Beloved Misery

This is obviously meant to be my most dramatic romance for Inuyasha and Kagome. I do enjoy how thing fan fiction is going to turn out. I hope you will too.

Warnings: Sexual Content; Extreme Violence; Offensive Language

Rating: M for Mature

Good to know: LEMON means sex.

LIME means just the basic kissing and hugging

Disclaimer: I DON'T own Inuyasha or any of the characters associated with the series. I do own this storyline.

RECAP:

"We're done." Inuyasha pulled the haori up on her.

"Thanks."

"No problem." Inuyasha placed the cloth in the pale. "You ready to go now?"

"Yeah." Kagome reluctantly sat up and pulled the haori fully around her.

END RECAP

Chapter 3: A Companion's Comfort

It was nice and cool out today. Fall had just began not to long ago and the smell in the air was very soothing. It caused Kagome's attention to be directly solely on the serenity of the area, rather than on the aching events of the last few days.

It felt nice to also be able to see the light of day for the first time in a few days. Inuyasha was standing behind her, watching her back. She needed sometime and he completely understood that. He would allow her as much as she needed. He had all the patience in the world to spare her after all that she had given him.

They had arrived at the field overlooking the well just moments before. Kagome had been on his back the whole time, but now she could actually take the time to feel the gentle grass beneath her feet and the air silently beating against her soar and swollen skin.

First they would be going to her time to get her clothing and try and avoid Kagome's family until she was better healed, but if they saw her, her excuse would be a demon had attacked her. It would go no farther then that. She wanted to embrace them all. Her mother, brother, and her grandfather, but that would look to strange for a mere demon attack.

"Are you ready?" Inuyasha asked quietly. He knew she was hesitant, but he also knew she would want to get dressed as soon as possible. He also knew she would want some food, water, and a bath, but what he didn't know was if she wanted him to be with her the whole time she was there.

"I am. Can we go in through my window?" Inuyasha nodded and waited for her to walk forward towards the well. When she did he began to follow her trail, paying close attention to the slight stumble in her step. It wasn't much, but it was there. A small breeze blew up part of the bottom haori to reveal a slash on her thigh. It wasn't deep, but it was bruised. Inuyasha bit his lip and his fang made it slightly bleed. He felt like he deserved to bleed much more for all of Kagome's blood that he had spilled.

Kagome stopped in front of the well, hearing the hanyou's steps stop as well. She was happy when he was near in his half demon, she was just frightened his demon would come out again. Because there were no demons around he had no reason to get so angry as to transform again and she could trust that.

Looking into the well Kagome suddenly felt a little nauseous. It looked so far. She was not the type to fear heights, so she didn't know what had come over her.

"Inuyasha...?" Kagome turned and looked at him and he returned her look, with a look that told her to speak her mind and say what she needed. "Could you carry me?" Inuyasha did not question this request and walked over to her and picked her up carefully. Her hand clasped his white haori and he jumped in.

In the blue light Kagome felt so warm, especially in the arms of the one she loved. It was a nice feeling. She waited a second more for the blue light to fade and for Inuyasha to jump out of the well.

He placed her on her feet and she nodded her thanks. The young miko took a deep breath and stared at the well house door. She was so close to her home and she felt so... odd. It had been a while since she had been away from the feudal era and she was finally back, but not for her normal reasons and that was what made it feel so different.

"Can you smell anyone outside that's close?" Kagome questioned. Inuyasha took a quick sniff of the air.

"No. They must all be inside."

"That's good. Could be go up to my window now."

"Yeah." They walked out of the well house and Inuyasha picked up Kagome again and brought her up to her window sill. Placing her to his side he opened it and let her climb in first. He followed and shut the window.

Kagome rushed over to her drawers and pulled out her clothing.

"Could you stay here, until I get out of the shower?"

"I'll be here." Inuyasha agreed, sitting on her bed and crossing his arms. Kagome grabbed the rest of her things and rushed from the room, being sure no one saw her before she could get into the bathroom and lock the door.

Kagome sighed and dropped her clothes and towel on the counter. He turned on the light. It felt a little bright and she prepared herself to what would be seen in the mirror. She quietly untied the knot on the haori and waited for it to fall from her shoulder. It fell to the floor and she examined herself in the mirror.

Her front was only bruised a little. Her face had a single scratch and her front thigh had a clawed wound. Her back was a little worse and she had a big bruise and slash on the back of her thigh. She frowned, but was glad that it was not as bad as it could have been. Her core was soar and her upper thighs had a slight amount of dried blood that had trickled down from her innings being so violently torn.

It was a horrible thing to happen to anyone, especially girls, who had to lose all that was pure to them. Most men didn't understand this fact. To men it was just pleasure, but for women it was something more. It was everything. It was not just taking something without asking, it was taking all that a girl had without asking. It was tainting someone so they could feel disgusting and horrified without consent.

