BWAAAAH! I haven't had access to a savable computer with internet for forever. (Hugs the school comp and cries) Ok, so i'm putting this up, and will update on the next b-day that i have avalible.

The sun rises once again

another day begins again

Another day to cry silent tears to my friends

so they can laugh at me once more.

Insanity crumbling my defensive walls,

slowly but surely

it will fall.

I find my blade to cut again

so my blood drip onto the floor

to prove that i'm not the nothing that i used to be

i try and try

but renewal never comes

it just takes away the pain inside

for an instant

i can grasp a feeling of relinquishment

for a moment my mind turns away

from the hell the day will be

and towards the numbing pain

of a blade across scarred skin.

Then i'll walk nonchalantly into school,

no one really caring,

and go through the day,

like its just like everyday,

with no one hearing my silent screaming for help,

again.

They will all stare at me, but see right through me.

I force a smile, and without a second look, they believe it's sincere.

Once again, I'm living a lie.

And once again, they believe it.

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I hear the doorbell ring. It's Yugi and his "Oh good, you're still alive check," as i call it.

But my guess is Yami no Yugi forces him to go to come and make sure my yami hasn't returned.

My love...

I set down the bloodstained razorblade, and open the door.

Now a days, i dont even have to wear something over my arms and wrists.

Hell yes, they have knowticed my mutilation.

I dont think they care anymore.

I get odd looks from my fangirls, whenever they see my marks.

To hell with them, they can find someone else to follow around and squeak whenever i give them a second glance.

Now a days they give me funny looks of suprise and discust...I guess they're starting to realize i'm not as cute and innocent as i used to be.

Even I know, when my love used to be around, I was something different. I used to be able to smile, for i knew that even if the day sucked, there would be a smiling face to come home to.

But now there's only darkness greeting me, and I dont mean my own.

The unwanted darkness is the one who still lingers in my household. My yami is probably suffering for enternity in a world of shadows. And I'm suffering here, on earth, without him.

Once again, I have this empty feeling inside. All my friends have gone, and I feel the same way i did when me and my father first moved to Domino. My mother and sister had died, and I felt as though i had lost all meaning of living.

But then I had my run in with Bakura. My life changed, and life began to seem better.

But then...they came.

My so called "friends" who actually didn't give a damn about me, came along.

I think they were jealous.

Yeah, that's it. Jealous.

They saw how happy i was. They planned it out. They planed how to destroy my life. They tried in battle city, but failed. Miserably.

But somehow, they suceeded in taking him. I looked the other way, and when i turned around again, he was gone.

That fast, i haven't seen him scince.

Once again, i lost him. Twice in Duelist Kingdom, Twice in Battle city, and once he went into the past, they took him for good. All he wanted was his memory back...and revenge for the Pharoah killing his village...

Once again, I'm alone.

Alone to suffer

to be in despair.

Alone to slowly rot away.

Again.

stay tuned!