Hey It took a great deal longer to get this chapter out than I initially thought it would. I don't have any sort of rough draft that Im going by, so this chapter may ar may not be a complete failure. Im not sure. Im just writing...

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My heart Bleeds No More: Chapter 1

Rikku walked slowly back to her room from her work chambers. It seemed almost impossible to think hard on a subject and walk quickly at the same time. She found that when she did, it usually ended with her on her ass. She though about everything that had happened in the last 5 years as she usually did. She went over things over and over in her mind and she imagined what it would be like if something happened a different way. What if Yuna died on her pilgrimage? What if Tidus never came or came back? What if her home was never destroyed? What if Auron never left her...

She didn't dwell on the last one for too long, because she knew it wouldn't do her any good. She had finally gotten to the point where she could think about Auron and not cry, but that was before Tidus came back. She didn't think it at all fair that Yuna got the love of her life back and hers was still dead. She had saved the world as many times as Yuna did, and sacrifice as much, when was it her turn to be happy like Yuna was?

She opened the door to her room and let it slam shut. This was why she didn't think too much about the subject, because now instead of just crying, she got angry and resentful towards Yuna. Now days she avoided Yuna as much as possible. She couldn't bear to be around her and Tidus when they were all snugly, it just made her bitter.

She pealed off her clothes and took down her messy hair brushing it out quickly with her fingers taking down all the braids and pulling out the beads. She walked into the bathroom and turned on the shower as hot as she could get it. She stepped into the shower slowly, letting her body get adjusted to the water, then she turned around and let the water fall over her back and through her still tangled hair. The hotness of the water caused the grease and grime to literally melt off of her small frame.

She thought about Gippal now. She knew it wasn't fair to him to still be in love with someone else. She knew he loved her, and she loved him, but not like Auron. Gippal had been there all of her life and knew her better than anyone else, which was why she agreed to marry him. She knew that she would be happy with him and maybe one day love him like he loved her.

Rikku grabbed her apple shampoo and squeezed a handful into her palm she spread the gel out over her hair and scrubbed. She quickly rinsed her hair and applied conditioner. While the letting the conditioner set, she washed the rest of her body. Then rinsed her hair and turned off the water breathing in the cool air that replaced the steam in the small shower stall. She stepped out the shower and grabbed and extra large towel of the top of her medicine cabinet, secured it around herself, then wrapped a smaller one up into her hair.

She walked back out into her room and to her closet where she grabbed her blitz ball clothes, which consisted of little more than a bikini top much like the one from her thief outfit except this one was green and a matching pair of shorts. Under the shorts she would wear a skin tight pair of tights than went down to just above her knees, and then a pair of black fingerless gloves.

She dressed quickly and sat down Indian-style on her bed and pulled the towel off her head. She decided that she didn't feel like doing anything special with it today, so she tied it up into it usual style redoing the braids and beads and completed it with a black headband instead of a blue one. She looked at her clock, she had 2 hours to get to the stadium, she would make it there just in time for the pre-game warm-up and practice if she left now.

Rikku grabbed some extra clothes and shoved them into a backpack, and threw it over her shoulder. She quickly walked out of Djose Temple and mounted one of the vacant speeders. She flipped a few switches and the machina came to life. She wished that her glider was finished, she could get there in half of the time.

On the way, her mind came back to her earlier thoughts. She needed to do something about her situation. Not only was she unhappy about the way she had been treating Gippal, even if it wasn't outwardly bad, but she was bored. She though that settling down and working on machina would make her happy, but it was getting to be the same routine every day. That was why she kept up with Blitz ball. Not only did it keep her in immaculate shape, but it was something different, and got her away from the usual daily grind.

She sighed and enjoyed the cool breeze on her face as she raced down the Djose highroad to Mi'Hen. Now days there were fewer and fewer fiends around to worry about. People of Spira were becoming braver, and small villages and settlements began to pop up everywhere. It was nice because it wasn't so crowded everywhere now.

She knew for a fact that home was extremely close to being completed back in Bikanel. Her dad had decided to rebuild closer to the cost since they didn't have to hide from the Yevonites or Sin anymore, in fact the place was supposedly right on the beach. They were installing salt water purifiers to help with the irrigation, and no doubt, there definitely wouldn't be as many water shortages. Also there was slightly more vegetation around which meant better gardening opportunities. Her father always came by Djose to see her, and always brought updates of happenings on the home front.

She felt a pang of guilt for not being there to help more and resolved to go and visit as soon as she got the time. She missed all her friends, and wanted to see what the place was like. Plus a trip would be nice, especially to a beach.

When she reached the Mi'Hen Highroad Rikku noticed a dramatic increase in baby Chocobos around. She supposed that since there weren't really as many fiends around, they weren't killing them off as much. For this she was happy because the things were the damn cutest thing that she had ever seen in her life.

By the end of the trip her ass was hurting from the ride. She should have just gotten Buddy and Brother to come pick her up on the Celcius. They were going to be there anyways. She parked her speeder at the top the steps leading down into Luca knowing that there wouldn't really be any place to out it in Luca today. It wasn't too far to walk, it would be good for her to get her legs before the game anyways.

At that moment a thought crossed Rikku's mind that made her almost want to turn back and go home, almost. Yuna was most definitely going to be there today, seeing as both Tidus and Wakka played for Besaid. She groaned and knew that she would surely be cornered by her and asked all sorts of questions as to why she hadn't visited and the like. Rikku wanted to avoid her if at all possible.

The walk to the stadium felt to be longer than she initially thought seeing as she had to push her way through the throngs of people to get to the locker rooms. It seemed that also with the new found bravery of Spira, they actually ventured away form their homes more often to do things, like watching Blitz ball games.

Just as she was about to go down into the locker room she heard a very familiar female voice from behind her, she tried to ignore her but she followed her, "Rikku!" the voice called again.

Rikku turned slowly to find an out of breath Yuna racing to meet her at the top of the steps. She clenched her jaw and put on her best smile...

Yeah so...Yeah! Yay I finished that chapter and it only took me two days! Okay well Im going to start on the next chapter as soon as I get back from the store...So it may or may not be out by tommorow...I would LOVE more reviews, and I pormise Ill bring Aruon back in as soon as I can figure out why and how...