Yay Chapter 2! Once again Im just kind of winging it in this chapter cause I have been too tired at night to write a rough draft, BUT the plot fairy hit me in the head with a huge stick...and I know exactly where Im going to go with this story!

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My heart Bleeds No Longer: Chapter 2

Rikku turned slowly to see the object of her resentment standing before her, out of breath as if she ran miles to get there, "Hey Yuna!" She said with fake enthusiasm.

"Where have you been, you haven't visited Besaid in over a year!" Yuna asked finally catching her breath. Her green/Blue eyes showed only concern for Rikku and here whereabouts over the past year.

Rikku shrugged, "I've been really busy up in Djose, ya' know?" She shifted her bag from one shoulder to the other, "I haven't really had any time to get away." She wasn't really lying, there was a lot to be done. Djose was the manufacturer for all the new equipment for home. She wasn't really involved in any of that, but Yuna didn't need to know that.

Yuna frowned, "You should have written me or something," She stepped closer to Rikku, "You just kind of disappeared after Tidus and I's wedding."

Rikku's jaw clenched and she had to bite her tongue. She wasn't a mean person, she hated hurting other people's feelings, so she couldn't tell Yuna off, but she wanted to, oh so badly, "I'm sorry..." she said with artificial sincerity. She noticed something about Yuna that she hadn't before now. Even though it wasn't too apparent yet, for Yuna still sported her gunner outfit, but she was pregnant. Rikku's eyes went wide, "Yuna your pregnant!"

Yuna smiled and nodded, "How could you tell? I didn't think that I was showing that much yet."

Rikku had the urge to tell Yuna that it was because she was fatter, but she didn't, "I can just tell." She walked over and poked Yuna in the stomach, "It's kind of obvious..." Rikku had to hold back the tears that began to form in her eyes

Yuna smiled and suddenly hugged Rikku, "Im 2 months..." She confirmed. Rikku just stood there and let Yuna hug her, she had to get away from Yuna though, her tears were about to fall and she didn't feel like answering any more questions about as to why. Yuna finally pulled away and looked at Rikku warmly.

"I have to go get warmed up..." Rikku stated absently.

"Go get 'em!" Yuna said.

Rikku turned and began to walk down the stairs that lead down into the locker room, "Promise that as soon as you ge the chance you'll come and visit me in Besaid!" Yuna called after her.

Rikku didn't answer, she just walked into the locker room and strait into the showers, ignoring the others who were startled at her hasty entry and exit. She sat down in the bench that was in one of the individual stalls that was there to hold your stuff as you bathed. She placed her head in her hand and wept openly now.

It wasn't fair. She hated Yuna even more now. Yuna was with child, and she wasn't.

6 months earlier...

Rikku had to sit down. She couldn't breathe and she was extremely dizzy. Her blonde hair was matted to her head with sweat. She closed her eyes tightly, thinking it may but be that she had over worked herself for the day. She laid down on the cool stone floor pressing her cheek against it trying to relieve the heat coming from her body. Then as if someone flipped a switch her whole world went black.

She woke up later, but did not open her eyes. She her head was throbbing and when she shifted she felt a pang in her lower abdomen. She groaned, then someone said her name form beside her,"Rikku?" She was glad to hear Gippal's voice. She was sure that she was dying earlier.

She opened her eyes finally. She was in her room. She looked up at Gippal. His eye showed something she could not distinguish, there was concern, but something else also, "Gippal what happened?" She asked her voice was scratchy because her throat was dry.

"I found you on the floor in the storage chambers. When I tried to wake you up you didn't move." Sat down on the bed next to her then continued, "I brought you to the infirmary and Doc took you from me. I didn't hear anything for about and hour then Doc finally told me what happened."

Rikku waited for him to continue, but he didn't. He looked like he was about to cry. She had never seen Gippal like this, "Gippal...?" She ran her hand over his cheek, "What happened to me?"

"You were pregnant..." He said quietly.

