(Disclaimer: there are lyrics in here to songs I love. I don't own the bands or their music Let's see um Kagome's words are Avenged Sevenfold, then Seether Stone Sour, Lost Prophets, Jimmy Eat World, and a country band.)
(Kagome's POV)
I couldn't believe it! She had all but killed me and he still defended her! I sobbed not from physical pain that stopped when they had put an IV in my arm. The pain belonged to my heart. I screamed out, "I wish I could be the one, the one who won't care at all but being the one on the stand, I know the way to go, no one's guiding me. When time soaked with blood turns its back, I know it's hard to fall. Confided in me was your heart I know it's hurting you, but it's killing me." Then started sobbing again.
(InuYasha's POV)
I heard her. Just sitting in the bottom of the well I heard the thing she yelled. "I do care Kagome!" I yelled but she couldn't hear me. The smell of her tears was killing me. My instincts told me to go talk to her but I couldn't. She wouldn't hear me. I slowly made my way through the village.
It seems like every day's the same
and I'm left to discover on my own
It seems like everything is gray
and there's no color to behold
They say it's over and I'm fine again, yeah
Try to stay sober feels like I'm dying here
Kaeda knew something was wrong as I walked up to her. "Where is young Kagome?" She asked. I sat on the fence and sighed. "She's not coming back Kaeda." She gasped loudly. "No she's not dead. Kikyo got in her head and hurt her again. Than I stood up for her." I blinked and realized I had. What is wrong with you! You are a Baka! I thought with a smirk. "Yep a full blown Baka." I muttered. (A/n: Get over it hintas I didn't mean it like that)
And I am aware now of how
everything's gonna be fine one day
Too late, I'm in hell I am prepared now,
seems everyone's gonna be fine
One day too late, just as well
Shippo came running. "InuYasha where is Kagome?" He yelled jumping into my lap. I couldn't meet his eyes. Kagome was like a mother to him. How could I tell him I had made her never want to come back with us? Sango and Miroku walked up. "InuYasha what have you done now?" He asked. I looked over at him and blinked. "Whada mean?" I tried to smirk but it felt more like a grimace. "Kagome isn't here and you are. You have said something." He replied. Sango nodded in agreement. I sighed and looked out over the land I could see. Kagome's words came back into my head, I wish I could be the one, the one who won't care at all But being the one on the stand, I know the way to go, no one's guiding me. When time soaked with blood turns its back, I know it's hard to fall. Confided in me was your heart I know it's hurting you, but it's killing me.
I feel the dream in me expire
and there's no one left to blame it on
I hear you label me a liar
'cause I can't seem to get this through
You say it's over, I can sigh again, yeah
Why try to stay sober when I'm dying here.
I jumped when I noticed a soul collector in the distance. I handed Shippo to Miroku and ran after it. "Kikyo!" I yelled looking around. We were in the middle of a field. I could smell Kagome's blood lightly. "Wha the…?" I thought looking around. She appeared in front of me. "Yes InuYasha?" I looked up at her. She has a smirk and smelled of Kagome and her blood. I looked at her robes and noticed they were damp. There were a few stains on the hems. "You hurt her didn't you? You used the jewel and got inside Kagome's dreams didn't you?" I knew right then I was right, and was dead wrong to Kagome.
And I am aware now of how
everything's gonna be fine one day
Too late, I'm in hell
I am prepared now,
seems everyone's gonna be fine
One day too late; just as well
Kikyo laughed and I felt a shiver run through me. "And if I did InuYasha?" She asked. I growled not sure of what I'd do. "Why Kikyo?" I asked feeling my blood boil. "Because I'm the only one who will have you." She said with another smirk. I blinked and stared at her. "Wha…?" I felt like I had really missed something obvious. "You baka she loves you! That's why I killed her. So only I could have you." I swallowed as the information smacked me in the head. Forget missed I all out skidded past and wreaked. I thought unhappily. My ears drooped again and I wanted to smack my self into a tree. You baka! My brain screamed. Yeah I know. My heart replied.
And I'm not scared now.
I must assure you,
you're never gonna get away
And I'm not scared now.
And I'm not scared now. No…
"I have to go talk to her. Kikyo if you ever get in her dreams again I will kill you." I said growling to prove my point.
(Kagome's POV)
I woke up and looked around. When did I fall asleep? I thought. My mom smiled. "They put you under an antistatic so they could make sure nothing was too damaged." I nodded and looked around for InuYasha than remembered what happened. I picked up my book I had remembered to bring and pretended to start reading, but couldn't actually for my tears. The paged blurred out but I kept up my ruse.
I am aware now of how
everything's gonna be fine one day
Too late, I'm in hell
I am prepared now
seems everyone's gonna be fine
One day too late, just as well
I am prepared now,
seems everything's gonna be fine for me
For me; for myself.
