SOOOOOO this isn't really an update its more of a looking for feedback type of thing, but also kinda spoilers, so if you don't like those I wouldn't really read this installment.
Okay so, I have like scenes written for this that I just haven't fit in yet, I'm waiting until I get to the correct points but I juts couldn't wait to write them so I have them in a separate doc just waiting. And most of them arent done yet, and are strongly subject to change but Im gonna put them here so that, if you choose to read them, you cam leave me some feedback about them so I can perfect them because they are some of my favorite scenes in the whole story so I want them to be near perfect by the time I post them for real so without further ado here they are if you want to read them.
*AGAIN SPOLIERS*
Torture
Bella POV
"Leave the mudblood, I need to know what else she took from my vault!" Bellatrix spit.
They started to drag the rest of us away when she yelled again.
"Wait! Leave the Potter girl too!" I was dragged back over to her, I heard Harry and Ron start to fight even harder.
"I was sent to the ickle Longbottoms, I never did get to have my fun with your mudblood mother. You look enough like her, you should do just fine as a replacement!" She hissed into my ear, pushing me onto the floor.
"Let's start with you, now what to do, what to do? Oh I know, let's put a few more scars on your stupid Half-Blood body." She sneered. I looked over to Hermionie, who was being tied up, signalling with my eyes that we would be ok, I hoped she believed it more than I did.
I saw Bellitrix pull a knife from her pocket and soundlessly place a spell onto it, it's so the wounds can't be healed with magic, my subcoutiuse informed me. She placed it on the top of my leg and carved into me. I wasn't sure exactly what she cut but right now I didn't even care, I was just trying not to scream. I felt the pain next right by my ear, it then cut around my face, making a crooked outline. I knew how bad it would hurt, I already knew, but I still couldn't hold back my scream when her blade sunk into the delicate scar tissue of my werewolf mark. She wasn't applying a lot of pressure, just enough for the knife to sink in, just enough to make me scream, just enough to tourtue me. But she pressed too hard when she first crossed the scar, her thin blade going down to the slight layer of muscle underneath. Without a thicker layer of skin in the way it caved in farther than before.
Even sitting here, crying from the pain, I worried, I already knew this would scar without magical medical attention, and even if we got out of here I was sure she had put a spell on the knife to make sure that didn't happen. I already had too many scars, the lightning bolt on my forehead, the large one from my 3rd year, the horcrux burn on my hands from when me and Hermionie had tried to pull it from Harry's body. There was the long one on my arm from Wormtail in 4th, the blood quill scars on the back of my left hand, along with the mark on my right shoulder from a backfired curse in a DA meeting, and my scared ankle from Vernon. As these thoughts went through my head I worried, I could morph, but not for forever, I would have to phase back to base at some point. Yes, I could go for a long time, I did, I didn't morph back to my base the whole time I was in Forks, but I worried what Edward would think.
I wasn't vain, I tried to look good but if I didn't, I wouldn't care too much. I just wanted the ones I love to want me. Luna made me feel beautiful, but I hadn't really spent much time around Edward in my base form, he should be seeing enough of me in the momoreys, I was going to have new scars, what if he didn't want me any-
My thoughts were cut out by a new pain, I had let the other fade more into the background, even worrying, my mind could register pain when I was thinking of Edward, but this pain cut out any ability to think about anything but the pain. I had only felt this pain once before, it felt like fire was coursing through my veins, all of my bones were shattering, and there were a million knives cutting into every inch of my skin, all at once. I screamed, I couldn't form the willpower anymore to hold it back, this was the Cruiatius, and true to its name, torture it did.
Luna POV
We were just sitting here when 2 more people were thrown in, the tallest one started fighting, pushing against the walls, the other boy joined in right after, they fought for several minutes and finally the shortest one sunk to the ground and a sob broke out of him, that was when I noticed.
"Harry!?"
"Luna?" Harry said.
"Oh Merlin, Harry, Ron?"
"Luna, is that really you?" Ron said
I nodded.
"Where's Bella?!" I asked, worried for the ex-love-of-my-life.
Harry opened his mouth to answer, when a scream broke out from up above me, I would know that oice anywhere, even as scared with pain as it was now.
Bella.
I started running around like Harry and Ron before even as the screaming quieted into barely legible sobs. I fought for another few minutes, even though I knew it was completely useless. I was about to sit back down when the screaming started again.
