Hey everyone, here's the next chapter. Thanks to everyone who reviewed! To the reviews who I could not reply to I'll reply now:
Firecat: thanks for the review, I've updated! well obviously.
Advent-star: thanks for the review, yes hilary is on a diet and yes I did do what she is doing, but I'm okay now.
And also thanks to:
Death-fire-angel
Kirdari and
Hiromi77
And know on with the story…..
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last time
I pull up one on the lose tiles and then reach in side a broken flour board. I rack around for a while until I found what I was looking for.
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Hilary's POV Continued
I pulled out a beautifully refurnished wooden box, and carefully placed in on the tile on my right hand side and put the flour board and tile back in there places. I sit on the side of the bath and stare at the mirror in distaste. I hate my reflection. I'm so ugly. What the hell are champions like the Bladebrakers hanging around with a girl like me? There the most famous and handsome celebrities around they could have anyone on there team, so why and ugly fat idiot like me?
I could feel sadness and self-hatred well up inside of me. I tore my eyes from the mirror and looked at the finely crafted box I had balanced on the edge of the bath next to me. I carefully and slowly opened the lid slowly. The inside had soft royal purple velvet attached to the sides. Placed in the middle of the cushiony velvet was a silver blade (as in knife). She picked up the knife and inspected it distantly.
She pulled down her sleeve to revel long slightly faded white scars randomly placed along her lower arm. She brought it to her arm and let it hover, as if debating wither to do it or not, when every thing her brothers and everyone else had said came in to her mind as if screaming to her 'DO IT! DO IT!'. She placed the knife on her pale skin, just below her elbow, and pressed down on the awaiting flesh.
Hilary was know slumped down on the flour with her back pressed against the bath tub just watching the crimson trickle out of the open wound. She started to thing about her past and all the stupid mistakes and comments that were true in her books, but were also hurtful. Anger bubbled up again. She raised the blade and made another, farley deep cut but not deep enough to do any real damage, she raised the knife again and again until there was 6 randomly placed wounds placed on her left arm.
Hilary watched the blood fall form the wounds and fall like crimson tears and splashed on to the tile. She followed the tears to the puddle of sorrow that expand on the flour as a reflection of her inner most feelings.
Hilary's POV
Drowning. That's what I feel. I'm drowning in a sea of self hatred and depression, but nobody knows it but me, and that's the was its going to stay. Those were her last thoughts before unconsciousness over came flooding in and darkness suffocated her.
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With the Bladebrakers
At the dojo
Tyson and daichi were demolishing the last of the food hilary cooked and put in the fridge for later. Kenny was in the training room, along with ray, max and kai, still working on his laptop. Max and ray were polishing there beyblade's and kai was leaning against the wall of the dojo thinking.
Kai's POV
I wonder what's wrong with hilary, I hope she isn't doing anything stupid. Maybe I should go and see her, just to make sure she's okay. Nah hilary's smart, she knows better than that. But I really don't believe what she said earlier, she always eats at the dojo. But ever since a few weeks ago she's been 'getting something from home' instead of here, she's really pale too. She can't even stay awake during most practices lately either and she's lost weight dramatically. (gasp) what if she's-
Normal POV
Kai was cut off when he saw ray coming up to him.
"Kai? Are you ok?" ray asked in a quiet tone so only he and kai could hear it.
"Hn, I'm fine ray" kai said in a monotone voice
"no your not" ray stated. Kai looked a little taken aback, but as soon as it appeared it disappeared. Ray saw this and grabbed kais wrist, dragging him out side away from the others.
"I know you were thinking about hilary" ray said
"no I wasn't" kai denied
"yes you were so stop lying. I was just thinking about her to…." Ray trailed off deep in thought. Kai became a little angry at the thought of one of his friends thinking about hilary.
"and what were you thinking about?" kai asked, his voice dripping with suspicion. Ray sighed and sat down on the flour. Kai did the same and ray started to explain
"well I've been really worried about her, she hasn't been her-self lately and I know you have noticed it too and that she hasn't been eating here anymore." Ray paused for a reaction from kai. kai nodded in agreement.
"She looks so pale lately, she's always tired and she has lost weight dramatically too (sigh) I'm afraid that she may do something stupid and I feel so bad for not seeing it before and not doing anything about it! " ray ended and looked at kai for any sign of reaction, and he got his wish. Kai looked slightly worried but that the same time his face held a hint of triumph at the fact his suspicions were correct.
"ray, there is nothing we can do, this is something that only hilary, herself, can overcome. All we can do is keep an eye on her for now and when the time comes we can confront her about it." Kai said and stared distantly into the back garden.
Ray sighed " yeah I guess your right but I still feel bad." He said in a sulky tone and he and kai walked back in to the dojo to get some sleep.
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okay I'm going to stop there and I know it was short but I promise that I will update soon! R&R please!
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