A/N: Hello all! I'm back! I've decided to not make this story too long. Maybe two or three more chapters, but those who know me, know I can't just end with one story! That right! I'm thinking about making a sequel! Oh and there will be no yaoi in this story…except for in Edward's mind. You'll see why I do this hehe.

Warnings: Language, beach fun, and phone calls.

Entry #7
Journal Entry #7-June 20: That fucking bastard. Pride is trying to kill me, AND he tried to take over my body! There's no fucking way I'm letting him have it! Envy, he…he saved me. In my dream I mean. Do I really love Envy, or is it something else? It feels like love, but then again, I've never been in love. I looked the word up in the dictionary; the first definition I got was 'an intense feeling of tender affection and compassion' the second one it found was 'a passionate feeling of romantic desire and sexual attraction'. I guess that sounds like what I'm feeling. But…but I just want Envy to hold me.
Closing his journal once again, Edward curled himself up underneath his blanket, and started to cry to himself. He didn't like being this confused. Was all he felt towards Envy, nothing but a sexual desire? If it was, Edward would most likely kill himself. I was wrong just thinking about Envy in'that' way, but thinking about him only for sex, that made Edward sick to his stomach.

"Does little Edward not feel good?" Pride said, sitting next to the bundled that was Edward.

"Leave me the fuck alone, Pride." He spat.

Pride's smirk widened.

"Oh, are you still sore about that dream?"

The blonde ripped the blankets off of him, and looked Pride dead in the eye.

"Do I look like I am?" He hissed.

"You looked like you were crying." Pride said, tilting his head in curiosity

"You know, if I could, I would beat the hell out of you."

"And it I could, I would kiss you." He said winking.

Edward quickly backup, and gave Pride an evil glare. Pride merely did what he did best, smirk.

"Fuck you, Pride!"

"What's the matter Ed?"

Pride crawled forward, causing Ed to back himself up against the wall behind him. Why was he acting like this? Was Pride…HITTING ON HIM? This would have to be a first for Ed. Pride had always been cruel, non-caring, and manipulative. But here he was, inches away from Edward's face.

"You're blushing, Ed."

"N-no I'm not!"

"What would you say if I were to kiss you?"

He got closer, too close for Ed.

"Would you kiss me back?" He said in a seductive voice.

Edward closed his eyes tightly. His blush was getting heavier, yes, he was blushing. One he heard the door click, he opened his eyes. Envy walked in, and stared at Edward for a moment.

"Are you okay?"

Edward nodded quickly. Envy gave him the 'if you say so' shrug, and continued to walk over to his bed, He and Ed shard a room, making the blonde predicament worse. Their Aunts house wasn't very large, butit was big enough to house at lest six people.

"Izumi's taking us to the beach." He said, while looking for my swimming trunks.

Once Envy had found what he was looking for, he began to strip. First was his shirt, pulling it off, he flung it over his shoulder. For a slip second, he had forgotten that Edward was in the room with him, and started to pulled down his boxers. It wasn't until he heard the blonde clear his throat, that he stopped mid-way. Modesty was something Envy didn't have very much of, and what little he had, he used.

"Oh, sorry about that." He said.

He gathered his remaining clothes, and walked out of the room. All of the blood that was in Edward's face, had now rushed down to his lower regions. Envy's little strip-tease, did him no good; and right now, he needed relief. Jumping up, he ran over to the door, and locked it. Collapsing to his knees, he stuck his hands down his pants. He wrapped his hands around his length, and began to massage it. He let out a soft moan, but him touching just the, wasn't enough. So, using his free hand, he slipped it underneath his shirt, and squeezed his nipple. Moaning louder, he hunched over slightly; the pleasure overwhelming him.

'God, I can't take much more of this.'

Stroking himself harder, he completely arched his back, so that his forehead was pressed against the floor. It was then, that someone knocked on the door.

"Hay Ed, we're leaving in a little." Al said in a chipper voice.

"A-alright."

"Are you okay, Ed? You sound kinda horse."

The blonde on the floor moaned, before he answered.

"I'm fine, don't…don't worry."

