Beloved Misery

I apologize for not updating this or any of my fan fictions. You see my computer hasn't been working. All of my files have been deleted and that includes the chapters that would have come after this and the last chapter to The Non-Breakable Love. That means everything has to be rewritten.

Warning: Sexual Content; Extreme Violence; Offensive Language

Rating: M for Mature

Good To Know: Lemon means sex.

Lime means just basic kissing and hugging

Disclaimer: I DO NOT own Inuyasha or any of the characters associated with the series.

Recap: "It...?" Inuyasha was a little to naive to understand right away what exactly she was saying, but it was starting to clear up for him in that mind of his. "What do you mean 'you or it'?"

"I mean I'm going to have a baby..." End Recap

Chapter 6: Getting Life Going Again

Kagome waited in her room. She did not want to bother Inuyasha when he was so deep in thought downstairs. As soon as she had given her news to him she had ran for the stairs. He had been to shocked to stop her.

Meanwhile

Inuyasha looked upon his clawed hands. He had never hated himself so much. What had he done? What kind of horrible monster was he to put such a burden on Kagome's shoulders. First he had forcefully taken her innocence and now this. Nothing could be worse. She must hate him. He wanted to cry, but that was against him completely.

The hanyou looked upon the stairs. Suddenly he wished he was just a human. If he was, none of this would have ever happened. Kagome would still be happily pure. He would have been long dead, never to be a bother in Kagome's life.

But what is done is done and there's no changing that. Now that there was a child on the way, Inuyasha planned to take full responsibility for his actions, whether or not he had control over them.

Pulling himself up, Inuyasha dragged his human form up the stairs. This was the form that was completely harmless to Kagome. The form that loved her completely and yearned only to be by her side.

Halting at the miko's door, Inuyasha considered knocked, but didn't. He merely turned the knob slowly and peeked in. Kagome sat on the bad, staring at her hands, which were folded neatly in her lap.

"Kagome?" When Inuyasha called her name she looked up at him with pain-stricken eyes. It was then that Inuyasha realized a heart-breaking fact. Kagome would never be the same again. She would never hold the innocence of a child in her smiles. She would never treat Inuyasha as a loving friend and nothing more ever again. He had ruined everything. Gulping back overwhelming pain, Inuyasha bravely walked forward. "Kagome." He repeated, sitting next to her. She looked at him and into his midnight eyes. "I am going to take full responsibility." He informed. She seemed slightly surprised, but not much.

"You don't... it wasn't really you. I mean... Why should you? It's not your fault." Kagome looked away from him. Her eyes burned. She hated this. She hated this more than anything. She loved nothing more than Inuyasha. He did not disserve to be treated like a stranger. He was her best friend. Nothing would ever change that. "Inuyasha..." Kagome cried out and wrapped her arms around him, crying into his chest.

Inuyasha was bewildered, but let it go and wrapped his arms around Kagome.

"The baby is mine too." He whispered into Kagome's ear. She didn't stop her crying.

"Please..." Kagome pulled back and stared into Inuyasha's eyes. "Stop acting as if we don't know each other. You did nothing wrong. I love you... I love you so much. It hurts when you act as if we can never be the same again. Why can't things just go back to the way they were?" Inuyasha's eyes offered sympathy. "I want to be with you. I regret nothing!" She yelled. He frowned deeper, knowing that all of this hurt was his fault in some way.

"Kagome... you know..." His voice was calm and quiet. "You know... I love you too. I wish that things could be the way they were months ago, but you and I both know..."

"Stop!" Kagome pulled away from him, stopping her tears. As much as she wanted to cry she did not want him to see her farther weakness. "Don't say such things." Kagome placed a hand on her plump belly. "We can pretend like it wasn't... like the child wasn't conceived the way it was. When it's born we can be parents can't we? Parents that love each other. It's not as if we can ever tell this child the truth." Kagome was so desperate for Inuyasha to agree. So unbelievably desperate. She sat back down beside him. Inuyasha could see the desperation in her eyes. So much it hurt. He didn't know what he was supposed to do.

Kagome took a deep breath. She hated feeling so depressed inside. She missed feeling nothing but love, joy, and annoyance around Inuyasha.

