(Disclaimer: Still don't own this music but it's Lost Prophets, Mudvayne, Avenged Sevenfold, and Hawthorne Heights.)
(Kagome's POV)
The sun burned my eyes even with them closed. I blinked a few times and noticed I felt extremely warm. "InuYasha." I whispered looking up and seeing him. He hadn't left me! In fact he looked to be sound asleep. Maybe he does really love me… He blinked and looked down. "Ye…yeah?" He asked yawning. "I'm sorry I didn't mean to wake you!" I said quietly. He smiled and hugged me close. "I was already awake." He whispered. "So did the monsters come?" I asked smiling down at his chest. He blinked and shook his head. "Nope did Kikyo come into your dreams?" I shook my head. The doctor came in and checked on my side. He looked at me and InuYasha funny. I sat up and smiled at him. "Um well he's not really my brother. He's my um friend." I said. The doctor just nodded and left. I sighed and laid back down.
Tonight, I felt stronger, Inside of your ways,
It takes alot to get home, But its ok when the light is always on
I just want you to understand, there's no need to keep waiting.
Another day in another hand, it could be so different.
A Letter to me, your wasting time,
You know you could be, Yea you could shine
But Tonight you'll get it right,
You will make a difference...
(InuYasha's POV)
A friend. Is that it? I found myself thinking as I stared at her. I shook my head. No Kikyo! You owe Kikyo! You love Kikyo! I scolded my self. No you don't. You owe her nothing and you don't love her! My heart argued with my brain. I hated using my brain and heart 'cause apparently they hated each other. I was snapped out of it when Kagome stretched out and than curled up into a ball. It was so cute I just sighed and hugged her. She looked so happy. I was glad at least she wasn't in pain.
Tonight, Tonight, Tonight,
I Feel stronger,
Goodbye, Goodbye, Goodbye,
If i could see through, even so far away
Its all you need too, make it through another day.
She started dozing lightly in my arms and I smiled at her. She will never live this down I hope she knows. I thought vaguely but shook it off. She fell into a deeper sleep and I got up. She'll be ok without me for a few minutes. I thought walking out of the door. I sniffed the air but could hardly smell anything. There was blood, sadness, anger, and some weird smells covering everything. I could barely smell Kagome's scent above them all. I heard beeping, and screams topped with other weird sounds. Suddenly I caught a whiff of food.
Surprise, Scream your heart out,
Inside you will hand down,
Today it all seems too strong
If only you tried you would move on
I just want you to understand, there's no need to keep waiting.
Another day in another hand, it could be so different.
A Letter to me, your wasting time,
You know you could be, Yea you could shine
But Tonight you'll get it right,
You will make a difference...
Hmm… I thought following the smell. I walked into a room full of people and food. "InuYasha!" Kagome's mom yelled pushing my cap back so my ears wouldn't show. I had almost forgotten to grab that when we all came to this place. "Hi Mrs. Higurashi." I said as she kept pushing my hat around. "How is Kagome?" She asked. I met her eyes and smiled a bit. "She is fine. Sleeping soundly." I said. "Good." She said as relief flooded through her. "Come get something to eat dear." She said pulling me over to a table where Sota and Kagome's Grandpa were sitting.
In this hole
That is me
The dead are rolling over
In this hole
Thickening
Dirt shoveled over shoulders
I feel it in me
So overwhelmed
All this pressure centerizing
My life over turned
But there than despair
All these scars keep ripping open
(Kagome's POV)
I blinked and looked around. InuYasha was gone. Maybe my mom came and got him. I thought and sat up. The room was quiet except for the steady beep from the heart machine they had hooked up to me. I got up and walked around the room. This was different compared to the room I had been in. The IV tugged at my arm and I grabbed the pole, pulling it with me. I looked out the window and gasped. The room I was in had to have been at least six stories. I whimpered lightly and backed away from the window. I was terrified of heights.
In this hole
That is me
A life that is growing feeble
In this hole
So limiting
The sun has set all darkness
Buried underneath
Hands slip off the wheel
Internal path until contention
(InuYasha's POV)
This food was pretty good. Not as good as Mrs. Higurashi's but good all the same. After lunch I sat there a minutes trying to sort the smells. I smelled a lot of fear. Kagome's scent caught my nose. It was twinge with fear. Kikyo! I thought and jumped up. "Thanks for the food." I said to her mom and ran off. When I ran into her room she was laying in bed whimpering lightly. "Kagome what happened?" I asked sitting beside her. "Do you have any idea how high up we are?" She asked looking at the window. "Keh don't tell me you're scared of heights!" I said feeling amazed. All the demons and evil she had seen and she was scared of heights.