Not completely satisfied, Al left. Ever since his cousins had arrived, he had noticed that Ed was behaving strangely. He knew that Ed wasn't really the talkative type, but there was something different about him. He knew about Edward's 'condition', so he didn't bother him too much.

'Oh my god, Wrath was right! I really do worry too much.'

Al shook a little. Seeing that Wrath was his little brother, he would never admit, well out loud anyways, that Wrath had been right about something. That was just something he couldn't do, as big brother and all. Shaking his head, Al continued back to the front of the house.

"Hay Nii-san, where are Envy and Ed?" Wrath asked.

"Envy's getting ready, and I'm not so sure about Ed."

Al got into the car, and sat in the front seat, next to his mother.

"…hay Al?"

"Yes?"

"…Ed is…crazy right?" Wrath asked.

Al shook his head.

"He's not crazy, he's mental unstable. There's a difference."

"…but the bother seem like the same thing to me."

"You see, crazy, is just being what it state, crazy; no self-control, no reason, no nothing. Being mental unstable, is having a slight mental-disorder, kinda like an emotional problem; he's not crazy, because he can maintain his problem with pills. Do you understand that?"

"I think so." He said while nodding.

Edward pressed his head against the floor, muffling the loud moan he let out. After a few secondsof recovery, Edward shook head in disapproval. This was the third time he had done this, and every time hr felt disgusted in the end. The blonde removed his hands from his pants, and wiped the sticky substance on his pants. Getting up, he reached for the door, and unlocked it. As soon as he did, Envy came busting threw the door.

"Come on Ed! It's time for some fun in the…hay, how come you didn't change?"

"I don't feel like going."

"…OH HELL NO!"

Envy reached down and picked Ed up, slinging him over his shoulder. He and Ed had come down there to relax, and dammit, Envy was going to make sure of that! Of course Ed put up a fight, he was being carried! By Envy no less!

"Put me down you asshole!" He retorted.

"We're going to the beach weather you like it or not!" Envy spat back.

Edward struggled some more, but he gave up after a while. Envy continued to carry him out of the house, and plopped him into the car. Izumi threw the sin a confused glare.

"Please don't ask."

Nodding, they got into the car, and started off. Ed did what he usually did when he was in a car, stare out of the window. He was about to zone out, but Envy nudged him in the side.

"You should really speak to your relatives more."

"Why?" He said simply.

Envy sighed. His brother could be so bland sometimes. After a few minutes, the silence was really started to get to Al.

"So, Ed, are you-"

"I'm not dating, I'm not doing anything special at school, I don't have any friends to talk about, so would all of you stop pestering me." He cut him off.

"Ed, we're not trying to pester you. We just wanna, you know, talk to you." Al said smiling.

"Uge, why are you still talking?" He nearly shouted.

Felling hurt, Al sunk down in his seat, and wiped away a tear that was bound to roll down his face. Envy shook his head.

"Ed, you really need to apologize to Al."

"And why the hell are you still talking? You have no idea what the hell I went threw this afternoon!"

"Then why don't you tell me, instead of being a fucking angst child!" He yelled back.

Everyone in the car went silent.

'Oh yes. Let tell my big brother that themere image of him stripping, caused me to have a hard-on. Oh, he'll just LOVE that!' Ed thought sarcastically.

Edward just turned his attention back to the window. Envy placed his hand on his shoulder, sighing.

"Ed, look-"

SLAP!

"DON'T TOUCH ME!"

Envy was taken aback by the blonde slapping him. He placed his hand on his cheek, and gave him a evil look. Why the hell was he acting like this?

"God Ed, you didn't have to hit me!"

Ignoring him, Edward turned his attention back to the task at hand. After a while, he began to feel bad about what he had done. He really didn't mean to hit him, it just kind of happened.

'I think I just messed up.'

Edward watched as his relatives played in the water, and build sandcastles. He was sitting under the umbrella they had brought along, with his knees pressed against his chest. Don't get him wrong, he could swim. He just didn't want to 'interact' with anyone currently. He just wanted to be alone, but that wasn't going to happen anytime soon. That's right, Pride was sitting next to him.

"Well, at lest you wont get a tan…well, you wont get tanner."

