side continued his ministrations on my neck, his lips moving towards my collarbone, and I felt his fangs lightly pierce the skin.
Groaning desperately, I tried to get away, but the hand in my hair tightened painfully, keeping me in place. The hand released its grip and moved down the nape of my neck, to curl comfortably there.
The one kissing me was still smirking as he ran his tongue over mine. Something unwanted came into my mind, and I grew desperate. I needed out!
His tongue swooped across my fangs before he pulled away, the majin following suite before his lips went any further.
"I can hear the voice, but I don't want to listen... strap me down and tell me I'll be alright," murmured the humanlike me breathlessly, the smirk never leaving his face.
"I can feel the subliminal need to be one with the voice... and make everything go," said the majin, tilting his head, his yellow eyes shining.
"I can hear the voice, but I don't want to listen. Strap me down and tell me I'll be alright."
"I can feel the subliminal need to be one with the voice. And make everything all right. Are you breathing, now? Do you the wicked see you? You still breathing...? You're making me known," continued the majin, his hand leaving my hair to trace my spine.
"Are you breathing, now, do the wicked see you? You still breathing!" The majin shouted triumphantly and the other one's smirk grew.
"So... are you breathing? So... do you breathe, now, now?" The humanlike me continued to eye me with his ruby eyes, which was unsetting. I was now my own victim...
"So, are you breathing? So... do you breathe... NOW!" He yelled this so loudly, that both of their grips on me faltered. Finally breaking away from them, I stumbled away, as they stood side by side, smiling.
Groaning, I tried to get up, but the darkness was crowding me... I needed out, now!
I heard them chuckling and I turned back to look at them, but they were gone. I was all alone... again...
Screaming, I began to writhe on the ground, clutching my head.
"NO! I WANT OUT...! NOW!"
No one answered back and I cried out.
"PLEASE...! PLEASE, LET ME OUT!"
I heard someone yell, and someone try to quiet them.
"Quiet, Mr. Urameshi! You're not even supposed to be here-!"
"Shut up, hag! What the fuck's up with Hiei?"
Voices... not more...
"NO! JUST LET ME OUT! PLEASE!"
"Hiei! What the hell-!"
"Mr. Urameshi, leave! Now! You're not helping-!"
"Neither are you! He's-!"
"STOP IT! PLEASE...! JUST STOP FUCKING YELLING," I screamed as loud as I could, my breath momentarily held... could I get it back...?
"Damn it... breathe Hiei!"
"Mr. Urameshi, leave now!"
Dots floated in front of my eye and my struggling stopped. Was this the end?
Then I felt a soothing hand on my forehand, gently stroking back the bangs. Crying out, I started to struggle again.
"Shhh, Hiei... shhh... Go back to sleep... it's alright, just go back to sleep..."
"Please... I just want out... that's all..."
"I know... I know, but right now you need to go to sleep..."
"Wait, lady... he's already sleeping."
"Mr. Urameshi, I told you to leave-"
"Yeah, well my friend needs some help, okay an' I-"
At the sound of someone arguing, I began to struggle again, the darkness closing in on me. Can't they just stop?
"Mr. Urameshi, Mr. Hiei is about to go haywire again if you don't shut up!"
"Why don't you shut up, you old hag?"
"STOP YELLING! NOW!"
"Hiei! Calm down, please... just go back to sleep," I felt the hand in my hair move down my face, trying to reassure me.
"Just stop... no more yelling..."
"Okay... but I need you to go to sleep... calm down, Hiei, it'll be okay... I'm here and so is Yusuke... we're both here..."
Breathing erratically, my struggles ceased and I leaned into the touch and soft words.
"Yeah... we're here, shrimp... go back to sleep, 'kay? It'll be alright, I promise..."
Blinking into the darkness, I became aware of the coolness that was in the air. It was calming... only slightly though.
"I... just want it to go away... The darkness..."
"Shhh... I know, just go to sleep... It'll be light when you wake up..."
"Promise...?"
"Yes, I promise."
"Same here, shrimp, same here..."
Before my eyes closed, I saw light.
Promise kept.
Author's Notes: Voices lyrics (c) to Disturbed