This time it was so broken with pain it hurt to listen to. So loud and tortured it physically hurt me. I couldn't take it anymore, I ran over to a bucket in the corner and threw up, it was mostly water, not much food was given down here, but every ounce of what was inside of me left.
The screaming quieted with a loud, broken sob. It started up again but this time it wasnt Bella.
After Snape's memories
Bella POV
It all came into play, why that first day in his class he seemed so surprised, why he always treated Harry the way he did,everyone the way he did, but never me, why when I accidentally morphed into my mothers eyes he backed away so suddenly.
Flashback
"Miss Potter, what is the significance of acromantula venom in potions." Snape asked turning to face me but as soon as he saw my face he backed away looking stricken, I turned to Hermione, who was sitting next to me.
"Bella, your eyes!"
"What's wrong?" She fished a small mirror out of her bag and handed it to me.
When I looked into it I realized why I was getting these reactions. I had morphed my eyes, they looked exactly like Harry's, like my mothers.
"What is this?" Snape asked me.
"I'm so sorry, Sir, I'm a metamorphmagus and I'm still learning how to control it, I didn't mean to, I promise." I told him, trying to remember what Ms. Dora had told me so I could morph them back.
End Flashback
He loved her.
Holy shit! Snape was in love with my mother!
Cullens + Bella/Luna
Edward POV
We had seen how Bella was acting recently, she talked to Hermionie about it, she thought she wasn't beautiful. I couldn't disagree more, she was a goddess, strong, determined, not to mention gorgeous. She may not look like the girl I fell for but she was still my Bella. We were watching Bella walk down the halfway with her friends when a small blond came up, Luna we knew her as.
"Hey Izzy!" She said.
"Hey Lu!" Bella said, I wondered when they had gotten so close, the last time we had seen Luna, they had been friendly acquaintances, now they had nicknames?
Before anymore could be said that terrible Umbridge woman, came down the hall.
"Weasley, Granger, you know the rule! 5 feet between boys and girls!" She screeched.
Hermionie immediately sprung apart from Ron, not wanting to get into trouble. Umbridge looked over to the other children, Harry and Bella were close but they were siblings and Bella was in between Luna and Harry. Umbridge walked away and as soon as she was behind the group Luna leaned up and kissed Bella on the lips.
"D-D-Did she just-" Alice didn't sound like she could continue.
"Kiss Bella?" Jasper finished for his wife.
I heard my family continue to argue but I just stared at the frozen image of the love of my life kissing the small blond girl.
Coming Home
Bella POV
I felt like I was about to pass out, the battle was over, but I was still fighting. Fighting with my grief over Dean, and Percy, we had lost Kreacher, Colin, and Lavender, and Cho. Fred was still vastly unstable, we weren't sure if he would make it, Remus was in the same boat. Harry was waiting by his side, Tonks had to leave, she was dragged away from her husband's side when Andromeda had sent a message about Teddy, my poor godson had not stopped crying since his mother had left the night before. Only me not having seen Edward for 9 months could take me away from Luna, though not in risk of dying was still passed out in the hospital wing. I knew, if she was awake, she would have told me to go to him anyway.
I had just reached the gates of Hogwarts and disapparated, it was a tough journey, traveling more than a few dozen miles always was, let alone over to a different continent. I landed outside of the Cullen's house, the home of the love of my life. They must have been very preoccupied to not hear me. I walked up to the door, took a deep breath, and knocked. Not even a second later the door opened and I was face to face with Alice.
"Bella!" She squealed. Her eyes shot around my face almost as if she was trying to memorize it. I was slightly self-conscious about the new scars that I knew resided on my face and body, at the moment I was too magically exhausted to morph even an eyebrow, let alone my scars, but at the moment it was only Alice. I knew she would never judge me for a single thing. Before I knew what was happening, her arms were around my neck. I stumbled back from the force. I looked behind her, Esme and Rose had appeared in the doorway, both looking shocked, excited, and extremely happy. I have to admit I wasn't expecting that from Rose. Alice was still holding on to me, her weight proved to be too much for my exhausted body to take because my knees collapsed. Just before they hit the ground I felt Esme's arms circle around me, saving me from the hardwood of the porch.
"Oh! Sweetheart are you alright?" Esme cried out as she stood me up, her arms unwinding from around me but, I noticed, they hovered close, ready if I were to fall again.
