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My computer has internet again!

Here is the very much owed next chapter...or two...if i'm nice enough to post it.

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Where has my love gone?

Into the shadows for all eternity?

Or living in complete happiness with another?

Is it selfish of me to think that way about him,

While I'm living a life of freedom in this realm?

No.

I'm sitting here,

in the equivelence of his world in my own house.

Stuck in this hell life of living alone

Is slowly wearing me down.

Death is in the near forcast,

I'll die of a broken heart before anything else.

Maybe he's resting in peace somewhere,

not in the shadow realm,

but somewhere that you go as you die.

Perhaps he's dancing with his mother

As I have longed for so long to dance with mine.

All of his frends are probably laughing with him,

What if it's because their watching me rot?

Is this all in my mind?

I would come back to the one who I truely loved,

Instead of watching them slowly go crazy.

Look at my wrists,

If I go any deeper I'm a gonner.

Is it selfish of me to wonder why I'm still alive?

To invite death into my house,

to take me to a different place?

No, It's not.

While he rests in peace,

I'm on the brink of a breakdown.

While he watches me sleep,

I'm watching him dissapear from my mind.

He couldn't even stop by to tell me he loves me.

I don't think I'm being selfish at all.

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I can hear the clock ticking slowly.

Once again, I'm here in my house, staring at the wall, and thinking of him.

How long has it been scince I've slept? A few weeks, i suppose.

I realised that I'm fiddling with a knife...ok make that digging into my skin with it.

Blood is getting everywhere, but I don't feel a thing. Am I really that numb?

I don't even care if I die anymore. I'm tired of waiting for him. He's not going to come back for me, and I don't think that I can wait for him. Look what's happened to me, I've died so much that my "friends" disowned me.

Last week I was walking behind them to class, when a teacher whispered to them and asked them my name. They turned to look at me, and said that they'd never seen me in their life. Apparently the teacher didn't have the guts to ask me. She's smart. I wouldn't have answered anyways.

Wow, that memory must have made me angry. My arm is drenched in blood, and dripping all over the place. Oh well, it's not like anyone comes into my house anymore. I fall backwards onto the couch and stare at the ceiling.

Is it selfish to be mad at everyone in the world. Why am I mad anyways? They've all done nothing to me!

Or nothing for me.

I want to cry. I want to sob myself to sleep and wake up with Bakura smiling down at me, asking if we're having bacon for breakfast. I wish he would volunteer to make pancakes (even if they ended up looking like black frizbees) or to go to the bakery and "buy" cream puffs for me.

I don't even think I like cream puffs anymore...I haven't have them in so long...They make me think of him too much.

Do I ever stop thinking about him! Is it selfish of me to wish him out of his happiness to come back to this terrible world that'll remind him of everything that haunts his past? Is it selfish of me to want him back, although I know that that damn Pharoah will find out and send him strait back to the shadow realm?

Is it selfish for me to want to kill Yuugi? That would solve all of my problems in the end, to just kill the pharoah's bitch. But that would be selfish too, to make him suffer for something he didn't do. Or maybe that's what "his majesty" wants.

What if yuugi were forced to stay away from me because of the pharoah? We used to be such good friends untill that bastard found out about Bakura. Of course, I was ok with it, because I still had someone who cared...Maybe Yuugi didn't.

Heh...Is it selfish of me to not give a damn?

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Yes, everyone knows Ryou-kun likes cream puffs...So you gotta know he's gone crazy when he doesn't like them any more ,O.o,

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I have the next 3 chaps ready to roll, so review and tell me that you want them :heart: