Chapter 12

Edward POV

We poured in the next memory and sunk in our hands, we were spat into a classroom, it looked cold and dark. There were vials of things all over the walls and black cauldrons sitting at every desk. Bella was sitting in the front row, looking very excited. The teacher swept in, black robes billowing out behind him, he had a long nose and black hair. He introduced himself as Professor Snape. He was still looking at the blackboard behind him when Bella raised her hand. When he finally looked around and spotted her hand, he stumbled back slightly. His eyes focused on her face, it was a larger reaction than some we had seen but it looked as though he was surprised by seeing someone who was, apparently, famous.

"What is your name?"

"Bella, Sir."

"What is your full name?"

"Isabella Lily Potter, Sir."

"I see. What is your question?"

"I read through the coursebook, Sir, before the year started and I noticed that the steps for the potion are different on your board. Is the one on the board a superior method or is it easier?"

"What do you spot that is different?"

"Well in the book it tells us to crush the beatle on the first step as opposed to cutting, it also only tells us to stir counterclockwise after the 4th step, while you have told us to do so after the 4th and 5th."

"Very good. The one on my board is a superior way of brewing this particular potion, while it is slightly harder it results in a better potion."

We were removed from the memory, a bit confused. Why had we been shown such a simple memory? And why was it out of order from the rest? It didn't make much sense.

"That's from first year, the beginning by the looks of it, why are we seeing it now?" Jasper asked, his thoughts as confused as mine.

"Maybe she just labeled it wrong?" Alice put out.

"Yeah that's probably it," Emmett remarked.

(Yeah maybe or maybe the author wrote this scene, stuck it in another doc for later use, and forgot to insert it into the story while in the year one plot line but she really likes the scene and wants to include it in the story. But yeah, Bella labeled it out-of-order, that's what happened)

Bella POV

No.

Stop.

Not again.

Yes.

No.

You could pick any dream, any nightmare, to come back. Any dream to recur. But no.

You pick, quite possibly the worst nightmare I've ever had?

I hate my stupid brain.

Maybe I'd be worried it was Voldemort, if he knew anything of love, if he knew exactly what words to make her say to kill me. If he knew having him take her away would crush my heart and dim my entire world. No this was simply my subconscious torturing me. Yep. But why? Aren't you supposed to help me or something? Not make my life infinitely worse? There really isn't much of a job description. Well, there should be. Tell that to the boss. Who's the boss? Me. I hate you. I kn-

"Bella!"

Hermione's voice jarred me from my insane inner conversation.

"Where were you? I've been trying to get your attention for 5 minutes!"

'Where were you' oh how well she knew me, she knew I was trapped somewhere in my mind. She shouldn't know you that well, it's dangerous. Its statements like those that make me doubt the voice. Sometimes I think it's just me, spiraling into insanity, but then it says things like that, and I wonder if it's not Voldemort. He would do that, make me doubt my friends' love and loyalty.

"Help me please!" I shut my eyes tight, I know I probably looked like a lunatic to my brother and our friends, who I knew was sitting right in front of me. I kept hearing her pleas, over and over again, I wasn't sure they would ever stop, now that I had heard them once they would stick with me forever. They were in a similar boat now, her and him. I couldn't say either of their names, in my head or out loud, without feeling that sickening ache, the one that started deep in my chest but after a while spread until my entire body was consumed by it.

Edward POV

What is that thing?

Bella POV

Luna. Edward. Luna. Edward. Luna. Edward. Luna. Edward. Luna. Edward.

Ah. I winced. I couldn't bring myself to say it. But that voice sure could. And she did. All. The. Time. Just to torture me.

Edward. Luna. Edward. Luna. Edward. Luna. Edward. Luna. Edward. Luna.

STOP! Please!

Luna. Edward. Luna. Edward. Luna. Edward. Luna. Edwa-

"BELLA! Hello? Are you there?"

Ron. That's Ron. Everything is alright.

"Are you okay Bells?"

Harry. My brother. You're okay.

Count to five. Calm down.

1, he is fine. But will you ever see him again?

2, she is fine. Are you certain?

Deep breaths.

3, you're almost there, you're leaving tomorrow for the locket. Yeah, almost at ONE part of the puzzle, there are more to find.

