Disclaimer: I don't own Instant Star or the song "Quicksand" by Lillix
Chapter 19: Who?
Another month down, only one more to go. Each day became harder and harder for me. I could feel myself readapting to being a single parent. I shouldn't have been. Or maybe I should have.
"Hey, Jude, need help?" Sadie asked as she came into the lobby of G Major.
I looked up from the song I was writing before looking over to my son who I was bouncing on my knee. "No, I'm good actually but thanks for the offer."
She sat down next to me. "You know that you can accept my help."
"I know that." I looked back at my music.
"Then don't try to adapt to single-parenthood again."
"I'm not."
"You seem to be."
"I just don't want to be a burden on you."
"You're not; you're my sister and I'm willing to help." She hugged me, making Tommy Jr. squeak from somewhere between us.
"If only we got along so well when we were younger, maybe then Mom and Dad wouldn't have split."
"We didn't do that; Dad did that."
"Right." My eyes stayed glued to my paper.
"He's coming back, you know that right?"
"I guess."
"Hun, things are different this time. He knows that you have a son; he's coming back."
"I hope so."
"I know so. Otherwise I'll kick his ass."
I let out a laugh. Sadie knew how to make me smile. "I think I'm going to call him."
"Okay, do whatever. I'll take your son."
"Thanks." I handed Little Tommy to my sister and stood up. I dialed Tommy's cell number and waited for him to answer. "C'mon, please pick up, please pick up." I began pacing through the lobby, catching a glimpse of Sadie in the control room.
"Hello?" Tommy said, answering his phone.
"Hi," I replied with a tone that was mixed with sadness and worry.
"What's up?"
"I just wanted to talk to you."
"Oh…"
"I miss you, Tommy." I could feel my eyes starting to water and my voice starting to crack.
"I miss you too, Jude…"
"You're coming back, right?"
"Ju-"
"No, I'm serious. I want to know that you're coming back this time. I want a promise."
"Jude-"
"Promise me!"
"Jude, I promise."
That's when I heard it. The worst sound in the world. A woman's voice. "Hey, baby, what do you want on your pizza?" She asked.
Tommy stayed silent.
"Who was that?" I asked stiffly.
"I-"
"WHO WAS THAT?"
"Jude…"
"WHO THE FUCK WAS THAT?" I screamed into the phone making everyone look at me.
"Let me explain!"
"FUCK YOU!" I hit the off button on my phone before tossing it to the floor. I let out a scream, letting myself hit the floor.
I felt Sadie's hand on my back. "Honey, c'mon, let's get you outside." She helped me up form the floor and lead me outside. She leaned me against a wall, let the cool brick make contact with my skin.
"What happened?" She asked me.
I spoke between sobs. "There was a woman there."
"Oh, Hun, there could be other explanations."
"Well, I hate him, I don't care."
The door to G Major opened and Georgia stepped out with a phone in her hand. "Jude, Tommy's on the phone."
"Tell him he can go fuck himself!" I shouted.
She slunk back into the building.
"You have to chill, Jude. Yell at Tommy, not at Georgia."
"Right." At that moment, anger surged through my body more powerfully than ever. I burst into the building and stormed straight for the studio.
"Jude?" Kwest asked.
"Just record, okay?" I snapped at him.
Yesterday
Seemed so much longer then today
There must be something
wrong with me
I think im losing in oh no
I must be stupid
Now
im here
Yes im here
Cuz I tried
If your here
Then youre
here
For a while
I can't reach the sky
Without being
dragged down
I can't run forever
While I try to hold on
But
if youll be there where I drown
I dont want to hold your hand
Its
quicker then quicksand
And you just wont make it
None the
less I think I've seen a brighter side
Ive trusted no one deep
inside
Is what they call the rest of them
They just dont get
it
But were there
Yes were there
For a try
And were
there
Yes were there
For a while
I can't reach the
sky
Without being dragged down
I can't run forever
While I
try to hold on
But if youll be there where I drown
I dont want
to hold your hand
Its quicker then quicksand
And you just wont
make it
Ive seen so many try to get there way
Im sure its
really not that bad
Yeah im sure really not that bad
I
can't reach the sky
Without being dragged down
I can't run
forever
While I try to hold on
But if youll be there where I
drown
I dont want to hold your hand
Its quicker then
quicksand
And you just wont make it
Its quicker then
quicksand
And you just wont make it
Its
quicker then quicksand
And you just wont make it
I looked out to everyone. They looked at me with stone faces. "What?" I asked.
AN: Stupid Tommy… How could he do that again? Please R&R!