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I was dreaming again. My head was resting on a soft pillow, my arms next to my chest. The breeze from the window was brushing my face as my eyes fluttered open. Looking around the room the other side of the bed was unmade, and something was burning.

I rushed out of the bed and followed my noise to the smell of food burning. There was Scorpius, standing over a fire and burnt eggs. I let out a laugh and watched him pull out his wand, saving the small house by the ocean.

"There are better ways of waking me up," I teased.

"I was trying to impress you," He sighed pulling me into his arms.

I wrapped my hands around him, but he pulled away in pain. "What is wrong?" I asked. He put his on his chest, gasping for air. "Scorpius!?" I cried.

I took in a sharp breath and opened my eyes. I was still at St. Mongo's. It has been three days and nothing in Scorpius' state has change. I have only left for thirty minutes every day to shower and change clothes. Draco told me he lost a lot of blood and that he was healed the best they could. All we need now is for him to come back to us.

I keep wondering what he is thinking about, if he is aware that people are always coming in and out. His Grandparents have been coming and going, they see no need to sit and wait when Draco will call them if he gets better.

I hate that word. If. If he gets better is not something I am going to let happen. When he gets better, I will be able to breathe again.

I rubbed my eyes to see Astoria on the small couch, sleeping. Draco has been working almost every shift he can to stay at the hospital.

I picked up the newspaper from the table; Draco must have left it for us. The headlines weren't anything new. The day after the accident it was confirmed that three people were killed in the explosion and seven were badly injured. Scorpius and one other man were in the room when the blast happened. They were the only two that survived. The other survivors were in the room next door.

That I am thankful for.

I skimmed the story on the front and headed to the Quidditch section. Today was supposed to be our first practice back with Nick, our new seeker. That news was released the same day. Rose had already told her parents about their engagement and to some extent Uncle Ron was happy. Aunt Hermione and my mum came by to visit before they met with Rose to start planning the wedding.

I honest don't know how they can be thinking of a wedding when Scorpius is in a bed, somehow still alive. Without knowing if he will ever wake up. Rubbing my eyes, I sat the paper down, my chest felt heavy as I leaned backward, my spine cracking back into place after sleeping next to Scorpius. Hand in hand.

I really just want to scream. I want to scream at whosever fault this is. To scream at Scorpius for wanting to work in the only Department where no one but a select few knew what they did.

I put my free hand on my necklace, feeling his heartbeat next to mine; it was the only thing keeping me steady.

"Lily?" I voice came from behind me. It was Draco. He had on new robes from yesterday, but the black bags under his eyes I knew weren't going to go away until his only son woke up. "Should be you headed to practice?"

I put my head down. I know my Captain knows about the accident, but I doubt he would let me miss practice. I planned on it anyways. "I can't go," I told him looking back to Scorpius.

"What do you think Scorpius would want you to do?"

"He hates that I play." I whispered. "He would be happy if I never mounted a broom again." I rubbed my thumb over his palm. "But I'm not the one in the hospital bed." I am about to lose it. I know I am. How can I not? I am supposed to be the reckless one who makes the mistakes and gets hurt. Not him. I wonder if this is how he feels every time I am on a broom. If I make his heart stop like mine is.

I pulled my hand away from his, tears forming in my eyes. "He promised me he wouldn't break my heart but every day he is still here, unable to hear us, he is."

I felt warm hands on my shoulders; Draco was patting me on the back, attempting to comfort me. "I know, we know your pain Lily, but he wouldn't want you to stop your life just to sit next to him by a bed." My hands went to my necklace, feeling another heartbeat next to mine. Steady. Still there. "Go; come back with your parents tonight. Get some fresh air."

"Only if you sleep," I told him standing up from the chair.

"Deal," Draco said taking my place. I looked at Scorpius' unmoving body before I walked out the door.

When I arrived at the pitch, it was quiet. I left the hospital and came straight to the changing room. My clothes were perfectly pressed, ready for new stains and sweat. My heart isn't here. For the first time, I feel out of place in my own element. Quidditch was the one thing I have always loved, needed, but today I just needed something more.

I threw my shirt into my locker and picked up my jersey, tossing it on lazily. I heard the sound of the door opening, soft voices gently laughing. I turned the corner to see Rose and Nick hand-in-hand.

"I'm sure you will do great," Rose mused. She was leaning against the door, Nick leaning into her.

"Well, I'm just not sure, most of the time things like this don't happen." I think this is the first time I have ever heard Nick unconfident.

"Did you not want to leave teams?" Rose asked, her voice sounded hurt.

"No, you know I would do anything for you," Nick told her. "I love you Rose."

"Enough to give up everything in your life?" Rose asked her voice shaky.

"Yes," Nick gave her a soft kiss, "I would give up everything and anything just to be with you."

I figured this was a good time to break up their little love fest. I cleared my throat loudly and they broke away blushing. Rose came towards me, giving me a hug. "How is Scorpius?" she asked holding her tighter with every word.

"No change," I sighed, pulling my arms up to push her away. "I promised Draco I would come to practice though."

She didn't push the subject, or ask me to elaborate. I was glad for that.

I was glad that all my teammates were all excited about Nick joining us and not talking about my personal life. That was always the best part of this team. Everyone else wanted in my personal space, but they would leave me alone and give me my peace.

It wasn't my best practice, but flying in the air made my worries go away like it always had. Most of the time we were teaching Nick our plays, rituals and rules to playing with our team. Even despite his worries, Nick fit in just fine, not that he will ever have that problem.

When practice had finished we all changed and started to head out. When I got to my locker I found plants and chocolates; even a note for Scorpius to get better and a note to me.

I took my time showering and waiting for my parents. We were supposed to have supper before the accident happened. They still thought it was a good idea for me to go and get away the hospital. I pulled my hair back into a braid, attempting to keep my hands busy.

Finally, I waited for my parents, but they didn't arrive. I started to panic, did something happen to them as well? I debated getting on my broom again, but the door swung open. I rushed to it to see my mum standing at the door.

"What happened?" I demanded my hand back on my necklace. "Is Scorpius alright?"

My Mum just took my hand and apperated us to the hospital. I started to run into the room, he was in. It was filled with all of his family; my heart was racing fast as I passed my dad and Draco by the door. "Lily, wait."

I couldn't stop, I rushed it to see Scorpius, his eyes were open, but he wasn't moving. His body was still. I reached my hand out to his, feeling the blood back into his fingers.

"Scorpius," I said, my heart pumping. Why wasn't he moving, was something else wrong with him. "I'm sorry I wasn't here, I'm so sorry!"

Everyone in the room was silent, as I looked around the room. Everyone was staring at us. "What is wrong with him?" I demanded.

"Lily," but the voice was hoarse, not owned by a person I was looking at. I turned around to see Scorpius attempting to sit up.

"I'm sorry I wasn't here, I'm so sorry," I kept tell him.

He moved his hand to my neck, placing it over my necklace, where my hand had been every moment it was free. "I can feel yours too," he spoke.

I kept breathing heavy, "I thought I lost you." He opened his mouth again to say something but his eyes fluttered shut. "Scorpius," I said putting my hand to his cheek.

I watched as his eyes close and leave me again. I kept my hand there for another moment before I looked at Draco. "He has been in and out for a few hours. This was the first time he talked."

"He is going to be fine, right?" I demanded.

"He lost a lot of blood, Lily, even if he does come back, we don't know how much he will remember or what he will be able to do."

I put my hand to my chest, feeling a steady rhythm. "He promised." Draco put his arm around Astoria, as the crowd started to leave the room, going on with their lives. I know I can't.