I started to nod but about halfway through the first one, I changed my answer to a 'no'. I had let my worst injuries be healed at school but I had let some others go before the more minor ones. After I would refuse to leave Luna's side until I was sure she would be ok, and then I headed here. I had unhealed injuries, magical exhaustion, worry, grief, and Edward was nowhere in sight.
"What's wrong?" Alice questioned.
"Magical exhaustion, a war-ending battle, among other things," I told them, my voice sounding even more scratched than I remembered at the school.
"Let us get you inside! Oh, Rose call the boys!" I heard Esme say. My eyes were already closing, collapsing into Esme's waiting arms, the last I registered was the door closing behind us.
Rose POV
I picked up the phone and decided calling Carlisle was my best bet, dialing his number to be picked up on the second ring.
"Rose, is something wrong?"
"You need to get home, now, all of you!"
"Jasper, Emmett, Edward, we've got to go!" I heard him say, thankfully farther away from the phone speaker, considering he yelled."Okay we are on our way," he said, talking normally now.
"Good"
"Rose, what's wrong?"
"Its Bella"
"WHAT?" I heard Edward say.
"Just get here!" I said as I hung up the phone.
"Their on the way, how is she Alice?" I said walking back over to the two vampires and my unconscious sister-in-law, who was now breathing more notably more normal.
"She could be better, but she's fine, nothing life threatening, at least as far as I can tell, you're the one with medical knowledge." Alice replied.
"We just need to wait on Carlisle, he'll know what to do." Esme chimed in. I nodded.
"They'll be back in-" she spaced out for a second, living somewhere in the near future, "two minutes!"
And so, we waited, abet not very long just watching her breathe. I studied the new scar, resting around the edge of her face. It looked jagged and rushed, and fairly recent, I noted, maybe only 5 or 6 weeks old. I really wondered how she received it. I hated to think of her in that kind of pain.
I heard the door open downstairs and not a second later Edward appeared in the doorof Alice and Jasper's bedroom.
"Bel-Whats wrong?" He said hurriedly, "Why isn't she awake?" Carlisle, Jasper, and Emmett came in behind him just as he finished speaking.
"She passed out as soon as she got here, she's been asleep for 10 minutes and 57 seconds." Alice blurted. "Well 11 minutes now,"
"Shes hurt." He responded, sounding absolutely terrified.
Before anyone could speak again a piercing scream echoed in the large room.
"HARRY!" Bella yelled as she awoke with a start.
"Harry! Harry?" Bella started to look around, sleep still clouding her vision, for her brother.
"Bella!" Edward said, walking over to her, almost as if he was trying not to startle her.
"Ed-Edward?" Bella said after about a minute, she seemed to finally understand where she was.
She went to stand up but Edward ran over to her and kept her in place.
"Are you alright?" Alice spoke up.
"Yeah, um, bad dream." Bella started to get up again, this time fighting harder against Edward's protests. In the end he let her up.
"I have to get back, I left to soon, everything just ended, how could I have been so selfish?" She started to walk around, abet rather wobby, rambling to herself.
"You're not going anywhere! I just got you back, you can just leave again!" Edward said, his voice getting louder.
"You can come with me, but I'm going home, I have to!"
"Wait, we can come?" Carlisle asked.
"Of course, you're not magical but you're still part of wizarding society, it's not breaking any rules." Bella told him. "Do you need anything before we leave?"
Gotta Get Back to Hogwarts (Gotta get back to school)
Bella POV
After a few mumbles and Alice quickly dashing out of the room coming back with a backpack, they all gathered around me, looking for instruction.
"Okay so I need something we can all grab onto. Like an old shoe or a pillow, something you don't really care about?" I asked and Alice was off again coming back this time with a blue high heel that looked like it could fund an entire new wardrobe for me, which I might need in the near future, considering how trashed my clothes were from living in the woods for 9 months. She handed it to me and they were all looking at me expectantly again. After pulling out my wand and turning it into a portkey, I held it out for everyone to touch, counted down the timer, and suddenly we were spinning off.
My feet hit the ground, hard. I looked around and saw the walls of the Great Hall, over to the side I saw Tonks hold my godson, Ginny half asleep on Harry's shoulder, I saw George walking back into the room, looking a little lost, but before I could say the first word I heard my name. Well my nickname.
"IZZY!"
Flashback
We landed outside of The Burow and started to walk towards the door when I heard her voice yelling from behind me I turned around.
"Izzy!" She yelled. She was the only one that had ever got to call me that, I despised the nickname but could never bring myself to tell her.
