Ok! Ok! Kalimoto I'm updating. You almost made me feel guilty!
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It hurts me so to hear your story,
To know that you never wanted to hurt me.
But you're truths won't bring my lover back,
I still can't recover without him.
How can I fully trust you
When you left me alone
for so long that I could have died.
How can I forgive and forget when you forgot me,
knowing that I had no one else to cry to.
How can I run to the one who took away the thing I treasure most in life.
The one who took away the part of my soul that completes me?
I can feel sorry for you,
for I was stuck in the same position once too.
You didn't need to drag me down with you.
How can you live with a clear consience
while you're looking at how close to death I am?
To bear witness to the destruction of a once innocent soul?
Do you really expect for me to smile again
just because you said you're sorry?
I'm not the sweet child you once knew,
I'm the complete hellbound opposite.
I still hate you in a way,
how can you not expect that?
The only way to make up for you're mistakes is to notice me,
to push everyone else out of the way,
to hug me when you see me crying,
even if it's not with tears.
Maybe I do need help,
But if you won't do it then I won't seek it at all.
And if I die tonight,
If death has his way with me,
then how can you live your life happily?
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I turn to stare at him.
Yuugi?
I think he's crying. I don't understand why. He's trying to pull me off the ledge and onto the roof. Woah! Was I standing on there! My consience must want me to die more than I thought...
He's holding my arm, sobbing like the little five year old that he looks like. Good god, did he seriously just notice my arms! Damn, he must have gotten eye surgery.
"I'm sorry," He says, giving me a hug. Hm...this is new...he's appologizing. He damn well better be sorry, he took Bakura away. I don't really know what to say with my mouth, so I don't say anything. He must need help on a math test or something. He's seriously kissing up to the wrong person, I mean, I dont pay attention in school anymore.
He gives me a look. I think he's scared, he's shaking a lot. If I still had any emotion left in me besides anger and pain, I'd hug him back and feel sorry for him. But nah. Not right now. I think I'm enjoying this. The bitch of the guy who stole my love away is talking to me. Should acknowledge the one who destroyed my chances of happiness? I don't even want to look at him. The ground is more interesting.
"P-please, Ryou." Wow. He said my name. "I need you to trust me." Good luck with that. "Listen to me." Sorry, not interested. He's pulling me down to meet his 2 foot hight. I'm resisting the urge to step on him. "I want to help you bring Bakura back."
Woah, woah woah! Time out! Say that again! "What?" I think I heard myself say.
He repeated himself, looking me dead in my eye. Ha ha, the shrimp made a funny. I'm...laughing. I've finally gone crazy. I'm staring at him, searching him for any signs that he's joking. When I don't find any, I get a little nervous. Scince when does he want to do anything to benefit me? Scince when does Yami no Yuugi let him do anything to benefit me!
His neck is bare. Come on Yuugi, you don't have to hide the puzzle. I'm not stupid, you moron. You gave yourself away! It's just a test to get Bakura to come out. Or maybe he's mocking me because he has someone who loves him and I dont...
"Why would I want him back?" I think I was kinda bitter when I said that, he flinched a little. His eyes have tears in them. Oh god, he can't start crying again!
"Because you're miserable without him."
Scince when does he care...and...damn, am I really that obvious? "Who says I'm miserable? And who says I love Bakura?" Shit. Didn't mean to say that.
He acted as though he didn't hear that comment. "The look in you're eyes. The way you've been acting. It's like the world is falling appart. I act as though I can't see what you do to yourself...But I don't want to draw unnecessary atention towards you." Smart kid. Guess he doesn't want to die. "You used to be so happy...untill...my yami banished him...I'm so sorry I couldn't stop him."
I can't think of anything to say that wouldn't make the situation more awkward.
"Also...I need his help..."
Figures, there has to be a twist. "We both know that Bakura won't help...him." I don't even want to say his yami's name. At the mention, he shrinks back a little. Odd.
"N-no...not him...actually..." He's trying to whisper something to me. Who's gonna hear us while we're up here! "The thing is...I need your help to get rid of him."
Uh huh, right. Like Bakura would-...What!
"I-I'm scared Ryou...If he gets any worse I think he'll kill me." Yuugi said timidly. He caught my attention.
I guess sometimes the happiest couple can be a disaster in the making behind closed doors. Just as the oddest couple can live happily ever after.
"I'm pretty sure I can help you bring him back from the shadow realm...But you need to trust me. I know you'll never be happy again without him. And...I was hoping...that maybe you and I could be friends again." He's stuttering and pausing a lot. I think I understand what he's saying...but I don't think I can trust him completely.
"Ok." I say quietly, not able to watch him get all teary again. "But I want to know...why can't you find help in your other friends?"
He's quiet. I've never seen him so upset. Does he really hide his emotions with happiness as I do with silence? "They all like him better. He's cool, smart, and has a story to go with. As for me, I have nothing. I probably am nothing..."
Something wet touches my hand. Oh, no, I am not crying! It must be starting to rain. Yeah, that's it! It's raining. I'm not allowed to give in, he's toying with me!
"Ryou?" I think I'm hugging him now. What's wrong with me! Why am I showing him weakness! Now he knows what to use against me!
"Please..." Great, I've lost controll of my mouth. "All I want is Bakura, He's all I've ever wanted, please give him back."
How am I letting myself do this! My mind is screaming that it's all a game being played by the King of Games, But Yuugi seems so sincere. He's hugging me back, and for some reason, I'm seeing a dim light at the end of the dark tunnel that I've been walking for what feels like eternity-
"Yuugi! Hey, Yug! You forgot the puzzle at my house!" Jou is blocking the light from my view with his big stupid ass head.
I've never seen a shrimp move so quick. He pulled away from me in a split second. "I'm sorry, Ryou. I have to go! I-I'll call you." Heh. The phone hasn't rang in so long that it'll probably cough instead of ring. "Ja ne!" He smiled at me. And for some reason, I smiled back.
I watched him from above as he met his friends. "Why are you hanging out with that psycho path?" I heard one of them ask.
"He needed to talk to me about his stupid emo drama. I decided to listen." Emo drama!
"Wow! You're such a nice person Yuugi! Now let me talk to Yami!" Yuugi looked back at me before he turned into the ancient ruler of egypt.
I walked to the door, down the steps, and back into my appartment. As I sat down on the couch, I felt...relieved in a way. And I suddenly felt tired...and hungry...and my wrists hurt like hell.
I lay my head on the back of the couch, sleep attacking me and holding my eyelids shut. And as I drifted into a deep sleep for the first time in forever, I couldn't help but wonder,
How the hell did he do that!
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Woah, a turning point. Whaddaya think?
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