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I looked out the window as the train pulled into motion leaving the Hogwarts. Hugo and Shania were cuddling on the seat across from me. Lysander was sitting on the floor under the window. The door slid open and Lorcan sat next to me nudging me playfully. I smiled and pushed him back putting my head on his shoulder. I closed my eyes and remembered what happened.

I walked out of dungeons and saw him there sitting on the stairs his elbows on his knees. I took more steps to him; he stood up and looked down. I let out a little laugh, "I forgive you for being a git," I told him pulling him into a hug.

"Glad to know you aren't as upset as I thought you would be," He told me taking my hand. It always felt so right when he did, but never perfect. I laid my head on his shoulder, all I knew is I needed him.

"So what made you come around?" I asked as we walked up the steps one by one.

"Well, after you screamed at me before the whole school, and right in front of Tara, she and I talked, and she gave me the same choice as you gave me."

"Oh," I whispered looking over at him, I leaned up and kissed him gently. I felt him kiss me back before I pulled away, "I'm sorry, it's been a rough night." I sighed, letting go of his hand and took more steps.

"Lily, wait," I felt his hand on mine again, I closed my eyes and looked at him his eyes cool with composure.

"Don't say anything," I told him shaking my head, "Please, I can't."

"What's wrong?" He asked confused.

"Nothing," I told him shaking my head, "I will see you in class tomorrow," I bolted up the stairs, confused.

I looked up to see his chin as he and Hugo kept talking about the feeling of not having our O.W.L's to worry about. We were officially growing up, that felt strange. "What do you think next you will even be like?" Hugo asked looking around our group of friends he still had Shania snuggled up onto his chest.

"Well, I hope I'm not the only girl in the group again next year," I smirked as Shania blushed. Hugo kissed her head. "Less stressful I hope," I said with a groan. "I can't even think about next year, there is James' wedding and you two will be off this summer again with your parents."

"Hopefully we can make it to the wedding," Lysander shrugged getting off the floor and setting in between Lorcan and myself. It was like everyone in our group knew what I did, again. We hadn't talked about it, we were all busy studying and when our tests were done, we all just wanted to breathe. I sat up and laid my head on the window; my eyes slowly drifting me into sleep.

When I woke up I found everyone else asleep, my head on Lysander's shoulder and his head leaned back snoring. I sat up and stretched, well as much as I could. Looking at the time I let out a small sigh, we had missed the trolley. I kicked Hugo's foot waking him up, he unwrapped one of his arms from Shania and looked at me with sleep in his eyes. "We missed the trolley," I told him standing up and stretching some more. "You wake them up; I'll go get our stuff." He nodded slowing moving his chest waking up Shania who smiled up at me.

I opened the door to hear screaming and laughing from all the other compartments, some people were opening and closing the doors, tossing in what I am sure is a product from my uncle's shop. I kept walking down the train until I got pulled into a compartment. I let out a squeal as I was pulled into the compartment. I let out a laugh as the big group of seventh year Gryffindor's were enjoying their last train ride from school. "Where are you going lil' sis?" Al asked sitting back in his seat, he was always so crazy around his friends. Fred tossed something in the air and I caught it, before it burst in my face. Confetti burst into the room and into my hair.

"We are finished!" He screamed as everyone else did in response, "Such a bitter sweet moment. However I will not miss being put in detention!" He screamed falling onto the seats.

"Or patrols!" Rose laughed, leaning on one of her friends.

"Oh come off it," I laughed, "You love being at school!"

"Not as much as I am going to go around the world writing!" She squealed. "Your mum got me an interview! I leave for France in three days, I will be back for the wedding, but, come on Lils, you don't know the feeling yet, life is about to begin for us!"

I nodded slowly, watching them all celebrate, before I turned on my heel and kept looking for the trolley. I slowly found myself towards the very end of the train when I spotted it. I took another few steps before a blonde came into my view. I stopped as he did, both of us looking at one another. The train jerked as I fell forward a little. I hadn't seen him since the night he helped with my potions.