Peel me from the skin
Tear me from the rhine
Does it make you happy now?
Tear me from the bone
Tear me from myself
Are you feeling happy now?
Are you
HAPPY
Are you
HAPPY
Are you feeling happy?
She nodded and I wanted to laugh but just hugged her. "Kagome I'm here. If you fall out the window I'll make sure to jump and catch you ok?" She nodded and settled down. "Hey are you hungry?" She nodded a bit. "Ok I'll go tell your mom." I said and left. I caught her mom in the hall. "InuYasha dear would you take this to Kagome?" She asked handing me a box. I smelled food inside. I nodded and ran back to Kagome. When I got back into the room she had her face pressed against the glass looking pale. I sat her food down and quietly walked up behind her. She didn't even know I had opened the door. I grabbed her waist and hugged her. She jumped a foot in the air and screamed. "Kagome! My ears!" I whined twitching them under the hat. She spun around and faced me. "That wasn't funny! Are you trying to give me a heart attack?" She said. I laughed and hugged her, nuzzling my face into her neck. "Hmm you caught me." She gasped quietly and I felt her relax. Now I knew what to use when she was about to sit me.
(Kagome's POV)
His breath was on my neck and it was warm! Tiny goose bumps ran down my back when he spoke. After he tried to give me a heart attack he hugged me. My anger lost it's fuel and I just gave into his arms. "Come on and eat." He muttered leaned back and leading me over to my bed where there was a take out box sitting. I picked it up and opened it. There was a lot of different food inside plus a pair of chop sticks. I picked them up and started eating. I has eaten about a third and I sat it down. "Kagome you hardly ate anything!" InuYasha said. I shrugged. "I said a little hungry." I was full and I wasn't that hungry to start off with. He growled lightly but let it go. I sat the box on the desk beside my bed and watched him walk around the room sniffing the machines and growling at the heart monitor. He handed me his hat so he could listen to the room better and I noticed his ears twitched every time the machine beeped, and his annoyed look deepen with the beeps. He spun around and held his hand up. "Iron...!" I jumped. "InuYasha sit!" I yelled. He fell to the ground and groaned.
In this hole
That is me
Left with a heart exhausted
Was that real hate?
What tense be free?
Do you pull me up just to push me out again?
He jumped up and growled. "What the hell was that for?" I blinked. Yep this was defiantly InuYasha. I let out a groan. "You are exhausting." I muttered. He jumped beside me and stared. "What?" I finally asked. "What is with the beeping?" He asked covering his ears. How do I explain a heart monitor to him? I thought. "Well the beeping is saying that my heart is beating. If it just beeps and holds it out that means my hearts stopped." I said thinking in the lines of a preschooler. He nodded and stared at the machine.
Peel me from the skin
Tear me from the rhine
Does it make you happy now?
Tear me form the bone
Tear me from myself
Are you feeling happy?
Peel me from the skiiiiiiiiiin
Peel me from the skiiiiiiiiiin
Tear me from the rhine
Does it make you happy now?
Tear me from the boooooooooone
Tear me from the boooooooooone
Tear me from myself
Are you feeling happy?
Does it make you happy?
Are you feeling happy?
Are you happy?
Now that I'm lost here with nothing
Does it make you happy?
Are you feeling happy?
Are you happy?
Now that I'm lost here with nothing
(InuYasha's POV)
That thing better not beep like that. I growled at it to let it know I'd slice it to pieces if it killed Kagome. She laughed and hugged me. "What was that for?" I asked smirking. "Oh just wanted to hug you." She said with a smile. "Keh you can't keep your hands off me." I said trying to act tough but I knew I was failing by the smile on her face. My ears twitched and I heard a loud continuous beep. "Kagome what is that?" I asked. She looked sad. "Well that means someone has flat lined." She said. "Flat lined?" I asked. She blinked. "Oh it means their heart has stopped. That's what this machine does." She said pointing back at the beeping thing. A woman's screams filled the room. I covered my ears and hid behind Kagome who had tears running down her cheeks.