"Inuyasha..." Kagome tried to speak, but Inuyasha leaned forward and placed a kiss on her lips. Everything disappeared. She was no longer in pain. She was in heaven. It was unbelievable. Never before had she felt this way. It was as if he had placed all his love and hope in those lips and given some to Kagome. Her eyes drifted shut and she leaned into him.

Inuyasha was glad to see that this had calmed her down. He just wanted her to forget the pain. Was that so much to ask for? He wanted her to stop crying. He wanted her to feel love and hope and joy like she used to. If he could turn back time he would, but he didn't have to power to do that. So this was his only choice.

Separating from Inuyasha, Kagome stared into his eyes. Honey reflected nutmeg as the two waited in silence. Kagome couldn't control the yawn that came from her mouth next. She wiped drying tears from her cheeks.

"Get some sleep." Inuyasha pushed Kagome down on the bed. She nodded and pulled the covers up to her chest.

"What about you?" She inquired. He looked down at the floor.

"I'll be fine." He told her. He needed some more time to think. He would find a way to get Kagome's life going again.

Two Months Later

Kagome giggled as she was tickled by her hanyou companion. The flowers bloomed around her. It was early spring and there was peace and new life everywhere. She felt more content than she had in what seemed like centuries.

"Stop..." She laughed out, but could not say any farther. Claws scrapped against her sides. The green grass below her welcomed her and comforted her as did the nature around her. She was still pure. Maybe not physically, but her soul had not grown tainted. Her pregnancy gave her the glow of an upcoming mother. Inuyasha had become more of a father figure over the past months. Him and Kagome seemed like the perfect couple. The only ones who knew the truth were Kagome and him.

Now that Kagome was five months into her pregnancy her belly seemed to be much bigger. She often got little kicks here and there. Not once had she regretted keeping this baby. She would love it and cherish it, along with her mate.

Inuyasha had proved his loyalty time and time again with her and over time he had showed her he really just wanted to make her the happiest woman alive.

"Enough..." Kagome finished giggling pushing Inuyasha back. He had one of those rare smiles on his face. Kagome stared up at him, beaming. From the sides of hers eyes she could see buds and full bloomed wild flowers.

Sango, Miroku, Kaede, and Shippo had all been informed of Kagome's pregnancy a month and a half earlier. Shock was not the right words for the way they all felt. That would be an understatement. Shippo was excited. Miroku had been jealous, but had given one of his perverted grins. Kaede didn't know how to react. Sango had been weary. She had talked to Kagome about the wounds that she had had, but Kagome just told her they were attacked by a demon. When Sango asked why she had not said anything about it earlier, Kagome just said she didn't want them to worry. Sango let Kagome off with that.

Inuyasha leaned down and kissed Kagome forehead. After that he backed off her and sat down. She sat up on her knees. She was glad that things had become so much easier between the two. It really was almost as if nothing bad had ever happened.

Kagome looked at the well a few feet away. She had just come back from a three day visit to her time. Inuyasha had greeted her with small kisses and tickling.

"I should go see the others. I'm starved. I missed breakfast." She informed, getting up. She brushed dirt and grass from her clothes. Inuyasha got up as well, but no dirt clung to anything, but his knees. He didn't bother wiping it away. "I brought ramen." Kagome gestured to her yellow backpack on the ground. Inuyasha picked it up and the two headed for the village.

Life seemed to be getting better by the day. Inuyasha and Kagome were really a couple now. They had not gotten intimate, because of the pregnancy, but kisses here and there never hurt. They never acted to close around the others. It just didn't feel right. Kagome slept on a mat and Inuyasha slept against the wall right beside her. The ate beside each other, but never kissed in front of there friends.

Everyday was something new. Most days Inuyasha had to leave Kaede's and head of to an opening of land between the well and the village where he was in the process of building a home for him, Kagome, and the child that was on the way. He had originally tried to surprise her, but she had secretly followed him one day and he was forced to spill the beans. She seemed so happy and grateful.

As the couple walked towards the village, their hands came together. Smiles appeared on both faces and things seemed to be healing. Slowly, but surely things would get better.

This is NOT the last chapter. There is still more ahead. This will probably only be about ten chapters. Give your opinion on this chapter. Oh and I am aware that Kagome was a bit off charater as was Inuyasha, but I wrote it how it is.