Sorry for the sudden disappearance, I've had a few medical problems, one involving a concussion from work but I'm back and working on my stories again! I refuse to leave these babies unfinished!
People processed out of the funeral home leaving a two-toned brunette in front of a pitch-black coffin. He felt sick to his stomach as his chocolate orbs stared in a pale face identical to his own. Chills trailed down his spine making his body tremble ever so slightly as his breath was trapped in his chest. He was lost staring at the corpse of his identical twin, so gone he didn't hear the other male enter the room.
"I kinda expect him to sit up and say it was all a joke"
Jaden's eyes glanced over to his left side catching a glimpse of the light blonde hair. The brunette let out a scoff as his eyes refocused on the coffin before them.
"he sucked with jokes; he never did have a sense of humor."
Mamoru gave a slight sad chuckle as he nodded his head in agreement, his lover did tend to be too serious. Turning on his heel, the blonde took a seat in one of the front row wooden cushioned chairs. Jaden tried his best to ignore the unwelcomed visitor, he thought the blonde was fixated on his lost lover until he felt a gaze burning into his back. He felt flustered and uncomfortable not really understanding the action. Finally fed up he turned on his heel to face the cause of the annoyance, he crossed his arm over his chest and stared back.
Chocolate orbs scanned the blonde, he locked onto the dual colored orbs the blonde owned. They were dull which was shame, and the bags under his eyes gave away the lack of sleep. Making a mental note he decided to lend the blonde some sleeping pills to help. Slowly he joined the blonde, sitting in the seat next to his he turned his gaze back to the coffin.
"How did you two meet any way? Haou always hated socializing and other people."
A small smile tugged at Mamoru's face as he seemed to perk up at the question. Sure Jaden's tone suggested he was mocking his brother but the blonde would consider it progress.
He took a deep breath "We met in the library in our first year of college, we were both in the same Psychology class."
The brunette snorted, his brother always loved reading and although out high school was considered a book worm.
"I fell behind a bit, I didn't understand some of the material, your brother helped me out."
Confusion flashed across Jaden's face, the last time Haou was asked to help he flipped off the person who asked him.
"after a while we got closer, he dropped that icy façade and I fell for the stubborn fool."
The brunette watched as the blonde stared lovingly at the casket, but felt his voice catch in his throat. There was once a time where Jaden was the only one Haou was nice to, that was before their fall out. A choked sob reached his ears and he noticed tears start to pool in the blonde's eyes.
"I'm lucky I got the time with him I did" His voice shook "even if it was only a few years."
"Whenever he had a bad day I would sing to him"
It was said so low the blonde barely caught what the boy had said, he noticed the brunette staring at the enlarged photo of Haou next to the casket. It was beautifully framed and surrounded by lilacs and red dahlias.
Before he knew it Jaden had closed his eyes and started spilling a personal story one he's been curious about for years.
"It was time for midterms in our sophomore year, I was practicing in the living room for my music final, I left Haou the bedroom so he could study quietly."
Like traveling through time the twin remembered standing in the living room and with his forgetful mind started to belt out in song. He remembered hearing their bedroom door swing open as he got through the first chorus, Haou was gripping the stair railing. Annoyance burned in his tired eyes as his knuckles turned white from the tight grip. Jaden froze in place but then gave a nervous laugh with an apology, that seemed to quell his twin's annoyance.
"You should be studying as well" Haou sighed.
"I am I have a music midterm"
"Music won't get you into Yale with me"
The boy went silent as his chocolate orbs stared down at his guitar a pang of guilt washed over him. Haou went silent as his brain processed the silent confession his brother gave.
"You promised" His voice cracked.
"Haou I don't want to go to college and I definitely don't want to be a lawyer."
Haou was sleep deprived the boy could tell, which is probably why he snapped so easily.
"You can't make a decent career out of music the odds are to low"
"You need to stop listening to grandma" The brunette countered.
Tension had built up between the boys for a year no and the argument that broke out this time was the final one. Names were thrown at each other; they mocked each other's short coming which unfortunately Jaden had more of then his twin.
"You're a joke Jaden, why don't you grow up then maybe you wouldn't be a disappointment" Haou hissed.
It stung more than the brunette would ever admit and the silence that followed shattered the remains of their relationship. Haou had escaped to the bedroom and Jaden sat on the couch trying to stop the tears falling from his eyes.
"I knew Haou could be cold and hell even cruel but I never expected it to be focused at me" Jaden then went silent.
Mamoru sat there unable to respond, Haou had told him their fall out was rough but he also knew his lover regretted it. The blonde took time to process and digest the story when a small idea appeared in his head.
"sing to him one last time"
Jaden gave him a look "What?"
"Singing can be considered a form of therapy and closure"
Jaden stared back at the coffin the fire of their past arguments now fresh in his head. It made his blood boil slightly; the brunette was known for being bright and happy. He never held a grudge no matter what his friends did, but for some reason this was much harder. Before he knew it his voice had cleared and he was humming a small tune. Mamoru smiled thinking he was able to get through to the boy, till the first line came out of his mouth.
"Why should I play this game of pretend?
Remembering through a secondhand sorrow?"
Jaden slowly stood up and made his way to the casket as he sung the soft melody, eyes locking onto Haou.
"such a great son and wonderful friend, oh, don't the tears just pour."
Turning away he leaned slightly back against the surprisingly sturdy casket and looked at the blonde.
"I could curl up and hide in my room
There in my bed still sobbing tomorrow"
Eyes narrowed at him with a cold glare that reminded him of his lost one.
"I could give into all of the gloom, but tell me, tell me what for?"
A step forward.
"why should I have a heavy heart?
Why should I start to break in pieces?
Why should I go and fall apart for you?"
Eyes clenched shut as his arms wrapped around himself hugging tightly.
"why should I play the grieving boy and lie saying that I miss you and that my world has gone dark without your light?
I will sing no requiem tonight."
Eyes re-opened only they held a cold emotion to them.
"Why should I have a heavy heart?
Why should I say I'll keep you with me?
Why should I go and fall apart for you?"
He could hear the slight sound of pain in Jaden's voice as he sang.
"cause when the villains fall the kingdom never weeps
No one lights a candle to remember!
No, no one mourns at all when they lay them down to sleep."
There was the bite in that verse as the brunette turned and practically growled it in Haou's lifeless face.
Then the brunette choked on the next part that flipped from his mouth.
"Cause I cannot play the grieving girl and lie
Saying that I miss you and that my world has gone dark without your light"
A few tears rolled down his cheeks, the blonde was honestly shocked to see them.
"I will sing no requiem"
He took a step back.
"I will sing no requiem"
A finale look at Mamoru and he headed towards the door as he sang the final line, eyes red and threatening to flood.
"I will sing no requiem tonight."
Mamoru watched as the brunette left him behind, he stood up and headed toward the casket. Greeted by the pale lifeless face of his lover he gave a small smile as he brushed some of the hair out of his closed eyes.
"I'm gonna fix your relationship so rest in piece my love."