4, Harry's right here. But you could lose him.

5, you're alive. For now.

Alice POV

Bella, what the hell?

Harry POV

"Bella, come on! What's wrong? You never talk to me anymore." I said as I followed her through our godfather's childhood home, house my mind supplied, it's true, this was never his home.

"Just leave me alone Harry!"

Ron and Hermionie had hung back in the kitchen at my silent request. I needed to talk to my sister alone.

"No!"

"I'm-"

"Fine?" I supplied. "You're not, you've had nightmares every night this week, you're not alone in that, and then you spaced out twice at the table this morning, and when we finally got you to come to you almost had a panic attack! And before you say 'No I didn't', I know what they feel like Bella, I know how to recognize them!"

"I don't want to talk about it!"

"You don't want to talk about anything anymore!"

She grew more quotes at that, I took it as my chance to continue.

"I love you, your my sister, and everything I've been through you've been right there, more so than Ron, more so than Hermionie. We have done everything together our entire lives. And then the Order separated us for 5 months! I had to spend the summer holidays alone! I've never been with them alone before! I always had you! And don't even get me started on what happened in America, I have no idea what happened to you! I didn't know if you were okay, happy, you weren't allowed to write, visit, give us any idea whether or not you were alive! I felt like I was dying, not knowing if you were alright. Merlin, I've never felt like that before Bella!" I let it all spill out, everything I've been wanting to tell her since she left. "And I still don't know what happened! You haven't talked to me about what you did! I know about Edward!" It was hard not to miss the pain on her face at his name, but I had started now, I couldn't stop. "I know about his family, I know that you loved them, but I don't know anything else!"

"I can't talk about him Harry," I almost missed her pained whisper. "I can't even say his name!"

"I-"

"No Harry! You don't get it, I physically can't live without him! But I have to, for now at least, because the fate of our entire world, of our home, of our friends, our family, rests on our shoulders! And I've tried, I've tried so hard to stop thinking about him. To stop thinking of him and his family, my family, watching those stupid memories of my past, learning everything about me! What if he hates me, Harry? I fell for him so fast, and I love him more than I've ever loved anyone else. By the time I even started to get to know him, I was so buried in love that there was no way I could dig myself out. He's a vampire, he was born in 1901!" She was crying by now, I would have gone over and wrapped her in my arms, but I knew that body language, 'Don't touch me'. "What if- I mean- What if h-he sees h-" Why was she struggling to say Luna, I watched her stutter through the name as she winced once again, I understood Edward, I did, she didn't want to hear his name, from her lips or otherwise, but Luna? She had never had trouble with that before, I mentally filed that away, to ask about later, when she was calmer. "What if he sees her and he hates me?"

Oh, my mind started to connect the dots, born in 1901, a vampire meaning it is very difficult for his opinions to change, Luna was a girl. That my sister loved. Oh. Shit.

Emmett POV

What is that? I want one! It looks like a wrinkled baby, with big ears. Rose would probably kill me for that description. Edward, man, please don't tell her I said that.

Bells and her brother had just walked back into that closet of a room they share, only to find this goblin-looking thing, I swear I fought something like this in a video game the day Bella left. Bella and Harry looked even more confused as we did, panic was swirling on their faces as well. Oh, that's right, they had to be quiet, and whatever this was would surely mess that up.

Harry POV

Did she really think that? I mean I could understand the logic behind it, plus given the fact that, to my chagrin, I had never met the guy I couldn't really judge what his opinions were but Bella loves him. Surely she wouldn't have fallen this hard for someone with such misguided opinions? I couldn't see that from her. She told me just how fast they started their relationship, in as little words as possible, just enough to satiate my curiosity about her relationship. But could she really love him this way if she didn't truly know him? And wouldn't opinions on such things be part of knowing each other? Especially since this specific topic seemed so important to my dear sister?

Another louder, sob exited Isa's body, drawing my attention back to her, sitting on the floor.

She was close as can be to me, only feet away, truly, but bloody hell did she seem as far away as my sister has ever been from me.

Edward POV

I caught wind of Emmett's train of thought and immediately grew worried, if that thing caused problems for my Bella it was dead!

Harry POV

*A few hours later*

"Mionie? Ron?"