Ed was silent for a moment, then spoke.

"I've got a question for you."

"For me? Oh joy." He said titling his head.

"Why are you being so nice all of s sudden?"

Pride shrugged.

"People can change, Edward."

"But you're not real."

"Yes…I know that."

Edward looked over at the blonde, to see that Pride had placed his head on his shoulder. He couldn't very well feel it, but he did blush. What had gotten into him? He knew that Pride hated him, but if that was true, why was he still hanging around him? I you hate somebody to the point where you want to kill them, then fucking leave. But, Pride had been around with Ed for three years, three long and agonizing years.

"Would you stop doing stuff like that?"

"Why? I know you like it."

"No I don't" he said.

"I bet you would if Envy did this."

Edward's blush deepened. He looked back down at Pride, to see the serious look on his face. It was then, that Edward finally got it.

"You're…you're jealous…aren't you?"

Pride chuckled.

"Why the hell are you jealous of Envy?" He asked.

Pride shook his head.

"I'm not jealous of Envy, I'm jealous of your feelings for Envy."

Edward stared at him for a moment.

"THAT'S the reason you've been terrorizing me?" He screamed.

Edward got up, and walked over to the seaside. He hated his life, and Pride was the blame for it. He had been normal once, a very long time age. But now…now he just wished he could be held. Ed didn't care who it was, just that they were comforting.

"Hay."

Edward looked up, and long and behold, it was Envy. He crouched down, and smiled. Edward turned his head, and looked away. He was still too embarrassed about the incident in the car.

"Look, I'm sorry for yelling at you." He said in a soft voice.

"…do you hate me?"

"Of course not!" He said surprised.

"I could never hate you, and I could never bring myself to hurt you either."

Envy stood up, and extended his hand out to Edward; gesturing for him to take it. He did, and Envy pulled him up, a little too hard. The blonde slammed into Envy's chest, causing both of them to fall into the sand, Ed on top of Envy. Blushing, Edward sat up, which only made the situation look worse. Ed was now starddling Envy's hips, with the sin looking up at him. And wouldn't you know it, Al and Wrath just 'happen' to run by. Stopping, the both of them looked at the scene before them.

"Uh, what are you two doing?" Al said.

Edward bolted up, and started to run. He had never in his life, felt so embarrassed. Once he had stopped, he found himself back at Izumi's car. He pressed his forehead against the cool metal, and tried his best to catch his breath.

'I can't take this anymore.'

Once Edward was home, he instantly ran back to his room. Envy followed him, and found that he had bundled himself up in his blankets. He walked over, and took a seat next to him.

"Ed, what's wrong?" He asked.

The blonde held onto the blanket tighter. Envy rubbed his back, causing him to shiver. He was about to say something else, but the sound of 'Rewrite' suddenly started playing. Envy reached into his pocket, and pulled out his phone. Seeing the name 'Roy' flash on the screen, he answered it.

"I'm kinda busy right now."

"Oh, sorry, I just needed to talk to you for a sec."

Envy noted the seriousness in Roy voice, and serious was something Roy wasn't.

"Are you alone?"

"No, why?"

"Well, could you just go somewhere were you can be alone?"

Pausing, Envy got up, and walked out of the room.

"Okay, now what do you have to say?"

"…we've been friends for a while right?"

"Three years, why?"

There was a pause on the other end of the line. For a second, Envy thought Roy had hung up.

"…I…I love you."

Now, Envy was the silent one.

"Roy…wait…is this you're idea of a joke?" He asked, with a slightly pissed tone.

"No, it's not."

"I…I don't know what to say."

Another pause.

"Say…that...you feel the same way I do."

"I…I…I love you too, Roy." He stuttered out.

"That's all I wanted to hear."

And with that, the phone clicked. Envy had a goofy expression on his face, a long with a blush. Envy shook his, trying to get his mind working. This was Roy he was talking about. The sin was going to make sure Roy truly meant what he said, once he had gotten back.

Edward stood at the door, heartbroken. He had heard ever word that Envy had said, and it was tearing him up inside. He slowly walked back to his bed, and began to cry.

'Why does everything turn out this way? WHY?'

