Ryous lil Tenshi: I know you love ryou angst! I've read a lot of your stories. Go ahead and ramble on, so do I! Did this really make you cry?

Dark Magician Girl Hikaru- Adore is the right word. Who doesn't love angst? And my name may mean light, but who says i can't be dark too? ((grins evily))

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Deaf screams, muting reality My silent suffening,

i am loud but it goes unheard.

I am in sight but unseen by you,

so i fade into a crowd, unknowticed,

uncared for, while you stroll by unaware.

I am tired of being hurt by you.

not verbal abuse, but lack of communication.

My blood pools to the floor,

and you step blindly into it,

not knowing its there, not knowing you caused it to be there.

All i wanted was someone to love me,

and you couldn't grant this simple request.

A simple, "Hello Ryou" is too much to ask.

A hug for a greeting?

No.

Just that fake smile, as you turn and leave me alone,

to go talk about how fun it was without me there.

To talk about how lonely i look,

to giggle at my wounds,

to whisper about the strange look in my eyes,

as you soon recognise it as jealousy.

But as you turn away,

it changes ever so slightly.

My fake expression wears off into hate,

and my eyes show unseen insanity,

a dark grin crossing my face.

I pull out my blade,

not caring who's watching,

and carve deeply into my flesh:

SO YOU CAN'T HURT ME

I'm tired of them getting away with this.

I call out and you purposely hurt me.

How much more obvious must i be!

I cross out hurt.

you've done more than that.

But i won't give into it,

i will not be shattered by the likes of them.

Even if it means i must be alone forever.

I turn back to my arm,

knowing the perfect replacement for hurt.

SO YOU WON'T BREAK ME.

I walk home alone in the rain, my eyes only noticing the movement of my feet.

Another typical day, ignored and one step closer to breaking.

Being alone can tear you appart. make you not want to live anymore.

I Don't want to live this way, at the mercy of your ignorance.

I've become a shell of my once happy self.

Or have i ever been truely happy?

There was a time.

When my yami was here.

I admit, he was harsh and cruel at one point, untill he saw how hurt i truely was.

He noticed i needed love, and he became the one i love the most.

Untill "they" came and snatched away my shot at true happyness.

It's like they knew what i wanted the most, and destroyed it, just to hear me scream.

Just to watch me bleed.

I think they want to hurt me.

But i have something that they can't take away.

I have self inflicted pain, something they could never destroy.

My scars will never go away.

They cannot erase the white lines that shimmer across my already pale skin, for they are here to stay.

Too bad.

I'll have my freedom forever,

So you can't break me.

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