Title: Hating what has been lost

Summary: This story is about a girls life. Her name is Sakura and her life isn't as easy as everybody thinks it is. Being betrayed by each friend you have, exams, very big health problems and being teased at every day, isn't what she calls easy. As she grows, her love for Syaoran Li turns into hate and her innocence starts to fade bit by bit. Fights with your classmates, trying not to fall in chemistry and all those things makes somebody's life too hard to bare, till she starts things why do we even exist if we are only meant to suffer...

Chapter 2: Second grade

The summer vacation ended and school was about to start. Everybody was happy that they would see there friends again, but also sad that they had to wake up early for those annoying morning classes. That's what Sakura thought anyway. It was her second year in school and she could hardly wait. It looked like her first year was perfect. Actually, she loved it. Sakura even made a lot of friends meaning her classmate's: Takashi, Chiharu, Miyu, Yosuke and many others, but her best friend was actually a girl named Rika. Rika was leaving with her grandparents a few houses away, because her parents and brother were leaving much more farter and she had to live close to the school, meaning that the only way was to come and live with her grandparents. They were such nice people, at the first site of Sakura they loved how she was and there love for her grew and grew. Throw their vacation, Rika and Sakura went outside and played everyday. They were such good friends that nothing could have broken them apart, that is... till their first day of school.

Sakura and the rest of her friends were talking, catching up when there teacher, Kaho, came into the room with three kids. Everybody was curious about the three new students. Sakura was too until she looked at the girl and her heart stopped, because that girl was exactly her neighbor and friend, Kaede Tsukira. The girl was beautiful in her own way, she had violet hair that was shoulder length and had fiery red eyes that warned you not to mess with her. As the teacher was about to present the new students, Sakura raised her hand.

''Yes Sakura?'' the teacher asked with a small smile. It seemed that Kaho was very fond of Sakura, but very aware of how many stupid things Sakura did. She changed a lot from the shy little girl to a clumsy and sweet girl. The person to thank of course, were her friends, but that didn't matter anymore.

''I know her!'' Sakura said as she pointed at the only girl in the group. The kids were looking at her even more curious, but the teacher nearly sweat drop. Sakura open her mouth again. ''She is my neighbor and good friend: Kaede Tsukira!'' the emerald eyed girl tolled everybody proud of the fact that she knew the new girl.

''Very nice Sakura...'' the teacher didn't even care that Sakura knew Kaede, well...actually...she did, but they had classes, so it didn't matter for the moment. ''Class! These are your new collages from now on: Kaede Tsukira, like Sakura Kinomoto said, Ran Izumio...'' she pointed at a tall boy for the age of eight that had blond hair and blue eyes, he seemed to be half French, half Japanese. ''...and Locket Lascuria.'' the last boy was small and thin, he looked a little sick and he didn't look very cute, even with the black hair and matching black eyes. Even his name was funny, Locket...who even has the name of Locket!

A few months passed and it was nearly the winter holiday. Sakura thought, wasn't that happy, because a few days ago, somebody betrayed her and not anyone, but her best friend, Rika. At the beginning of the year, Kaho made everybody change there seats and instead of Rika on her left and Takashi on her right, it was Chiharu on her left and Miyu on her right. It seemed that since then, she spent more time with Miyu and Chiharu then Takashi and Rika, or so was what Rika said.

Flashback

Sakura went to school as happy as ever and was also happy that she was going to see Rika again. She was sick and had to stay home for a week. Rika came to visit her at the beginning, but after the first two days, she didn't came anymore. As she entered the classroom she spotted Rika talking to Kaede and some other girls. She went to her with a big smile on her face.

''Hi Rika! What are you doing?'' Sakura asked, but Rika glared at her. The auburn haired girl was frightened, but even less, she had a smile on her face. She felt uneasy, but still tried to think that it wasn't her that did something wrong, but somebody else. ''Is there something wrong?'' Sakura was curious by this.

''Hmp...'' Rika still ignored her. She was more confused than ever.

''What is it? What happened? Is it something I did?'' to this, Rika turned to Sakura with an angry look on her face. She looked like she was going to explode any minute now.

''You still have the guts to ask what is wrong? After you laughed of me behind my back? How could you Sakura?'' Sakura was trying to deny it, because it wasn't true at all, but Rika didn't let her. ''And don't you try dinning it, because Kaede told me everything!'' Sakura was shocked. Kaede was one of her very good friends. ''From now on, you're not my friend anymore!'' that day, she was betrayed. Betrayed by two of her friends.''