"Are you serious? You like him?" Mei asked leaning on the bed. Slowly Feliciano nodded. "This is incredible!"

"Shhhhh!" Feliciano leaned close to Mei. "I don't want everyone knowing."

"Oh come one!" Mei complained collapsing on the bad. She slid down off it immediately after.

"I'm serious Mei," Feliciano said jumping off the bed. "I don't really want anyone knowing. For now."

"But why not?" Mei asked now lying on the floor. Feliciano joined her.

"Remember when you were worried about Kiku finding that you liked him before you were ready to tell him?" Mei nodded. "Well, I'm feeling the same way about Ludwig."

"Isn't this different?" Mei asked. She sat up and dusted off her jeans. "Ludwig doesn't even go to our school."

"I'm nervous." Feliciano sat up and hugged his knees. "I know he accepts me as trans but would he date me?"

"Why wouldn't he?"

"I dunno I'm probably not his type. He'd be interested in someone who's serious like him. Someone he can long discussions about politics or history. Stuff like that. Someone, he can work out with. Not some goofball like me who prefers having fun over doing work."

"That may not be true. You know what they say opposites attract."

"I hope you're right Mei," Feliciano sighed. "I hope your right."

"Hey, Ludwig you okay?" Alfred asked. As Emm and Arthur looked on concerned.

"I'm fine," Ludwig replied though clearly sounding annoyed.

"Well, it's just you've been picking at your food for like." Alfred looked at his cellphone. "Twenty minutes. It's very unlike you."

"Everything's fine," Ludwig told them and quickly took a bite of food. Though truth be told, he hadn't been feeling like himself for the past few days. Ever since that dream of Feliciano, Ludwig's mind was acting off. He couldn't more than five minutes without thinking of him. And the thought of actually having feelings for Feliciano made his stomach twist up in knots.

"I can't like him," Ludwig thought to himself as he continued eating. "At least not like that."

Once back in the dorm, Ludwig stared at his computer. Trying to look like he was reading something on it. Occasionally glancing at Alfred who, as always, had his attention focused out elsewhere. Ludwig sighed and leaned back. No matter how hard he tried he couldn't focus for the past few days.

"Am I really doing this?" Ludwig said as he started moving his cursor up to the search bar. Slowly he typed the word, how to tell if you have a crush.

"I'm just saying there's no hurt in just texting him," Tezera said as the group of them sat in the living room.

"He's probably too busy," Feliciano said still staring at his phone.

"Aww someone's worried about their boyfriend," Victoria tease and everyone laughed. With the exception of Mei who sitting next to Tezera with a look of pure terror on her face.

"Ludwig is not my boyfriend!" Feliciano yelled standing up a little. He sat back downed and huffed a little.

"Oh come on Feli we're just teasing." Victoria nudged him a little. Feliciano still sat there with his arms crossed.

"Maybe we stop guys," Mei said with a very nervous laugh. Feliciano glared at her. "He clearly doesn't like it."

"Come on Mei we teased you all the time. Even Feliciano participated a little."

"Yeah but Feliciano has a really different situation than us. Because you know."

"I don't see how him being trans affects his dating."

"I was dumped because I was trans," Feliciano said firmly. He stood up and gather his thing from the table. Quickly he walked upstairs. Holding back his tears as he did. When finally got back to his room, he started letting it all out. The tears started streaming down his face. He reached over to his nightstand. He pulled out the old picture of himself. The one of himself before his transition began. As he cried he just stared at it.

"Why must life have been so hard on us?" Feliciano asked still staring at it. He remembered was he a little kid. How he would dream about his future, how he would be doing his dream job and be surrounded by people who loved him. How it was so different than he hoped. After staring at the picture he embraced it tightly. "Hopefully someday things will get better."

"Why do most of these apply to me?" Ludwig said as continued scrolling through different websites. He sighed seeing more symptoms of having a crush.

"There's one." Ludwig thought and nodded to himself. "I wouldn't say I get giddy around him. At least I think I don't."

Starting to think back to the last times the two communicated with each other. He remembered getting slightly excited whenever Feliciano would unexpectedly text him. how nervous he would feel when Feliciano didn't respond for a while. And the burst of relief mixed with happiness he felt when he did respond. He proceeded to think about when they saw each other in person. How excited Ludwig felt seeing Feliciano stand outside. How he couldn't help but smile as Feliciano was jumped up and down and waved at him from his house porch. And how he felt rather upset when it was time to leave.

"Dang it," Ludwig whispered to himself. He leaned back in his chair. "There's got to be something."

Ludwig continued to look at the different ways to tell that you have a crush. With everything, he could find Ludwig was able to think of experiencing himself within the past few months. There was so much he could think of, that him not having a crush on Feliciano would be the one harder to believe. He sighed and closed his laptop. He pulled out his phone and looked at the messages between him and Feliciano. Sure there were a few awkward moments between them here and there but there were so many more that put a smile to his face. From Feliciano's regular use of emoji's to him always knowing the right thing to say.

Once he was done looking over the messages, Ludwig started thinking about what would happen if he started dating Feliciano. He thought of them going on dates. Classic ones like a picnic or to the movies. Even an art museum. He could picture Feliciano getting all excited showing Ludwig different art pieces and explaining. Sure he wouldn't understand what he was saying but just seeing Feliciano happy made him happy. In fact, all these thoughts of being with Feliciano made him feel happy. Happier than he really ever felt before.

"Maybe this isn't such a bad thing," Ludwig thought to himself with a smile.