Kagome turned the knob of the shower, making sure the water was nice and warm. She stepped her in and soaked her bare and battered body. It felt so good. To her this was unimaginable pleasure. She knew she could never fully wash away taint, but she could try and forget it, which would be impossible for just about anyone else, but Kagome was a different case. Plus she had a stubborn, loving half demon to help her along the way. How many other people had that in this case? Try none.

Taking the shampoo Kagome massaged it into her scalp. She moaned in pleasure, forgetting all of the worries of her past. Once the shampoo was completely rinsed she applied the conditioner and let it release the knots of her hair.

Meanwhile

Inuyasha crossed his legs, with his arms and leaned into the wall, while sitting on Kagome's bed. How could he have done such a thing? How could he have been so week! He would never become a demon again. He would not allow it. His goal was no longer to be a demon, but to help heal Kagome. He would try his hardest.

He smelt of Kagome's blood and suffering. He wanted to wash himself, but that could wait. He needed to be there for Kagome. This room smelt so much like her joy that it made him feel content with himself a little. He hoped that after some time she could regain the smell of peace and innocence. He knew that was basically impossible.

There was a knock on the door and Inuyasha's ears twitched as it opened slowly. Mrs. Higurashi was the one standing there.

"Inuyasha, it's you." Taking a closer look, she noticed his condition seemed a bit unstable. "Are you alright?"

"I'm fine."

"Where's Kagome?"

"She's in the shower."

"But she didn't even sat hi yet."

"She wanted to shower bad."

"Do you want one too?"

"I'm waiting for Kagome."

"Do you have plans?"

"No."

"Then come on. We have a shower downstairs. I'll show you how to use it."

Later

Kagome sighed walking into her room. It felt nice to be clean and where actual clothes for the first time in days. When she entered she was not expecting Inuyasha to be gone.

"Kagome, dear." Kagome's eyes widened at the sound of her mother and she turned quickly.

"Mom..."

"I let Inuyasha take a shower downstairs. He seemed a little untidy. His clothes are washing. Was there a recent battle?"

"Oh... umm..." Kagome looked down. She could not face her mother when she lied to her. "Yeah. A demon attacked."

"It must have been strong. You seem tired."

"Yeah... it was."

"Why don't you rest then? I'm sure Inuyasha will let you sleep."

"Sleep sounds good, mom." She kept herself from saying to much and waited for her mother to leave. After her mother shut the door she plopped down on the bed and pulled her knees up to her chest. She leaned her head on her legs and let a couple tears fall. She was so tired and warn down that crying felt so nice on her heart.

The young priestess picked up the covers and slid her feet under them. She sniffed the clean air and closed her eyes, wiping the salty tears from her cheeks and eyes. Her bed also felt like heaven. It was not some thin cloth on a hard cave floor. She needed to sleep a little. When she woke up they would go back to the warring states era and get Inuyasha's Tetsusaiga. She would come back to the modern time and rest a little more and Inuyasha would either come or stay in the other time. She didn't care which one he chose, but she honestly wanted a companions comfort and who better than Inuyasha? To her, no one.

It was true he was in the body that raped her, but it was only part of his soul. A part he kept locked away and as long as that part was locked away she loved being by his side. At first she had not minded any of him. To her all of him was beautiful, but after that night she could not find it in her heart to not fear his demon. She was just so fragile. It was basically impossible.

"Kagome..." Inuyasha's voice was so calm and gentle. He slowly opened the door and looked at her frail form. She looked over to him and noticed how tranquil that it made her heart swell. He also held the extreme look of guilt. She felt sorry for him. She was - of course - the one raped and she had to deal with the pain, but he had to deal with the guilt of hurting someone who he only wished to protect.

Inuyasha was wearing some of her fathers old clothes. Just some boxer pants and a t-shirt. She assumed his clothes were not finished being washed yet.

"Do you want me to go back?" Inuyasha asked. Kagome lifted up her blanket.

"Could you... maybe stay with me for now?"

"Of course."

"Would it be to much to ask for you to lie down with me? It just feels kind of empty." Inuyasha blushed at the request, but he could not refuse her so he nodded and walked slowly over to the bed. Kagome scooted to the side and Inuyasha lied down beside her and turned his back to her.

Kagome didn't exactly know why she wanted him there. He was just so comforting to her and she cared so much about him. He was the only one who healed her wounds.

"I'm happy..." Kagome mumbled half asleep. Inuyasha tensed up a bit. He didn't know if he had ever felt so nice. She had said she was happy! After all that she had been through, she was able to say she was happy.

That's the ending to another long and detailed chapter. I personally liked it. It made me feel comfortable myself.