Dashboard Confessionals

Bend and Not Break

Being a Leader Being in Love

Raimundo Pov

I catalogue these steps now
Decisive and intentioned.
Precise and patterned
Specifically to yours.

I have watched you as we trained with each other. I have tried be just as good as you. Be at your pace and at your pattern of foot steps.


I'm talented at breathing
Especially exhaling,
So that my chest will
rise and fall with yours.

I breathe as if I am starting to lose it all. I exhale knowing the other two notices I am not being a leader. My breathing is rising and falling with yours. I want to be with you but, I have a duty of being a leader and not a lover.


I'm careful not to wake you
Fearing conversation.
It's better just to hold you
And keep you pacified.

I am being as careful as I cannot to wake you in the morning. I fear to have a conversation with you alone. It is better just to hold this leadership so I can protect you.


I'm talented with reason
I cover all the angles.
I can fail before I ever try.

I am talented with this reasoning. I have covered all the angles of this love being notice. I could fail before I start but I won't let that happen.


Try to understand there's an old mistake
that fools will make and,
I'm the king of them
pushing everything that's good away so,
Won't you hold me now? (I will not bend, I will not break)
Won't you hold me now? (I will not bend, I will not break)

I have made one old mistake and with that mistake you found out how much I love you. I was a fool to make that mistake. The mistake to push you away from me now. Wont you hold me know or am I too late?


I am fairly agile
I can bend and not break
Or I can break and take it with a smile.

I am very agile, when I bend my heart will not break. I can brake but always have a smile. So you don't love me.


And I am so resilient
I recover quickly
I'll convince you soon that I am fine

I have to be resilient because I am your leader. I have to recover quickly, just to convince you I am fine. I am a leader so I can't show weakness.


Try to understand there's an old mistake
that fools will make and,
I'm the king of them
pushing everything that's good away so,
Won't you hold me now? (I will not bend, I will not break)
Won't you hold me now? (For you I rise, for you I fall)

I will never make that old mistake again, that fools would only make. I pushed away the truth for so long that I loved you. Now you won't hold me now.

Just hold me close to you.
Just hold me close to you

Just hold me close to you (Won't you hold me now?)

Just hold me close to you (Won't you hold me now?)


I will hold onto you close to protect you from being hurt. You would hold onto me close because you would be in pain. You told me you wont hold onto any more. You said you wont but you are.


Try to understand there's an old mistake
that fools will make and,
I'm the king of them
pushing everything that's good away so,
Won't you hold me now...?
Won't you hold me now... now... now...?

Please understand this is no mistake. I am not a fool and you are not. I pushed away my love to you now, and you feel the love to me. "Wont you hold me now Kim?" I asked her after the battle. "Yes I will Rai." Kim told me as I hoped not to be hurt again.