For me, for me, for myself
For me, for me, for myself
My mom and grandpa left to go pick up Sota. Once they were gone I cried openly. The nurse came in and rubbed my back. "Would you like something for the pain dear?" She asked kindly. I gave her a watery smile and shook my head, nothing could help this pain. She left a while later and the doctor came in. "Well it looks like everything is ok again. Stitches will have to be in longer though." He said. I nodded and wiped my eyes.
Wish I was too dead to cry
My self-affliction fades
Stones to throw at my creator
Masochists to which I cater
You don't need to bother;
I don't need to be
I'll keep slipping farther
But once I hold on,
I won't let go 'til it bleeds
(InuYasha's POV)
I jumped out of the well and sniffed around. Her blood was covering the air. I could hardly smell her fruity scent for it. I swirled my ear every which way trying to hear her. I heard her mom's worried voice talking to Sota. I ran into the house. "Mrs. Higurashi is Kagome ok?" I asked. She just looked worried and wouldn't meet me eyes. "I'm not sure dear. They couldn't stop the bleeding, than they couldn't stop her crying." She looked up and met my eyes.
Wish I was too dead to care
If indeed I cared at all
Never had a voice to protest
So you fed me shit to digest
I wish I had a reason;
my flaws are open season
For this, I gave up trying
One good turn deserves my dying
I looked down and blinked. This is my fault. If I hadn't stood up for Kikyo! I wanted to beat my head into a tree. "We were just getting ready to head back to the hospital. Would you like to come? I'm sure Kagome could use it." She said placing her hand on my arm. She was generally concerned about why I wasn't already at the hospital. It said so in the way she looked at me with a confused expression. I felt awful. I really liked Kagome's family. What would they think if they knew I had fought with her while she was injured instead of believing her? I nodded and got into her "car."
Wish I'd died instead of lived
A zombie hides my face
Shell forgotten
with its memories
Diaries left
with cryptic entries
And you don't need to bother;
I don't need to be
I'll keep slipping farther
But once I hold on,
I won't let go 'til it bleeds
You don't need to bother;
I don't need to be
I'll keep slipping farther
But once I hold on:
I'll never live down my deceit
(Kagome's POV)
My side was not hurting at all. Which made me happy. My heart on the other hand, was a raw wound. It felt like someone had cut it than pored salt inside it. The doctors came in and out, checking the machines and my side. I just laid there and stared into nothing. It helped somewhat. Trying not to think about him I flipped through a few channels and even read the rest of my book. Nothing could take my mind off him. He had done this before but I mean come on! I had already dreamed about her before and he started arguing with me! I wasn't even out of bed when the side burst open!
When the sun comes down
When the rain wash away
All the hopes I can bring
To another day
Another day
When your trees start to sway
And the wind makes them move
I can tell that
You don't know
Ugh! I rolled over onto my right side and sighed. The door opened and I closed my eyes. "Kagome?" InuYasha's voice asked quietly. I felt tears well up and tried to not make a sound. I felt him sit down beside me. "Kagome... Damn I've really messed up now. Look at you." He muttered rubbing my side lightly with his claws. Suddenly he stood up and I heard a loud BAM every few seconds followed by a string of damn its. I rolled over onto my back and looked over to see him punching a hole in the wall. I sat up with a small grimace. "InuYasha?" I whispered.
To all the fights I've conquered and beyond
The times have changed and I will now move over slowly...
But through it all I still feel lost without you
Hard to find a new soul
The silence takes its toll
Just sway
You don't know...
Just sway
You don't know...
Just sway
When all you want is to find home...
He jumped and spun around. I swallowed and noticed he looked rather nervous. "Kagome I talked to Kikyo and you were right." He said looking at the, now, holey wall. I crossed my arms over my chest and nodded still feeling tears roll down my cheeks. "Wench you can stop staring at me! I was wrong!" He said loudly. I was wondering how long it would take for him to say something like that.
Theres a light pausing
Feel the volume of the sky
Mark your place in time with another question why...
Tiny flickers in the night
Always lookin to be right
To all the fights I've conquered and beyond
The times have changed and I will now move over slowly...
But through it all I still feel lost without you
Hard to find a new soul
The silence takes its toll
(InuYasha's POV)
She was still crying! What could I do or say to make her stop! Frustration pulsed through me. "Kagome would you say something!" I said more loudly than intended. My desperation was catching up with my brain. Something inside me needed her to smile, had to see her smile. It made me happy to know that she was happy to.
I don't feel the way I've ever felt.
I know.
I'm gonna smile and not get worried.
I try but it shows.
Anyone can make what I have built.
And better now
Anyone can find the same white pills.
It takes my pain away.
She blinked and looked up at me. "What do you want me to say?" She asked. I had to make her mad; even if I got sat it would be worth it to see her smile. "Keh wench anything!" I yelled. I saw a flicker of anger in her eyes. "What are you staring at? I swear always gocking at something." I said crossing my arms over my chest. "Sit boy!" I yelped as I fell face first on the ground. "Ka…go…me." I whimpered. She crawled off her bed and sat in front of me. "I wasn't gocking. I just looked up at you!" She said. I smirked. At least she's talking. I thought happily.
