Hey sorry it took so long to update, I guess I've been busy…. Well anyway here it is enjoy! And thanks for all your reviews! Your support means a lot! Yeah I know I have low self-esteem .

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Bob: (sulks in the corner)

Tear: (dose a cheesy anime triumph pose with goofy grin) but one more thing first.

This is to some one (you know who you are) I fully understand and respect your wishes to not sign in, and thank you for your review and support. If you want I would love for you to email me if you ever need to talk to some one because I know what you are going through and I would like to talk to some one too but have yet to find anyone in my situation. And I am so relived that you have help, please help you! I know I sound like a hypocrite but its for the best, and please count blessings your parent ceared enough to notice.

Okay on with the story……..

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Last time

"ray, there is nothing we can do, this is something that only hilary, herself, can overcome. All we can do is keep an eye on her for now and when the time comes we can confront her about it." Kai said and stared distantly into the back garden.

Ray sighed "yeah I guess your right but I still feel bad." He said in a sulky tone and he and kai walked back in to the dojo to get some sleep.

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Hilary's house (Hilary POV)

I was woken up by the streams of light blearing through the small window.

"Urgh stupid sun! it represents every thing I hate about the world!" i said in a disgusted tone to my self. And dazedly looked around to find out where i was. I noticed I was in the bathroom, wondering why I was waking up in the bathroom, she got lost in thought until a throbbing pain in my left arm brought me back to reality.

"ahhh! Oh shit I forgot!" i hissed in pain. i uneasily pulled my self to my feet slowly and leaned against the side of the bath for support until the dizziness wore off. Finally deciding that i was ready to move, I pushed my self gently off the edge of the tub and walked over to the sink and reached into the cabinet above and pulled out a box of antiseptic and bandages, i knew were there i used to use them for my brothers when they got hurt and my (hilary included) mother was too busy on the phone smoking and are father was at work, to clean up and bandage (oh and just so you know Paul is 13 and Andy is 12 and hilary is 14).

After i cleaned my self up but didn't bother with the bandages and decided to get dressed and go to the dojo since it was Saturday after all. I went in to my bed room and got dressed. i wore black dress trousers and a long sleeved deep red sleeveless top (its just too hot to wear long sleeves!) with a long black arm warmer on her left arm and a pair of trainers. my brothers and mother were still a sleep, much to my relief so i left the house un disturbed.

The dojo (normal POV)

Hilary arrived at the dojo to find everyone awake and training. She walked in to the dojo to be greeted by grandpa granger.

"Hey what's up budette?"

"Hey grandpa, nothing much, what about you?" hilary asked politely

"nothing much happening here either, my little home dog and his peeps are around back"

"Kay thanks grandpa!" I called as I made my way around the back.

Tyson was battling daichi, ray was battling kai and max was sitting eating sugar while pocking Kenny and asking what he was doing. Hilary sighed and made her way over to sit next to Kenny and save him from Max's torture and bruises.

"hey hilary!" max yelled, more like screamed, to hilary as she sat down. Kenny mumbled something inaudible which she guessed was something like 'hey'.

About 8 hours later

Every one was relaxing after practice; they had to cut it short because of the rain. Tyson, daichi and max were in the living room, Kenny was in the kitchen to get some peace and quiet from Tyson and daichi, she didn't know where ray and kai were though. Hilary was sitting in the same place as she was when she came earlier that morning. She loved watching the rain; it always seemed to calm her. She heard her stomach grumble. She threw her arm across ther waist in a vain attempt to some how muffle the cries for food it made. When that didn't help she just gave her stomach a whack and it stopped, for know anyway.

"thank god! I thought it would never stop! Well at leased know one herd them, (sigh) im soo hungry! What! No! no I'm not! food Is bad!" hilary argued with her self quietly thinking that no one could hear her, but oh how wrong she was. If she was really paying attention to what was going on around her she would have noticed the person standing behind her. The person was kai.

kai's POV

I walked in to the dojo to find Hilary sitting there watching the rain and talking to her self. I couldn't hear what she was saying so I moved closer. I could hear her saying how hungry she was and how food was 'bad'. What dose she mean by that anyway? Is that why she's so pale? Is she starving her self? I have to find out. What if she's doing something stupid, if she is and I didn't do anything about it I would never forgive my self.