I was going to respond with a vigorous call of my own but before I could she jumped on me, wrapping her legs all the way around my waist as her arms went around my neck in one of the most furious hugs I had ever received, thoroughly removing my ability to speak. She had always been so light that with my built up muscle from all of the adventures I had been on she was the weight of a child to me. I hugged her back, remembering what else I would have done not too long ago.
My mind was still occupied as I felt Luna slide off of me.
"When I heard you were coming home today I ran from my house. I had to see you! I missed you so much!" She told me.
"I missed you too Lu, I missed everyone. I can't wait to see Harry tomorrow!" I responded.
"I have to go, I'm sorry but my father told me to come straight back after I said hello, he needs me to help print The Quibbler." She sounded almost devastated that she had to leave.
"It's alright Luna, go ahead. I will see you at the wedding alright?"
"Okay- OH I almost forgot! I got you something for your birthday, but you can't open it until tomorrow." She told me while pulling a small wrapped package from her pocket.
"Thank you Lu, I'll open it in the morning, before we go and get Harry."
"Bye Izzy!"
"Bye Lu!"
End Flashback
Though this time, lost in my thoughts, my ability to steel myself against her oncoming attack was less than subpar. As soon as she hit me, her legs wrapping around my body, I stumbled backward. I tensed waiting for the hard floor to meet my tailbone, but it happened quite a bit sooner than expected. I then realized that instead of the floor, I had hit the stony chest of Edward. He helped me back up, me still balancing Luna's weigh as she buried her head in the crook of my neck, I felt her sobbing. As thankful as I was she was okay, and as safe as I always felt with her wrapped around me like a monkey on amortentia, I felt Edward get more and more tense the longer she stayed in that position. I started to coax her off me as Harry started walking over to me. As I dropped Luna back to her feet I started to worry about the Cullens reactions to Luna. Well Luna and me. I knew they were terribly old fashioned, at least Edward and Carlisle are, I knew Alice and Emmett at least would be perfectly fine with it, the 2 of them being the most "in" with current times. Rosalie was likely to be fine with it, she was more likely to hate me than the fact that I used to date a girl. Edward though, I love him, God I love him, but he really held onto his ideals from his human life. He was about as likely to be okay with this as the Dursleys. My inner panic was interrupted again by Luna.
"I thought you were dead!" She sobbed, she lightly slapped me in the arm but then she was back to hugging me again, this time from the ground. "How dare you do that to me! He was dragging you behind him, and I-I-I HATE HIM!" She cried. I understood how she felt, I hated him too. It was all his fault, My parents were dead because of him. Sirius was dead because of him. I left Edward for months because of him. Fred and Lupin were hurt because of him. Me and Harry we tortured for years because of him. Countless other people were dead because of him. Hogwarts, once the only place I felt at home, was in shambles because of him. I did know why she hated him. That made sense to me, I could understand why anyone would hate him. There was something in the back of my mind though, that couldn't connect Luna to hate, no matter who it was or what they had done. I knew that was childish of me, no one is incapable of hate, even if you wish they were. I hated it for her, Luna, the best person I knew, she shouldn't have to feel that, the burn that comes from hating someone so much you wouldn't mind it if they died. I sincerely hoped that if she did have to feel any brand of hate that it was that one, because it changes something in you when you hate someone enough to kill them. I've felt that kind of hate before, I feel it now, even though I've done just that, killed the object of my worst desires. I was different now, I knew, and the only thing I could hope in that moment was that Luna wasn't as changed by her hate as I was by mine.
"I know but I'm okay, and he's gone, we did it Luna," I told her as I casted away my dark thoughts, I saw Neville walking up next to Harry, looking at Luna with love. "I really need to talk to Harry, why don't you go with Neville and I'll find you later." Luna nodded quickly and was fast to follow my instructions, going over to Nev, kissing him on the cheek as she fluttered away, pulling him behind her. She was always surprising me but how she could go from crying like she was to skipping sound, floating instead of walking.
"Harry!" I walked up to him pulling him into a hug, the Cullens seemed to gravitate with me.
"Bells!" Harry responded, he glanced behind me, eyes locking with Edward. "You're the boyfriend right?"
"Harry! Don't you dare!" As soon as I told him I was dating Luna he started preparing his "Big Brother Speech". It didn't take me very long to remind him that I was older than him. He still came up with the whole "if you hurt her I'll kill you thing", I don't think Luna took him very seriously though, considering I stood behind him the whole time, my face morphed to look like his, mouthing along to his practiced speech. He never found out about that.
