Disclaimer: Stargate SG-1 and all related characters and events belong to MGM/USA. "My Immortal" belongs to Evanescence. I merely dabble.
Author's Note: This is the second in a series of songfics written in honor of the great and only SG-1 (DIE SEASONS EIGHT, NINE, AND TEN!). This takes place during the episode "Forever in a Day" from season three. Yeah, it's an overused song, butI couldn't get this twining out of my head for the longest time. If you like this, please review. If you don't, GO AWAY!
Her Immortality
I'm so tired of being here
The pain was too intense.
Suppressed by all my childish fears
It was as though a burning piercing knife was slowly pressed into his brain. The fire spread down his spine and through his hands. He could barely feel the gun slip through his fingers.
And if you have to leave
But he could still see her face.
I wish that you would just leave
He felt more than saw the bolt of energy from Teal'c's staff hit her.
'Cause your presence still lingers here
She was gone.
And it won't leave me alone
But not gone. He awoke with hope. He knew that she was alive. The gods didn't die, couldn't die.
These wounds won't seem to heal
The sarcophagus…if she had gotten to a sarcophagus, he could still save her.
This pain is just too real
We won? But…NO! She cannot be dead. He had to save her, swore to save her.
There's just too much that time cannot erase
She cannot be dead…
When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
The pen. His face rebelled and smiled in his grief at the thought of the simple tool between his fingers. The simplest thing was a wonder to her.
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
Carter tried to cheer him. He refused. There was too much sickness in his soul to be fixed by cookies.
And I held your hand through all of these years
The silence that he closed around his soul served to block the memory of her body in the morgue.
But you still have all of me
And he shivered in the dark.
You used to captivate me
The pain was too intense.
By your resonating light
It was as though a part of his very soul was being ripped from him. He could not go through the 'Gate again. Never again.
Now I'm bound by the life you left behind
But handing in his resignation did not give him relief. Nothing did, nothing could. She was gone.
Your face it haunts
But not gone.
My once pleasant dreams
Swirling and twisting between his dreams, he could almost taste her presence.
Your voice it chased away
Almost hear her voice. She called to him from beyond, telling him to find the last piece of her. To find her son. But where could he look? Nothing was making sense.
All the sanity in me
But reality was not real with her, so what did he care that his world was shattering?
These wounds won't seem to heal
He stood upon the hill of sand. Those who had been close to him stood there as well. But he was alone.
This pain is just too real
Speaking those words almost killed him. He wished that he could die now, that someone would place his soul in the balance, that he could be with her again.
There's just too much that time cannot erase
And she was there. But she was not there.
When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
He remembered the last time he held her. When the demon released her for a moment. When she was his again. How many eons ago was that?
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
She cried to him again. And again. And again. And he could do nothing. He could not save her the first time, could not reach her the second, could not keep her the third.
And I held your hand through all of these years
And now she was gone.
But you still have all of me
But not gone.
I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
This pain was too intense.
But though you're still with me
His shattered reality twisted back to the way that it should be. She was there with him again, piercing his mind, forcing him to watch her die again.
I've been alone all along
All the dreams now made sense.
When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
Teal'c shot her…and he watched her fall slowly into oblivion. This was reality and this is what he must walk through to save what was left of her. To save her child.
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
I love you, Daniel.
And I held your hand through all of these years
He felt her slip through his fingers. All his promises, all his hopes, all the pain the demon caused fell gently into the sand. She was gone.
But you still have all of me
"I love you too…"
But she was not gone…