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Chapter 6: Unsafe Secrets

Tommy Jr.'s cries rang through the night.

"I should get him," Tommy mumbled.

"We work better as a team," I replied. We both got out of bed and headed downstairs with our son in tow.

Sadie came down just a few minutes after. "This is becoming a tradition."

"Yeah, you got that right," Tommy agreed.

"The late night, adult chat session while in the process of taking care of Tommy Jr.," I added.

"So what happened at the studio today? You two were too busy and tired to actually tell me anything."

"We we're interviewed by Rolling Stone, and I found out why she named Tommy Jr. after me."

"Oh you had to get into that, didn't you?" He's so dead…

"Why did you name him after Tommy?"

"Yeah, tell her, Jude."

"I'm so going to kill you, Tommy." I looked over to Sadie. "I said that it was a mixture of things. Mostly the hospital drugs…" I pinched my boyfriend's cheek. "…and I missed this face too much."

"Do you have to pick on the poor guy?"

Tommy rubbed his cheek. "Yeah, do you?"

I laughed and looked back at Sadie. "So anyways, after that, we had a meeting with a CEO from WB."

She sighed. "What talk show are they asking 'the family' to appear on?"

"Not a talk show…"what

"Far from a talk show."

"Then what did they want?"

"They want to make a movie about us."

"Starring us."

"A TV movie?"

"Nope."

"Full-length motion picture."

"You're kidding? Starring you?"

"Not kidding. And yes."

"We're not sure if we're going to do this though."

"Why not? I mean you have EJ and Georgia planning every thing that goes on in your lives, and if you need I can watch Tommy Jr. You'll be able to do it."

"She's right, Jude. I don't see why we shouldn't do it."

"I don't know…"

"C'mon Jude!"

"Yeah, what's wrong?"

I looked down at Tommy sleeping in my arms. "I can't act, I don't want to make a fool of myself."

"That's all that's stopping you?"

"It's our story, you barely need to do any acting."

"Okay, I'll do it. We'll call Georgia in the morning to set-up a meeting."

"You seriously won't regret it. Think about it; movie premieres, glamorous parties, and endorsement deals."

"And what she's been doing for the past four years has been… what?"

"Let's not get into this now, the decision is made and let's get some sleep." We went back up the stairs once again.

"Thanks for agreeing to see us, Ms. Cruner," I said to her as I shook her hand.

"No problem at all," she replied.

"Well, we've decided to take you up on the offer," Tommy explained.

"That's wonderful!" She chimed.

"So what's going to be involved in all of this? Rehearsals, meetings with directors, etc.?" I asked.

"Just the basics?" He added.

"Yeah, there will be all that and more. Including a script run through."

"What for?" I had no idea what I was doing or what was even involved with making a movie.

"We want the whole story from your guys' perspective. It all starts when Jude wins Instant star and it goes all the way up to now. We want every little detail. So if there have been things left out of the story, secrets or anything like that, I should know about those soon."

Tommy and I glanced over at each other.

"We have a full schedule, and so it was nice talking to you, we'll see you soon," Tommy said.

Stephanie left the lobby and I turned to Tommy. "Are you sure we should do this?"

"Positive…" He didn't sound too sure about this.

"I'll be right back," I said quickly before rushing off to the bathroom. I dialed a number at the speed of light on my cell. "Sadie!"

"Whoa, Jude you sound frazzled. Tommy Jr. is okay, if that's what you're worried about."

"It's not that. We just had a meeting with Ms. Cruner, the CEO of WB, and I have a major problem."

"What's wrong?"

"She wants to know everything, every detail, every secret."

"Oh…"

"Yeah."

"So I take it Tom doesn't know about the kiss with Shay?"

"No idea what-so-ever."

"What are you going to do? Just keep Shay out of this?"

"I can't do that, he was a big part of this whole thing, he helped me out. That would be like leaving you out of all this."

"Right. Look on the bright side, he might have a secret too."

"Somehow that doesn't make me feel better."

"Well, I got to go, I hear your son crying."

"Bye." I walked back into the lobby and saw Tommy through the studio window talking to Kwest. I knocked before letting myself in. "Tom, can I talk to you for a minute?"

"Yeah," he replied, getting up and leaving the studio.

"Be there in a minute," I said to him. I sat down where Tommy had been sitting and stared at Kwest. "What we're you talking about?"

"Not much, just the usual."

"Yeah right."

"No that's all."

"Okay but you know I'll find out eventually."

"Bye Jude."

I left the room and hugged Tommy. "I have to tell you something."

"I do too," he replied.

"There's something that I haven't told you…"

"A secret?"

"Yeah."

"Me too."

"You first."

"No you first."

I hesitated. It was getting hard to breathe. How was I supposed to tell him that I had kissed my ex-boyfriend? "I-I, um, Sh- Shay, um…"

"Shay? What about him?"

I couldn't say it. I couldn't tell him that I kissed Shay. So I kissed him. I just pushed him against a near-by wall and kissed him, as passionately as I could.

"Wow, girl, what's that for?"

I held back my tears as much as possible as I looked up at Tommy with watery eyes. "Guilt."

"What's wrong?"

Tears fell from my eyes silently. "It was about 8 months after you left, a few weeks after Tommy Jr. was born. A hard reality hit me that I was never going to see you again. I was on the verge of a breakdown." I started breathing hard.

Tommy lifted my head. "Jude, you don't have to tell me this."

"I have to… Shay came into G major and found me curled up in a corner in Studio C. He helped me realize that I could be a parent and that I could get through this. And we got taken away. He was there; I don't know what I was doing. I couldn't control anything that was around me."

"What happened?"

"We kissed."

He paused. "You kissed him?"

I nodded out of fear of his loud voice.

"Like how? A peck on the cheek or one like we just shared?"

"The second one."

"Great Jude! That is just great!"

"Hey it's not like you stayed out of relationships! It was just one stupid kiss! It meant nothing! Why are you getting so upset?"

"It was Shay! Your ex-boyfriend! And you're new friend! What's to say that you won't hook up?"

"The fact that I have a child with you! I love you, Tommy! And that's all that I care about! No meaningless kiss is going to change that!"

He glowered down at me and then said, "And it won't happen again?"

"No…"

"Alright…" He hugged me and kissed the top of my head.

I pushed myself away from him. "Wait a minute, you said you had a secret too."

"Oh that… It's not a big deal."

"Humor me."

"I don't know."

"Hey I told you my secret."

"Alright, but you're going to hate me."

"It will take a lot for me to hate you."

He paused and bit his bottom lip. He mumbled something that I couldn't understand.

"What?" I was prepared for the worst.

"When I was with Crissy, I got her pregnant."

But not prepared enough.

AN: Oh no! Seriously unsafe secrets. More drama on the way. Please R&R!