Hermione Petrified
"Mionie?" Bella called quietly, "Did you find the book you were looking for?"
Bella continued to walk deeper into the library, there was barely anyone there, everyone either at breakfast or preparing for the Quidditch game that afternoon. Actually, no one was in sight anywhere, Hermionie, I knew was there, somewhere, as she had left the dormitory in a hurry early that morning on a hunch about the 'monster', seeking a book before she gave any further information. And of course, the strict librarian was giving Bella a small glare for speaking at all, even as quiet as she was.
"Hermionie? I have to be at the game soon! Come on!" She whispered yelled, turning the corner.
An ear-piercing scream ripped through the air.
"Mione!? Hermionie!" Bella yelled dropping to the ground
"Oh my God!" Esme exclaimed, the sentiment reflected in my whole family's thoughts.
"Is she dead?" Emmett asked.
"Really Em? We've MET her!" Rose said, Carlisle tapping into his medical expertise to offer us further comfort. "She'd be limp if he was dead, she's not limp, you see how she's laying, that mirror in her hand, and the book she's holding them up."
"So she's been petrified?" Alice asked.
"Well she looks like the other victims but I'm not versed in wizarding medicine so it could be something else entirely." Carlisle responded.
We turned back to the scene in front of us and as soon as it started up again, everything seemed to blur.
"What's happening?" Jasper asked.
"I don't know…" I said,
"Maybe this is how Bella remembers the situation? I mean it is her memory, if she had on sunglasses, we would see a distorted version, a darker version, of the event because she was watching it through sunglasses. Right?" Alice said.
"That makes sense," Rose commented, "so her visions blurring? That's not a good thing!"
"Well she just found her best friend petrified, it makes sense she's shaken up Rosie." Emmett told her.
"Can we just watch and see what happens please?" I said, tired of their theory, if we just watched, we would know what's happening to my Bella.
I received a noise of agreement and we started to watch once again. Bella's breathing sped up, faster and faster until I knew she was having a panic attack, her head of house suddenly showed up behind her, Snape, Dumbledore, and the librarian, close behind the older woman. Bella's hair was dark now, black, but it was clear they still knew who it was. The blurring had gotten better at that point, but everything was still slightly out of focus.
"Miss Potter," Mcgonagall said, "You need to back up so they can help her, sweetheart." She reached down to touch Bella's shoulder, as soon as her fingers grazed my little loves shoulder Bella let out a heartbreaking sob and her hair went flaming in color, as she turned her head back towards the adults her eyes had gone strikingly like Harry's, green and beautiful, but they didn't look right on her. Snape moved back slightly, seemingly startled by the girl's eyes.
We knew she had been working with a fellow metamorphmagus on controlling her powers. The girl had recently graduated a year before and was taking a sort of leap year before she started her 'Auror training'. The girl's name was Nymphadora Tonks, but Bella called her Miss Dora.
"Bella, please stand up, we need to take her to Madam Pomfrey,"
Bella shut her eyes as tears pooled in them, she stood and stepped close to the woman. The older of the two wrapped her arms around Bella's shoulders and led her out and down to the hospital wing. When they got there, McGonagall attempted to sit her down on one of the beds but Bella wasn't having it, her hand clutched onto the teacher until she gave in and sat down with the girl.
"Bella, I need to inform people of this, I'll get your brother and bring him right here, you can be with him," McGonagall pried gently, trying to ease the girl away from her side.
"N-No!"
"Okay," The older woman sighed, sounding resigned.
"Snape? Will you please go and stop my Grifindors from playing in this Quidditch match? Tell Wood if he has any questions to come to me later, and fetch Mr. Potter, you might as well grab the youngest Weasley boy while your at it. Thank you." She asked pleasantly but in a way that invited little argument to her requests.
The potions professor looked to be opening his mouth to protests, an annoyed snarl sitting on his lips, when Dumbledore spoke.
"Severus."
With that the dark man slinked out the door, casting a barely noticeable concerned look over his shoulder at the red-headed child just before the heavy wood closed behind him.
Luna Wants to Return to Hogwarts (After Malfoy Manner)
"I don't care! She needs to be alive! She can hate me for the rest of her life as long as I can guarantee that it'll prolong it! Maybe that's terrible. Maybe her happiness should matter more than how long she gets the opportunity to strive for it but I can't. I refuse to sit here and let her do this without a fight! That place is extremely fucked up right now, it isn't like how it used to be, and she knows that! But she can't just walk into danger like that-"
"You do!"