"I'll try," she said as he walked away.
"Try not to lose you."
Two vibrant hearts could change.
Nothing tears the being more than deception,
unmasked fear.
"I'll be here waiting" tested and secure.
She got up and leaned out her door. "Oh my gosh." She left the room and I followed after putting my hat back on. Kagome was hugging a sobbing woman. "Kagome?" I asked coming up behind her. She waved her hand at me and I back up. "I'll explain in a minute." She whispered to me.
(Kagome's POV)
This was Mayu's mom. I recognized her. "What happened?" I asked. "Oh Kagome!" She sobbed. Doctors were running in and out of a room where the loud beep was coming from. "That's not your son?" I asked putting two and two together. She nodded and sobbed harder. "He was out playing near the road and a car hit him!" She screamed again as the beeping stopped and a doctor walked up to us. "Ma'am. I'm sorry to say we tried everything we could but it wasn't enough." She sobbed harder and tears came to my eyes. This poor woman. She lost her daughter almost 3 months ago in a fire now her son! I started crying with her. "He died peacefully." He said. She sobbed harder and I started sobbing along with her. InuYasha walked up and hugged us both. Thank you so much. I thought.
Nothing hurts my world,
just affects the ones around me
When sin's deep in my blood,
you'll be the one to fall.
"I wish I could be the one,
the one who won't care at all
But being the one on the stand,
I know the way to go, no one's guiding me.
When time soaked with blood turns its back,
I know it's hard to fall.
Confided in me was your heart
I know it's hurting you, but it's killing me."
Finally her sister came in and took her in her arms. I turned to go to my room. "Thank you young lady." The sister said. I blinked and smiled. "No problem I knew the little girl and my brother was his friend." I said with a watery smile. InuYasha put his arm around my waist and led me back to my room. I felt so bad for that woman. How many more people could she lose? I cried into my knees while InuYasha sat beside me.
(InuYasha's POV)
Who was that woman? How did she know Kagome? I couldn't ask her now. She was crying too much. I pulled her close to me and held her. What do I say? What do I do? I thought staring at her as she cried. I pulled my sword out and leaned it against the wall. The beeping machine was turned off at the moment. Apparently when Kagome ran out it had turned it on and she told the doctors she didn't really need it.
Nothing will last in this life,
our time is spent constructing,
now you're perfecting a world... meant to sin.
Constrict your hands around me,
squeeze till I cannot breathe,
this air tastes dead inside me,
contribute to our plague.
Break all your promises,
tear down this steadfast wall,
restraints are useless here,
tasting salvation's near.
I pulled her into my lap and rocked her. She calmed down and started hiccupping. I chuckled and placed my chin on her head, still rocking her. "Inu…Hic Yasha? Hic" She asked. I smirked and looked at her. "Yes?" She hiccupped again and smiled. "Tha…hic nks." She said. I chuckled again and smiled. "Welcome." She laid against my chest and hiccupped some more. Kikyo was never this warm or soft. She didn't ever care. I thought. My brain was right for once! Kikyo was dead and Kagome was alive. Why the hell was I chasing Kikyo! I didn't even love her. "Hey Kagome?" She looked up and me. "Well um uh…" Her mom walked in and smiled. I'd lost my nerve at this point.
Nothing hurts my world,
just affects the ones around me
When sin's deep in my blood,
you'll be the one to fall.
"I wish I could be the one,
the one who won't care at all
But being the one on the stand,
I know the way to go, no one's guiding me.
When time soaked with blood turns its back,
I know it's hard to fall.
Confided in me was your heart
I know it's hurting you, but it's killing me."
(Kagome's POV)
Wonder what he was going to say. He seemed nervous… I thought staring up at him. I finally stopped crying after he'd started rocking me now I had the hiccups. He kept looking at me and smiling, not smirking smiling! It was sweet. I hardly ever say a smile on his face. He seemed comfortable so I didn't get up. My mom checked my side and smiled. "Maybe it will get better this time." She muttered. I nodded and looked down into my lap. I felt InuYasha's gaze on the back of my head but didn't look up. I still felt bad that he hadn't believed me at first. Maybe his feelings don't run that deep. I thought.
