A/N Note: This is my first fic. I hope you like it. Special thanks to Oka-chan for being my beta-reader and for writing part of the fic.

Disclaimer: CCS is owned by CLAMP, not me! If I owned the fic, I think the fic will go BOOM! (explosion)

Guide:

Italic: Thoughts

Bold: Dreams

BIG LETTERS: SHOUTING

Chapter 1

Sakura's P.O.V

"No, Syaoran, please don't go."

"Gomen, Sakura...I have to. I will comeback, I promise."

"Hontou?"

"Hontou."

I woke up suddenly, finding myself on the bedroom floor. I could hear muffled sounds under me, complaining. I quickly rolled over.

"You're SO heavy," Kero complained, standing up and trying to unflatten himself.

Thinking back about the dream, I couldn't help but sigh. Syaoran had promised me that he'll come back. It's been five years since he left for Australia but, he didn't even bother to send any letters to me.

I let my tears spill as I sank back onto my bed. I cried my eyes out. Kero already went downstairs. I didn't want to let onii-chan see that I was crying. I quickly got dressed and went downstairs.

Breakfast was already served. Onii-chan already left for his job at a restaurant. I wasn't hungry. I just stared at my food, thinking about memories with Syaoran.

"SA-KU-RA! Stop daydreaming about that gaki and eat something. If not, I'll finish your breakfast."

"You can have it, Kero."

I rose from my seat, leaving the surprised Kero looking at my breakfast and headed upstairs. I had made a decision on what am I going to do this summer holiday. I was going to sign up for online-dating.

I felt a twinge of guilt. I felt like I was betraying Syaoran. Well, I could just make new friends. I quickly signed up at Cupid's , the most famous online-dating website.

Syaoran's P.O.V

Flashback

"Mother, why can't I visit Sakura?" I asked for about the hundredth time this year.

"Wait till the time is right," she said.

"You've said the same thing for a long time. I want to go back to Japan."

"Why not now?"

"The time is not right."

"When will the time be right?"

"It will never be right. She died," My cousin, Meiling suddenly said. I felt the whole world stop. I stood there, taking in what she had just said.

"You're joking," I said coldly.

"She's not. It's true," my mother answered.

I ran out of the house and slammed the door behind me.

(End flashback)

Three years had passed since that day. I shouldn't have gone away. Maybe she would be alive now if it was so. My mother said she died in a car accident.

Touya, her elder brother, was still alive. He could probably tell me everything that happened in detail but I didn't want to contact him. I didn't want to hear anymore about Sakura being dead. A single word more and I think I'll go mad.

I never dated others after Sakura. I now have a cold-as-ice personality. The only people that are friends with me now are Hiiragizawa Eriol and Takashi Yamazaki. They still don't know about Sakura's death.

I stared out of the window, knowing that no one can ever replace Sakura's place in my heart.

Eriol's P.O.V

Syaoran is so cold. It has been three years since he started to act like this. He always keeps everything to himself. I had to do something about it. Finally, I decided to visit his seat as our sensei hadn't entered our classroom yet.

"Syaoran, tell me what's wrong."

"Don't disturb me."

"Why not? Spill it, Syaoran."

"If you really want to know, Sakura's dead." He snapped.

"You've been keeping this secret for three years, haven't you?"

"So?" he asked me, giving me his signature cold stare at me. He suddenly rose from his sit and left the class as I tried to absorb the news.

A/N: How was the story? Please review. Is the storyline confusing? I'll try to explain it as the story goes.