"That's different! She matters more! She matters so much more that I ever could! I'm completely worthless in comparison! I would die right now to keep her safe! I can't let her get hurt! I can't let her death be something that happens to me, I refuse to let that be on my list of grievances against the universe! Maybe that's selfish, that I can't let myself lose her, but if she dies I'll go out of my fucking mind!"
"Do you really think that?"
"To me? Yes. For all personal reasons my death matters less than anyone I care about, especially her. To the war? I'm not sure. I know that my continued heartbeat is pretty vital but I also know that I have no idea my capacity to function if she died, especially on my watch. I know that I can't imagine it without feeling like I'm going insane. I know that the only person's arms I would want around me besides her's are Edward's but I can't have those until I've done my job here, fulfilled my destiny. I think that whoever killed her would be higher on my hit-list than the Dark Lord himself. And I'm not sure if I totally disagree with that notion. You saw what I was like when we found out death eaters took her! I can't do that again! So yeah, I really do think that Hermionie."
She was quiet then, she stood there resined, a downtrodden look polluting face.
Nightmare #1
"You have to choose!" His voice hissed, cold, but nowhere in sight. The very sound froze me to my core. My hands shook, my vision blurred from the tears that just couldn't seem to escape my eyes. My ears rang, the sound was shrill and painful, my very soul was cracking as I witnessed the scene playing out in front of my eyes.
Bellatrix and Dolohov stood with their wands pressed at the throats of Luna and Edward. Both were slightly slumped in their respective death eater's arms. They were standing next to the arch that I once saw my Godfather disappear through. The sounds that once whispered from the veil were much louder now, I could hear them from where I was 50 feet away. The voices weren't clear, but they were screaming. I could pick out the voices of just about everyone I cared for as they flew past like a merry-go-round. I heard the voice of my parents, Harry, Hermione, every one of the Weasleys. The Cullens voices spilled out, my godfather was ever-present, accompanying Remus and Hagrid. In the background, I could faintly hear the screams of The Order, Dumbledores Army, nearly every sing person that I had ever cared for stood out at least once.
I got the gist. Luna or Edward. That was the question. I got to keep one. Everyone else would be gone. Faded behind that veil in the same way Sirus Black had 2 years past.
"Choose!"
"Bella!" Luna sobbed, "Not me, okay! Let me go!"
"No Bella, send me away! Not her!" Edward followed.
"Choose!"
"Which one?" Bellatrix spit, a laugh lodged in her throat. "I'll relish in either, you know after I ridded the world of my blood traitor cousin, I was the one who got the honor of killing that little mudblood you Potter's were so fond of. And I made that poor waste of pure-blood weasel watch before I killed him too!" I thought I was going to be sick but I held fast, my eyes never leaving my current and former lovers.
"I got the werewolf scum you love so much, and his little wife, she lived the longest, she received the pleasure of watching him die, she was pregnant right?"
My blood was curdling with every word but I fought my hardest to keep it off of my face.
"Your brother was mine…" slurred the sickening disembodied voice.
"He's who you want Bella, save him!"
"No, love, you can't! Pick her, save her!"
"Save him!"
"Save her!"
The room seemed to get smaller then, or did I walk closer?
"Luna! Edward!"
"Bella!" She said in unison.
"Please choose, it hurts!" Luna sobbed.
"What- what hurts?"
I never did get my answer. The death eaters no longer seemed to be there, but the closer I got to them the more they both seemed to be pulled backward toward the veil.
"Choose or they both go!"
"No!"
I paused.
"Me! I choose me!"
"That's against the rules!"
They were both shoved back even farther.
"That's it, you waited too long!"
I shot up, sweating, just as soon as both their eyes went completely vacant.
"Bella?"
I looked over and saw Hermione looking at me with pity and worry.
"I'm fi-" I was cut off as a sob racked my body.
I saw her pull the covers of her camp bed back and pad across the small space until she was standing right in front of me. She pulled out her wand and whispered a silencing spell around my bunk.
"Slide over."
She slid into the bed next to me pulling me into her arms.
"Shhhh," she comforted as her fingers started rubbing my hair. I didn't like being touched very much, only certain people, and she was one of them.
"Do you want to tell me about it?"
"You were all d-gone, and- and Edward and Luna, I had to choose, they were all I had left and I had to choose."
"Oh, Bells."