Lets go down now
Into the darkness of your thoughts
Hurry up now, we're waiting for us to fall
(I fall to pieces now) I fall to pieces now
A broken mirror
(I fall to pieces) in your life
The silence in black and white
Falling forward as she walks towards the light
I know Im outside of your window with my radio
I looked up at him. He smiled and my heart melted. Mom left and he smiled at the door. "Who was that woman?" He asked. I sighed. "Do you remember that little ghost girl?" He nodded. "Her mom and brother. Her brother died." I said quietly. He nodded and held me tightly. I sighed against his kimono and gripped it tightly.
(InuYasha's POV)
She was holding onto me as if she let go she would die. I liked it. It made me feel like I had some power over things that happened to her. Even if I couldn't stop the world for hurting her at least I could help. She seemed happy and I knew I was. Anytime I had her in my arms I was. Suddenly the thing she called a radio came on. I blinked at it but noticed she had pushed some button. A soft song came from the speakers; I think that's what their called. "Hey I forgot I brought my perfect circle CD." She said quietly.
I sleep with one eye open so I can
(I sleep with one eye open) see you breathing
I follow your chest home
(So I can see your breathing) until I
I can see you
I can hear you breathe in, exhale
The silence in black and white
The song was quiet but I liked it. The beeping had stopped and I could hear Kagome's heart beat as she laid against me. She started humming along with the music. Kagome you are so special to me. I thought happily. My heart for the second time today didn't argue. "InuYasha, I'm going to teach you the lyrics to this song." She muttered. I nodded and smiled. I'll sing them to you Kagome. I thought. She seemed to be deep in thought so I let her think.
I know Im outside of your window with my radio
I know Im outside of your window with my radio
Im outside of your window with my radio
Im outside of your window with my radio
Im outside of your window with my radio
Im outside of your window with my radio
You are the only station, you play the song I know
You are the song I know
(Kagome's POV)
I could see InuYasha singing this. His voice may be a little deeper than the singers but he could do it. I mean he kills demons, he could sing a song. Weak and Powerless, wonder if that's what he feels like when he's mortal? I thought. Well how would you feel if you were a hanyou and you because a mortal? I'd defiantly feel weak. I thought. My mom came back in. "Mom could you please, when you go home, get online and print me a copy of Weak and Powerless by A Perfect Circle?" She nodded and I smiled my thanks. She checked my side again and left. "InuYasha?" I asked going to voice my question. "Yeah?" He looked down at me with a worried look. "Do you feel weak and powerless when you are mortal?" I looked back into his eyes. "Keh, yeah I hate it. I don't know how you can stand it!" I shrugged and looked down at the white sheets of the bed, noticing they were tinged with red. I leaned off InuYasha's lap and rubbed the sheet. It was weird. All the demon's we fight and my side gets split open again by Kikyo… I shook my head. "Kagome what are you doing?" InuYasha asked. "Oh just thinking." I replied.
(InuYasha's POV)
I wish her mom wouldn't have walked in! I was going to tell her. Now I've lost my nerve. This coming from me. I'm worried she'll turn me down or turn me away. I was after all a hanyou and she was a miko. I was lower than dirt compared to her. But did she think of me as such? My brain was working in fast pace. I could hardly catch a single thought. Kagome do you care about me as much as I care about you? The thought smacked me. I blinked, "Kagome?" She looked up and sat in front of me, facing me. "What's wrong?" She returned feeling worried. Do you care about me like I care about you? "Do you care about me like I care about you?" I asked blinking again. Good boy InuYasha! My brain said. Ugh even my brain treated me like a dog. "Well how do you feel about me?" She asked looking confused. Ok, this is important so don't screw it up! My brain yelled. I love you. "I well um…" I stuttered. Say it you baka! My brain and heart yelled. "I think you are a good cook and well a good fighter. A good friend!" I said. My brain and heart smacked their head and sighed, Oh vey. Kagome blinked and looked down. "Oh. Well you are a good friend too!" She said looking back up.
(Kagome's POV)
Why did I think love? Why did I think he loved me! Over Kikyo! That was a stupid thought and you know it. I thought. He looked like he was going to say more and sure enough, "You are very pretty Kagome." He blushed as did I. "You mean it?" I said before I could think. He nodded and I felt my heart jump and spin.