(between my con season and quarantine I have only been able to work on this a bit but now im back to the grind! For those of you who were confused by Mamoru's existence, I suggest look up infiniteshipping he is basically Jesse's past life/another version of Jesse, although it was mentioned that people want Jesse in the story so I will go with plan B)

A sharp twinge of pain pulsed in Mamoru's head; he gave a groan as his eyes fluttered open only to shut again from the painful sunlight filling the room. Slowly he eased his body into a sitting position almost not noticing the one lying next to him. Dual colored eyes slowly glanced down next to him to see a familiar head of two-toned brown hair. At first he didn't think anything of it, his brain thinking it was his sweet Haou. Rubbing his eyes and waking up more he remembered the loss of his love and froze, his body moved painfully slowly as he took another look at the body next to him.

Jaden was curled up next to his sleeping soundly, the blonde watched as the brunette's chest rose and fell gently in a peaceful manner not at all bothered by what had occurred between them. He then noticed the marks that covered the brunette's neck, dark red bruises all over showing where he had bite him. He felt dirty and disgusted with himself, sliding out of the bed he pulled on his pants rushing to the bathroom.

Locking the door he slid down the wall feeling the cold morning tile against his back, panic threatened to crush his chest. His fingers tangled themselves into his messy blonde locks as he choked on every breath that struggled to come out. He lost track berating himself as he hugged his knees closer to his body trying to make himself smaller as if he could disappear.

A light knock was heard on the door, he refused to acknowledge the sound sinking lower into depression. He thought if he ignored it the person standing on the other side would go away but another knock followed.

"How are you feeling?" The voice was soft and gentle.

"Do you want the truth?" He flinched at the raspy sound of his voice.

He could hear a few movements of his companion sitting down and leaning back against the door. Slowly he released his legs and let them stretch out as he tried to find the words to explain what he was feeling.

"Shitty" He sighed "Maybe fucked up"

"Oh? Because of last night or the hangover?"

Now that Jaden mentioned it, Mamoru could feel his head pounding and a bit of nausea. He flinched as another pulse of pain shot through his head, he heard a bit of a struggle come from behind the door. A few grunt and whimpers but the door finally opened a bit and a cup was slid inside the room. The door shut quickly after; the blonde was grateful as he picked up the mug. He almost moaned as the scent of coffee filled his senses.

"You tried to open the door backwards didn't you?"

A small yelp was heard "Oh fine…..i did"

The blonde chuckled, he was guilty for doing that when Haou was the one sulking in the bathroom. Jaden was definitely shorter than him so reaching the knob while sitting down was an image.

"Wanna explain your sudden disappearance?"

"Jaden…."

Looking down at his cup he knew he couldn't talk to the younger by hiding behind the door. Getting up he quickly chugged his coffee trying to ignore the burning sensation that tingled his throat. Once done he took a deep breath and opened the bathroom door, dual colored eyes looked down greeted by shocked chocolate ones. The brunette jumped up to his feet, his body language came off as nonchalant and calm giving the 'i-don't-care' vibe. His eyes were a different story, there was fear and worry swirling in them, Mamoru sighed.

"Jaden your kind and you try to help anyone u can I've learned that over the time of knowing you"

Brown orbs dulled and went almost dead as he gave a half smile to the blonde not even letting him finish.

"But last night was a one-time deal" Jaden sighed "I've heard it all before"

That bit of info hurt and made the blonde look down; it wasn't that the brunette wasn't attractive in fact Jaden was the opposite. He didn't have the same mature sex appeal Haou did but he had this cute almost rebel appeal to him. Mamoru shook his head, that wasn't the problem right now, the brunette looked down upset.

"Jaden I never would have slept with you if I was sober"

"Wow! That makes me feel so much better!" The brunette got hostile.

"That was terribly worded" Mamoru sighed.

"Ya think" the hiss made the blonde flinch.

He definitely needed to talk through this situation he didn't want Jaden to be hurt by his actions. Gently he took the brunettes hand and lead him to the living room motioning him to sit on the couch. The younger followed the order reluctantly obviously still a little upset, Mamoru sat next to him but turned so he could lock onto his eyes.

"Jaden your very attractive and normally I would have gone for you, but my heart will always belong to Haou" the blondes voice was soft as he tried to relay his feelings.

"Why?" His voice was strained and eyes started to mist "He was an asshole"

"I know you two had a fall out but you have to still care about him"

Jaden fell silent inwardly cursing himself, no matter how his twin hurt him a small part of him still cared.

"I don't want you thinking I'm replacing Haou with you" He sighed "no one could replace him"

The musician looked down, he knew the other was right, if they did date he would just feel like his twin's replacement. Now there was a problem, Chocolate orbs glanced up into dual colored orbs, he had fallen for the man. He was sweet and kind, they kept in touch after the funeral over text, always making sure they were ok.

"Your brother asked me to take care of you before he" Mamoru struggled to get the word out "…..died"

"why do have to be such a good guy" Jaden fell back against the couch groaning.

The action made the blonde smile and chuckle softly, he felt a bit honored the other seemed slightly interested him.

Jaden looked around "Your apartment is still full of his crap"

"Yeaaaaa I tried going through it but then I end up crying"

They were ignoring the main problem between them but for now that seemed fine. Mamoru knew that with time the brunette would move on and develop feelings for some one better. He watched as the brunette got up from the couch and picked up a box from the corner of the room. Curious he continued to follow the other with his eyes. Jaden dropped the box on the floor in front of Mamoru then sat on the ground so the box sat between them.

"I'm gonna help you go through everything"

"Jaden" Mamoru sighed and looked away.

"it will be easier for you this way" Jaden raised an eyebrow "Unless you can think of someone else to help you."

The blonde had a name pop into his head but he would feel guilty for bothering them. Looking at the brunette again he saw that the idol was already going through the contents of the box. He sighed, maybe this could be the perfect opportunity to change the boys mind about his passed twin? He joined Jaden on the floor trying to think of a way to accomplish just that.