It's a lie. A kiss with open eyes
And she's not breathing back.
Anything but bother me.
(It takes my pain away)
Nevermind these are hurried times.
Oh oh oh
I can't let it bother me.
Kagome patted my head. "You can get up now." She said quietly. I sat up and smirked at her. "Gotca talking at least." I said. She blinked and looked down. "Damn it Kagome what do you want me to say! I'm sorry ok sorry!" I said pulling her head up to meet my eyes. She looked so sad. "No I'm sorry InuYasha; you didn't do anything other than care if I was ok. It just hurt you didn't believe me." She said and I felt my ears droop. She touched my lip and I flinched. "InuYasha your lip is bleeding." She whispered. "Keh It's nothing." I said, trying to act tough even if it did touch me she cared.
I never thought I'd walk away from you.
I did.
But it's a false sense of accomplishment.
Every time I quit
Anyone can see my every flaw.
It isn't hard.
Anyone can say they're above this all.
It takes my pain away.
(Kagome's POV)
I
can't believe I busted his lip… I stood up and walked into the
little bathroom. Once there I pulled out some Kleenexes. Than I
walked back to him and dapped his lip. He reached forward and took my
hand in his. I blinked and blushed lightly. Was this proof he
cared? I thought with a tiny frown. I heard him whimper lightly and
looked back up at him. "Kagome smile." He demanded. "What?" I
asked not really comprehending what he asked. "Smile. I hate seeing
you frown." He said, refusing to meet my eyes. I blushed a little
darker and felt my heart warm at that. "Why?" I asked feeling
myself smirking lightly. This was a new trick and I was going to try
it. See how much I can get out of InuYasha. I thought up the name.
"'Cause you have a pretty smile…" He said. That caught me off
guard and I blushed again at the compliment.
I'm tired of spinning my wheels
I need to find a place where my heart can go to heal
I need to get there pretty quick
Hey mister what you got out on that lot you can sell me in a pinch
Maybe one of them souped up muscle cars
The kind that makes you think you're stronger than you are
Color don't matter no I don't need leather seats
All that really concerns me is
"Well…um…thank you…" My mom walked in and I smiled. "Hello dear how are you?" She asked sitting in front of me. "I'm fine mom." She looked me over and blinked. "You aren't crying anymore!" She looked over at InuYasha. I smiled and nodded. She looked down and saw our hands together. She than left the room with a tiny wave of her hand and wink to InuYasha. I blushed brighter. "Come on you need to be in bed." He said picking me up gently. I looked out the window and noticed the sky was getting dark. "InuYasha please don't leave me here alone." I whimpered. I felt safe with him around and I didn't want anymore nightmares with Kikyo in them. I never seem to have them with him around. Stop that! You can't ok! He loves Kikyo… No he doesn't! He came back just for you. Just to see you! I blinked and smiled happily. He may not have said it in so many words but he loved me!
Speed
How fast will it go
Can it get me
Over her quickly
Zero to sixty
Can it outrun her memory
Yeah, what I really need
Is an open road
And a whole lot of speed
He laid beside me and growled lightly. "Don't worry. I won't let the evil monsters get you." I smiled and looked up at him. "There aren't any monsters in here." I said. "You mean other then me?" He asked frowning. I blinked and looked up. "Other than you?" I asked quietly. "I am half demon." He whispered. I looked at him and thought of all the hardships he had to go through as a kid. I pulled his eyes to mine. "You are no monster. I know monsters." I said thinking of Naraku. "And you InuYasha are far from it." I hugged him as I finished. "I kill in front of you and ask you to kill as well." He said into my hair. I frowned and hugged him tighter. "You kill to protect us. I kill to help you. And I haven't really killed anyone." I said. He seemed to relax a bit and I rubbed his chest. "InuYasha you kill to protect us. Me, Sango, Miroku, and Shippo. Thank you for that. You are no monster." I muttered.
I'd like to trade in this old truck
Cause it makes me think of her and that just slows me up
See, it's the first place we made love where we used to sit and talk
On the tailgate all night long but now she's gone
And I need to move on
So give me
He relaxed further and I smiled. "Thank you Kagome." He whispered. I nodded and felt my eyes droop closed.
(InuYasha's POV)
She was sleeping. I held her tightly. I wasn't a monster to her. I was a protector to her. I smiled at the girl sleeping in my arms. She had forgiven me for not believing her about Kikyo. Plus she said that it really wasn't my fault. I don't know why but it felt nice to have her tell me I wasn't a monster and that she looked to me as a protector. She didn't want me to leave her alone. I smiled and stroked her hair. Some time later my eyes grew heavy and I closed them to the image of her sleeping soundly.
Speed
How fast will it go
Can it get me
Over her quickly
Zero to sixty
Can it outrun her memory
Yeah, what I really need
Is an open road
And a whole lot of speed