She blinked and tried to figure out if she had heard him right then realized that there was an emphasis on one part of the sentence. She sat up, "Were?"

He nodded and she placed a hand on her stomach. There was a life growing inside of her and she didn't even know it. Her mind immediately started to whirl. If she had of known she could have prevented this, she should have kept better care of herself.

As if reading her thoughts Gippal stop her from blaming herself any further, "Doc said that there was nothing you could have done to prevent this and that if I hadn't found you when I did, you surely would have died..." he wrapped his arms around her and pulled her close against his body.

There was nothing she could have done he said. They why did she feel like this was her fault somehow. She wrapped her arms back around as if holding on for dear life and did the only thing that she could do in the situation, she cried.

Present...

Rikku's sobs were quiet, yet shaking. She looked at the tiled wall in front of her. There were all sorts of colors and shapes built into it, but to her it was one big blur. She brought her knees up to her chest and wrapped herself into a ball. All she could think about was what she had done wrong to deserve this. Everything she wanted was taken away from her and given to someone else.

She wished Gippal was there with her. She needed him at the moment, he was always there for her when she needed him. She swallowed hard choking back the rest of her tears. She had to quit this, now was not the time. It was almost time for the game. If she wasn't already there she would leave. She wasn't really in the mood to play, but knew that leaving would let the rest of the team down. She stood up weakly and turned on the shower to cool water. She cupped her hands and splashed her face. She could feel that her eyes were swollen and her cheeks were red for crying. The cold water could alleviate that for the most part.

She turned off the shower and stepped up of the stall. She picked up her bag where she had dropped it on the floor next to the stall and walked back out into the main part of the locker room. Her team was milling about, dressing and completing various parts of their blitz attire.

Her friend Nige, the only other girl on the team, stood and walked over to Rikku, "Are you okay?" She asked sinceing that there was most definitely something wrong.

Rikku nodded, "Yeah I'm fine."

"Tell me about it later?" She asked fixing a stray piece of hair on Rikku's head. Rikku nodded. She knew that she could tell Nige. She didn't know Yuna, so she would not think Rikku a bad person for hating Yuna even more now.

Nige smiled and patted Rikku on the shoulder, "Ready for the game?" She said excited.

Rikku put on her best smile, "Yep!" She said walking over to the bench that Nige was previously perched on and threw down her bag. She decided that after the game she would find Gippal as quickly as possible and get back to Djose. She was sure that Gippal would understand, after all the was well aware of the feelings that Rikku harbored towards Yuna.

The farplane was nothing short of stunning if you were on the inside. Preyflies flew about in eternal dance, there were fields of flowers that were colors that could not be found in the natural world that stretched on for ages, and water seemed to fall as if from nowhere. Most of all, though, there was eternal rest for the souls of lives that had been lost.

Auron sat on the his usual ledge sake in hand. At the farplane, it never seemed to run out. For the most part, he was content. It could though, get extremely boring, and repetitive. He missed his life, and there wasn't a day that went by that he wished he could go back and do things differently. He could still be on spira living happily, especially if it was with her. He had heard from Braska of things that had been happening of Spira, somehow Braska seemed to stay in touch with things on the real world.

He heard that Yuna was married now to Tidus, as predicted, but was now with child. When Braska had told him this he seemed to be worried about something, but Auron passed it off as a father worrying about his daughter. He hadn't heard anything about Rikku though, which had him slightly irritated. The only news that Braska seemed to bring about was news of Yuna. He grunted and took another drink of Sake.

He knew that Braska was waiting for him to ask about his niece. He had suspicious of Auron's feelings for the little AlBhed, and Auron didn't want to confirm them. There was no point in giving Braska something else to give him a hard time about, he would never see Rikku again anyways.

okay so that's the second chapter. I have several ways that this story could go right now. Remember at the end of the game after you defeat Seymour for the final time, he said something about "spira's Sorrow"? Yeah well its going to have something to do with that...

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