Returning Home Chapter 18: Speak to me, an instant star fanfic

Disclaimer: I don't own Instant Star or the Avril Lavigne song, "I'm with you."

Chapter 18: Speak to me

His arms were wrapped around me tightly, our son somewhere in the middle. I didn't want to say goodbye to him again after such a short time together. I didn't want him to leave.

He pulled away from me. "I'll be back in six months, I promise this time."

I was holding back tears. "I know. I-I'm just-"

"Please, Jude, let's not make this harder…"

"I'm just going to miss you."

"I know."

"Are you sure you want to go?"

He looked sorrowful. "Jude, I want to go, but I wish you could come."

"You know I can't, Tom."

There was an announcement that rang through the air. "Flight 946 is now boarding."

"That's me," Tommy said.

"Okay…"

"I'll see you in six months."

"If you say so…" I stared down at the floor.

"Hey," He put a knuckle under my chin, lifting in so I could meet his eye level, "I will."

"Okay."

He kissed me and then the top of Tommy Jr.'s head. "I'll see you soon."

"Bye," I replied, watching him walk away.

After four months, I was mentally begging for him to come home. I had adjusted to him being there; I didn't need Sadie so much, she could get more sleep. I didn't have to hold Tommy Jr. all the time. I was happy. But then he had to leave again.

I would talk to him everyday, not letting him know how much his disappearance had affected me. He just seemed so happy, I didn't want to bring him down. I knew that I had to let him be, let him have fun.

I watched Sadie through the window of the studio as she held my son close to her.

I hit my first chord of the song and began to sing.

I'm Standing on a bridge
I'm waitin in the dark
I thought that you'd be here by now
Theres nothing but the rain
No footsteps on the ground
I'm listening but theres no sound

Isn't anyone tryin to find me?
Won't somebody come take me home
It's a damn cold night
Trying to figure out this life
Wont you take me by the hand
take me somewhere new
I dont know who you are
but I... I'm with you

im looking for a place
searching for a face
is anybody here i know
cause nothings going right
and everythigns a mess
and no one likes to be alone

oh why is everything so confusing
maybe I'm just out of my mind
yea yea yea

It's a damn cold night
Trying to figure out this life
Wont you take me by the hand
take me somewhere new
I dont know who you are
but I... I'm with you

Take me by the hand
take me somewhere new
I dont know who you are
but I... I'm with you
I'm with you

Take me by the hand
take me somewhere new
I dont know who you are
but I... I'm with you
I'm with you
I'm with you...

I left the studio for the lobby in tears. I missed him too much.

"You miss him," Sadie said, handing my son over to me.

"Like hell I do," I replied, wiping away my tears.

"You'll get used to it," Sadie added.

I nodded glumly.

Tommy Jr. squirmed in my arms. "Dada," he cooed.

"Yeah," I muttered. "Dada."

AN: Oh, his first word. What are the chances? Please R&R!