Normal POV

Kai walked up to Hilary, and placed a hand on her shoulder, which in tern made her jump at the unexpected touch. Hilary stood up at looked kai in the eye.

"Kai? What's wrong?"

"I should be asking you that question" he stated flatly

"Nothing is going on, why would you think any thing was wrong?" hilary asked a little confused by his sudden show of emotion, well kinda anyway.

"don't lie to me hilary, I want to know what's going on" his voice raising just enough for the others to hear and were now out side the door trying to find out what was going on.

"im not lying to you nothing is going on" hilary said as stubbornly as possible but was left some what exhausted by the lack off food.

"yes you are!" kai shouted "I herd you talking! And I want answers!" hilary looked shocked by what he just said and mentally kicked her self for being so reckless. Hilary was about to deny everything when kai cut her off.

"and another thing what did you mean by and I quote 'im soo hungry! What! No! No I'm not! Food is bad!'" Hilary couldn't say anything, what could she say? "I want answers Hilary! And know!"

By this time there voices were so loud, well kais voice was so loud, that they had caught hiro and grandpa's attention too and was out side listening with the others.

"What are they talking about?" max asked to no one In particular

"I don't know" Tyson answered "but I have a feeling were going to find out"

"Well I know" ray stated. Every one turned there attention to the long haired blader "kai and I talked about this yesterday, we think something's wrong with hilary." This was answered with questioning expressions. Ray sighed and continued

"Haven't any of you noticed that she's been so pale lately? And that every time we asked to join us for dinner she's always either already eaten or is eating at home?" he paused and looked at the expressions of his listeners. Some expressions were horrified expressions, which meant that they had understood what ray had just said, (grandpa, hiro, max and Kenny) and others were still confused (Tyson and daichi)

"What do you mean?" Tyson and daichi asked at the same time Kenny sighed

"What ray means is Hilary has been starving her self" Kenny said a little annoyed at there stupidity. Tyson and daichi's expressions changed to match the rest of the boy's and men's expressions.

"Answer me!" kai yelled regaining the listener's attention once again.

"Kai…… you could never understand……" she chocked out while trying to fight back tears. She turned to leave but kais quick reflexes kicked in (excuse the pun) and grabbed Hilary's wrist. But unfortunately for Hilary it was her left.

she hissed in pain and immediately tried to pull it out of kais grip. But that only made kai tighten his grip, causing more pain and hilary decided to give up.

Kai looked a little puzzled at this action, but didn't let his guard down. When she finally gave up he relaxed his hold a little. He gently slid his hand from her wrist and took hold of her palm while bringing the other up to pull up her sleeve.

Kai was horrified at what he saw 6 deep slashes along her arm. He trailed his finger lightly along the side one of one cut and inspected them carefully. When he finally tore his gaze away from them he saw hilary looking at the flour ashamedly.

"why…" was all he managed to say "why would you do these things? Why would you need to?" but this question only got a bitter laugh in response.

"why would I not need to? Look at me" she cried in a matter-of –factly tone and looked kai straight in the eyes with a glare that could rival his death glare. Her eyes were bone chillingly cold, and were only made worse by the skink bony face.

Kai winced inwardly at the sight but wouldn't let her know that.

"I'm waiting kai" she said in an annoyed and impatient tone.

"because you don't need to" he stated

"oh look who's lying now!" hilary said bitterly

"I'm not lying hilary, why did you do it?" he said in a pleading voice

" the truth?" she said after a long pause. Kai nodded and she continued "I want to be perfect" she said in a quite whisper

"but hilary you are perfect" and said in a gentle voice. Hilary snapped.

"SEE THERE YOU GO AGAIN! STOP LYING TO ME! IM NOT PERFECT! IM FAR FROM IT! LOOK AT ME! IM FAT IM UGLY AND EVERYONE HATES ME! SO DON'T TRY TO DENY IT!" Hilary finished this statement out of breath and completely exhausted. She looked up to see kai wide eyed at what she had just said. But regained his composer and they were locked in a glaring match. It lasted for a few minutes until Hilary's eyes rolled to the back of her head and she passed out on the flour.

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