"Everyone was gone, you, Harry, Ron, The Order, everyone at school that I've ever cared about. A-And then I couldn't. I couldn't choose so he-he-he took them both, I was all alone."
"I won't leave you, we won't leave you alone, at least, if I have anything to say about it."
We sat there together until I fell asleep, she was there again when I woke up. She never left.
Romionie Pre-Yule Ball Pt. 1
"I'm having this… feeling."
"Okay,"
"About… someone. And I-I dont like it. How do I make it- how do I make it stop?"
"I don't think you do."
"Well, that doesn't help!" She huffed, storming out of the portrait hole.
"What's wrong with Hermionie?" Ron asked, sitting next to me on the plush loveseat I had commandeered in the back corner of the Gryffindor common room.
"I haven't a clu-" My head shot towards the portrait hole and back to the redhead, "Oh!" I exclaimed before jumping up and following Hermione's lead.
"Bells! Wha-" The painting slammed behind me before the rest of this sentence floated through the chatty common room.
Out of my robes, I pulled the map I had borrowed from my brother earlier in the day and started scanning for the name of my best friend.
Ah! There she is!
Our Deathbed
I stroked her cheek, feeling the tears as they flowed down unashamedly, my own venom filled eye's begging to spill over. Her eyes met mine and I tried my hardest to remember their every small detail because I knew, without a doubt, that today would be the last time I would receive the blessed honor that was looking into them. The expression would have brought me to my knees had I been standing, she knew, as I did, that this would be the last time we saw each other. Neville had been taken from her years ago, I had no one to give her up to, I could stay in this very spot until the whole world came crashing down around me. It would, I knew that. That expression would turn lifeless and my unnecessary breath would be stolen from me, just like she had. Maybe stolen isn't the right word, I was the cheater, I was the one who chose to keep my life, keep Edward, but have to live on even after the brightness that the sun lying in front if me provided was gone. Part of me thought it fit, that she was the last one. I had my nieces and nephews, and their descendants, of course but my original family had all gone away to that place I will never be graced with seeing.
My brother had pained me more than I thought I could bear. I was wary of this though, the universe's sick, twisted game of leaving her for last. She was my last link, she was the last thing that held some part of the me I was before I took my refuge in Forks. And she was last.I had come to her, after each and every one of my family had perished, and she had comforted me. The nightmare, the terrible nightmare that had poisoned my sleep a lifetime ago, was brought to the forefront of my mind. I had to choose between them, my two great loves. And I did choose, years ago, I picked him, he was the only one I could choose, in that moment he was my everything. I chose so I didn't lose them both. I thought I had escaped that fate, losing everyone else, having just him and just her left, then having to pick between them, losing the other one, and along with it shards of my heart I would never be able to regain. But I hadn't, that was my fate then and it is my fate now. Just because the consequences of my painful choice didn't surface until now doesn't mean there aren't any.
I picked Edward, my Edward, my husband, my love. I didn't think I'd ever regret it, he was who I wanted, what I wanted. He warned me that one day when every one I loved was gone I'd wish I had gotten to go with them. I hadn't, even then I'd told him, getting to be in his arms at least once more than the universe originally intended would be worth it all, I'd be okay. I meant that, it persevered through the years and the many deaths of my brother, Hermione, Ron, everyone I loved. I'd experienced loss, loss where I had wished I had gotten to join them even before Edward's warning, before I chose, and I thought I could deal with it. If Sirius could die before my eyes, because of my own small-mindedness, then I could see the others go just the same. I'd never regretted my choice, no matter the pain; Edward was worth it. My life with him at my side was worth it. Looking down at her now as she fell into sleep I started too. She was the only one that could make me regret him, even for a second. She was the best thing that ever happened to me. My other choice.
I would never regret loving him. Or staying with him. Or building the life we now have. But maybe I would regret just one thing. Not believing him. So many things had shattered me before I heard him warn me of the pain that I thought I could bear the near infinite loads that would soon come as my entire self-built family tree turned to dust. He warned me, and I didn't believe him. That. That I regret. The pain I stored deep within my soul like contraband as we moved from town-to-town, state-to-state, country-to-country, to escape the stories etched into our never-changing bodies. Sometimes it feels as though they might have been lucky. The ones I had seen fade from this world. I know that I'm nothing special, but if it would have hurt them half as much to lose me as it hurt to lose them, then I'm glad my choice prevented them from never having to watch me leave. I couldn't leave with peace knowing I'd be leaving them with the pain I'd experienced.
