(I am working on so many projects but if I don't work on them I lose the idea Q.Q I may also start releasing the Fossilshipping story to.)
Jaden frowned as he pulled out pictures of Haou and Mamoru at college, Haou smiling in almost all of them. A smile that that only the brunette used to see, he bit his lip and put it in a separate box he was making just for pictures. Mamoru had gone into the bedroom to grab a box he wanted to go through next, that's when the brunette pulled out a small black box. His eyebrows furrowed curious to the box's contents, he opened it and inside laid a gold wedding band with a few diamonds inlayed in it.
Jaden felt like her was being strangled, he couldn't breathe, this man was going to propose to his twin. Memories of last night flashed in his head making him slightly sick to his stomach. He originally enjoyed what they did and planned to try to change the blondes mind on their relationship. After finding the ring he wasn't so sure that was a good idea anymore, he closed the box and tucked it back where he found it.
"I want to go through this box next" Mamoru smiled.
"Ok, what's in it?"
The blonde place a big box on the floor between them and motioned for Jaden to take a look. The brunette shrugged and took a look in the box, his chocolate eyes widened. It was filled with magazines, posters and trinkets from his concerts and interviews. Anything Jaden was ever shown in was tucked into this box, he glanced at Mamoru.
"He thought you were awesome" Mamoru whispered.
"He thought I was awesome? My brother?" Jaden scoffed.
"Of course"
"How?"
The blonde thought to himself, then hopped onto his feet, he rushed into his room. Jaden was confused but waited for the other to come back, he was startled to see the blonde carrying a guitar.
"Dare I ask?"
"Remember what I said at Haou's funeral?"
"Music is some kind of therapy?" Jaden tried to think back.
Mamoru nodded and set up the guitar while the brunette just glanced into the box again, not sure if he should believe it belonged to Haou.
"He said, theres nothing like your smile" the blonde started to sing.
"sort of subtle and perfect and real"
The brunette pulled out the first magazine he was ever in, the photo was of him with a sheepish grin as he was named the newest upcoming rock star.
"he said you never knew how wonderful that smile could make someone feel"
Jaden glanced up at the blonde at that point, he remembered whenever Haou was upset he said that the musicians smile made him feel better.
"and he knew whenever you get bored you scribble stars on the cuffs of your jeans"
He chuckled as he pulled out a cloth filled with markered stars from one of his old jeans. He couldn't believe Haou kept such a scrap, especially since he butchered the original pair for an art project.
"and he noticed that you still fill out the quizzes that they put in those teen magazines"
The brunette blushed, slightly ashamed that Mamoru knew about those and that he found half the pages also in the box.
"But he kept it all inside his head, what he saw he left unsaid" Mamoru met Jaden's eyes "and though he wanted to, he couldn't talk to you"
The brunette rolled his eyes and scoffed.
"he couldn't find the way, but he would always say"
"if I could tell him, tell him everything I see"
"if I could tell him, how's he's everything to me, but we're a million worlds apart"
The blonde thought back to all the conversations they would have about Jaden.
"And I don't know how I would even start, if I could tell him"
"Did he say anything else?" Jaden's voice was soft.
"Huh? About you?" Mamoru was startled by the question.
Jaden started to panic and feel overwhelmed "never mind, I don't really care anyways"
Before thew brunette could run out of the building the blonde pressed further.
"He thought it looked pretty cool when you put indigo streaks in your hair"
"He did?"
Jaden froze, that was a segment from an interview he did in his bands second year. He washed it out immediately after cause his band mate Alexis said it looked stupid.
"And he wondered how you learned how to dance like the rest of the world isn't there"
Mamoru smiled as he remembered so many times walking in on Haou watching videos of his brother's performances. He had asked if the man could also dance but he just shook his head saying he had no rhythm for it.
"But he kept it all inside his head, what he saw he left unsaid"
"If I could tell him, tell him everything I see"
"If I could tell him, how he's everything to me"
Jaden felt a lump in his throat, trying hard to catch his breathe but his chest was to tight.
"But we're a million worlds apart, and I don't know how I would even start, if I could tell him"
"But what do you do when there's this great divide?"
"H-He just seemed so far away" Jaden whimpered.
"And what do you do when the distance is to wide?"
"I-it's like I don't know anything" Jaden shook his head as his voice cracked.
"And how do you say, I love you"
It was Mamoru's turn to break as dual colored eyes looked up to the far wall. It was a picture of Haou and him at a big promotion party for the brunette's firm.
"but we're a million worlds apart and I don't know how I would even start, if I could tell him"
Mamoru dropped the guitar on the floor, he didn't mean to but his hand felt numb as tears slid down his cheeks. His eyes never leaving the photo till he heard a sob rip through the room. For a second he thought it was his own, until his eyes moved to Jaden. He was collapsed on his knees, face in his hands as sobs ripped through his throat.
The blonde was startled and slowly approached the boy, kneeling down he rested a hand on the idols shoulder. The brunette threw himself into the blonde crying into his chest, Mamoru hugged the shaking boy and rubbed his back.
"I'm a terrible brother!" Jaden sobbed "I hated him but he loved me!"
"He knew you didn't hate him" Mamoru tried to comfort him.
"I insulted him!" further realization spread onto the brunettes face "oh god and I slept with the love of his life!"
The blonde flinched, he had to admit that was a pretty bad mistake but he was at fault for that action as well.
"Jaden you can go rest in the guest room if you want"
With out a second thought the musician ran to the spare room leaving the blonde alone. Mamoru sighed realizing that he couldn't work through this alone, he didn't want to have to call him but he felt like he had no choice. He couldn't get through all of these boxes alone and Jaden seemed like he wouldn't be ok for a while. He moved tot the kitchen and picked up his small cellphone that was sitting on the charger. A scroll through his contacts he finally landed on the one he wanted; the phone rang twice then picked up.
"I need some help can you possible make trip to my place?"