"Lily"

I turned around to see him rushing to me, his breathing slow as he stopped in front of me.

"What?" I asked looking away from him.

"I just wanted to—I"

"You what?" I asked clutching my books to my chest, feeling my heart hit them as I stood.

"I don't want to lose you." He told me reaching out and holding my arm, I could feel the chills run up and down my spine.

"Why would you lose me?" I questioned taking a step toward him.

He took one back dropping his hand, shaking his head. "Scorp?" I voice called as it came closer to us. Millie let out a tight smile, leaning up and kissing his cheek. "Lily, right?" She asked. Everyone knew who I was at this school; I am not trying to have a big head, because my parents raised me better, but really, everyone knew who I was the second I got on the train.

"Millie? Right?" I mocked, but she didn't seem to notice.

Malfoy did.

"Well, I suggest you get to your common room before I have to give you a detention." She said with a smile, I really just wanted to hit her.

"Prefects can't give detentions, but you already knew that didn't you?" I said with a smile back. I loved getting in a battle of wits with stupid people.

"Mil, why don't you go on, I'll make sure she gets out of the dungeons and meet you on the second floor."

She sighed and leaned up and kissed him, I turned away and kept walking. "I'm not a baby, have fun snogging on duty, though as head boy and a prefect, I expected you to at least pretend to act like you are in charge." I didn't know if anyone was really listen, I just kept walking, but I was turned around by Malfoy who had about ever emotion crossing his face that I could think of. I pulled out of his reach.

"I'm sorry about her; she just thinks something is going on between us."

I knew what I wanted to say, I knew I wanted to tell him I thought there was, that I knew how I felt and I was getting tired of this constant back and forth with him. I wanted to tell him how I felt.

I did no such thing.

"I'll get over it," I shrugged. "We don't have to see each other after this year right? Maybe at a party our parents drag us to but, other than that, have a nice life." I didn't wait for him to respond, I seemed to be good at that. Maybe it was because I didn't want to hear what he had to say. I knew in that moment, I was never going to be second best to anyone…ever.

I grabbed onto the train to get my feet back under me. "Hi," I said trying to look past him. "I'm looking for the trolley, have you seen it?"

"About a minute or so ago, I was just about to get something from it," He told me, it was strange seeing him in muggle clothing. In dress robes, no, dark jeans, bizarre.

"Oh, well, thanks." I told him walking past him, still on my mission.

"Lily, are we going to talk about this?" I heard him following me.

"Talk about what?" I asked walking down finding an empty compartment and opening the door, he followed and shut the door. "Talk about what?" I asked again. "I have said everything I wanted to say."

"Potter,"

"Are you still with Millie?" I demanded.

"Yes, but—"

"But nothing, I have no clue what you think or thought was going on, but I'll get over whatever it was. Enjoy your life Malfoy." I slid under his arm and almost ran down until I found the trolley. I bought our chocolate frogs, a treat we have shared in each year on our way home. I rushed past everyone back to the compartment sitting on the ground between Lorcan and Lysander.

"Took you long enough," Lorcan teased as I tossed him his Frog.

"I ran into some seventh years." I shrugged.

We talked, like we always did on the rest of the way home, we laughed and when we saw London back into our sites we all hugged and said goodbye. I could see my parents talking with my Uncle Ron, Aunt Hermione and Luna, and her husband. I walked out of our compartment, following Lorcan who walked backwards and push us back into our compartment and pulled the curtain down. "We need to talk," he told me leaning against the door.

"I thought we were just going to ignore what happened like we have for the past month." I shrugged tightening my grip on my trunk.

"I know what I said before, and I know how I thought I felt before, but I want to give it a go Lily," he took my hand.

"You are leaving for the summer to go who knows where and you are telling me you want to have a go at a relationship. As we are walking off the train?"

"I know, I just wasn't sure about anything, and we kissed, I just want to try."

"Ask me again in September," I told him kissing his cheek, "See if some other girl changes your mind while you are out hunting whatever animal you are after this time."

I looked up to him nodding, he kissed my cheek and we waked out into our parent's embrace.