As I looked down at her once again I felt everything slow. The very molecules of earth and magic stilled. Just as she did.
My other choice.
My first love.
My-
"Luna." I whispered, closing my eyes. I leant down and pressed my stone cold lips to her lined forehead.
"You… make the whole world stop and you don't even know it. My Luna. I love you."
The room held no life, no movement aside from the wind left from me speeding from our deathbed.
The Knight Bus (Unformatted)
"Are you mad? You look mad." — "I'm not mad." — "Your hair is getting dark." — "I'm perturbed, not mad." — *silence* — "You still look mad." — "If you don't shut your mouth, I'm about to get a lot madder." — *silence* — "So you were mad?" — "HARRY!" — "I'm sorry!" — "You're not," — "Well I hate her, she's a terrible woman!" — "And now she's a blob in the sky!" — "I didn't mean to!" — "Doesn't mean I can't hold you responsible!" — "It's not really my fault!" — "I didn't say it was your fault, I said I'm blaming you!" — "You hate it there, I don't know why you are angry," — "It is one of my least favorite places to be but at least there was a roof and some food, and someone knew where we were. Not to mention the fact that Professor Dumbledore told us to stay there! And what happens if you don't get to go back to school!? I mean I'm fairly sure the ministry will let you come back. Their own laws cover accidental magic, condemning you would mean condemning themselves by the wizarding justice system. Even bouts as big as this one wouldn't get you in trouble unless you killed someone, and considering I can still hear her yelling if I strain my ears, I think you're alright in that regard but- Did you hear that?" — "What? — "So you didn't, it's probably nothing." — "Any ideas? On where to go?" — "Diagon Alley maybe, we could get a room at The Leaky Caldron? I'm not really sure exactly where the Weasley live but-" — "London? Do you want us to go to Diagon Alley in London? I mean I know we have our brooms though I doubt we could lift our trunks-" — "Have you read a single one of the books on integral wizarding society I've given you?" — "I want to say yes but I'm worried you might ask me a question about them, and you already have your angry face on so I- okay I'll stop." — "The Knight Bus?" — "What's- Wait, I think I hear it now." — "Over there?" — "Yes." — *Harry steps forward* — "Oh Merlin!" — *Jumps back and falls* — "Sometimes you make me so-" — *Bella sticks out her wand arm* — "What are you- Merlin!" — *Knight bus pulls up* (Insert book dialogue)
I added like 3 more i think, and deleted one cause its been put into the story, they suck a little bit and the Hermionie being petrified one isn't finished, neither are any of them rly but like yeah.
Then the Luna going to Hogwarts one is rly just Bella and Hermione talking, I think i might have Luna walk into that conversation and get mad at Bella before she leaves, cause like while Luna knows Bella just wants to protect her I think that 1) the idea that Bella would die for her would scare her a lot 2) She would be mad at Bella for not thinking she matters and like not realizing just how much her death would hurt everyone around her, emotionally not like war value-wise and 3) she wouldn't want someone trying to control her like that, she can protect herself thank you very much. I also think that would be a kinda fun parallel for like Edward kind controlling Bella with the purpose of keeping her safe and Bella getting mad at him but her basically doing the same thing to Luna.
So that knight bus one like isn't formatted at all, its literally just diologe and a few small thoughts.
I have an entire like list of quotes that I want to put into the story at some point, I already have like entire plotlines thought out around the majority of them lol but it would take me forever to write those all out rn.
I don't rly know what this chapter is anymore, its kinda a lot so sorry about that.
Ik "madder" isn't a word, at least not in the way I used it, it's actually a Eurasian plant but Bella is definitely not talking about that, but I mean she's 13 and she's like kinda angry sooo.
I think I'm gonna be adding a new one v soon when its finished, well the idea is in my head but i haven't even started it yet, so that update will be coming soon. I rly need to write more on the actual story cause what I have for chapter 15 is like rly short but this is straight the only writing motivation i have rn so yeahhhh. plus I'm in early college and my work load is like killing me rn cause their are these like 20 some assignment/ tutorial things for my college English class that my whole class thought we had till like the end of the year to do but they are due right after spring break so like I'm just dying rn lol sorry for that rant thing there.
Oh and if you have any comments on these pls tell me cause they are up for extreme editing when my stupid brain gets the motivation.
If you have any questions or suggestions please review, they make me very happy to read thank you for reading!
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