Edward cried harder. The one person he had loved was in love with another, and that made his heart heavy. He was a fool to think that Envy could feel anything for him, except for brotherly love. Gradually, the blonde started to drift off to sleep. He was so tired; especially since he had stayed up the night before, making sure Pride didn't do anything to him in his dreams.

'Why? How could he…'

"I told you he would hurt you."

Edward collapsed to his knees, and slammed his fist against the ground. Pride had been right the whole time; Envy had hurt him, and in the worst way.

"I know how to make you feel better."

Kneeling down, Pride pressed his thumb and index finger against Ed's chin, and titled it up; so that Edward was looking at him.

"You don't have to cry anymore, Ed."

Pride leaned over, and pressed his lips against that of the other blonde's. Ed kissed him back, and wrapped his arms around his neck.

'That's a good boy.' He thought.

Parting, Pride whispered into the other blonde's ear.

"I won't leave you Ed."

Edward felt a hand trail down his chest, making there way down into his pants. Edward moaned as Pride grasped his shaft. Edward leaned forward, causing Pride to touch him more. As the blonde sped up, he pushed Ed on his back, and began to assault his neck. Edward bucked forward; the sad thing was, he was enjoying it. In rasp voice, the other blonde let out a loud moan as he came. Panting, Edward tried his best not to lose himself, but every second, it becomes increasingly harder.

"You want me now, don't you?"

Ed looked away, and nodded. Smirking, Pride kissed him again. One of the blonde's hands began to undo Edward's pants. Once off, Pride removed his own clothes. Ed braced himself for what was sure to come, pain. And pain there was. Edward yelled, as Pride inserted himself into him. Once he was in, Pride pulled out part way, and slammed back in. The blonde grabbed onto Pride's shoulders, and pulled him closer to him.

"Don't…don't do that, please." Ed pleaded.

Pride smirked. Complying with Ed's wishes, uncharacteristically, the blonde slowly moved in and out of him. Ed didn't know what he was thinking anymore; he was officially drunken with ecstasy. He had never felt like this, and all he wanted was to feel it more.

"H-harder." He said in a horse voice.

Pride, lifted the blonde's hips, allowing him better access. Edward moaned, and began to buck wildly. He wrapped his arms around Pride, and clawed at his back.

"I like it rough."

The blond slammed into Ed one last time, before he and the blonde came. Pride collapsed on top of Ed, and relished in the after glow.

"Envy doesn't love you, I do."

Edward shook his head.

"I could make it so he never hurts you again, all you have to do…is give me your body."

"I…I can't" He rasped out.

"You won't have to hurt anymore. All the pain would go away, forever."

Pride leaned down, and placed kisses along Ed's neck.

"I know how much you want the pain to go away." He said, now licking the blonde's ear.

"You don't have to feel anything anymore."

Edward closed his eyes, thinking. He could finally be at peace, finally let go of everything.

"…alright…you can have it."

Pride's smirk widened.

"Thank you, Edward."

Edward woke up, and smirked.

'It was almost too easy.'

Reaching behind him, he removed his hair tie, and shook his head; letting his blonde locks go free. Running his fingers threw them; he enjoyed the silky feeling of his soft mane against his hand. Ed looked over at the door, as it opened.

"Oh, you're awake." Envy said as he walked in.

Ed's smirk widened, but he made sure Envy could see. Getting up, he walked over to Envy, and started a coughing fit. Envy istantly placed his hand on his forehead, checking for a fever.

"You don't feel warm." He said.

"I…I really don't feel so good." He lied.

Edward fell to his knees, but Envy managed to catch him. Seeing that he had fainted, Envy began to shaking him a couple of times; not getting a response, he began to panic.

"Ed? Wake up!"

"E-Envy."

The sin pulled him against his body, and sighed. Unknowingly to Envy, Edward had not fainted. He opened one eye, and smirked again. Also unknowingly to Envy, was that he was no longer holding Ed, he was holding Pride.

'Now, let's put my little plan into motion.'

A/N: That's all for this chapter! Meh, I've decided to make only two more chapters. But don't worry! They'll be exciting! Oh, and please read my other story Teach Me! I worked really hard on it!