"Yes, Harry?" She responded for both of them, well if Ron's silence was anything to go by, but in truth that could just be due to how intensely he was focused on Hermionie. When I walked into the room looking for the two of them, Hermionie was in the middle of the seemingly impossible task she had taken on, teaching Ron how to play the piano. It had been one of the few joys the two had had since going on the run with me and Bella. About a week ago, a slightly more upbeat version of my sister had told me she suspected Ron wasn't really as dreadful at the basic cords as he seemed, he just enjoyed how close he and our other female companion were in the moment. I had to disagree, Ron really was that terrible at the instrument, but seeing my sister even slightly happier had me agreeing with her gossip, even if just to keep that ghost of a smile on her face. Right! Bella, that's what I was here to talk to Ron and Hermionie about.

"Bella, have either of you noticed how upset she's been?" Whispering, even though I knew for a fact Bella was still upstairs sleeping, after our conversation she had locked me out of her room. I sat outside, trying to persuade her to talk to me until I heard her crying slow to a stop and the enchantment on the door fall open, letting me know she didn't have the conscious mind to hold the locking charm any longer.

"Well, you'd have to be blind not to mate. She's all mopy and jumpy and sad!" Ron said, earning an elbow to the ribs and a deadly glare from Hermionie.

"Honestly Ron could you be any more insensitive! Harry, she's just upset, I mean she left us to go to the States, to protect you and herself, she fell in love over there, got a whole new set of people to care about, which you have to admit she deserved. But then they got taken away from her, maybe not in the same way as Sirius or your parents but she still lost something. We know she loves us but she went over there, got away from the war, this darkness, e-" I cut her off. "Me?" I asked.

"No, Harry, if she heard you say that she'd kill you herself!"

"But that's what you're saying, isn't it! That she left and got happy and now she's been forced to come back to help save my arse and she's depressed as all hell because she'd rather be with her new little family, going to Ilvermorny, and getting turned into a vampire alongside that stupid boyfriend of hers!"

"Harry.." I heard Ron say in the back of my mind, I didn't stop though, I couldn't.

"Who's apparently more important than me, the only blood she has left that still loves her! Who is more important than you two, and all of her friends, and Luna, and Hogwarts, and winning the bloody war, and killing the man who killed our parents!"

"Harry!" Hermionie this time, what were they so worried about?

"How is it even possible for her to be that upset over someone she's known for a few months? How is he more important than this, stopping the monster that has hurt everyone for so long? I mean could she be any more selfish! I mean can't she just get over it and help us? I love Ginny, easily as much as she loves Edwin, but I'm pushing it aside so that we can end this once and for all, I'm not so depressed over it that I can't even say her name, I-"

"Harry." Bella, that one was Bel-

Shit.

That one was Bella.

Okay so again very little Edward POV, this one was mostly focusing on Harry. So he kinda blew up (twice if I'm being honest). So in the beginning, I was really going for a confused brother who just wants you safe and happy but then it kinda melded into "Harry like was bottling up all of his frustration and it just came out in the way of blaming Bella for being depressed cause she continues to lose people even if they're not dead." I am going for angst next chapter but also kinda funny sibling shit cause I feel like my Bella would understand where Harry's coming from but still be rly hurt but I also feel like Twilight Bella would be all stubborn and just ruefully work with him the next day to get the locket but still be salty af ™ so I'm going for kinda a combo of the 2 cause stubborn Twilight Bells is genuinely my fave.

Okay so how are we feeling about the Luna stuff, cause like the way I'm seeing it is Bella is ofc fucking obsessed with Mr. Effervescent himself Edith Cullen (peep Life and Death) but she just always felt so safe and happy with Luna (a very rare occurrence for my baby) that she will never not be at least slightly in love with Luna no matter how much she claims "I love Luna, but I'm no longer in love with Luna" I'm writing blatant lies when I say that. But like I said when I first announced Bi-Bella Bellward is the only current Bella ship happening, but her love for Luna is really important to her journey as a character.

Oh and I'm really sorry about the whole out-of-order scene thing that was just a silly mess up on my part so pls laugh at my mistakes.

I know there are a few things in this chapter that might have not made much sense (such as "Having him take her away") that will be explained next chapter, I just couldn't really dive into them alongside everything with Harry so.

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